The first he had felt in the kiss with Jane was absent but Lisa was warm all the same. Well enough to stir a certain need in him that Jane had started.He didn’t want to let his mind wander because he knew he would think then that Jane was currently in her lover’s arms, being held, touched, and the worst of it all was- that lover wasn’t Nathan.Instead of letting the sudden pang of hurt he felt consume him, he deepened the kiss with Lisa, pulling her even closer so there wasn’t an atom of space between them. Hands roaming her grabbed her ass and pulled her up to him.Lisa wasn’t one to complain if she was being kissed like this. She knew that she wasn’t who he wanted to be with, but she was the one he came back to and that was all that mattered.When she had flown to the resort for the weekend while sporting a fresh heartbreak she didn’t think she’ll see someone as hot as the man currently groping her.And the icing on the cake? He looked exactly like her Lucas. When she had seen thos
Her words hammered in his head and heart. Lisa could be right that he was scared of his feelings, maybe deep down he really feared that it would end up destroying them both because he had the ability of blowing things out of proportion.“I guess you can say that,” he admitted which surprised them both. “I’m afraid that I’ll let my feelings take over and ruin us both like I previously did. I think it’ll always be a constant fear, especially with that nagging voice at one corner of my mind.”Lisa wanted to chastise him. Did he not see the great guy that she currently saw in front of her.She wished she could throw him up and let him fall head first to the floor if that is what it will take for him to realize how precious he truly was.Taking his hand she squeezed it. “I’ve not know you a long time so I’ll understand if you don’t trust my judgement but all I can say is this, you’re awesome Nathan, you’re hot. And to top it all you’re a good person. It might not seem like that to you at t
Lisa was the first to wake up, and out of sheer habit she placed a kiss on Nathan’s cheek and stood up for a stretch. Now that the alcohol in her system was long gone her head was clearer now.She had spent the night with a stranger that looked exactly like her ex lover. The thought alone should make her sick but instead she revved in the joy it gave her. She had somehow gotten her lover back even if it wasn’t the exact one that she had met in the beginning.All that didn’t matter if they made her feel the same. She chuckled silently to herself as she began to pick up their glasses and empty bottle of wine. It must be the afterglow of their night together that had her light on her feet, or she could blame it on the remnants of wine that was probably still on her system. “This vacation might be the best thing yet,” she muttered to herself as she rinsed off the glasses. She picked their clothes off the floor and was about dumping them in the laundry bag when the doorbell rang. Maki
Breakfast was supposed to be a private affair with everyone he cared about, but as Damien saw the plus one hanging off Nathan’s arm he knew there was bound to be trouble.Despite Lauren’s warning to stay off their situation Damien didn’t want to stay at the sidelines and watch his best friend ruin a relationship that was bound form between him and Jane.It was easy to deny his feelings but Damien knew better for he had been in those shoes before. The way Nathan had sprang off when Jane joined them on the beach with her brother. Nathan was clearly losing his touch if he couldn’t see that Jane was only trying to make him jealous whilst using her brother, it was epic fail because anyone looking close enough could sense the sibling bond between them. They acted nothin like lovers.Damien blamed Nathan’s lack of judgement on his feelings, he was often too blinded by it.It hurt to leave the smile on his face plastered there but he managed anyway. “Hello dear,” he said and shook Lisa’s ha
It was a moment of silence for the both men. It allowed them to realize so much things had been left unsaid between them which had ultimately led to the havoc that had brewed between them. Damien regretted it deeply that he hadn’t realized how Nathan had felt for Lauren earlier. If he had he might have backed off and let him have an equal chance with her.But looking at her and Harry from the corner of his eye he realized he wouldn’t give them up now, not for anyone or anything. “You should have talked to me about it,” he said to Nathan. “That you loved Lauren, you should have told me.”A humorless laughter falls from Nathan’s lips. “Let’s be honest Damien, you would have punched me straight in the face. The words will barely be out of my mouth before you’ll punch them back in.”“I don’t think I was terrible,” Damien said. “I promise I would have understood,” he insisted.“Not with the way you loved her, you were totally smitten. I’m not sure you would have let me see another name.”
Everything had seemed easy to do. Make Jane jealous and have her running back to him, if only he knew things never went as simply as that. It wasn’t a walk in the park.No, it wasn’t that he didn’t like Lisa, he had liked her enough to spend the night with her. That was where their relationship should have stopped.But it obviously hasn’t. She had followed him back to his room after Jane had left the pool side with Jonas much to Nathan’s disappointment. He had been sure her contact with Lisa had bothered her but she had left with not a single bother on her face and it worried him.Now he was stuck with Lisa who was currently going over her idea on how to make Jane jealous and ultimately win her back.“I’m telling you she was ready to rip my head off,” Lisa continued, oblivious to the turmoil that was currently making its way to the pit of Nathan’s stomach. “A little move shove and she’ll be falling straight back into your arms. You just have to make sure you don’t fuck it up then.” Li
Lisa could breathe out in relief now that Jane was gone. And if she read the look on her face correctly, Jane wouldn’t be coming back at all. It was annoying that Nathan kept staring even as she disappeared down the hallway way, still rooted to the very spot she had left him in. “Why do I feel like I lost the game even before it began?” Nathan muttered to himself. But that wasn’t what concerned Lisa, if her assumption was right then she had already warn this game between her and Jenny.The girl was heartbroken, Lisa saw that much. She could only hope that it was deep enough for her not to come around anymore.Mine. She put an arm on his chest but Nathan was too worried about Jane to think anything of it. He stared in the space she once stood.“Do you think I should go after her? She must have wanted to talk about us.” Nathan turned slightly to Lisa, who to him seemed like she was some sort of relationship expert.Nathan has never dated, his only relationship if he could call it that
It was a very long time since Nathan had a peaceful sleep where he wasn’t being chase by an unknown man or his clones that had gone out of control. He exhaled deeply and snuggled closer to Lisa whose arms were tightly holding onto him. Like she was afraid he’d slip out before she would wake up. Truth was that he wasn’t ready to go yet. He was afraid that once his eyes opened he would be thrust back into his not so appealing reality.So he waited, kept his eyes shut and tried to match his breathing with Lisa’s. It gave him something to do until she woke up. When he could no longer bear it his eyes slipped open. The first thing he saw was Lisa’s piercing eyes as she lifted them to him. Talk about being I’m sync with one another. He watched her instead of speaking. He needed to know what she felt about what they just shared and how much of it he was willing to admit himself.If she wanted them to put it behind them then he wouldn’t object, beside they didn’t know much about one anothe
Jenny is still in bed sleeping when I finally get up. Drew left a few minutes ago with the drive, he’s going to turn Father in. He had insisted I remain at home with Jenny while he handles it.While I trust Drew fully, I can’t help the feeling of unease that has taken root in my stomach. The door bell rings on my way downstairs to figure out what Jenny will eat when she wakes up.I open the door. “Did you forget something?”When there’s no answer from Drew I look up and realize he’s not the one at the door. It’s Daisy.“Hey, come in,” I tell her, moving to the kitchen. Does she have the mother thing that alerted her that I’m taking her child away? I pull out a bottle of liquor from stash, carrying a glass with it. If I can get her tipsy enough she wouldn’t even worry about Jenny, and we can all be on our way.Besides it’s not like she cared enough for Jenny, I don’t even want to imagine where she’s going to leave her once I’m up and gone.That seals my decision to have Jenny come with
My face is pressed to the window the entire home. I realize how much I’ve missed home when we pull into the driveway.It has become some sort of sanctuary for me, a place where I can have peace and love. Drew helps me out of the car, holding my hand as he leads me to the door.The minute he opens the door Jenny comes running towards me, like she has been waiting the entire time. She hugs my waist like her life depends on it. I put my hand around her shoulders and keep her close to me.“Are you alright mummy?” she asks softly, gazing at me with her round cute eyes.I push her hair away from her face. “I’m alright princess, did you miss me?”It was a silly question to ask because her answer could be seen from miles away.“Of course I did,” she says with a pout. “I missed Jakey too, how is he?”I rub the little one so he does not feel excluded from our conversation. “He’s alright, he misses you too,” I tell her. That sits good with her because she beams up at me and then looks at my stom
My breath slows down as I watch him fall to the floor with a thud. In a minute I’m sprinting to his side and shaking him to wake up.I look around but there’s no one to help me. Taking his face in my hands I shake him again. “Drew! Wake up! Have you had so much to drink?” I ask him despite knowing he can’t hear him.Bending towards him I smell his breath, it was clear. Then why would- The wine, that was the last thing I saw him take, and he was being weird about it.Could the wine have been- I’m too afraid to admit what my brain already knew. He must’ve know too that the wine was poisoned and he readily took it from me and drank. That was why father looked furious.Uh Oh, Father knows.I look back to the door, half expecting Father to walk through it. I look back to Drew he was already turning a little too pale.“Why did you have to drink it?” I ask him, exasperated. “You should have thrown it away,” I cry.I don’t think I’ve ever felt this helpless before. My purse is in there with J
There’s no a single explanation my mind can conjure for what happened. Every time I think I have it all figured out, another wall comes crashing into me.Does he not want to return because of me? Then what of Jenny? She misses him and he clearly misses her too, seeing how he risked coming to the park just to get a glimpse of her.My head is beginning to ache and the doubt that it was actually him begin to slip into the cracks of my mind.Drew could be right and I was just imagining him. If that was the case then my mind is daring very vivid, because the longing and worry I saw in his eyes couldn’t have been easily conjured with so much emotion attached to them.My entire body trembles as I exhale. In all of this I’m glad I reacted on time to my fall, otherwise Jakey could’ve been hurt and all for nothing at that. Keeping him means so much to me than going after what could possibly be Don’s look alike.I massage my forehead, the discomfort in there bordering on being unbearable. The As
I don’t come downstairs until the doorbell rings. I’ve done a pretty good job of avoiding Jenny and now I was going to risk running into her.The entire house is quiet when I come down, she must be taking a nap. For some reason I tiptoe to the door and stifle a startle when I open the door to a rather grumpy looking Dr. Shelby.All since I’ve know him, he’s always smiling, patient. There was this airiness that surrounded him, it always made you feel at ease with him. But all that is left now are deep frown lines of his face and I hate to be the reason for it.“How did you think drinking while being pregnant was a good idea?” he asks the moment he steps past the threshold. “Why keep a child you’re not going to take proper care of?”My breath seizes in my lung. With a slight tilt to my head I study his expression. His eyes are accusing as the glares at me. This right here is not Dr. Shelby. Someone has taken him and put in place this angry version that I’m not used to.If anything I fee
It’s my first day as Cassie. Like I think she does every morning, I’m sitting in front of the dresser and struggling to put on makeup.I don’t know how Cassie used to do it, the perfect flawless look she always had whenever I saw her.I can’t even tell which comes first, I’m holding a small bottle that has foundation written on it but I have no idea how to get it on my face.How they hell was she able to use all this stuff? I throw the brush in front of me on the floor. At this rate I’m never going to leave the house.I hear Drew as he comes into the room. “What’s the matter?” he asks.I frown when I turn and see him with only a towel wrapped around his waist.“Carrie?”That brings my attention back to him. I force my gaze back up and glare at him. “I told you to call me Cassie, we can’t have you slipping up like this when we leave the house.”He scratches his chin lightly. “How about I give you a pet name, it’s only natural since we’re supposed to be married. It feels awkward calling
Everyday that I see the sun rise is torture to my soul. Every morning that I wake up without Don by my side tears my heart into a million pieces.I don’t know where life ends and where death starts. They’ve both become the same to me. It has made me prisoner in this dark perilous place called my mind. I sit by the window every night and wait for the morning never breaks, but that even is too much to ask.This is my own hell. This is my own home.There’s nothing on the news about the explosion. If I hadn’t been there myself I wouldn’t even believe that it happened.No bodies have been found. That is both my hope and my nightmare. Two long months of emptiness and guilt, that is my punishment.What if he’s really gone? What if he didn’t survive? No one would be alive and stay hidden for that long. What if he’s out there looking for me?I deflate at that. The chances are unlikely, especially after the way we parted. I should have held onto him a little longer, laced his fingers with mine
I light a cigar immediately as I enter the elevator and puff with a sigh. Home is a place where everyone longs to be. A sanctuary, some would say but it isn’t the same for me. It’s the last place I want to be.I loosen my tie as I get into the car. “Take the longer route,” I tell my driver when he gets in. There’s a hum and I know he heard me. Like every other employee he knows not to speak to me because there was no telling what my reaction would be. To them, I'm the hot-headed son with a short temper. It looks like only Karl didn’t get the memo after he was hired.Now that my mind has wandered back to him, I pull out my phone and put a call through to HR. When Thelma connects the call, I ask her to send me all the files on Karl and everything he submitted during his employment process. It would be on my desk first thing in the morning.I take another puff as the car rolls down the road. It’s going at a perfect pace for me. Not slow but also not fast enough to get me home earlier tha
It’s been five minutes since I broke into my house and another two since I made it up the stairs to my bedroom.The only sound I hear as I move through the house is my heavy breathing. I half expect someone to jump out of the shadows but there’s no one.I stand still in front of my door, my hand in the air, mid-way to the knob. I’m not sure what to expect after ten years. Did they move my things out or did they simply ignore the room like they always ignored me?The silence drowns out my thoughts as I recall what I’m here for. Get the drive and be gone before anyone comes back.With a gulp, I push the door open and switch on the lights. When my eyes adjust to the room I see that everything is exactly where it used to be. My favorite teddy bear that Thomas bought me when I was five is still lying against the side of my bed. Even my books are still all over the floor from when Cassie barged into my room the day before our last birthday together and demanded that I give her my toys to pl