Chapter 6

Jan’s POV

“Bro, she’s so beautiful. She’s literally like an angel” I was lost in thoughts until I heard Fred ask. Fred is one of my very few friends. He’s from a very rich family but his father decided to cut him off in order for him to stop playing and be serious in his life. “Who are you talking about?” I wasn’t paying attention to him at all. All what I was thinking about was the conversation between me and Sarah earlier. She has gone out since then and didn’t come back. I guess she went to have her lunch. “The girl I met outside the company. She’s so pretty and cute” he said with a smile.

“Oh my god, Mr. Fred the player is daydreaming about a girl. Does she work here?” I asked very curious who the girl who attracted his attention. Don’t get me wrong but Fred is known as a player and all the girls in the world come to him but I haven’t ever seen him talk about a girl like that. “I don’t know man. She is just so pretty that..” before he can continue his talk a knock on the door of my office interrupted as. She must be Sarah. “Come in” I said. She entered the office and when Fred saw her, he was surprised as if they knew each other from before.

“We meet again” Fred said smiling. They definitely know each other.

“Hi Fred” Sarah replied smiling as well.

“Do you guys know each other?” I asked while obviously the answer is right in front of me. “We met outside the company a while ago” Sarah replied. Somehow her reply made me slightly angry as right now I figured out that she’s the girl Fred was daydreaming about. Of course, she’s beautiful, pretty and everything Fred has said about her earlier. Thinking about any men talking about her like that makes me very jealous. Even back then when we were together, I used to be jealous from any boy talked to her but she always told me that there’s only one man in her heart which was me. ‘Was’ Jan. ‘Was’. She doesn’t love you anymore she made it clear 3 years ago. “So, are you Jan’s assistant?” I heard Fred ask. Of course, she didn’t tell him who she really was. Sarah never used her family’s name while introducing herself. She never wanted to tell people who she really was because she wanted people to like her as her not because of her family’s wealth and fame. That’s something I love about her. Loved something I loved about her. I don’t care anymore. I knew if she said her last name Fred would know that she’s ‘Sarah’. He knows that I have history with the youngest Yorkan’s granddaughter.

“Umm. Yes I am” She said smiling. I felt a pang of jealousy in my heart. She didn’t smile this smile to me since she came back. All I had is either her straight face during work or her angry face when we fought earlier.

“What happened to Isaac?” Fred directed the question to me.

“I needed someone with him as the company is getting bigger and I didn’t want him to have all the work alone” I answered.

“That’s very considerate of you” Fred said. “Okay Jan I better go now. I will talk to you later man” he then said and returned to Sarah. “Nice to meet you again Sarah. We will be seeing each other a lot from now on” he said smiling. Shit. Why did I agree that he can work in this company again? Yes, because he’s my friend.

“Nice to meet you too Fred. I guess you got the job” she said laughing a bit.

“It’s kind of hard to not have the job when my friend is the CEO” he winked and she blushed. She has FUCKING BLUSHED. What the hell? They’re flirting right in front of me and I am going to burn from anger. “Stop flirting with my assistant and get going. Didn’t you say that you have to go?” I asked harshly.

“Well, it’s a little bit hard not to flirt with the assistant when the assistant is cute” he said. “Anyways, I really have to go now. Bye Sarah” he said heading to the door. “Bye Fred” she said laughing while Fred went out.

“What the hell was that?” I asked angrily.

“What?” she asked as if what has just happened was something normal.

“You were flirting with my friend right in front of me” I yelled. It’s the first time ever that I yelled at her.

“So? I’m free to flirt with anyone I want” she then paused “Wait. Are you jealous?” she asked. Her question caught me off guard. “No!” I said shouting.

“You know you’re a terrible liar right?” she asked smiling sarcastically. She always told that. She told me that my eyes prove it.

“I am not lying” I said while closing the distance between us and staring into her eyes. I am so close to her that I feel her breathing. Her scent is amazing that I want to embrace her and never let her go. My heart is beating really fast I can hear and I think she also can hear it beating. Her blue eyes are like the ocean you drown in their beauty. I feel the urge to kiss her. I really want to kiss her. I closed my eyes and I can feel her close her eyes too. I leaned in slowly and when my lips met hers, I felt like I am in heaven. I pulled her closer to me and she raised her hands to my hair. I kissed her passionately. God, I missed her soft lips. I missed her kisses. I missed everything. A flow of emotions hit me. Oh my god, I still love her. I haven’t forgotten about her. What am I doing right now? She realized it first as she opened her eyes and pushed me away from her. What the hell did I do?

“Sorry I didn’t know what I was doing” I said. She then looked at me.

“It’s okay. It was both our faults but we shouldn’t do this again. This isn’t right” she said looking away. I felt pain in my heart. Kissing me isn’t right? I felt rage build through me.

“Yes! It isn’t right!” I shouted. I was frustrated. I was beyond angry.

“Why are you shouting? You and I know that we shouldn’t be kissing each other” she shouted back. I’m glad that the offices in this company have thick walls and penetrate noise.

“As if I want to kiss you so much” I laughed sarcastically.

“That’s what I am talking about. You didn’t want to kiss me neither am I. It was a moment of weakness. It happens” she said shattering my heart again. I wanted to kiss her but she didn’t want to kiss me. To her it was a moment of weakness? She didn’t even feel the passion in this kiss? I feel like my heart is bleeding right now.

“Yes. It happens” I said while going back to my desk. “Let’s get back to work after all this is why you’re here in the first place”