Chapter Four
I punched furiously for the millionth time today; I changed my stance panting, all my body was covered in sweat, feeling hot and exhausted, but still, I didn’t let that stop me. Even though my knuckles were ripped open and bleeding but I ignored the pain.
Physical pain is nothing, but emotional is much worse because I hate feelings, being fragile and the worst of all is being helpless.
I punched again, aggressively. The bunching bag rattled under the force. No one hurts my family and that stupid fucker, Giovanni and his assholes, crossed the line. After trying to, or almost killing me, they gain the confidence to mess with my business.
I don’t give a shit about that; it was like your brat son is making some mess to gain your attention, but yesterday they went insane when they killed two of my men working at one of my clubs.
“Woah, easy man. What did the poor punching bag do to you?” Leo entered the gym with a big concerned frown on his face.
“Gab, it’s been almost five hours since you’ve been here. You need to get some rest. Aren’t we going to Vegas after a couple of hours for that business meeting?“ He approached me with careful steps, afraid of me snapping at him.
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, trying to calm my erratic heart. Sweat drops traveled from my forehead to my naked torso, hot and sizzling, feeding my burning rage more and more.
I turned to face Leo’s concerned eyes clenching and unclenching my fists. Whatever I try to do, I can’t forget the scene of the lifeless bodies of my men.
Two of my family members were brutally slaughtered. Their limps were cut. The blood was everywhere and the look on their faces was agonizing.
“You think this is a joke? Two of my men were killed in my club under my nose without a reason. I want that fucker dead Leonidas and I’ll with my own hands, I’ll cut his limbs agonizingly slowly with a dull blade and after that, I’ll burn him fuckin alive. No one touches my family and lives, Leo, NO ONE.“ I said harshly, growling, walking to him.
The rage in me was eating my own soul and the ashes choking me.
Leo’s nostrils flared as he took his jacket and shirt off.
“Pathetic.” He mumbled, then punched me so hard that I kneeled.
“You’re here moping like a fuckin five years old baby, punching the poor thing like a weak man. C’mon Gab, show me what you got, but I guess it’s pathetic like you because Giovanni’s men kicked your ass.”
I know what he was doing and why he’s using that mocking tone with me. But right now I wanted blood. It doesn’t matter whose, mine, his, or anyone else.
The beast in me demanded to be fed, needed something to patch its wounded pride, and needed some retribution.
With a mighty snarl, I charged and punched Leo’s jaw. The sound of crack didn’t make me wince, it only made my beast ask for more. I want more... More.....MORE......
“Yes, that’s it Cerberus unleash your beast, c’mon hit me,” Leo said, avoiding another low kick and again throwing me on the floor on my back.
My friend might look like an ordinary man, but don’t let his appearance fool you.
Though he has lean muscles, he’s a mighty assassin. He has the strength of a bull and before you can even blink, he will slit your throat with one swift move. His father was my father’s second in command. Don’t underestimate him, period.
After an hour of beating the crap out of each other, we lay on our backs panting.
“Feeling better bro?” He asked, patting my sweaty chest.
“Gab, it’s not your fault these men got killed.”
I closed my eyes, and after a while, I replied.
“They were killed in my territory, Leo, under my nose. That fucker killed my family in my own fuckin’ house. I’m going nuts Leo, their blood is on my hands. I’m the one that killed them. It’s my fault. I’m the one that is supposed to protect them. You all are my responsibility “
“Then don’t stay here and pity yourself, do something to get revenge. You’re not a weak and pathetic man Gabriel. you’re Cerberus, the Alpha dog, the scary beast, you owe them that.” he said growling in my face furiously.
I closed my eyes again to regain some of my composure. He was right, but I can’t act without the factions. I need to ask for a hearing; the code demands it.
He stood up and offered his hand; I took it and did the same.
“C’mon, go and clean up. We need to go to our Vegas meeting, and for the love of god take Theo with you this time. He’s supposed to be your freaking bodyguard.“ Leo huffed.
I went to my room and threw the sweatpants I was wearing in the hamper, and started my shower. The hot water cascaded down my body, massaging my worn muscles. After a couple of minutes, the sourness started to fade, and I relaxed. I need to think carefully; I need to protect my family; I need to kill GIOVANNI.
I chose one of my black suits, and while I was wearing my dress shirt, a knock interrupted me.
“Come in.”
Theodore entered and closed the door.
“Sir Gabriel, we are ready to move,” he said calmly.
“Just give me a couple of minutes,” I said after dressing properly.
I headed to my office to check on something, and Theo followed silently. After a while, I felt his eyes on me, and without looking, I asked him.
“What is troubling you, Sergey?”
Theodore or Sergey, that was his real name, is a very intimidating man with his hulking body. He is taller than me, his muscles are bulking everywhere, and his blue glacial eyes are more intimidating than his physical appearance could ever be.
I met him in Russia almost ten years ago, directly after I became the head of the family.
He was deserting the military. Some of his colleagues set him up with a murder. He was a Spetsnaz and a very capable man. Our paths crossed, and I helped him to escape the Russians.
He told me all of this had happened because he refused to take his father’s place, so I made a deal with Lebedov. And we have been together since then. He’s my bodyguard, my enforcer, and my third in command, too.
Sergey interrupted my thoughts with his serious tone.
“Sir Gabriel... “ I cut him off saying “Just call me Gabriel Sergey, you are my friend, you know.”
He didn’t bat an eyelash and continued.
“.......... I don’t know what is going on in your head, but I just want to make sure that you know what you are doing right now?” He said coldly.
“I don’t know what you are talking about?” I lied, though I have a clear idea about it and I know who he’s talking about. It’s Ariel. He was the one who delivered my necklace to her, and since then I have seen the unspoken questions in his eyes.
“I’m talking about the little miss I delivered the necklace to.”
“SERGEY.“ I growled harshly. He didn’t even blink and kept going. It’s hard to intimidate him.
“Again, I hope you know what you are doing because giving her that necklace your father gave you means one thing and you know that.”
I didn’t comment and kept looking at the paper in front of me.
“It means that she’s your woman now. We will respect and protect her. She owns our loyalty; she’s your equal now.“ He said, folding his arms above his chest.
“Sergey, she’s not my woman,” I said, pinching my temple.
“You put your claim on her, Sir Gabriel. If you liked it or not, it’s final, but now her life is in danger.”
“What the fuck are you saying, Sergey?” I stood up, clenching my fists.
“As she gained our loyalty and respect, she gained your enemies, too. She’s weak and fragile and she will be an easy open target for your enemies now.”
My eyes widened when the realization hit me. Yes, I put her life in danger, even though I don’t know why I sent her my necklace.
“I’ll never let anything happen to her. She saved my life. She owns it now,” I said, irritated.
“Just make sure she’s safe and sound,” he commanded.
I blinked and stared at him.
“You know, this is the longest conversation we ever had. Wow, Sergey.” I said, smiling.
“We need to move now, Sir Gabriel.”
I sighed and followed him out. In front of the mansion were three black SUVs. My men greeted me by bowing their heads.
Theo rode with me in the passenger seat after making sure everything was right.
My phone vibrated, showing Leo’s number on the screen.
“Boss, I’m waiting for you at Michael’s hospital. We need to check on your stitches. You have opened them again, and then we will take the private jet to Vegas.” he said in his business tone.
“Ok, we are on our way.”
Our little group headed to the hospital smoothly. But suddenly I found myself in front of the café, Ariel’s café.
“Stop here, Andrew,” I commanded.
“Is everything all alright, sir?”
“Yes, Theo, you don’t need to worry.”
Without thinking, I opened the door quietly. My eyes found her instantly, even though the place was crowded. She was talking to an old couple, smiling sweetly. After a minute, she took her apron off and walked to the piano.
She caressed the keys fondly and with a delicate smile as if she were looking at the love of her life. Then she sat on the small chair. After closing her eyes, she held my necklace as if she was praying and that made my heart skip a beat. Her soft smile brightened her face.
But what happened next blew my mind the sweet melodies and her angelic voice took my breath away............................
You shout it out,
But I can’t hear a word you say
I’m talking loud, not saying much
I’m criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
Shoot me down, but I get up
I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
I don’t know what got into me or what possessed me; it was like my breath was knocked out of my lungs. I couldn’t breathe, couldn’t take my eyes off of her.
She enchanted me and what broke the spill was people clapping and cheering her.
Sergey squeezed my shoulder to gain my attention. He didn’t say anything, but his eyes said a lot, and the look he gave me didn’t sit well with me. I shrugged his hand and went back to the car.
After visiting the hospital and making sure everything was ok, we took the private jet and headed to Vegas. Since then Leo kept stealing secret glances at me. I was so caught up in my thoughts to ask him about his stupidity.
“Gabriel?” he asked tentatively.
I sighed and rubbed my face with my hand tiredly.
“Yes.”
“Umm....... Where’s your necklace that one your father made you? I didn’t see it for a while now and I know it’s so precious to you to be lost. So where is it?“ He asked curiously.
I eyed Theo, who just glared. “I didn’t lose it and it’s none of your business.“ My tone came harsh and final, so he didn’t ask more. His eyes just gave me a calculating look.
I looked at the man in front of me, Khaled bin Khalifa, the biggest warlord in the Middle East. People say that he’s related to some royal family, and that’s how he has all that money to buy and sell weapons around the world.
But the truth is, no one knows his origin. All we know is that he is Arabian and has a big influence everywhere.
I shook the man’s hand firmly and gave him a quick look. He was an ordinary man in his fifties, medium size and medium built.
“Cerberus, it’s an honor to finally meet you,” he said cheerfully.
“The honor is mine, Mr. Khaled.”
“I hope you don’t mind meeting me here in Vegas. I like to do my meetings here, and it’s more fun than the suffocating office.”
I didn’t reply, I just nodded.
“Ok, let’s get down to business,” Leo said calmly.
“Oh, direct to the point. I like that,” Khaled smirked.
“I’ve everything you need; from pocket knives to heavy armory. I even can get you a tank if you would like.”
“Leo has the list of all that we need.” I motioned to him to give the file.
“This isn’t the only thing I work with. I can get you anything you could imagine. I can get you some women too if you like. In all colors and shapes.”
I looked at him, disgusted.
“I don’t sell women. In my family, we respect them, cherish them, and honor them. THEY COME FIRST.” I sneered at him.
I stood up, and Leo copied me.
“I think we’re done here. Let us go.”
Back at my Vegas villa, Theo put in front of me some glasses and a vodka bottle; I thanked him and drank like a thirsty man in the desert.
The song kept replaying in my head, her angelic voice sent shivers and goosebumps through my body. She was out of this world. But why do I keep thinking about her? What is so special about that kid?
I finished my seventh glass and sighed. This is going to be a long night.
Chapter Five Part 1 Insomnia....... It’s been three days since I had a decent sleep. I can’t concentrate, I can’t communicate with anyone, I can’t even participate in anything. It’s like my mind wants to be shut off from anything and everything. Yep, I’m going into a deep depression and the best thing is I’m all alone. I didn’t see my mom since Monday and it is Friday today. God, I just want to stay asleep and never wake up ever again. Ugh, is it that time of the month? Damn you, periods. That’s why I hate being a girl; though it’s early for that torture....... ugh I need to get up. I rolled over the bed and kicked like a little kid, but because I knew it was the last day of the week, I thought it was better to get it over with. God, I hate high school, so much drama, and hormones. Yep, it’s all about hormones. I chuckled lowly. I’m sulking, and it’s only 6 in the morning. It is going to be a LONG day, man...... I hate my life. I took a shower, brushed my teeth, and didn’t b
Chapter 6 Part 2 “Seriously, Rine. I’m not in the mood for clubbing right now. Besides, I look awful.” I said while she dragged me to the kitchen to ask Daniel for permission to leave early. I wasn’t kidding about looking awful. My eyes were puffy and red, my face was swollen and had traces of tears, and my nose was blocked. I was a walking mess. “Actually, this is the perfect time for clubbing because you feel like shit, so we need to fix it.“ She chirped happily, still dragging me. I huffed and cursed her in my head. She’s a stubborn bitch, I know it’s done, I’m going, like it or not. “Not to mention that I don’t have any ‘ Dresses ‘ to wear, heck I don’t even have a simple sundress,” I said, annoyed, saying dress sarcastically. “Don’t worry boo I got your back, and actually I bought you a sexy dress as a birthday gift, and girl, you are damn lucky to have me as a best friend because this is going to be perfect.” She squealed. We entered the kitchen, and Daniel smiled, greetin
Chapter 7 I groaned and closed my eyes tighter to block the light; I tried to use my arm as a shield, but I couldn’t. There was something heavy preventing me from moving. I groaned again, annoyed, but then I felt the little movement of a warm body next to me. Opening my eyes slowly, I looked down at that warm body. It was her, Ariel. She was sleeping peacefully snuggled at my side. Half of her body was above mine, her right arm around my torso, her right leg between my long legs, my right arm holding her tightly closer to my body. I used my left hand to brush some curls away to be able to see her beautiful face; she sighed and snuggled even closer. I smiled and searched for my alarm clock to check the time. 09:00 Am! I slept more than 8 hours?! That’s a first. I looked back at Ariel’s serene face again and remembered yesterday’s events. It was a hectic day, no doubt. After coming back from the Vegas meeting, I was discussing the new security details with Theo and Leo, and all of
Chapter 8 I finished quickly and headed to the second floor to see what kind of information Leo got. I didn’t forget what happened yesterday, even though I looked composed and calm, but deep inside I was seething. I can’t believe something like that happened in my club, to my Ariel. My Ariel?! Since when did I consider her mine? Since you gave her your necklace and marked her as yours ... I still don’t get it. Why did I do that? It’s like another me did that. I snorted. It’s true. It’s the other you alright, the beast inside you wanted her and when it wants anything, it just gets it. But why her? She’s eighteen, for God’s sake! Does it matter? She’s your woman now. Your beast claimed her as his... as yours. My beast..... Cerberus....... My mother gave me that name when I was a little kid saying that I have the soul of a beast, a hellhound, Cerberus, the mythical dog that guards the underworld, Hell. When did I ask my father why Cerberus? She said because I am like him, strong
Chapter 9 I sat on the bed for a while after Mr. Stranger left, still trying to comprehend what was going on. I still don’t understand. What am I doing here? Or How did I come here? I groaned and fell back on the bed; it was soft and tender and so freaking big wow. I turned on my stomach and inhaled deeply, and sighed. Yes, this is his smell. I still remember it perfectly. Though it started to fade back home, his masculine scent, mixed with his cologne, surrounded me like a safe cocoon. I rolled on the bed like a happy cat having her first dose of catnap. His scent made me feel high. I knew it was weird. I should be panicking right now because hello I wake up in a stranger’s bed, a dangerous one at that. But all I felt was safe and protected. Besides, he’s my stranger, so bite me if you don’t like it. I walked to the door he just entered before he left and found his walk-in closet and what I saw made me gap like an idiot. It was huge, bigger than our house, and had everything a
Chapter 10 After I made sure that Ariel was safe at her home and there was no one lurking around it, I headed back to the mansion. I have some serious interrogation to do; I need to know who was that asshole harassing my Ariel and why he chose her from all the girls in the club. I mean, I get it; she was so beautiful in her innocent way, so vibrant and so alive. Every soul in that club noticed her even, me, the coldest asshole. There, her heat and light draw me like a moth to the flames, but still why, especially her? There were so many women there ready to go for a one-night stand. I pinched the bridge of my nose and got out of the car. Everyone was busy doing their job, and as usual, Theo and Leo were waiting for me in my office. “So your girl is safe at home?” the smugness of Leo’s face irritated me. I ignored him as usual and faced my third after sitting behind my desk. “He still refuses to talk.“ I asked with a calm voice, unlike the storm that was raging inside me. “Yes, s
Chapter 11 I was so happy today. My heart felt light and carefree. The old couple’s celebration was a joyful event and a hopeful one, too. It gave me hope that maybe one day I will be lucky to have that kind of love. The love that goes beyond age, time, and whatever life might throw at you. The two looked so much in love, even though it had been years and years. Even though one of them sometimes forgot the other, still their love didn’t change or fade away. And also today, for the first time, I sang in front of people I knew, yes we are not that acquainted, but still, I did something out of my comfort zone. I took the books that were left on the tables with a huff. Some people don’t have the decency to return them back to the shelves. We are not your slaves here. I sorted them out and put everything in the right place, but when I was about to return to the tables again, I was pushed back harshly towards one of the shelves. “Ouch, what the hell?” I didn’t finish my complaint. I wa
Chapter 12 When we arrived at the mansion, Ariel was a little calmer. I know she was shocked; she felt betrayed by her closest friends. But still, I can’t wipe the triumphant glow deep inside me; yes I was happy not because she got her heartbroken. But because now she knew the truth about that Jap bastard, the way he looked at her and how he treated her as if she belonged to him was getting under my skin. I was this close to losing control and then killing him and screw the consequences. Ariel is mine and I will be damned if I let that boy take her from me. It doesn’t matter if she loved him or not; it doesn’t matter if she wanted to be with him; it doesn’t fucking matter if she doesn’t love me. All that mattered was she belonged to me. At that moment I had only one thought: eliminate the threat, and protect what is yours, yes at that moment I was the beast everyone claimed........ No, everyone knew that I was. I helped her out of the car and into the mansion. Leo was there wait
Chapter 33 Epilogue Michael, They think that they can take her away. They think that they can take her from me. Do they think that I would sit still and allow it? Lola has been mine since the day she was born on this earth. She belongs only to me, and not even god can claim her. Not even death can take her away from me. I would follow her to the depth of hell and I would never care who will get hurt in the process. I have watched her since the day she opened her beautiful eyes. I watched her grow into this amazingly beautiful young woman. I was about to tell her that she was mine after her eighteenth birthday in a few weeks. But then this shit happened. Those bastards had taken my Lola away, thinking that I would stay still and watch. When people look at me and see my smiling, cheerful face, they think of me as weak and naïve. Unlike my brother, who is evil and ruthless, but they don’t know the truth. It was me who chose to forsake this life, not because I was afraid of it,
Chapter 32 Pregnant?! Ariel is pregnant with my child, and she is eight weeks already. How come I didn’t notice the signs? We have been together every day ever since her mother passed away. I had my doubts that she was sick, but I had never thought that she might be pregnant. But to think of it, we have never used protection before. And it is all my fault all over again. I have ruined her future by making her pregnant so young. And after what had happened, this would be too much to handle. She is fragile and weak emotionally and physically. What if she decided to have an abortion? Do I have the right to tell her no and I want to keep that baby? I don’t want to be selfish again. I looked at Ariel as she slept peacefully. The frown on her face looked permanent and her expressions were ones of pain. I caressed between her brows and she sighed softly, making me smile to myself. Then I looked at my brother as he breathed deeply. Michael patted her hand after making sure that her
Chapter 31 “Are you going to be like that all day long? They are out doing some business as usual. Nothing new here, trust me.” Lola huffed as she dropped onto her bed and closed her eyes. She yawned, and I rolled my eyes. I don’t know how she could be as cool as a cucumber even though she knew that her brother and Gabriel were out seeking blood. Yes, I knew about that even though he had been trying to hide it from me, but I could see the signs. His insomnia, him watching me all night, then hugging the shit out of me while I was sleeping. Then in the morning, he got out walking on his tiptoes, not wanting to wake me up. As if I have slept a wink that night. He wanted to leave quickly, so I wouldn’t ask about his plans. He didn’t know that I would pretend to be asleep and not disturb him. After he went down, I went to Lola, and she has been bitching around since. I wanted to slap her, but I refrained. I was frustrated and worried at the same time. Gabriel is doing what I have a
Chapter 30 “We found him. A tip said that he was in Queens. And he was close to Ariel’s house.” Leo shouted from outside my bathroom frantically, and I burst out to meet him. “Where is she now?” Leo handed me a towel and rummaged through my closet to get me something to wear. “She is at her house with Lola and the boys. Jason, Jacob, and Tyler. I tried to call them and no one answered me.” I cursed under my breath as I was putting the shirt on, then ran downstairs while wearing my pants in the process. The house was in an uproar. Everyone was shouting and screaming, it was hectic. Someone bumped into me while holding his bleeding abdomen. He looked up at me and shouted. “We are under attack, sir. They are everywhere in the mansion. Without warning, we were swarmed up.” Leo gave me a concerned look and ran to the front door. He called out to someone outside, and then he disappeared. I ran upstairs, ignoring my men’s shouts and cries. I needed to call Ariel and make sure that
Chapter 29 I held my drink in my hand tightly as I watched my men moving around me like a beehive. Leo has been giving me these worried glances as if he wanted to tell me that there is some time to change my mind. But I ignored my close friend and watched my men gather, then call the ones who were still out handling business. This needs to be done now. I can’t wait anymore. It is as important to me as it is to Ariel. This is my vow to her as her lover and protector. And I have been failing to keep that promise. I downed my whisky and cleared my throat as it burned while it slid through my throat. Leo stood up and sat beside me on the couch, but I ignored him. I already knew what he was going to do. “Please reconsider this. At least till Theo is back. I need to be sure that there is someone who has your back. I will be busy to do that, Gabriel.” I stood up and went to the small bar in the den and filled my glass to the brim again. This isn’t from nervousness or cowardice. I ju
Chapter 28 I yawned and then opened my eyes. The room was still dark but I knew that we were already morning. Last night has been emotional on so many levels. It didn’t just heal me and make me snap out of that trance; I think it made my bond with Gabriel stronger. I know no one would understand this and would think me sick, but him promising me that I will get the revenge I seek was like a balm to my aching heart. Would I regret that decision? Yeah, maybe one day but now I want this to happen. No, I need it to come true. At least my mom would rest in peace knowing that this asshole was dead, too. I closed my eyes again trying to go back to sleep but couldn’t, so I went to the bathroom to take a shower. Gabriel has left me one of his t-shirts, clean boxers, and a towel. My heart clenched at his thoughtful gesture. He knows that I like wearing his clothes. Gabriel had been so kind and patient with me. That moment when I put the knife against his throat I thought about doing it.
Chapter 27 I put my arm above my head and closed my eyes. I was exhausted and tired, but for the past few days, I didn’t sleep a wink. I couldn’t. After seeing Ariel fall apart right in front of my eyes, my heart broke and there was a big hole in my chest. With all the money and influence I have, I could do nothing. I can’t bring back the dead. I wish that she could wake up from this nightmare and tell me what to do. I miss her voice, her smile, and her warmth. I miss having her between my arms. I miss my little one, like air, and I’m terrified that I will never get her back. I gritted my teeth and suppressed a curse; the place was full and because today was a weekend everyone was here in the den. I knew I should have gone to my apartment and stayed away from all of this racket, but I didn’t want to be alone. I didn’t want to be in a place where Ariel wasn’t aware of me or this world. Michael has told me she was fine, and this is how she was processing the loss of her mother.
Chapter 26 I sat in the corner, my eyes seeing nothing. Sometimes I feel numb, other times I feel angry. But most of the time, I’m just paralyzed. I think I shed all of my tears by now. It doesn’t matter how hard I try, I can’t shed a single one. I hugged myself, trembling. The dark room wasn’t cold. Nevertheless, my body started to shake. I screamed when the pounding behind my eyelids intensified. “You left me, mom. You promised that you would be beside me when I graduate. You said you would help me choose my wedding dress. You said you would name my first baby.” I wailed. This is too much. Why did she have to leave? And like this! Someone knocked on the door, but as usual, I refused to acknowledge them. I have been here for almost two weeks now, or I think it has been more. I have lost count after the first ten days have passed. I stink, I’m hungry and I don’t feel well. But my mind chose to ignore all of that and had only one thought. “Why am I still alive? I should be the
Chapter 25 We stood in front of the morgue’s wide doors; Ariel’s smaller figure so close to mine, as if she wanted to disappear from all those prying eyes. Since we arrived at the hospital, every nurse and doctor who wasn’t busy with something came to console her and she was on autopilot. She nodded her head in acknowledgment; she hugged back and said a few thank you. I was way out of my element here, and couldn’t do anything to make this better. My brother said that she has to face her reality to move on or this would turn ugly. I knew that he was right, but it didn’t mean that I didn’t want to help her. Like right now, she stood beside me with one shaky hand stretched out to the door handle and not moving. “We can go back home and come tomorrow if you are not ready.” She raised her glazed eyes to me. “I…I want to do this now or I will never do it.” Michael gave me a look and opened the door for us. Her knees buckled, but I held her tighter and walked inside. My brother