Chapter 42. REJECTION

(Ash’s POV)

“Fuck!” I cursed so loudly while hitting the wall when I saw Freya come out walking away from my apartment. My feelings were raging violently. “Fuck!” I cursed again as if those harsh words could quell the fire burning in my chest. But the truth is, nothing can ease this chaos.

I feel so angry and disappointed with everything that has happened. I feel so confused about the feelings I feel right now. My desire to be closer to Freya drives me crazy. The feeling grew more and more every time and became bigger until it was difficult for me to bear.

The desire to keep seeing her, the jealousy when I saw her with another man, and my greed for wanting Freya only to be mine.

I clenched my fists, feeling my nails dig into my palms. I know she still loves me, there's something in her gaze that tells me that. But every time she pulled away, and rejected me, it was like a knife to my self-esteem. And ironically, the further away she got, the stronger my desire to get her, at any cost,