Anyway, I didn't bothered looking back at my lady in waiting and instead, I directly walked through the Parlor room where I can meet him separately
"Calix? Thank you for staying. Let's have a talk now" As soon as I entered the room, I saw Calix standing beside the window. He was gazing outside calmly. He looks so marvelous that I had no choice but to doubt whether I am seeing things right or not.
'It's not time for me to get distracted by his appearance'
Fortunately, I was able to speak properly.
"How about a sit?" I asked when I saw that he doesn't have the plan to sit at all.
'He's really mad'
His expressions is much more darker than usual and I can see how his forehead is forming a frown.
Anyway, when he heard what I had said, he immediately sat wjile looking at me intently. It's kind of uncomfortable but I have to endure as much as I can
There, I started speaking
"I'm so sorry for what happened a while ago. It was my
After saying those words, he stand and looled at me coldly. Somehow, that eyes is not familiar. It's the eyes that he hadn't use eversince when we were kids. But I.. I was supposed to be used by that eyes because I know that in the future, he can kill me anytime.So why? Why the hell do I feel like my heart is being tightened? Even breathing.. How am I suppsosed to handle the future if I can't bare this simple stare.Still looking into me, he stand and walked through the door.'He's leaving already but seriously, I can't say anything because I feel like the moment I start speaking, I will start crying and I donvt want that. I don't want him to see me in that hopeless state'Infront of the door, he held the handle but before opening it, he glanced at me and said," I will not force myself into you. Don't worry, from now on I will start distancing myself from you and about that girl, I want to kill her now but for you, I will jold back myself f
"Are you alright your highness?" my lady in waiting askedI am now currently in my room after hours of crying at the parlor room. Fortunately, as soon as I stopped crying my lady in waiting went inside immediately to check on me since everyone are worried.With her was a hat so that I won't be embarassed when I walk outside through my bedroom. I was lucky.At the very least, I was able to walk outside without any shame at all."No, I am fine" I answered back while smiling faintly."Then, I'll leave nos since it's already time for your sleep your highnes" she hesitated before speaking these words and left my bedroom.With me crying so hard, I didn't even noticed the time.I don't know it's just really ridiculous for me how I convinces myaelf that I am always ready to be hated by him or even be killed tgat's why I fooled myaelf that i didn't gad any attachment with him as well.'How can I be a hypocrite?'I loo
A week passed and by that span of time, we didn't get o see each other nor even sent a letter. Although of course, I busied myself because I want to forget everything and just focus on my sole survival but today, it's different. We are facing each otherAlthoigh it is indeed not as close as before, we are still by each other's grasp. Why? It's because it's now the ceremony of their departure toward the drgaon whom they need to kill. Dad is beside me while Calix and other knights are infront of us.Of course, I avoided his eyes as well as he. We didn't even spoke with each other"Do well for the empire" Dad said with a loud voice while the kmights just chestd and promised their families that they will come back alive. Some were crying so hard. Some were enthusiastic while the remaining are just standing still like as if they were forced into this. Looking at them, it seems like they are already ready to leaveI kind of felt bad for all of them
"Duke, here's the documents that you asked for" My aide said while leaving a pile of papers on my table. "Leave now"As soon as my aide left, I scanned the documents immeduately. It is about the corruption of baron Lydie in my own land so I had to solve this matter as soon as possible but as I read through everything, I remembered the face of Lalaine six days ago.She looks somewhat sad and hurt? I don't know I can't figure it out. I have been trying everything I could to know what that face means but no matter how much I think about it, there's just really no way that she's hurt because in the first place, it's her who's trying to distance herseld from me so why is she making that face when I said that I will do the same?"I can't concentrate again, if not for that girl, we wouldn't have fought. Fvck it!"Just when I just had confessed, things got even messier.I have been trying to hold myself back fro
Leaving the palace, we spent a week to go this certain forest where the dragon is currently residing at. Yes, that took so much time which is to be expected since we're inly using a horse as an official transportation. Actually, we can use the ship as well if needed but since there's too many knights, wizards we can't use it.In the end, only the emperor will use that since it will be dangerous for him to have a journey with us together despite of being so powerful since anytime, his life can be endangered. Actually, supposed to be, the emperor won't be coming with us here but since we need to.lower the risk an dfinish this as soon as we can, we came to a decision to be accompanied with him.'This is for me to see Lalaine immediately'Yes, this is for her so I definitely have to make this faster.I looked around the root of the mountain only to see a couple of knights staring everywhere as well. Since we're not yet on the real forest, the surrounding isnv
The next day, we scouted the area first to make sure that there's no dangerous monster or beast around the forest. It'll be bad if there will be an another one that we have to deal while fighting the dragon so for now, we're focused on eliminating small monsters around the forest. That way, there will no longer have a disturbanceSince the forest is not that wide anyway, we immediately finished the scouting by lunch so after eating, we decided to start climbing now and do the sealing part where a half of wizards had to surround the dragon and do the defensive wall but stronger.This was the strategy that Lalaine suggested and I can see it's effectivity even though I am just still imagining it. There, we persistently walked upeard until we finally reached where the dragon is currently residing. Just like what Lalaine said, we left a lot of distance with the dragon to.make sure that we will mot be detected by it uaing mana"Wizard, position yourself. Again, mainta
Finally inside the barrier, we once again hid ourselves at the blind spot of thbe dragon and nervously breathed hard. As of now, we're currently unaware whether the dragon is already aware that we're finally inside but regardless, we have to be really careful because now that he can no longer use his eyes, he will use mana to detect everything within his surrounding"Should we start slicing his neck--" I said but before I even finished speaking, I unconciously turned my head to my side only to see that the dragon who was facing the other way just a while ago is now facing us."Wahh!!" The dragon growled like as if he can spot where we really are. Slowly, he gasped a lot of air. With that, we realized one thing and that is, this dragon is about to breathefire. Of course, all of us hastily moved to a different direction to avoid it.Just then, a heat coated around the barrier so I looked around to see if there's anyone hurt. Unfortunately, there
"Let's go outside now! And report how much you have cut outside!" Again, a loud voice resonated around the barrier the same time as the dragon's cry out of our painful cut. Hearing this, we ran to the outside.'This is bad, I had juat cut a half of the leg so how will I be able to cut it's neck that is much thicker than that'Seems like I'll have to stay here longer than what I intended.As soon as everyone left the barrier, we reported."we were able to cut the 28% of it's leg your majesty""That's weak both of you. I can't believe that that's the work of a two aura knights. What about you two" He said while frowning as he turn his head toward the next two who was incharged to the other leg"Around 32% your majesty""What did Lalaine saw in your talents? How come you're this weak?""I cut it's half so what about you your highness" I intervened and looked at him closely"I almost cut it all, around 83%"