TEN~

DERA.

Damilayo seemed off for the rest of the week and the next. I should have been happy since he was giving me the space I asked for. He was going back to ignoring me. That's what I wanted but if I'm being honest with myself then I don't think that's what I want anymore. The thought left me sad maybe even worse. Melancholic perhaps.

   He even went on a business trip few days ago and was suppose to come back today. Normally when he goes on these trips, I help him pack his bags but the night before he didn't come to ask me to help and the next morning, I was shocked to see him with his Secretary in the car. It was the first time he was travelling with someone. I tried to convince myself it was normal to bring his Secretary along but even I knew that wasn't the case.

  Before he left I offered to cross check his luggages to make sure he had everything with him which he didn't. Not only did he almost leave his Phone and MacBook charger behind but he almost left an important file behind. I found it when I went to bring the chargers.

  I was left alone for three days and hopefully Damilayo was coming back from his trip today.

Just like before I spent most of my day on my phone or watching Movies. I tried watching Fifty shades of grey on Netflix. Key word being tried but I just couldn't finish it Because each time Christian Gray said something rather hot or Sexual related I found myself getting uncomfortable, I would have these unusual tingling sensation in the depths of my stomach which led to me pressing my thighs together.

 

  I was worried when Damilayo still wasn't home at 8pm. I contemplated calling him but wasn't sure if it was a good idea. I tried convincing myself tgat he could be stuck in Traffic or maybe he changed his mind about coming back today but then he would have called to tell me that.

I even started thinking that maybe he was in danger or he was harmed.

  I remained downstairs in the living room and busied myself by watching The Johnsons. A Nigerian comedic series. I must have fallen asleep because I later woke up to the feel of someone caressing the side of my face.

I met Damilayo's tired eyes.

"Hey." He mutters staring down at me. I notices I'm not in the living room anymore but now in my bedroom and he wasn't in his usual work suit as I expected him to be in. Instead, he was in his boxers and a plain grey t-shirt. He must have brought me up to my room then changed before coming back to my room. I wasn't sure.

"Hey." I reply quietly just staring at him, I get up so that I'm in a sitting position. I want to ask him if he's okay but I refrain from doing so. Instead I say;

"You look tired."

"I am tired." He sighs getting comfortable in my bed under the covers. I let him place his head on my bosom and my fingers sink into his hair playing with it. This was something I always secretly wanted to do.

  I had to admit that i missed him in my own weird twisted way. I can't even begin to count how many times I opened out empty message box. I wanted to ask if he was ok but I didn't have the guts to.

"I messed up." He tells me pulling me out of my pool of Thoughts.

"Okay." I drawled not knowing what else to say but the minute it left my mouth I felt stupid for uttering it.

"I lost a friend in a car accident. I got the news yesterday." He says and my breath hitches. The thought of someone dying always makes me tense up.

"He was a close friend of mine though before he passed we weren't on talking terms. Now he's gone, I have come to realise how much he meant to me and how pointless it was to hold a grudge against him."

I was confused. He said he messed up so how did he mess up? Was it because he was keeping a grudge?

"Um..how Exactly did you mess up?" I had the audacity to ask.

"I only now understand the saying; you never realize the Value of what you have until you lose it." He says and I nod. He sits up twisting his body to face me and I do the same.

"I want to start again. We can start as Friends and work our way up to the Husband and Wife thing."

"Where is this coming from? I thought we decided on going back to the way it was?" I say and he shakes his head.

"No. That's what you wanted I just wanted to respect your decision."

"Good. Then why are you suddenly bringing it up again?"

I admit that i don't want us going back to ignoring each other but the thought of actually working towards being a couple scares the hell out of me.

"You saved me from both embarrassment and losing a big business deal when you brought those Files. Sure I had those Files backed up in my MacBook but what if you didn't care so much as to make sure I had every thing with me? I wouldn't have realised I even forgot my charger nor the file and my MacBook was already dead. What would I have done then?"

Wow. He really thought this through.

"Even my so called Secretary I was travelling with didn't even care to check if I had every thing with me. My Father would have buried me alive if I had lost that deal, that's how important it was." He tells me and I just nod not knowing what else to do or say.

"I went through your bank transactions, your balance. Do you even know how much money you have in there?" He says like he still couldn't wrap his head around it. He was finding it hard to believe.

"It's not mine. It's yours." I counter and he shakes his head.

"You have over Thirty million in your account. I send you half a million every month for the past six years and you don't even use it.

  I remember telling you that you were a liability and that I was doing you a favour by keeping you-

My mind trails back to his Parents Anniversary party and an unpleasant feeling rests inside of me.

-You had enough to Divorce me and start afresh with someone else that will actually treat you right but you didn't."

I started feeling like he was over analysing everything.

"If I had done that then you could have easily frozen my account rendering me broke."

"But nothing was stopping you from withdrawing all the cash and keeping somewhere else or even transferring the money to a different account. Dera you could have left me and not put up with my crap but you didn't so why-

"Please stop. This is too much." I crawl out of bed heading for door but Damilayo beats me to it.

"I can't handle all of this tonight. I just want to go to bed." I whine.

"Please just hear me out." He pleads and when I don't say anything he continues.

"I really mean it. I'm ready to put in my all into this Marriage."

I let out a small cry of frustration. "I don't want to play these games with you. I don't know what you're playing at-

"I'm not playing with you. I promise"

I still didn't believe him. "No. You're definitely playing with me. So what if I unknowingly saved you from losing a deal. You could have bought a new charger or something. I really don't care. Do whatever you want but don't play me ok? I can't handle things like that."

"I know-"

"No you don't know! The last time you were this close to me, you used me! You made me feel worthless just to prove a stupid point. So what if I'm Naive or Innocent, it's not your job to change me or would you have preferred it if I was like one of the many girls you brought home? Would you have preferred it if I had your- if I had you in my mouth? Or I let you do to me as you wish in bed?

I don't want any of this Dami and there's a limit to what I can handle and when it comes to you, you destroy me with your words and actions over and over again. Do you not ever get tired of tormenting me?" I stop my rant to catch my breath and blink away the tears that blurred my vision.

Damilayo shocks me by going on his knees.

"I mean it Dera. I want to start afresh with you. I'm Sorry for Everything. For the Six years of hurt and pain. I'm sorry Dera. Please Please do this with me."

I press my lips together as a single tear escaped my eye. I shake my head. I just couldn't get involved with him. Doing that means actually opening my heart to him and letting him in.

No.

I can't do that to myself.

"Dera, please give me a chance. Let me make Us work." He pleads.

"I admit that i did think of divorcing you. I even thought of asking for Millions as Alimony but I couldn't. I stupidly believed that you were going to change and this..." I gesture between us.

"...would actually work. I thought that we could fall in real love like one of the Many romance books I've read but this is not it. I don't recall the women in those books having to go through so much."

I sniffle not caring that by now I was a crying mess.

"I gave you Six years of Chances so you don't get to ask me for another one because I fear that I might actually cave in and I don't want that. Dami you're break me..." I walk around him reaching for the door handle. That was my chance to leave and I know he'll let me leave but I couldn't. I couldn't leave so instead I turned back around.

  I pull Dami to his feets and I kiss him.

I, Dera just gave my first Kiss to Damilayo Christian Adelaide.

A/N: ah! Can you imagine? She kissed him! Anyways I hope y'all enjoyed the chapters Do not forget to post a Review. Thanks Lovelies!