Chapter 5 MY MISERY

(Ruth's POV)

My mom landed a slap on my face that my face burned. I was in shock at what just happened. I couldn't look up for a few seconds as I held my face, then tears slowly welled up in my eyes as I looked up at her. 

"You bitch!!!" 

"Mom..." I called, trying to hold back my tears. 

She looked at me with rage, "Don't call me that! I did not give birth to a slut like you!" 

I could hardly say anything as it wasn't the first time she would be lashing out at me like this. Why would she do this to me?

"Mom, why are you doing this to me?" I asked in a shaky voice. 

"You are nothing but a slut and unruly just like your father! You're nothing to be happy about! I regret giving birth to you!" She shouted at me. 

She always did. I have been reminded every single day of how much she regretted having me and how she never wanted to see my face if she had the opportunity to. 

"Mom, why wouldn't you ask me anything before coming to a conclusion? I didn't even get the chance to complain!" I tried to defend myself but I knew it was all useless. 

She wasn't going to listen to me even if my heart was breaking at all. The only thing she wanted to was to ease her ego. 

"I can't believe you complained earlier when I said you could start selling your body to make money. You complained to me about it and now you're doing it?" 

How would she even think I would seduce men the moment I came into this house? Has she ever thought of the fact that I could be the victim around here?

Just to please them, she would do everything but protect her own daughter. I knew she only thought of herself, yet I couldn't do anything because she was my mother after all. I don't have anywhere else I could go if I didn't stay with her. 

"How could you start seducing and making out with them the moment you came here? They're supposed to become your brothers soon!" She shouted and her hands landed on the other side of my face again. 

I'm already used to this in any case so it wasn't a big deal for me anymore. Even my mother didn't want me, why would others want me? 

"Mom... I didn't do anything. They pushed themselves onto me. You need to believe me please." I pleaded with her, trying to defend myself from the whole mess. 

She scoffed, "You're just like your father. Lying and deception is in your blood, I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree."

It hurt me that she kept mentioning me being like my father when it was also meant to be derogatory. 

"This is a misunderstanding mom–" 

She cut me off, "You better not ruin things for me you slut. I'm going to tear you apart you ungrateful scum!" 

With that, she walked away without listening to my side of the story. I broke down in tears, on my knees as soon as she left. I couldn't hold back my tears because of the way she treated me. Why did she have to bring me to this place? 

Everything just wasn't working for me at all. It's not like it ever did but still, this place wasn't the one for me. Just when I thought things would not get worse for me, someone arrived in front of me at that time. 

I looked up and almost got an heart attack when I saw him. He was one of the Carter brothers and he didn't look pleased to see me. Aster Carter was one of the most of all the brothers. He had this aura that made him dominating every time he passed by. 

He was the son of an Alpha after all and he was always brave. He was also very obedient from what I know and most certainly, he hated me. 

I got up, wiping my tears because I felt embarrassed people like him would see me like this. 

I can't believe my mom could have said all those things around him? Could it be possible that he heard us talking about it in the first place? What if he found out my mother and I wasn't exactly in a good relationship?

The whole facade would be over and that would mean I literally ruined things for my mom. Fear gripped me, knowing how much I would suffer if that was the case. I was already going through a lot, I didn't want anything to add to it. 

"Umm... Excuse me." I said, trying to leave but he pulled me back. 

"What happened to you? I just met you crying." He asked, laughing at me. "Don't tell me my brothers already broke you too much. Damn, I must say that I am proud of them."

I couldn't say anything as I just watched him laugh at my misery. Seeing me cry must be thrilling for them. It hurt me so much that I wanted to cry more. It also made me want to throw up, the amount of hate everyone was throwing my way. 

"Why won't you say anything? Cat got out tongue?" He was getting annoyed this time around. 

"Please... Leave me alone Aster. I didn't do anything to you. Is it fun to watch other people cry?" I said to him with a shaky voice. 

He nodded, "I wouldn't mind you saying other people but did you just compare yourself to people? You and your mother are gold diggers."

At least I know he didn't hear my mom and I arguing because he would have bothered me about it. I felt so embarrassed and angry listening to him. 

"That's not true at all. You can't keep saying this to me!" I cried. 

He laughed at me again before his face turned serious, "I don't care. I say whatever I want to you because you deserve it. You can get the hell out of this house if you don't want to hear it." 

I was going to leave the room for him but he suddenly pushed me to the wall and kissed me. I froze again for the umpteenth time and was dumfounded by what he did. He was doing the same thing his brothers did to me, abusing me. 

I pushed him away with all my strength and wanted to hit him so much but there was no way I could do that. He would probably tear me apart if I dared to do something like that to him. 

I thought I wouldn't be able to say anything until he said this to me with a smirk on his face. 

"Not bad. Your lips taste nice. Good for a toy." He said with a sinister smile on his face. 

I couldn't hold back myself, I slapped him and pushed him out of the room. I shut the door and wiped my tears. I can't believe this happened to me. 

Why was this happening to me all the time. What exactly did I do to deserve this in my past life? Did I betray the king? 

I consoled myself with the thought that I was going to be stronger and was going to leave soon once her wolf awakened and also reject them.

That's the only way for me to get out of this misery. I want to leave them, I hope my wolf awakens on time.