EricaI was spiraling and I have no idea how to stop it. Yesterday, I spent my day alone sitting at the edge of the cliff looking out at nothing and everything. For some reason I have yet to open the note Alex had slipped in my pocket. I didn’t know why I was so hesitant to read its contents but I was sure whatever was in there would change the course of my actions. Right now, I have no clue what I was going to do next. The only thing I knew was somewhere, somehow I started to have other feelings besides physical attraction for Antonio. If not for that, I wouldn’t have felt the hurt I had felt when I learned that he brought me here because of Gabriel. Not for me.But then just yesterday morning he had told me it was no longer the only reason. I didn’t know if I should believe him. Logically, I shouldn’t. He was the villain but when he looked at me with those dark golden eyes he didn’t feel like the villain to me. He felt like something else...I shook my head and frowned at my own tho
Erica “Then hurt me.” I was tired of playing this cat and mouse game with him. I wanted him and it has taken me too long to realise that it wasn’t just physical attraction. And now that I knew that, I didn’t want to waste my time however long I have here with him. But most of all, I wanted to just have him for this one time without anyone intruding between us. For one night, I didn't want to think of him as the man who kidnapped me and the man who wanted to hurt my brother in-law but as someone that I needed to erase all the past experiences I’d had. For him to be the only man that would touch me like no one else had and to be the one to make me feel wanted. And I knew he could do that, something tells me he was the only one who could do that. All that time I had searched for one specific man, I hadn't found one who’d felt right and it was useless because the man I was looking for was here in Italy while I searched the dating apps uselessly. But then he came for me. Maybe it wa
AntonioAs I stood there looking at the wall that have so many objects to inflict pain, all I really wanted to do was to turn around, gather her in my arms and take her to the bed. But she wants something else. She asked for the pain I could give her, so she’ll have it. And I couldn't do what I really wanted United she begged. Tonight, I’ll make her.I picked up a flogger with six tails and knotted beads at the ends. I caressed the leather strips, it was soft to the touch but when they'll fall on her softer flesh they’ll hurt like hell. They’ll leave behind marks as many as I wanted. I turned around to walk back to her with the flogger in my hand.When I met her gaze, her eyes were already focused on me. With my black tie between her lips, digging into her cheeks and her wrists bound above her head while she stood there on her toes entirely nakéd, she looked helpless. Except, one look into her dark brown eyes told a different story. She was nervous, sure. But she was also excited. Th
Erica The fear and little bit of apprehension I had was nowhere to be found now, and in its place there was only hunger. Hunger for him. And yet, as I sobbed and screamed from the sharp bite of pain he was inflicting on my back, second after second, I held on to my pride. Even though I knew it won’t do me any good, still I didn’t want to give in so easily. He marked me, stroke after stroke, the leather left a fiery strike everywhere it landed and when he was done with my back, he moved lower. I arched up, my hands twisting in my binds as I stood up on my toes when he hit me below the curve of my arse, catching me on my sensitive skin. I screamed for him and I knew he was enjoying every second of it even though I was torturing both of us by making him wait. I knew he wasn’t the man who would bow out, I knew it had to be me and I will. I will when I’d feel like begging him won’t make me weak and then only I’d beg him. Strong fingers wrapped around the back of my neck, pulled my head b
AntonioWhen I entered the bedroom, I walked to the bed and laid her down on it, and followed after her when her arms remained locked around my neck. I was glad that she seemed reluctant to break this contàct because I wasn’t yet ready to. Her luminous brown eyes stared into mine as she parted her legs, making space for me. Her lashes were still wet from her tears from when I claimed her virgin pûssy for myself and the way it had felt my côck demanded to do that all over again. She was prettier when she cried for me.I couldn’t read her expression but it felt like an echo of mine so to keep my own thoughts in wraps, I wanted to look away from her dark gaze but I didn’t want to stop touching her. I couldn’t remember the last time I lost myself in a woman like this and the fact that I didn’t ever not use a condöm. But with her I had just not only lost myself, I also knew from the start I wasn’t going to let anything separate us, to stop me from feeling her bare walls against my côck and
EricaI woke up wrapped in Antonio’s arms, my face pressed to his chest. I was still on top of him and it might have seemed uncomfortable to sleep on top of another human being but Antonio was so warm and big, he felt like a heavenly mattress. His heart beat strongly against my ear as he slept. I knew that he hadn’t gone to sleep when I did and I didn’t want to wake him as I wanted to watch him for a moment, see him look so serene as he slept. It felt like something that not all people would get to witness.Someone else in his place might look vulnerable as they slept, but not so surprisingly Antonio still looked self assured and beautiful and fierce while he slept. My fingers itched to trace those dark brows and those lips that had seemed my only centre when he had taken me so forcefully and brutally.I wouldn’t have ever imagined my first time to be like this, and for someone with my past it shouldn’t have been. It would be a nightmare for a psychiatrist and a therapist both if the
EricaMy hair was still damp as I slipped out of the bed. After the dirty food session, Antonio had prepared a bath for us which we both desperately needed. And I was shocked to have him tend to me in a way I wasn’t ready for and neither I thought he was capable of. First of all, he had everything one would need for a bath like he was actually fond of them. And second, it was how he had taken care of me.The way he had touched me, washed me and how tenderly his fingers had caressed me, he had made me feel like I was the most precious and beautiful thing in the world. His touch was so gentle and the way he looked at me with those golden eyes of his while he had cleaned me, it had made me lose the sense of myself. He hadn't left a place that he hadn't soaped and washed, he had paid attention to every nook and cranny of my body, making me turn into a pile of goo in the warm water.For a brief moment I had forgotten myself and who he was. I could never have guessed that Antonio Rossi, who
EricaI couldn't believe that Antonio brought the little dog for me. After how he had reacted in that alley which I knew was his knee jerk reaction after what Mario told me, and what seeing the dog must’ve reminded him of, I understood why he didn't want to bring it with us in the first place but he did bring it. He went back to the city for the dog and brought it back for me. I didn't know what to make of it.The puppy settled against my chest and I caressed it between his eyes, there was still a bandage near his eye that was quite swollen from his injury and another around one of his hind legs but now he was clean and looked better than it was when I had discovered it in the trash can.“I see he already likes you.” Mario commented.“We are like long lost friends,” I said as I stood up.I finally brought myself to look at Antonio but he was looking anywhere but at me or the dog. I licked my lips as I walked to him but stopped when I watched his shoulders tensing and his muscles clenc
Ephraim“Your job is to do whatever I tell you to do. Protect her.”I gritted my teeth at his absurd command, all these years I had been his shadow, spent all my time protecting him whenever he stepped out of that castle where he lived like a recluse. And now here he was telling me to protect her but not him. I’d have protected her but not at the cost of him, not if it meant letting him be in danger.I pressed on the accelerator as the car that was following us came to the side and slammed at the back of ours, for a moment I lost control of the steering wheel and the car tilted to the one side. I glanced in the rear-view mirror to catch Antonio cupping Erica’s head to prevent her head from slamming into the wind
AntonioMy office door opened with a bang for the second time that day and Ephraim stood there with Thor barking behind him. Before I could really give him a lashing to remind him of his place and for letting that dog into my office, I noticed the set of his jaw and the paleness of his face and without a second thought, my mind went straight to Erica. “What is it?”Instead of answering me, he asked, “Have you talked to Erica?”Even though I had wanted to call her, I hadn’t. And it was his fault. Because Ephraim’s words had unsettled me and I didn’t want to prove him right so no matter how much I was tempted to call her, I had refrained but now as I saw the expression on Ephraim’s face I regretted not doing so. And more than that as I slipped out my phone and dialled her number I regretted not putting a tracker on her phone after she broke the bracelet when the call ended without ringing on the other side.I had wanted to give her some privacy to talk to her family and it was the reaso
EricaI excused myself from the table to go to the bathroom, I wanted to ask Riley if she wanted to join me but she was busy talking to the guy sitting opposite her. But just as I took a step away from the table, Leo also stood up. I asked, “Where are you going?”“I’ll walk with you.”“Oh, you don’t have to.” I said, feeling embarrassed that he could easily read how I was hesitant and felt a little out of place here which was why I needed company to not look like a lost child.He ignored me and grabbed my hand as he made his way to the left side of the sitting area of the cafe where there was a door that led to a mildly lit corridor and pointed out the washroom for me. He said, “I know that your bodyguards aren't here today, so it’s understandable if you don't feel okay to roam around the unfamiliar place all alone.”I never thought about it in such a way but I guess I was almost carefree at the base level knowing nothing would hurt me, for instance no masked man would materialize out
Antonio“Sit down and explain yourself before I lose it.” I said to Ephraim as I entered the study after making sure that Elijah knew not to lose sight of her in any way and also to make sure she doesn't see him, if the former happened I’ll make sure he loses his fûcking life.Erica had asked me to stop sending men with her before too, saying that she felt like the odd one out with all the other students gawking at her because of all the men standing guard. But I had ignored her then because I knew most of them probably already knew who she was with, I was one of the men that people recognised on sight and associating with me puts her at risk so it wasn’t just to prevent her from running but also to make sure no one hurts her. And now I wanted to test her out. To know what she’ll do with her new found freedom that I was giving her. Even though it will be an illusion, for her it will be real enough.As I sat behind my desk, I folded my hands and looked at Ephraim. In the past, there ha
Antonio“Antonio...”“Mmm?”“There is this new place that has opened up in downtown that everyone is going to after the classes. Can I go?”“Of course. I told you, you can go anywhere you want to go. I’ll tell Ephraim to take you.” I replied, feeling a smile turn up my lips at the way she asked for my permission.She sat up, slipping out of my hold. And even though it annoyed me, I opened my eyes to look at her. Her flawless back was to me and I couldn't help but trail down my fingers on the curve of her spine and smiled when she shuddered. Without looking at me, she said, “I, actually, don't want him to come with me.”I narrowed my eyes on her back. Grabbing the back of her nape, I pulled her back until she was lying and then I sat up on my elbow to look down at her as I asked, “Are you planning to run away?”She rolled her eyes. She actually rolled her eyes and gave me a smile that made my cock hard, again. She said, “If I wanted to leave, I would've left that night.”It was three n
AntonioI stood near the windows and looked down at her. Ephraim had given her his jacket that she had wrapped around her to protect herself from the cold. She was looking back at the castle from time to time, and sometimes her gaze would go up to the terrace but she didn't turn to look in the direction of the bedroom which was on her left. And even if she had looked I doubted she would be able to make me out in the darkness of the bedroom.I have no fûcking idea why I said what I said. I didn't know what got into me to let her leave. I just fûcking forced her to go. But when I saw her bandaged hand... I wasn’t lying. Seeing her hurt messes with me in a way I couldn’t explain. It was like going back in the past and seeing all the blood and feeling the pain. Being helpless, that's what it felt like.I wasn't prepared to say any of the things I told her but unlike her I was mature enough to recognise the truth when it smacked me in the face every time I looked at her, kissed her, touche
Erica“What does that mean?” He questioned, his golden brown eyes frowning down at me. “What are you talking about?”I stared at him for a few seconds, if I didn’t know better I would really believe that he has no idea what I was talking about. The way he looked so confused, like he had done nothing wrong, like he didn’t know what I was talking about, like he hadn’t left me in the bed only to be with her. I swallowed against the lump in my throat as I sat up and slipped out of the bed. Sitting there with him so close wouldn’t give me enough strength to keep my anger. But even while I stood and he sat there on the bed, he was almost my height and just as big.“I saw you with her.” It took more effort than it should have to say her name. “Nicole. The way she was touching you. Kissing you. She kissed you...” I couldn't hide the pain as I said those words. And once again the image of her materialized in my mind, the same image that had been haunting me, that had forced me to slam my fist
EphraimErica pushed past me and walked away to the exit I was pointing out instead of going through the one where Antonio was standing close to. Nicole’s eyes met mine, smug and taunting. She said, “You should go after her before you lose his toy. I heard it’s very expensive.”I took a step closer to her and she sucked in a nervous breath. I had never interacted with her, apart from the times when Antonio needed another set of hands in an act that he put up in the club with her as the submissive for the night. “Stay away from her. If Antonio knew what you just did—”“Save your threats, he already made his.” Her nostrils flared as she looked over my shoulder. “I don’t understand what you see in her. She is not even Italian, also he bought her from an auction, how could you take her side over mine when she’s nothing but his sex slave.” “She is anything but that. Did you see her in chains or kneeling at his feet like you did so often?”Anger flashed in her eyes as she glared at me. H
EricaI woke up sprawled in the middle of the bed with blankets wrapped around me and sun shining through the parted curtains. Gathering my hair to the one side, I sat up and looked around the bedroom. The basket from which I had eaten number of sweet things was still on the bedside table and it reminded me of how Antonio had fed me the baked soft cookies with his own hands while I was curled up in his lap. I took my gaze off the basket to our clothes that were all over the place last night but now we’re folded and placed on the bench near the bathroom door, but there was no sign of Antonio.Deciding to get up and start the day, I slipped out of the bed and made my way to the bathroom. For the first time, I didn't sleep nakéd after sex and still Antonio had taken me in his arms, surrounding me with his big body as we slept. When I came out of the bathroom, I opened the closet door to find a selection of his shirts but there were a few dresses and jeans and tops too. I picked out a bla