Pushing one hand against the wall right beside her head, he leaned forward and looked deep into her tawny eyes. ‘I’m wondering why you’re trying to give me lessons in protocol I neither want nor need. But mostly I’m wondering whether you’re feeling as frustrated as I am.’Perhaps if he’d put it any other way than that Pamela might have given his question some consideration—or allowed her feelings to sway her. Because hadn’t she been teetering on a knife-edge of wanting him and yet terrified of letting him know that? Hadn’t it been as much as she could do each morning not to gaze wistfully at the sensual curve of his cynical lips? Not to wish that they were subjecting her to another of those hard and passionate kisses?But his question had been more mechanical than emotional. No woman wanted to feel like an itch which a man needed to scratch, did she? And hadn’t she told herself over and over again that no matter how much she wanted him no good would come of any kind of liaison? She kn
With practised ease he yanked them down, slithering them over her knees to her ankles. He knelt to slide off first one shoe and then the other—tossing them aside with the tights, so that they lay discarded. And then he rose again to take her in his arms.Maybe he should have carried her across to one of the plush sofas which comprised the more casual meeting area of his office. Stripped her off slowly and provocatively as she doubtlessly deserved. But for the first time in his life Theodore couldn’t bear the thought of delaying this for a second longer than was necessary. Her wide eyes and quickened breath were doing something inexplicable to him. He felt unaccountably primitive … as if his desire to possess her was urging him along on a dark and unstoppable tide.He touched her against her panties, heard her make some yelping little sound of pleasure and frustration as he ripped them apart. Then he unzipped himself with a shaking hand, freeing the leaden spring of his erection with a
Pamela snatched her hand away. ‘So you really hit the jackpot with me?’He gave a low laugh as he recaptured her hand and brought it up to his lips. ‘You wanted to know why I found sex with you more exciting than with anyone else and I’ve told you. Don’t ask the questions, Pamela, if you can’t bear to hear the answers.’‘You’re impossible,’ she whispered.‘And you’re …’ His eyes narrowed as he kissed each fingertip in turn. ‘Well, right now you are looking positively decadent.’Her indignation melted away as he slid her fingers inside the moist cavern of his mouth. It was as if even his most innocuous touch could weaken all her defences. ‘Am I?’‘Extremely.’ He drifted the now damp fingers to the faint indigo shadows beneath her sleepy tawny eyes. ‘But you also look worn out, kalila.’She loved him touching her like that. She loved him touching her pretty much anywhere. ‘Mmm?’‘Mmm. So why don’t you just relax?’ He brushed back the heavy spill of curls which had fallen down around her
She shuddered. She’d been like a woman possessed—urging him on as if she couldn’t get enough of him. It had been the very first time she’d ever let a man make love to her, and she’d been so greedy for him that she hadn’t wanted to wait. She felt the dull flush of shame as she acknowledged that she hadn’t even been ladylike enough to hold out for doing it in private—in a bed!Yet she knew what kind of man he was. Hadn’t she seen him in action often enough in the past? She’d lost count of the times she’d been dispatched to buy lastminute presents for his current squeeze—or bouquets of flowers when he was giving chase to a new woman.And what about when he started to cool towards the object of his affections, so that he became positively arctic overnight, usually three to four weeks into the ‘relationship’? She’d witnessed the faint frown and the shake of his head when she mouthed the name of some poor female whose voice was stuttering down the telephone line as she asked to speak to him
‘A fumble?’ he interrupted furiously. ‘This is how you dare to describe what happened between us?’‘How would you describe it, then?’‘With a little more poetry and imagination than that!’‘Okay. That … that amazing sex we had, pressed up against the wall of your office.’ She sucked in a deep breath—because if she didn’t tell him what was bugging her then how would he know? ‘And you then treating me like a total stranger in the car before waltzing off to your fancy party at the embassy.’Theodore narrowed his eyes with sudden comprehension. So that was what this was about. She wanted what all women wanted. Recognition. A place on his arm to illustrate their closeness—to show the world their togetherness. But wasn’t she being a little presumptuous, in the circumstances?‘I didn’t touch you because I knew what would happen if I did—and I had no intention of walking into the party with the smell of your sex still on my skin. No.’ He shook his head as
This is the last kind of place I’d have thought you’d choose,’ said Theodore slowly.Pamela looked up from the laminated menu, which she already knew by heart, and stared at the hawk-like beauty of the Prince’s autocratic features. ‘You don’t like it?’He looked around. It was noisy, warm and cluttered. Lighted candles dripped wax down the sides of old Chianti bottles, posters of Venice and Florence vied for wall-space with photos of Siena’s football team, and popular opera played softly in the background. He could remember eating somewhere like this years ago as a student, at the end of a rowdy rugby tour. But never since then. ‘It’s … different,’ he observed. ‘Not the kind of place I normally eat in. I thought you might have chosen somewhere …’‘Yes?’ Pamela raised her eyebrows.‘Somewhere a little more upmarket. The kind of place you’d always wanted to go but never had the chance.’Pamela put the menu down. ‘You mean somewhere like the Green Room at the Granchester? Or the River Te
Ah, but my brother is King there now,’ he said, his voice hardening as he acknowledged the capricious law of succession and how it altered the lives of those who were affected by it. ‘And Zamorah became King very unexpectedly, which changed my place in the natural order of things.’Pamela looked at him. ‘How come?’‘Up until that moment I was just another desert Prince with the freedom to do pretty much as I wanted—but when our uncle died suddenly I became second in line to the throne. The spare.’‘And is that so bad?’ she prompted gently.‘Try living in a goldfish bowl and see how you like it,’ he said. ‘It means you have all the strictures of being the heir, but none of the power. My freedom was something I cherished above everything else …’ Hadn’t it been the one compensation for his lonely and isolated childhood? The fact that he hadn’t really had to account for himself? ‘And suddenly it was taken away from me. It made me want to stay away from Khoshorbhan, where I felt the people
‘By “settling down”, I suppose you mean getting married and having children?’ he questioned.Pamela nodded. ‘I suppose so.’Theodore’s lips curved. She supposed so! ‘The perfect nuclear family?’‘Well—’‘Which doesn’t exist,’ he interjected.‘That’s a little harsh, Theodore.’‘Is it?’ Black eyes iced into her. ‘You experienced one yourself, did you?’‘Well, no. You know I didn’t. I told you that I never knew my father.’‘And it left a gaping hole in your life?’‘I tried never to think of it that way,’ she said defensively. ‘Holes can always be filled by something else. It may not have been a “normal” family life, but it was a life.’‘Well, I never knew a “normal” childhood, either,’ he said, more bitterly than he had intended.‘Can I … can I ask what happened?’He stared at her, and she looked so damned sweet and soft that he found himself telling her. ‘My mother almost died having me, and after I was born she was so ill that she needed round-the-clock care. Zamorah was that bit older