Only chance

I thought about what had happened before, it was almost impossible to clearly perceive the events that were taking place. If I just looked at everything like I was watching a movie or reading a book, I would think it was fascinating. But to live in it, in the flesh…how terrifying I think that is. Almost so. Just thinking about it made my heart beat harder and faster in my chest, but this time was different than before. Moreover, I also have a feeling of heaviness, slackness, almost tingling in the abdomen. It reminds me of the feeling I had when I was a kid, playing hide and seek in the dark. I don't want to be caught, but just sitting there wondering if I'll be found is both exciting and scary. At that moment, I realized that suspense is what I like, not hide and seek.

Being around Eric always caused that feeling. I kept seeing his face, eyes closed, head tilted to my hand, soft male flesh beneath his fingers. The whole thing played out over and over in my mind, but a series of flas