I dreadfully rubbed my tears that kept falling down from my small eyes. I just cry all the time.My heart is bleeding a lot because of what Lucas did. He didn't even think about me before he did the sure thing.I burst into tears and turns around, I can't face him. My heart throbs painfully.He really toyed me! He made me fool. He took everything from me after all.It hurts! I can't accept it to myself. It's like my heart was cut off because of what Lucas did."Iris! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to hurt you. I was just carried away by my emotions. But nothing happened to me and Clara." Tears just streamed down my face. My legs were shaking because of what you did Lucas. I gave everything to you! I never failed to love you! I did everything. But why is that? You played with me while I'm loving you? Definitely, you never failed to hurt me. After all, I'm here, I still loving you! Am I missing something? Am I not enough? Am I unacceptable? Am I not worth it? Damn! My tears just kept fal
It's been all along when my tears falling as heavy as rain pours. I can't hold it back from falling apart.I'm having difficulty in breathing because of the so much pain in my chest. My heart hurting so much. I feel so heavy as my shoulders drops down.Sadly, I was very attached to you Lucas. I love you so much more than for who I am! I can't push you away from me.I can't stay away from you Lucas. My heart beats only for you and you are still the one in my heart. I can't throw away my feelings for you.It hurts! Crying foolishly. But I'm still looking for your love Lucas, hoping everything can get back.You are my man and only. You are my everything. I always kept pushing myself to you even you're so ruthless to me. But I don't care. I'm just here for you Lucas.I dreadfully scream into tears. My tears kept sheds. It hurts when the chest pain throbs.I'm suffering at all along because of what you did. Not knowing my tears streamed down my face again."Iris please forgive me. I'm here
Some tears slides on my cheeks oftens. sadly, it's really make me sad and feels lonely.My chest hurts. I'm having a lot of trouble because of my situation. It's hard to think that the man I love won't accept our baby.I love you Lucas! I love you very much. My feelings for him will never change. You're the only one who makes my heart beat. You really just drives me fool.I can't live without you Lucas. I can't live without you in my side. We shared a lot together and I will never forget that.Every piece we shared is very matter. Sadly, the memories I will never throw away. You and I spent a lot of time together.I wish you will always be here. I want to hug you and make you feel my love.There's a fear in my heart. But I can't go away from Lucas. I can't hate you. You was really matter in my heart.My tears just kept pours. I can't stop my screaming. My feelings are so creepy. My life is very sad.I just found myself crying in a corner. I hugged my knees and started crying again. M
"Your son got my daughter pregnant. Then he will say that nothing happened between him and her? Your son is a fraud." Tears just trembled down in the corner of my eyes. I feel the sadness in my chest tighten. It's like stabbing my heart.I want to wean my mom but I couldn't move my legs. Instead I just kept crying in front of them.I can see the flashing anger in mom's eyes. I didn't think she would come here to the company to attack Lucas."Tell me the truth Lucas. Did you get Iris pregnant? Are you the father of the child! I need your answer right now!"Lucas's eyes widened as he looked at his mom. He couldn't answer his mom directly so he swallowed hard.I know he is afraid to tell the truth. But whatever he does. He is still the father of the child I am carrying. He doesn't need to kept the truth.Lucas's eyes narrowed when he looked at me. I know he is afraid to reveal the truth. But he doesn't need to run away from the truth.Lucas! My love! I'm here for you! Don't be afraid to
My tears are blurring my vision. Pain stabs my heart deepen.My knees shakes. My hands were trembling from wailing. Every question runs through my mind.Why was Lucas able to let me go? Am I really worthless to him? Does he really not love me anymore?Why does it seem so easy for him to throw everything away? Why did he have to hurt me like this?I endured everything Lucas! I made myself fool! I fully accept you! I never got tired of loving you!Because I always thought you would change! So even though I was suffering from what you made? I can't run away from you! It's really hard on myself that I'm always the one who chasing after you Lucas! I keep making myself foolish. I feel sorry for myself!But I didn't drives you away! Because you are the only man I always dreaming! You're the only one who drives me fool.I can't escape from the memories we've made. Your sweet promises, your hugs. Your touches. Your kisses are too soft to feel.I scream into tears and gently rubbed my eyes. M
It's really sad to imagine that Lucas can only let me go away from his side. That he just lets me get hurt. But I can't lose him.I feel so empty with my situation but Lucas can't even come after me. He didn't even find a way to fix us up!Why is it easy for him to forget me? Why did he just let me get hurt even more? My tears just kept falling. I kept crying for you Lucas all the time. I keep fooling myself to you! Even though I'm tired I never give up! I can't forget you Lucas from my heart! I loved you so much!Every moment you gave I can't let it go! How is it amusing? What are you doing right now? Maybe you're sad? Maybe you're very hurt because of me?Not knowing that I'm the reason for everything. I know I'm the reason why you changed Lucas! It's all my fault.I'm the one who can blame for where you are now. I know you're suffering right now because of me. I know your world is very messed up.But Lucas! Don't think that my heart has let you go! Because I can never do that to
My heart is very sad and lonely. I'm still hurting because of my final decision. I deserve to be hurt because I loved him!It's hard to accept being away from your side Lucas, but I'll be patient. My heart is full of longing. Yes, does it hurt? Too much hurts! I'm restless with sadness. Lucas was running through in my mind.I know I hurt him now. I know he's suffering because of what I have done. It hurts for me to feel that Lucas felt it too.I'm sorry Lucas! I left you without saying anything but you are still here in my heart. I kept loving you and I will never changed!I know your world is still in mess right now. I know you're just so confused that you have to push me away from you.But I believe your heart still loves. I know your heart still beats for me.I know your heart is just hurting that's why you made me hate you. I know I failed you so you are very upset with me. But even if you feel sorry for me Lucas! I will never push you away. I never get tired of loving you! You
"Son Andrie! You need to eat before you play! You're going to get sick, son.""I don't like to eat mommy! I want to play."Andrie was just playing around in front of me. He flies his toy airplane. He's very cute.A while ago I was dizzy because of my son's playing. Yes I named him Andrie. That's what I want for my son.Andrie continued to fly the toy he was holding in the air. He was already sweating because of his playing earlier. Andrie was a really naughty child while growing up. Is that natural for a boy? In the past five years. As Andrie grew up. He becomes like his father Lucas. Some tears suddenly fall down when I remember Lucas and I's past. I can't forget him. I always imagine him.The memories we made will always engraved my heart. Even though what happened was so painful, I had to accept everything.Lucas was the man I loved. Until now, my heart still beats for him. Life is hard when he is not by my side.I want to go and hug him but I can't. We are far from each other. I