"If things goes this way, my life will be ruined" I uttered unintentionalky. I was supposed to say to to mysekf without speaking but because of my clouded my mind, I said it accidentally. In result, the maids who are currently working looked at me curiously. They are probably wondering what happened for me to speak such words and in a fuerce way at that.
"Your highness? Are you alright?" Again, the same maid asked me this question. She have a worried look on her this time as well. I am glad that she's worried but rather than feeling touched by her actions, I felt myself being ashamed. Of course, as she do that, I can't help but just smile. After all, I feel embarassed at what I suddenly did.
"Yes, don't worry. I'm really fine. I just spoke that way to wake myself up more" Fortubately, it seems like she bought my lie. Anyway, hearing my answer, they again went back to work. As of now, they are preparing my breakfast at my table here in my room. As they move hastil
As I bath through my bathroom, I once again told my maids and lady in waiting to leave me alone here for now. I want to clear my mind as much as I can today so tomorrow, I can work again. Along with my favourite scent which is really relaxing like I have always said, the bath water was also heated well. Just enough to make me feek comfortable and better.No matter how much I think of it, this time is the best to clear all my thoughts. Still naked and drenched in water, I rested my back at the sude of the big bath tub. There, the ceiling which has an alluring design came into my view. It has a mix gold in it just like some of the walls in my room and it looks good based on my taste. Seeing the sight, I closed my eyes. As I do that, the image of a someone came into me.Calix.Calix.Calix.The memory of him confessing and wearing a magnificient white suit suited him well along with the boquet on his hands. I am bothered by him. Really, this always ha
With those thoughts, I finished bathing immediately and ordered my servant to get me an ink and a paper to write a summon letter to the heroine's house and to Calix."Here it is your highness" As my lady in waiting said these words, he handed me a couple of papers with a royal crest on it along the ink. She must have figured out that I will writr a letter that's why she gave the paper with a royal crest. As you know, letters in this world must have it's own crest before delivering it to the receiver. I don't know why but it is especially needed for nobles and imperial family so that the sender cab be recognized immediately"Thank you" I said then held the pen. I was about to write on it but I suddenky hesitated. Personally, I don't know why I hesitated but it's not like I can just do nothing here aside from overthinking things. There, again i started writing."Good day viscount, this is the crown princess and I'd like to summon Angelina to the palace" I'd
As minutes passed, I heard about my servant that Calix will go at the time that I asked him to meet. Thatvs the same with Angelina of course. Since I am from the imperial family and the next ruler, her father must have pushed her to come to make a connection.'With this, the first step of my plan is done'Of course, I still have a bad feeling about this solution. Yes, my mind is still against of this one but what can I do? No matter how much I rack my brain, I can't think of anything that can solve Calix's confession.'I just have to make his feeling for me to fade then leave him alone with the heroine so that their relationship will continue to prosper. That way, my survival and life will be secured and I won't have to worry about this world getting ruinedJust then.. Hours passed and it's now close to twonin the afternoon. That being said, I asked my lady in waiting to fix ny appearance first to show my presentable self later to the two of them. A
Finishing my preparation, I stand still for a moment before ordering my lady in waiting to get us some deserts and tea for our little tea party. Of course, she immediately mived while I walked toward my garden slowly.Yes, slowly.Some are probably wondering why I am walking slower than usual. As you know, I believe that I should give them as much as many time to get to know each other before finally arriving there and hreeting the both of them.'I just wish that both of them will look at each other's eyes the same way as in the novel'Obviously, I can't expect like a good result for this short span of time but I just hope that they will atleast do some small talk. After all, they are still the one who's fated to be each other so wouldn't it be strange if the6 just awkwardly seat on one table without even doing some small chat aside from a greeting?Minutes after walking. i dinally reached the garden where a fancy table along with sweet teas and de
Just like that, they left us hanging. Of course, I wanted to go after him but I can't just leave Angelina here who's about to cry. Instead, I just saud some words to him"Calix, can you not leave and stay at my palace for now? Let's have a talk later. Thanks""haa..." I sighed right after he turned back his head to me without even responding. He's really madI just hope that he'll stay here for now. I need to atleast say something to him'Why did I not even think of how Calix will react once a complete stranger calls him by name? I'm so stupid. How come the thought of him getting didn't even past my mind.'No, maybe because I have this mindset that no matter what happens, he will never get mad at it as long as it's the heroine'Thanks to my clumsiness, their favorability with each other dropped. Now, it will be became harder to get them close.I bet that this incident will stay at their mind forever. After all, this is tbeir fir
Anyway, I didn't bothered looking back at my lady in waiting and instead, I directly walked through the Parlor room where I can meet him separately"Calix? Thank you for staying. Let's have a talk now" As soon as I entered the room, I saw Calix standing beside the window. He was gazing outside calmly. He looks so marvelous that I had no choice but to doubt whether I am seeing things right or not.'It's not time for me to get distracted by his appearance'Fortunately, I was able to speak properly."How about a sit?" I asked when I saw that he doesn't have the plan to sit at all.'He's really mad'His expressions is much more darker than usual and I can see how his forehead is forming a frown.Anyway, when he heard what I had said, he immediately sat wjile looking at me intently. It's kind of uncomfortable but I have to endure as much as I canThere, I started speaking"I'm so sorry for what happened a while ago. It was my
After saying those words, he stand and looled at me coldly. Somehow, that eyes is not familiar. It's the eyes that he hadn't use eversince when we were kids. But I.. I was supposed to be used by that eyes because I know that in the future, he can kill me anytime.So why? Why the hell do I feel like my heart is being tightened? Even breathing.. How am I suppsosed to handle the future if I can't bare this simple stare.Still looking into me, he stand and walked through the door.'He's leaving already but seriously, I can't say anything because I feel like the moment I start speaking, I will start crying and I donvt want that. I don't want him to see me in that hopeless state'Infront of the door, he held the handle but before opening it, he glanced at me and said," I will not force myself into you. Don't worry, from now on I will start distancing myself from you and about that girl, I want to kill her now but for you, I will jold back myself f
"Are you alright your highness?" my lady in waiting askedI am now currently in my room after hours of crying at the parlor room. Fortunately, as soon as I stopped crying my lady in waiting went inside immediately to check on me since everyone are worried.With her was a hat so that I won't be embarassed when I walk outside through my bedroom. I was lucky.At the very least, I was able to walk outside without any shame at all."No, I am fine" I answered back while smiling faintly."Then, I'll leave nos since it's already time for your sleep your highnes" she hesitated before speaking these words and left my bedroom.With me crying so hard, I didn't even noticed the time.I don't know it's just really ridiculous for me how I convinces myaelf that I am always ready to be hated by him or even be killed tgat's why I fooled myaelf that i didn't gad any attachment with him as well.'How can I be a hypocrite?'I loo