"So wait...let me get this straight. You met this handsome man, you had a conversation with him, he called you beautiful, but you don't know his name?" Angelica asked for the hundredth time this morning. She placed her breakfast tray on the table next to my bed and turned around to face me.
"Yes, that's what I have been saying for the past ten minutes!" I let out a loud sigh as I closed the door of my walk-in closet which was pretty much empty except for the very few clothes and shoes I left behind from the last time I had visited this place.
I really did miss this room though. It was the most beautiful and luxurious room with rick purple tapestries on every surface, a perfectly polished marble floor, and lots and lots of gold leaf. There was also a lot of furniture from different parts of the world. Dad always wanted for me to have the best.
"Why--how can you forget to ask his name? How is he going to find you? Did he even recognize you?!" Angelica continued asking, staring at me dejected.
"It was a masquerade ball. I did not even recognize him. And besides Ivan and Alex did not even know who I was." I told her tiredly.
"Yeah, those two do not count. They are stupid anyways."
"One of them is your boyfriend you're talking about."
"Yeah, I know. Still stupid. Handsomely stupid that is." She chuckled with a dreamily gaze. This girl. Only the mention of Alex and she's already in another world.
I shook my head and rolled my eyes before plopping down next to her. Angelica will stay a couple of days with me before moving to her parent's condo in SoHo. Currently, the condo was under major construction, so she had to wait a couple of days before moving in.
In the meantime she stayed with me at my parents, giving me relationship advice, clothing advice, and all type of advice that will come in handy one day. Her words, not mine.
"I don't think a handsome stranger would be interested in me," I said as I played with the fluffy blanket on my bed that I had since I was fourteen. "He's totally smitten over a girl with blue eyes like mine."
"Oh really? He told you that?" Angelica asked, disappointment visible in her voice. "Damn it, here I thought he could become your boyfriend and we could go on double dates."
I laughed and threw a pillow at her. "I will get a boyfriend and you will get your double dates. Just not now."
"Then when? Don't act like we're not getting older. Before you know I will pop little Alex's out and you will still be single and virgin."
"There's nothing wrong with being single and virgin."
"Yeah right." She rolled her eyes at me before throwing her hair into a ponytail. "You don't know what you're missing missy. By the way, have you seen Zane yesterday?"
"Nope, thank god. Have you seen him?" I asked curiously.
Angelica shook her head. "Not at all, but then again he never shows up at the parties he's organizing for the club. But I thought he would make an exception for this one."
I snorted. "My brother saw him in the elevator. I think he came for a minute or so to check up on things. And bytheway I'm not that special to him anymore, Angel. When are you going to get that through your thick skull?"
"Shut up. We all know how much he cares about you. He never stopped caring about you."
"Yeah right," I said averting my eyes to the window. If only I had stayed at home that night of homecoming, Zane and I would still be best buddies.
Even though I hate to admit it, but deep down I still missed him. He is like a missing piece of me.
New York reminded me of him. It brought everything back. Our memories, our fights, and of course our separation.
New York is too painful for me and that is actually the main reason why I do not want to stay here for a long time.
There was a soft knock on my door startling both Angelica and me. Before I could say something, the door swung open and Yasmin poked her head inside. "Hey girls. I was wondering if you guys would like to go to my bachelorette party this weekend," she asked cheerfully. Yasmin was too sweet. I wonder how my brother could get so lucky.
"Sounds like a hell lot of fun, Yas. I'm going!" Angelica shouted, smiling widely.
"Count me in too. Where are we going?" I asked, raising my eyebrows at Yasmin.
Instead of answering my question, she gave me a mysterious smile. "That's a surprise. Anyways, Amari can you come with me for a second. It's about your dress for the wedding."
I nodded my head and looked at Angelica before pointing at the breakfast tray on the table. "Can you bring that back to the kitchen? I don't want ants in my room."
"Yes, I will. Don't worry." Angelica said before picking up the tray and making her way to the kitchen.
I walked after Yasmin to Milan's old bedroom. That's the room Yasmin and Milan use every time they come over to the states. Milan's bedroom was really different from mine. It was like you entered a whole other world.
There was a huge chandelier dangling over his bed and a plush silver gray carpet that practically felt like heaven on your feet. Milan's room was kept really simple with not a lot of furniture since he would play soccer in his room when he was younger.
"Yasmin, I really cannot change partners?" I asked as she closed the door behind us. I was still hopeful about changing partners.
"I'm so sorry Amari, I can't. I have already ordered your dress and Zane's. You two are the first one who is going to make the entree so the dress and tux are a little bit different than the rest." she said with a sympathetic smile. "If I knew you two were not on good terms I would have not paired you up together."
"Actually, it's okay," I told her as I sat down at the end of the bed. I will stop bothering her about this whole thing about changing partners. I don't want to mess up her arrangements that she must have made months before and most of all I don't want to make her upset or overthink her decisions. "It will not be that bad. Or I hope so."
Yasmine chuckled and opened the walk-in closet. Milan's closet was a lot smaller than mine, but it was still spacious enough to fit all his shoes and clothing. I looked around the room and not much had changed except for the curtains. Last time the curtains were an awful shade of blue, it was so out of place. Now It was replaced with a beautiful shade of gold.
A few seconds later Yasmin came out with a big red box in her hands. "Your dress is in here. I want you to try it on so I can see if there are any alterations needed."
She opened the box and my eyes widened at the beautiful gown inside. "It's so beautiful." I gasped, touching the fabric which felt incredibly soft. "If this is the bridesmaid's gown, I don't even want to know what your wedding dress will look like."
"My wedding dress is out of this world," Yasmin said smiling as she pulled out the beautiful silver dress. "Your brother wanted the best out of the best."
I nodded my head in agreement. Of course, he would only choose the best for his Queen. That's what he calls her.
Picking up the dress I walked into the bathroom to change. When I finally slipped it on, I couldn't help to stare at myself in the mirror. I was in complete awe as I saw how beautiful the dress was on me.
"It's made for you." I heard Yasmin's voice from behind me. "It complements everything, from your eyes to your curves."
"Thanks, Yas." I turned around and flashed her a bright smile. "But I'm pretty sure, you will look even more gorgeous than I will. After all, you're going to be officially the Queen."
Yasmin laughed out loud and even snorted. "You have been on I*******m too much."
"Can't help it when those fan pages tag the whole family in their edits," I said, which made Yasmin laugh louder.
"I'm not really hungry mom, I think I will just skip dinner. I will order something if I really feel hungry."
Yesterday I already went out to dinner with Angelica and today I was planning to stay at home, watch a movie, and maybe order pizza.
"No!" Mom exclaimed, waving with her hands in all different directions. "No,no, no! Everyone is going to be there. It's a reunion. I want you to be there and spend time with us."
"Mom!" I gave her a pleading look, but she didn't buy it.
"Come on, Amari! Don't be such a brat."
I let out a deep sigh as I grabbed my phone from the kitchen counter. "Fine! I'll be there. Where is it again?"
"At Ocean Prime. You know that place right?" I wanted to wipe the big smile of triumph off her face. I still love her endlessly even though she could be so persuasive sometimes.
I nodded my head at her. "Yes, I do."
I walked out of the kitchen to go to my room and get dressed. I was totally not in the mood to go to some fancy restaurant tonight and socialize. Mom also said that everyone's going to be there.
This means that the Shaw family is going to be there also. I didn't really mind meeting Zane's parents. They are the kindest people on earth and they have always loved having me over at their house. It was just Zane I had a problem with. But earlier today I heard Milan say that Zane went on a business trip to Maryland.
"I'm here to save you!!" My bedroom door swung open revealing Angelica in her bathrobe holding a grey mini skater dress in her hand. Her hair was in a bun and her makeup was halfway done. "This is the perfect outfit for dinner tonight!"
"How did you even know that I'm going to dinner?" I asked, knowing that I have told her earlier that I would not go. "Have you been eavesdropping on me and my mom?"
She scoffed and rolled her eyes at me. "Of course not. Your mom called my mom like three minutes ago and my mom immediately texted me and well...yeah you know."
I facepalmed myself. How could I forget that those two women were best friends? They literally tell each other everything. "Right, how can it slip my mind...Anyways let me see the dress."
Angelica gave me the dress and it was indeed beautiful. It was sleeveless, with a plunging neckline, a self-tie wrap-around belt, an open back, and a flared silhouette. With a pair of silver heels, this outfit would look bomb on me.
"The dress is okay."
"Okay?!" Angelica exclaimed. "Don't you mean perfect, beautiful, thank-you-for-saving-my-ass-angelica?"
I laughed, knowing she was right. "That's what I meant. Anyways I will see you at Ocean prime later."
Alex will pick Angelica up and I will go with Yasmin and Milan.
After Angelica left my room, I took a long shower. Afterward, I did my hair and makeup and slip on into the dress Angelica gave me. I opened my walk-in closet to find my silver heels and when I finally found it, Milan burst into my room.
"Are you done, sis?!" I heard him yell from somewhere inside my room.
I walked out of my walk-in closet and saw him standing in front of my bed. "I'm done, let's go."
He stared at my dress and I waited for him to tell me to change and I, as always, would not listen to him. But instead, he said something that totally caught me off guard.
"I can't believe you're an independent woman now. To me, you're still pearl."
"Milan!" My heart just melted at what he just said. Sometimes, just sometimes he could say things that could make me tear up from happiness. "I'll always be your pearl. No matter how old I am."
"Will you listen to me then when I tell you to change into something else."
There's the 'Big brother' side of him again. I don't think that he will ever get used to the fact that I'm already an adult and not some twelve-year-old girl. Dad is the same. He definitely got his protective side from dad. Instead of arguing I just rolled my eyes and walked past him. "As always, No."
Ocean Prime was a five-star restaurant that served seafood. It was a very popular place for elite people to have dinner.
When we entered the restaurant I was stunned by how amazing it was decorated. The setting was splendid and the ambiance was something I was stunned by.
Ocean Prime took my breath away. It was luxurious, classy, and hands-down the best seafood restaurant I have been at in America.
I greeted everyone at the table. Zane's parents, Timothy and Christine Shaw. They were so happy to finally see me again. Angelica's parents, Reina and Luca Rossi. Reina as always hugged me and placed kisses on my cheeks like I was still a toddler as Luca just shook his head and greeted me with a smile.
Then I had to meet Alex's parents and little sister who was the cutest little girl ever with dimples on her cheeks when she smiled. Lastly, Ivan and his parents and his little brother who already looked like the next heartbreaker.
When we all were seated I saw there was still an empty chair next to me. "Is there someone else coming?" I asked, looking around the table.
"I don't think so." My dad looked at his watch. "We will start soon and---,"
"Sorry, I'm late!"
I turned around to see who the voice belonged to and my eyes widened, my heart dropped, and I could feel my soul leaving my body.
There, a couple of inches away from me, stood the person I have avoided for the past couple of years. Now, more handsome than before. Wasn't he supposed to be in Maryland?
When his eyes met mine, a smirk made its way to his face.
"Sugarplum."
I grumbled impatiently as I tapped with my Valentino heels on the concrete floor in the hallway. Students were heading towards their classes, bumping and shoving each other along the way. I looked at my watch and a scowl appeared on my face. Where the hell is he?I have seen all my friends early in the morning. They had all wished me a happy birthday and I made sure to remind them about the party tonight at my house. The hallway was slowly becoming deserted with only a few students here and there running to their classes.Zane was the last one who entered through the big door, walking leisurely as if he wasn't already late. A big smile appeared on his face as he saw me leaning against his locker. "Happy sweet sixteen, sugarplum."He swung his hand over my shoulder and placed a kiss on my cheek. "Cute. New shoes?""Yes, a gift from Milan. Why are you late? You know that Mrs. Nguyen doesn't like tardiness." I said, giving him a scowl."Pff, I know." He said in a matter-of-fact tone. "
"I promise you, Zane is not going to be there. I overheard Yasmin saying that Milan and Zane are going to Pennsylvania."I narrow my eyes at Angelica and tried to detect if she was making it up or telling the truth. "You aren't making something up just so I accompany you to brunch right?"It has been three days since I saw Zane for the last time outside the restaurant. I had promised myself that I would keep my distance from him. I would only make conversation with him when it was highly necessary. But if my friends keep inviting me to places where I know he will be present, it would be impossible to keep this promise. Angelica bit her bottom lip as she avoided eye contact with me. I knew it. After a minute of silence she spoke up again; "Well I didn't exactly heard that they are going to Pennsylvania. But I heard snippets that they would not be there during brunch."I sighed deeply and stood up from my bed. "I don't see why my brother would go out of town as it's his wedding soon
"I can't believe you accepted the invitation." I groaned out annoyed as I snatch the red envelope out of her hands. "I promised myself I would keep my distance from him.""Why would you make such a promise to yourself?" Angelica asked quietly as she fiddled with my bedsheets. "You're hurting yourself.""If I could live without him for five years, I can do it for the rest of my life," I told her confidently."No, you can't. Because if you could you would have already been engaged to Thomas Griffen." She stated in a matter-of-fact tone.Thomas Griffen was a friend of mine in my last year of college. We always hung out and studied together.Everyone labeled us as the 'power couple.'Most people even went as far as saying that we had this chemistry between us that was so hard to find nowadays.He had asked me to become his official girlfriend on graduation day.Any girl would have said yes to that.He would make the perfect boyfriend, fiancee, and husband. He was a smart guy with good man
"You got kicked out of school today?!" Angelica yelled out above the music. "How?""Let's go to my room! I'll show you!" I grabbed her hand and dragged her upstairs, away from the dancing crowd in the living room.My birthday party was in full swing. All my friends and family were invited and they were all having a good time downstairs. Ariana Grande was performing, but I have already seen her twice in concert."I got kicked out because Zane bought Snickers for my birthday!" I explained as we were walking through the long corridor. My room was at the end of the hallway."Snickers?!" Angelica asked confused. She pulled her long glittery dress up a bit so she could walk faster and match my pace. "You got kicked out because Zane brought chocolate for you?""No silly!" I laughed and opend the door to my room. I pointed at the small fluffy puppy on the bed. "Meet Snickers Vasilios. My son and your nephew."Angelica's eyes widened. "Oh my god!" She squealed as she ran towards the sleeping p
"Who's that boy?"Dad looked at me from the rearview mirror as I ate my leftover lunch in the backseat of his Bentley."That's Zane." My brother snickered from the passenger seat. "Zane Shaw. Amari's boyfriend."I let out a loud gasp as I dropped my lunch tray on the seat. "He is not! Daddddd, Millie said boyfriend!""Milan! Don't tease your sister." Dad said as he glared at Milan. "How long have you known him, baby girl?""Who?" I asked, distracted by the lollipop I just found in my backpack. Mom must have put it in there when I wasn't looking this morning. She's so sweet. "Do you want a cherry lollipop, Millie?""Lollipop is disgusting." Milan turned around and stuck his tongue out at me. "It has little worms and---,""Daaaaddd, Millie is being mean.""Milan, leave your sister alone." Dad let out a loud sigh as he honked impatiently at the car in front of us. "Babygirl how long have you known Zane?""One...two...three...four...Four days. He said I am his best friend.""Mmhh." My dad
Hey Amari, can we talk?Seen 7:00 AMI know you saw my message and missed calls. Please call me back?Seen 7:10 AMI will explain everything to you. I promise.Seen 7:30 AMAmari?Seen 8:00 AM"Earth to Amari!"Angelica threw a pillow at me, snapping me out of my thoughts. I felt my phone buzz in my hand, but I didn't bother to look at it since I already knew who it was.I rolled my eyes at Angelica before throwing the pillow back at her. "What?""Is something bothering you?" She asked, looking at me worried. "You were awfully quiet during the apartment tour."Two days ago we arrived from Italy. Zane had tried to apologize numerous times, but I had managed to cut him off right in time or simply walk away from where he was standing. His apology was either so bad I wanted to vomit or I just wasn't in the mood to listen."I'm alright," I mumbled quietly as I fidget with the hem of my summer dress."No, you're not. You're not even impressed by my apartment."Yesterday Angelica moved out o
"Let's make a promise."I looked up from my lunchbox to meet Zane's eyes. "What promise?" I asked, raising up my eyebrows."That we will forever be best friends.""Of course we will. You're stuck with me for the rest of your life, stupid."He laughed and threw a piece of lettuce at me. "And that we will never catch feelings for each other."I let out a snort. "As if. You're so annoying, I don't even know why I still put up with you."Zane laughed. "I'm not. You are. Your dad is going to kill me if we ever start dating.""He's just scaring you away, but then again I would never want to date you in this life.""Same goes for you, Vasilios. If I wouldn't know better I would think you're satan reincarnation.""Shut up."Zane smirked at me. "So promise?"Promise."Chaos.There were no other words to describe what was going on right now. It was pure chaos. It was like World War III was happening. Maids were running from left to right. My hair was being pulled in all different directions an
"I promise you, Mr. Vasilios. I don't love Amari like that. We are just best friends.""Mmh, but you look at her like she is the moon and stars."I laughed. "That's because she means a lot to me. We have been through so much together.""Are you sure you don't like her as more than a friend?"I shook my head. "Nope. She sees me as a friend. And by the way, I have a girlfriend.""You're only fifteen boy. Isn't it too early to have a girlfriend?"I was about to answer his question when Mrs. Vasilios angrily stomped out of the kitchen."Leave that boy alone, Vasilios! At his age, you were already on your third girlfriend.""Do you want lasagna?"I held my phone close to my ears as I tried to process what Zane was asking."Lasagna?" I repeated, furrowing my eyebrows in confusion. Was he high on drugs?"Yes. I made lasagna for dinner. I thought, maybe you would like some too."I was left speechless. This is not the Zane I know."You...made dinner?" I asked questionably after I got my voice
“Well, it sounds like you’re about to find out,” he says ominously.I remember my father defending his decision to kidnap me if Emmett hadn’t stepped in. He claimed he just needed to ‘remove me from the game.’ Like I was just some kind of gambling chip in his mind, one that was swinging the odds out of his favor. At the time, I didn’t know if I was better off with Emmett or my dad. Now it seems I’m getting both, whether I like it or not.We’ve come so far since then. When everything about Emmett and my dad came out, I couldn’t imagine ever trusting Emmett again after everything he had put me through. I certainly never thought we’d be where we are today. But I can’t help but feel like the lingering presence of my father threatens what we have. I don’t know how, but I know it’s not good.“Do you think he still keeps tabs on my mom and me?” I ask Emmett nervously. “You remember what he said after everything happened with your father. About my mother belonging to him before anybody else.
Emmett and I race through the cold to the warmth of his car after school. A fresh snow has just fallen, and the campus has been transformed. The blinding, pure white glow all around brings me hope that maybe when we return in January, the Elites won’t come at us with the force we’re expecting. But mostly, I try not to think about any of it at all.The weather in Massachusetts is beautiful, especially in Jameson. It’s a small enough town with a historic square in the middle that gets decorated with lights, greenery, and bright red bows every November, and stands through the holidays. It all looks so beautiful with the snow and the sparkling salt on the cobblestone sidewalks. It’s so scenic that horse-drawn carriages park in wait for people who want to pay to ride around.The orange and red autumn leaves have shriveled to dried, brown, crunchy dead things that are frozen and buried deep beneath the snow. In some places where the snow has turned to slush from cars or foot traffic, you ca
“I don’t know.” I smile lightly. “Did they? You’re free now. You don’t have to play their games anymore, or walk around with the weight of your father’s legacy on your shoulders. You can live your life however you want to now.”He grins. “I can finally take you to that concert, that band I was telling you about. There’s nothing to worry about anymore but normal stuff like school and college. And us.”“The concert…sure.” I laugh. “But also Ritzville. The Ferris wheel at Ritzville.”“What?” He smirks and wrinkles his brow.“It’s a thing for me.” I shrug. “Just promise me we’ll go.”“I’ll take you anywhere you want to go,” he says before pulling my lips to his.“I don’t know about where I want to go…but I know I need to go home.” I look at the time on my phone. “My parents are going to be worried sick…again.”He nods and looks at me intently. “I think it’s time to tell them everything, Ophelia.”I have always known that anyone outside of Jameson would never be able to understand the full
I can’t take it anymore. I can’t stand here while she tries to make Emmett feel bad after everything she’s done. “Well, if you’ve been up Liam’s ass this whole time anyway, just waiting for your chance to run the company,” I chime in, “why do you care what Emmett did? You said you were glad Thomas was gone.”She shrugs cavalierly. “It doesn’t change the way things work around here. You can’t just take out the crown of the hierarchy around here and expect not to suffer the consequences.”“You people are all seriously fucked up,” I blurt out.“I knew what you did, Emmett,” Bernadette grunts resentfully. “I came and told Liam. He was the one who let Mom know.”“I thought you were smarter than that, Emmett,” Liam scolds. “You know what happens to people who mess with the Elites. You know a thing or two about that yourself, don’t you, Ophelia? So now you’ll walk away with nothing.”“And if I were you…I’d get out of town,” Malcolm adds. “Now the Elites will rise back to where we belong. And
He plops into a chair in the corner as his leg starts bobbing up and down. He presses his palm to his mouth and looks anxiously around the room, fighting hard not to let my words affect him.“I can’t believe I let you,” I mused. “Something about the way you commanded me…I just couldn’t refuse. I guess you still have that power over me somehow.”“I wasn’t expecting to feel like that when I kissed you,” he responds with a surprising tenderness.His recollection of it makes sense. The way he seemed confused and tormented as he grabbed at my body with an almost punishing touch. He hated me for the feelings I stirred up inside of him. He was just doing what he was told, scoping me out and luring me to WJ Prep. He never meant to feel anything for me.“I still never expect to feel that way when I kiss you,” he added in a disappointed mutter.“But you do,” I offer optimistically, thinking maybe I’ve found my way into him. “And I do too. There’s something between us, Emmett. Enough that…surely
“I’m going as fast as I can,” I whine back, trying to hurry.He huffs over, slinging back the curtain and reaching in to turn the faucets off.“What are you doing!?” I cry, looking at him in shock. “I’m almost done. Just give me a minute.”“You’re out of time, princess,” he sneers, throwing a towel at me, but not until after he takes a good long slow look at my wet and naked body. I’m quick to cover up from his gaze, figuring if he can’t even have the decency to give me a full five minutes in the shower, he doesn’t get to see me naked.Anger sparks in his eyes as I cover up, robbing him of his eye candy. His hand grips my elbow tightly as he yanks me out, banging my arm harshly against the sink countertop.“Shit!” I shout, looking down to see fresh red blood pooling out into the beads of water still dripping across my skin. Just another reminder of who he really is, making me kick myself for every moment of weakness I had last night.“We don’t have time for all of this,” he moans impa
As soon as I have the thought of gratitude, his arms wrap around me tightly, one hand wriggling down to unbuckle my seatbelt before he drags me into his lap.“What the fuck are you doing!?” I shout, kicking and squirming to get away.“We’re gonna take a little drive,” he explains in a hauntingly snide tone. “And I want you close to me.”All I can think of is the last time these fuckers took me for a drive, and the time after that when Emmett tried again to lure me away in his car. My hands and arms flail frantically for escape, but he quickly grips onto me in every direction. He holds me down long enough to secure his stretched seat belt over the both of us. With one arm held firmly across my chest, holding my arms down, a black cloth falls over my eyes.“No!” I yell hopelessly, not wanting to be blindfolded. But the cloth ties tight across my vision, blocking out the outside world. “Emmett, please…don’t do that!”Vincent and Trey cackle. They love it when I’m struggling.I finally gi
“He hurts you?” Malcolm asks, his face slightly twisted.“They all do.”He shakes his head, turning briefly to the driver’s side window with his lips pursed before refocusing on the road. “That’s not like him. I know it’s going to be hard to convince you…but anything he’s doing is just out of fear. He didn’t ask to be born into that fucked up family of his. He’s just as much of a pawn as the rest of us.”I stare at him as he drives, searching for some sign of an ulterior motive. Doubt. Anything that tells me he doesn’t know what he’s talking about. But he’s filled with resolve. Completely confident that Emmett is somehow different than his flock of abusers.My head flings back against my seat. I can’t handle this right now. The last thing I need is another gnawing voice in my ear trying to convince me that Emmett’s behavior is excusable.I’ve watched him dump trash on Lily’s head. He manhandled me in front of his asshole Elite friends. He’s verbally abused me. Humiliated me. Threatene
I feel completely helpless. And as tired as I am of going through this alone, the only time I feel safe is when I’m alone. And even then, I’m plagued with paranoia over what will happen next. Especially now with this tracking device in my arm. I feel broken. Like something is wrong with me. I don’t know how I can ever go back to living a normal life after this.Thankfully, I’m able to avoid my parents as I race to my bathroom. The spot on my shoulder where they sewed in the implant is still bleeding, and I have to bandage it up just to keep the blood off of my clothes.I decide to take a bath to soothe my aching muscles, filling the hot steaming water with every bath product I can find that might bring me some peace and comfort.I lay back into the bath water, my body still tingling and my legs feeling almost numb. The lavender scented steam rising up should comfort me. But nothing seems to be able to do that anymore.I think back on the life I had before coming to WJ Prep and this El