I arrived in the class, looking such in a hurry—not because I am late but because of Elric. I chew some ait first before turning around to check if he isn’t heading on this floor and good thing that the elevator closes already and he isn’t going out. I do not know but I feel pressured just by standing next to him—it’s like he wasn’t my safest place anymore unlike before. I feel a little fragile next to him as if he is really capable of breaking me in pieces and I don’t feel safe around him anymore even if he didn’t do anything nor touch me.
I just feel…worse.
When I completely recovered, I roam my eyes around the room this time, now facing these familiar faces I loathed started yesterday. I blow an air, ignoring all the stares and creasing foreheads until Rael stands up, approaching me to my seat.
“Where were you?”
“Mansrael, not here.” I heard Levi muttered from his seat but I
I look away immediately as soon as our eyes met each other. I then clears my throat after feeling a bit nauseous inside me so I rest my gaze back in front on where Damian is standing. I thought that I can finally breath nice air already but the next thing that comes next made me want to throw up when Elric knocks on the door before turning the knob of the room open. I can feel everyone’s gaze on me right now. Who would not? These people witnessed how I was roasted by someone about my ex-boyfriend and now, he is standing in front of us today.Gosh, breaking up with Elric is such a bad luck for me.I move my eyes to my friends who seems like confuse as well as on what Elric is doing in here. Levi turn his head sideways but he did not say a thing until Elric spoke up, breaking he silence.“Good morning, I apologise for the intervention, Mister Dawson but I would like to ask Alaric Davis out. Coach orders.”My eyes found Damian and he is scr
I look at Leigh first before leaning forward to ask Rael about his whereabouts yesterday. Levi is now looking at Rael as well but the latter is just down on his plate, slicing his cake on silent.“I didn’t saw you though.” I uttered.He raise his gaze and found me looking at him but the way he looks made my lips parted automatically.“I told you, you weren’t there anymore. I bet you left with your boyfriend already.”With a nodding heads, I agreed in a quite manner before giving my attention back at Leigh. “See? So why did you lie about bringing Dia in the shop when you really did not?”She sips on her lemon juice while grinning before giving me an awkward smile. “Well, I uhm, I still haven’t got my allowance from Dad.”My brows creases. “Why? You could have just told me.”“I was about to but Dia started working already so I thought that the car doesn&
I look around to scan for Damian and saw him standing in front of the counter while checking some menu on the screen. With so much hesitation inside me, I still tried on weighing if I should go near him or not but I chose the first before looking around—checking if there are some students from the university. When it seems like there are no wearing those ID laces like mine, I walk straight towards him and saw him pouting a little while still looking on the menu.The woman from the counter smiled at me as soon as she notices me. I hesitantly smile to return back the favour before pushing Damian on his shoulder using my shoulder. He look down at me so I force a little smile before pointing something.“Their cheesecake series are their signature tea here.” I informed him, making him nod his head.“But I am not into milktea’s though.” He look at me so I follow his gaze then he smile at me, making my jaw dropped for a lot of times
After a long conversation with my friends, Damian and I, Denvi excused herself when she got a call from Tito. Everleigh, on the other hand, left almost thirty minutes ago because she still has class after lunch time. It’s just the boys and I this time so I play a little chuckle. They look at me, even Damian.“Are you guys feeling awkward that we are sitting with our Professor?”I notice how Damian awkwardly move his eyes on my friends until Levi spoke.“We have been talking an hour now, why a sudden awkwardness?”Nathan laugh as well. “Maybe, a delayed consciousness?” He kidded which made Damian laugh.“I don’t really mind if you guys go casual on me, but remember to be not one inside the class. I don’t like weird stares though.” He added.I laugh while picking some onion rings then found Rael just silently on his phone.I kick his legs under the table, making him groan
I went silent after he said that. I could not deny but I feel so safe right now with Rael so I decided not to intervene on his decisions anymore.It didn’t take as long inside the shop and right now, we are now back on the road while I am enjoying the wind that passes my face despite the helmet on my head. I lean closer at him. “Where are we heading now?”“Somewhere nice!” He exclaimed back making me more excited as I am.***I felt the bike stop from moving so I automatically open my eyes. I did not realize that I fell asleep already so I automatically wipe my face before removing the helmet on my head. I squeal when I realizes where we are so instead of removing the helmet, I ran towards the last part of the cliff when I saw that we are standing in a cliff with an overlooking white sand beaches.“This is so nice!” I exclaimed on top of my lungs while spreading both of my arms above. The bree
Right after we took some photos back on that cliff, we are now riding back to the city and plans on eating dinner together. I picked the seafood restaurant near the boundary of the city and Rael definitely agreed without any second thoughts. We talked so many things about his days, his family and I even shared what Mom sent to me earlier this morning.He chuckled. “Tita is really cute.”“Cute and sweet, she is!” I exclaimed before sipping on my Clam Chowder. I then closed my eyes as soon as the creamy soup started to linger down on my throat, and I hastily screamed in great glee. “God, I missed this!”Rael, who is sitting in front of me chuckled. “We haven’t ate any sea foods in a while now.”I nod my head, not looking at him since I am more focused to what I am eating. “Fact! We are so bys the last months and we seldom goes out, well, except from the fact that we went bar hopping few weeks ago.
Damian move away from me after a few seconds of kissing me on my lips. My eyes are obviously wide and staring on his slowly opening closed eyes as soon as he move away from me. Our gaze then met each other until I realize what just happened, so I bit my lower lip, trying to look away but I still kept on staring back on his face.I parted my lips this time to speak but I closed it back anyway when I could not find the right words to utter.Damian cleared his throat as he slowly sat back down on the chair that he was sitting, still clearing his throat before looking away from me.The balcony is being engulf with silence and even I, myself, could not find the right track to speak, and if I should react to what he did or what. I surely wanted to move away earlier but my mind says otherwise so I just kept on staring at him, making sure to memorize all the details opf his face and register it inside my mind without any hesitation.It was just so overwhelming an
The next day, like what I have said from last night, I get up early to heat the foods that Damian cooked last night. I slept inside the guestroom since I could not find myself sleeping with Damian in a same room knowing that he kissed me and not even felt sorry about it. I mean, it kind of a big deal for me because first, why would he kiss me. And second, we are not in a relation—‘Duh, it’s not as if you did not initiated the first kiss.’ A voice insides me started to creep in so I bowled a little before going down on the bed. It is still early in the morning and I am thinking that kiss once again.Shezz, I am not pretty much normal on this state anymore.I put my hair into a messy bun before taking a mouth wash. As soon as I have finished checking myself, it is then I finally get out the room and walk straight towards the kitchen. Since the guestroom is situated on the right wing of this house, I just glimpse a little at Damian’s
Maybe they are right when it rains on your parade, rainbow will soon to occur after a long journey of heavy rains. I have been wishing for a Prince Charming on a right time with a Cinderella-like love story to pacify my standards. But never thought that I would be no like Cinderella because I was born to create my own story and find my Prince Charming on my own silly way.“Gosh, I don’t feel my make-up today.” I mumbled while watching myself in front of the mirror.Leigh, who is also fixing herself, growled. “Shut up, preggy, you look good already.”I immediately cup my belly after Leigh said that. My baby is six months now, three way to go before we’ll finally see him. And yes, it’s a boy. Damian was so happy after we had our gender reveal celebration last month. I could not help but to chuckle on what my love story looks like. Did not know that being in a total heartbreak can lead a person to another roller-coaster love story that I thought, will fail as well like the usual. Who wou
Did not know why I am back on my hometown alone after spending a day with my friends. Earlier, I was laughing with them to cast all my worries away not until I am finally left alone inside that house. I have never been so empty my life, maybe I was devastated after Elric broke up with me but what Damian did is more painful. I was not expecting a Prince Charmng anymore, contented on how he is to me, but guess I am failed by my own thoughts again. I spent weeks on hiding my pain but this time, I could not take it anymore. Never thought that after hours of good times and laughter, will lead me to this kind of misery. I guess we really should not be too happy or else we’ll be sad longer.I am currently in the same place I was before but this time, I am here because not because I fought with someone but because I failed to love one more time.Earlier, after my friends left, I notice that Damian weren’t at home—even his car. I guess he is out again to wherever he is going. I bent my knees f
Days and weeks passed by so fast. Damian and I maintained the distance, we did not talk like the usual. We just talk about the improvements of the baby, nothing more personal. I have been hiding crying under the sheets for weeks now as well but I woke up feeling a lot better than the previous day. I kept reminding myself to be strong for this little me inside me and that I should continue this damn of a hell-hole.Today, it’s Friday. Leigh and Alaric would be coming here after class so I prepared and ordered foods for us. Damian already said himself that I can definitely treat this house as my own, so inviting my friends would not be a big deal. In fact, he even went to pay Aubrey a visit on their rented unit last day so I think we are both fair towards each other. I cup my belly when my stomach growl. I check for the time and sees it’s almost twelve in the afternoon already so I grab some few slices from the steak I ordered from Denvi’s place. I go on my monthly check up as well and
Like what we really want to do, Alaric and I are now looking at the sandbar from a far. People there are enjoying their little vacation, perhaps some of these are students who just finished their term exam. We are both leaning on his car while we are on the side way. Silence envelopes us for long minutes now, no one is talking. We just enjoyed our company without necessary words to speak. I know that there are lots of question running through his head, even I.Questions like, why? Where did we go wrong? Did I trust him too much? Was I that gullible? And lastly, why is he treating Aubrey unlikely? But the latter seems cool seeing us yesterday—like the first day I saw her. I do not know if was I too stupid not to notice or there is really something going on between Damian and I.A loud sigh escape from my lips before tilting my head. “Aren’t you hungry?” I asked to break the silence, remembering that we never had our lunch still. Well, I was about to. But never thought I would be seeing
It’s already eight in the evening when Alaric sent me home after hours of riding the car near the sea side. After Damian left earlier, Alaric invited me for a drive for me to ease the burden feeling I was dealing with earlier. Unlike what Damian said, I did not wait for him back there. And now, as I head inside the n=entrance of the house, the lights from the living room are already off except upstairs. I took a heavy breath while going towards the kitchen and drink a glass of water. I lean for a few seconds on the counter before removing my blazer as I walk upstairs, burnt out and with a heavy heart.I check the balcony of Damian is there but he wasn’t so I am sure he is inside his room. I turn the knob right and sees him reading a book on his table. He look up at me and sigh before going back to the book he is reading.That’s it. I don’t want bullsh8ts while we share the same sheets.I walk straight towards him and put the test result I had few days ago. I saw him looking at the two
I have been sitting on top of the toilet inside our room for long minutes now. The kit is still inside the box after I tested myself right away I arrived home and now, I am afraid and confuse at the same time on how I am going to react by the result. I take a deep a slow deep breath before closing my eyes as I move the kit out from the box.“Oh my god.” I whispered as I decided to open my eyes.My lips parted at the sight of two red lines being shown and my hands immediately shaken, mind starting to process in haywire.“Fck.” I cussed out of deep breath. I then remain my posture to calm my nerves down before I went out from the comfort room just to sat back down on top of the bed. “Oh my god, it did not change.” I even mumbled, sounding so stupid on how I reacted.“Mommy…” I mumbled once again before tearing up. I then realize why I am crying so I immediately fan my face using my hands. “Heck.” I sniff before looking around.Should I tell Damian immediately? Everleigh? The rest of my
I thought that the supposedly lunch won’t take longer that what I expected but I guess not. Alaric and I are both panting as we head out inside a hunted castle in the amusement park. I do not know what pushes me to invite him here but I just feel like going in here, did not really expect that he’ll go with me.Few seconds passed when I saw him offering me a tumbler of water, moving it to and fro in front of my face. “Here.”My gaze shifted towards him confusedly. “You already drank in here.” I muttered, reminding him that he already used this and I don’t think it’s appropriate for me to use it as well, knowing that he used it first-hand.He chuckled. “Right. It was so stupid of me not to realize that.” He mumbled before looking around the area. “You wait here. I’ll find some stores that sells water.”I am about to stop him and would be the one to look for one but Alaric already walked away. I look around with a smile on my face before putting the tumbler down on my side, giggling upon
The next day, Alaric and I still decided to see each other. We are still in Damian’s place as what Alaric also suggested so that we can ask assistance for Damian today. We are almost done on our Thesis which is an advantage so that we don’t have to worry anymore after finals. “Should I talk with Damian instead? I have just few questions to ask.” Alaric said in the middle of our silence. I look at him and he is seriously typing on his laptop while not looking at me. I then turn around to look upstairs before nodding my head. “Sure, if you want to.” I simply mumbled before I fix few useless papers on the carpet. Alaric just nod my head, not responding anymore. Few more minutes has passed one more time when he stand up. I follow him with my gaze as he started roaming around. “Uh, are you seeing him now?” He shake his head with a smile. “No, I was about to ask if you guys can print out papers here.” I immediately nod my head and stand up. “Of course. Damian has upstairs. He should no
I shake my head a little while biting my lips. I watch him as his throat slowly move up and down while looking shock at the house in front where I told him to park. “This is our Professor’s place. Why are we here?” Oh my god how did he know Damian’s place? “H-Ho—“ I tried as much not to stuttered but the way he reacted made me lost my right mind to think immediately. I watch him as he went out the car so I followed him. “Let’s talk inside, Alaric.” I mumbled in a whisper before I swipe the card key to the small gate. I heard him gasp from behind but I did not turn to look at him or how he reacts because I know for sure he is confused and I am as well. How did he know that this is Damian’s place? “Wait, Dionne---“ I face him just we are about to enter the entrance of the house. I rub my temple as I look for words on how to tell him. A deep sigh came out from me before I finally raise my gaze up at him. “Damian is my boyfriend…” I whispered, looking at him under my eyelids, worri