Chapter 7

I don't know how many more seconds I should spend for Lucas. I want him to believe with me but I was failed.

I know he has a touching heart. I know Lucas has feelings to feel me on this way. I know he feels the way I suffered now.

In the past few years he truly loved me. The time we spent to each other is not easy. The ups and down we faced. It's really hard to let go the things we had.

"I met you to fix everything. But this is what I got from you Lucas? I can't imagine how you hates me?"

I just bowed down my head and I couldn't lift my eyes just to face him. My heartbeat was struggling at my chest.

Myself will vanish in his sight. I'm not acting just to have him mercy on me. I really can't do it.

"Watch your words Iris. You don't love me at the very first. Because if you truly love me? You did the right thing, right?" he let out a heavy breath.

My chest even more tighten in pain. I can't breathe anymore. I feel I was dying.

"You made me toyed on this way. So don't say that you love me. That's a big lie coming from you."

I slowly raised my head just to face him. His expression was so cold in my eyes. He watched me deadly as he screening my whole system.

If he says that I'm just pretending? I'm really fool to make myself stupid in that way.

I'm not pretending. I can't play myself when it comes to love. I truly love you Lucas more than you could imagine.

"I'm not pretending Lucas. I can't do it with myself, please! I feel the same way what you feel because I love you! I truly love you."

I don't care if he calls me desperate. I badly need his love and attention to love me back like the way he loves me before.

I only want him and nothing else. He is the only man I dream for. That's what I have promised to myself. To love him with all my heart until the very end.

Lucas faced me hesitantly. I can see the regrets in his eyes. His jaw clenched in anger. His eyes narrowed.

I feel like a trash at his sight. It's really disgusting the way he stares at me.

"I am not stupid to believe in your lies. I gave everything but you played me on this way. You're too love to pay everything."

I shook my head terribly while looking at his eyes. Tears are just falling out from my poor eyes.

No!

He made suffered the person he truly loved before. I don't know how he does this to me?

"I know it hard to love me back. I'm really falling in love with you Lucas. Call me stupid and desperate. Whatever? I don't care." I sadly cried in front of him.

I don't care if I'm desperate. I just want to love him and nothing else.

Even he hates me. I will accept whatever he says about me. I will accept everything from him.

It's really damn hurt but I love him. I don't care what others says. I will follow what my heart's desires.

Lucas just stares at me deadly. He doesn't feel even the slightest bit of mercy for me. I saw the anger on his lips. His sight filled with disgust.

"Because of what you have done Iris. You only making yourself suffer. You're the one doing it to make others laugh at your situation now."

I don't understand what he talking about. I would rather choose him despite his words. Even how many times he hates me I choose him again and again no matter what.

"You don't have to cry. You must be celebrate and happy because you succeeded in your plans. You should be celebrating now, right?" he insulting me on that way.

Even I can't accept the words he throws at me. I have to accept it because I love him more than myself.

I have to show how I badly in love with him. I want him to stay beside me no matter how many times we fights. My heart is soften in pain.

"I'm sorry! I never stole the money from the company." I almost screams those words. I'm begging in front of the person I loved, trying to prove everything.

"Stop it Iris. Because of what you have done everything was changed. Don't hope that everything can get back. You only making the situation worse. You are guilty that's why you have to cry and beg, right?"

"Fuck!" I slapped him with all my might. He made me mad with his words.

Why does he blame me all the time? Is that the way he thinks about me? A greedy one?

His eyes widened in surprise. He couldn't imagine that I slapped him at very first time. I know I hurts him because of what I did.

I don't even know why I slapped him? I was annoyed by the words he says to me.

I wished he could understand me? But all I want is really hard for him to do.

"I don't need your money Lucas. I only need you and your love. But what should I do? I'm so tired to explain everything."

Tears just kept falling from my eyes. I feel sorry to myself for slapping the person I love the most.

"You think! You did the right thing Iris? Don't push yourself because I will never love you again. You're the most selfish person I've ever met."

I knelt in front of him and I holds his legs. All I want is just to beg with him. I wish he could forgive me.

I'm asking forgiveness for what I have done Lucas. I didn't mean to hurt him. I just looked up and beg while crying.

I don't care if I kneel in front of him like a dog. I had to do this because I hurt him.

I hurt the man that I love. I can't forgive myself if he leaves me right now.

"Lucas! I'm begging you. I didn't mean to hurt you, please! Forgive me! I did it because I love you. I don't want to lose you in my life."

I cried and begged in front of him desperately. I know Lucas loves me. I know he has a loving heart to have mercy on me.

"Stop it Iris. You are fool about what you want to get. I don't want a selfish person like you."

I hugged his legs more tighten. I want to stop him from leaving.

"No! Lucas! Don't leave me, please! Have mercy on me! I can't live without you! I will be crazy."

I sobbed into tears. I just hugged his legs. I'm desperate to love him on this way. I won't let him go.

"Don't touch me Iris. You don't have to beg for someone you ruined and destroyed. You don't deserve my love anymore."

My hands terribly holds around his legs even more tighten.

My face almost hit on the floor when he pushed me away.

"I don't care about you." hearing those words from him is the most painful at all.

"Lucas! Lucas I love you! I'm begging! Don't leave me please!" as I cry just not to let him go.