It is Han Siqi’s voice!
It’s really him!
Fu Zhengzheng can’t restrain her ecstasy and responds, “Here we are!”
Immediately, she sees Han Siqi has broken into the room. He rushes in and picks up Fu Xing in Fu Zhengzheng’s arms and pulls Fu Zhengzheng outwards.
At this time, the living room is ablaze and smoky.
They rush downstairs to the flower beds in one go, gasping for air.
It is twenty minutes later that the fire truck finally extinguishes the fire.
When Fu Zhengzheng stands in the living room which has been burnt beyond recognition, the landlady has come angrily with an abacus to settle accounts with Fu Zhengzheng.
“Look what you did to my house! You have to compensate me for the loss!”
Fu Zhengzheng looks at her with the same helpless expression. After all, her mobile phone, wallet and bank cards have all been reduced to ashes. The mother and son will have no place to live in, much less compensate them for their loss.
Faced with the landlady’s yelling, she is at a loss, knowing that she has no relatives in B city.
“Mummy, are we homeless now? Are we going to sleep on the overpass?” Fu Xing shrugs his shoulders and looks at Fu Zhengzheng with disgust.
“Who said you were homeless? Daddy’s home is yours.” Hans Siqi, who has just returned from the phone call, hears Fu Xing’s “homeless” remarks when he enters the door.
“Daddy!” As soon as Fu Xing sees Han Siqi, he rushes toward Han Siqi to hold his thigh and rub.
“Daddy’s here, so you don’t have to sleep on the overpass.” Han Siqi picks up Fu Xing and wipes his little black face with a wet towel.
Before Fu Zhengzheng has time to ask Fu Xing where he has learnt the words “sleeping on the overpass”, the landlady’s eyes shine as soon as she hears “daddy”, and says, “Fu, since your husband has come, please ask him to settle the loss with me first. I am an old woman without any financial resources except the rent.”
“Madam, you needn’t to be worried at all. I have no wings and I can’t fly off. I will definitely compensate you. After I tidy up here, I will talk to you about compensation.” Fu Zhengzheng doesn’t want to talk nonsense with the landlady, so she sends the landlady away in a few words.
Seeing the mess in the room, Han Siqi frowns and asks, “What’s the matter?”
“Well, I was too foolish to misuse the fire, thus accidentally triggering a fire.” Fu Zhengzheng laughs at herself, trying to hide the truth.
When she first saw those people, her first reaction was that they were sent by Lin Jiao. But after careful consideration, she feels that it should not be Lin Jiao. Because Lin Jiao was very nervous when she recognized Han Siqi and misunderstood Fu Zhengzheng’s relationship with Han Siqi during the day. Besides, there is no big problem between Fu Zhengzheng and Lin Jiao, so Lin Jiao needn’t to kill Fu Zhengzheng.
But besides Lin Jiao, she can’t remember who she has offended. She has thought of calling the police, but is afraid that more information may be leaked out in answering the police’s questions. If her identity is exposed, it will be more troublesome. So she just answered in simple words and decided to wait for an opportunity to let Yang Tao investigate it.
But she does not know that Fu Xing has told Han Siqi about the attack when he was hiding in the wardrobe calling Han Siqi for help.
Han Siqi looks at her thoughtfully and doesn’t expose her. He looks down at Fu Xing, wiping the stain on his face which has just not been wiped clean, and looks at Fu Zhengzheng whose clothes have been torn. He takes off his coat and throws it to her. Then he picks Fu Xing up and goes out.
“Hey, hey, where are you taking Fu Xing?” Fu Zhengzheng catches the coat and catches up quickly.
“To my home.”
“No!” Fu Zhengzheng grabs Fu Xing’s arm.
But Fu Xing pouts his mouth and says, “Mommy, I don’t want to sleep in the street with you.”
“This is a good sensible boy.” Han Siqi pats Fu Xing’s face and goes downstairs with Fu Xing, ignoring Fu Zhengzheng.
“Hey, hey…” Fu Zhengzheng stamps her feet but fails to stop Han Siqi’s steps. She thinks for a while and follows them while holding the coat.
Along the way, Fu Xing begins to get excited. He now smiles at Fu Zhengzheng, now asks Han Siqi while leaning on the back of the chair. Fu Zhengzheng is so absorbed in her thoughts that she doesn’t respond to her son.
She is thinking that if Yang Tao knows that she and Fu Xing live in Han Siqi’s home, what he will think. But then she thinks that she may find something she wants to know in his house, about her task and about her personal affairs.
It seems that she is more eager to know about the latter... Fu Zhengzheng shakes her head and secretly blames herself for her negligence.
“Mommy, here we are! What a big house Daddy lives in!” Hearing Fu Xing’s cheerful voice again, Fu Zhengzheng quickly looks up and finds that the car has entered a villa.
Looking at the big house behind the tall camphor trees, Fu Zhengzheng hesitates for a while and follows Fu Xing out of the car.
“Aren’t you cold?” Han Siqi asks and frowns when he notices that Fu Zhengzheng is still holding his coat while her own clothes have nearly been torn.
At that moment, the cold wind blows and Fu Zhengzheng can’t help but shivers. She looks down at her clothes and blushes. God, the clothes are so broken, but she had a long talk with the landlady just now. Luckily, the landlady is a woman. She hurries to put on the clothes.
A woman in her fifties stands at the door and slightly bows. She smiles and says, “Hello, Miss Fu, my name is Chen Qiaolan, a servant of Master Siqi’s family. Master Siqi has taken the baby upstairs. Your room is upstairs too. I’m taking you there now.”
“Oh, oh.” Fu Zhengzheng quickly follows Chen Qiaolan’s steps.
“Mr. Han’s room is over there. Here’s your room.” Chen Qiaolan leads Fu Zhengzheng to the second room on the second floor. “Master Siqi ordered it in a hurry, but please be assured that all the articles on the bed are new. Besides, Master Siqi has had someone prepare these clothes for you, which I have put in the bathroom. Master Siqi is probably bathing the baby now. You can go and take a bath too.”
“Oh, thank you.” Fu Zhengzheng looks at the spotless room and thanks her immediately. Only then does she realize how incongruous the stain on her body is with the clean house. She is embarrassed to stick out her tongue and rushes into the bathroom.
When she comes out in clean clothes after taking a comfortable bath, she is surprised to see that Han Siqi and Fu Xing are lying on the bed prepared for her.
“He’s asleep.” Han Siqi tilts his body and looks up and down at Fu Zhengzheng. Then he leers at her and says, “It’s so enjoyable to see a beauty coming out of a bath.”
“Thank you for sheltering us, Mr. Han. I can’t thank you enough.” Fu Zhengzheng folds her hands to make a heroic gesture. Then she changes her tone, “But now it is so late, and I am afraid that staying alone with you at night may affect your reputation. So please go back to your own bed.”
“Anyway, I have always been regarded as a play boy, so I don’t mind affecting my reputation. Let me sleep here. I am tired and I can’t move anymore.” Having said that, Han Siqi lies down comfortably.
“You may sleep here to accompany Fu Xing, and I will sleep next door.” Fu Zhengzheng turns around and goes out.
“I have only slept with beautiful women, and haven’t slept with a child yet.” Han Siqi yawns and gets up lazily. “You should rest earlier and go to work with me tomorrow.”
Looking at Han Siqi going out, Fu Zhengzheng rushes to the door and locks it, and then she is relieved. Looking at her sleeping son, she cannot help but kiss him on the forehead and lie down slowly.
Considering that Han Siqi always behaves in an affectionate manner to her, she is a little angry and also worried, not knowing what will happen in the days when she lives together with him.
Forget it. Instead of thinking about it, she should think about how to buy a cellphone and get an SIM card tomorrow. Yang Tao will probably know that her residence was on fire tomorrow, and he will be extremely anxious if he can’t contact her.
But how should she borrow money from Han Siqi tomorrow? After all, he has provided free food and shelter for them. Can she shamelessly ask for money? Since he has already doubted her purpose of approaching him, now will he be more contemptuous of her?
Fu Zhengzheng shakes her head helplessly, but she finally makes up her mind and falls asleep with satisfaction.
However, when she wakes up, she finds that her head is as heavy as a stone, and she has no strength at all.
“Woman, don’t move!” It is Han Siqi’s voice. She feels that his broad palm press her down. “You don’t wear my clothes. You deserve it.”
Then here comes Fu Xing’s voice, “Mommy, don’t move. The doctor said you had a cold last night, and now you are put on a drip.”
Am I sick? Fu Zhengzheng asks to herself.
But she has always been in good health. How can she be so delicate when she comes to Han Siqi’s home?
Fu Xing holds her face with his little palms and kisses her. He then coaxes her as if she was a kid, “Mommy, you are on a drip, and you should keep quiet. Grandma Chen will take care of you. Daddy said that children who didn’t go to kindergarten were not good children, so I have to go to kindergarten.”
“No!” Fu Zhengzheng suddenly panics, and she struggles to get up, “What if Lin Jiao…”
“There will not be Lin Jiao anymore.” Han Siqi says coldly.
Fu Zhengzheng is shocked again, “What? What have you done to Lin Jiao?”
“I have done what should be done.” Then Han Siqi tells her softly, “You have a rest first, and I will be back later. Xingxing, let’s go.”
“Hey, hey…” As Fu Zhengzheng yells, Han Siqi takes Fu Xing out of the room.
“Miss Fu, Master Siqi has always done things in a proper way. You can be assured. Would you like a drink?” Chen Qiaolan takes two pillows to make a comfortable position for Fu Zhengzheng.
Hearing Chen Qiaolan calling Han Siqi “Master Siqi”, Fu Zhengzheng gets an idea and even forgets her headache. “Aunt Chen, how long have you been a servant in the Han family?”
“I have been in the Han family for more than thirty years since the birth of the elder master.”
“Well, did you watch the Han brothers grow up?”
“Yes, Master Siqi was brought up by me. Otherwise, he would not only let me take care of him when he lives alone.” Chen Qiaolan looks a little proud.
“Do you know Han Siqi’s experience from twelve to twenty-two?” When Fu Zhengzheng asks this question, her expression is somewhat complicated. She is both expectant and tense.
“He was studying abroad. You don’t know how attentive Master Siqi was in his studies. He has a good memory and can recite books after reading them for several times.”“He had been studying abroad for ten years?” asks Fu Zhengzheng, being unwilling to give up. “How often did he come back?”Chen Qiaolan answers smilingly without hesitation, “I remember that he would only come back on vacation. Every time he came back, he asked me to cook his favorite dishes. He said that he could not eat such delicious dishes abroad.”“Oh.” Fu Zhengzheng stares at Chen Qiaolan for quite a while but doesn’t see anything unusual on her face. Fu Zhengzheng sighs while her eyes are full of disappointment.Although she has always suspected that Han Siqi is not Nian Xi, she cannot hide the sense of loss when the truth really appears in front of her.If Han Siqi is not Nian Xi, where is Nian Xi?Seeing Fu Zhengzheng be unhappy, Che
If he really had amnesia, is his experience of studying abroad, as Chen Qiaolan said, a fiction? Is it to create a memory for him so as not to make him feel his childhood is blank? She remembers when she knew Nian Xi, he told her that he had been confined by his aunt in a chamber for ten years. Although he knew a lot of knowledge about books, his ability to deal with people in reality remained in his teens.Nian Xi said that he would learn from his elder brother and be a real man like him.So, in just six years, can a child who spent ten years in a chamber really become so strong? You know, Han Siqi works in Weihan independently.Fu Zhengzheng shakes her head. Estimating that Han Siqi may have gone far, she goes out with money too.She leaves the villa district, walks a few more streets and waits at the corner of a small teahouse nearby.Not long after, she sees Yang Tao rush in. He grabs her hand and ask
“Are you concerned about the traffic accident or about my relationship with Xiaomeng?” Han Siqi stops the car and tilts his head, looking at Fu Zhengzheng with a faint smile.Realizing that she has asked quite eagerly, Fu Zhengzheng has to suppress all her curiosity. But she refuses to admit that she is concerned about his relationship with Li Xiaomeng, and refuses to get on his car.Han Siqi no longer insists. He drives slowly and says unexpectedly, “I don’t think I should hire an employee who doesn’t obey the leader’s command even during the probationary period.”Although Fu Zhengzheng is a bit frustrated, she gets on his car. What if he really fires her due to unhappiness? After all, she can’t lose the job.To be honest, she doesn’t want to take his car to work not because she is unhappy. The real reason is that she doesn’t want to be gossiped by other colleagues if they see she go to work and get back together with Han Siqi, wh
“What’s wrong, Mommy?” Fu Xing asks nervously.“I, I left my purchases in the taxi. I’m so careless.” Fu Zhengzheng stammers while feeling ashamed. When she looked at the mobile phone, she asked Yang Tao to hold the bag with bras in it. After she put the phone away, she hurried to leave and forgot to bring the bag back.Fu Xing breathes a sigh of relief, says with a grin, “It’s not the first time that you leave things behind. It doesn’t matter as long as you don’t leave yourself behind.”Fu Zhengzheng pinches Fu Xing’s face and can’t help laughing.“Come and eat. Fu Xing said he was hungry just now.” Chen Qiaolan smilingly serves everyone a bowl of meal. After dinner, Fu Zhengzheng helps Chen Qiaolan clean the table, and Fu Xing also comes to help. He wipes the table which Chen Qiaolan has wiped once again with a rag, and asks, “Grandma Chen, did my daddy was a good boy like me when he was a child?”“Yes,
When Fu Zhengzheng secretly puts the plasticine mouse in her pocket, Han Siqi comes out with Fu Xing in his arms. She hurries to take her son and takes him back to the room.After returning to their room, Fu Zhengzheng begins to pat Fu Xing to sleep. After playing for a day, Fu Xing soon falls asleep.Amid her son’s even breathing, Fu Zhengzheng turns around and leans against the wall to listen to the sound of the next room, and then she creeps to Han Siqi’s room with her mobile phone in hand.She has planned to come to Han Siqi with the excuse that she doesn’t know how to use the mobile phone.Han Siqi doesn’t lock the door. Fu Zhengzheng puts the plasticine mouse back and prepares for a while before suddenly screaming, “Ah—”There is sound in the bathroom immediately. Just five seconds later, Fu Zhengzheng sees Han Siqi rush out of the bathroom. But to her disappointment, Han Siqi is wearing a very hateful bath towel around
Chapter 27 Live TogetherWhen she recognizes it is Lin Jiao, her face immediately sinks and she looks around and says, “What else do you want to do? If you go on like this, I won’t be so easy on you!”But instead of seeing Lin Jiao’s helpers, she hears Lin Jiao keep apologizing in a low voice, “I’m sorry, Miss Fu, I shouldn’t have done that to you. It’s my fault. Please forgive me.”Fu Zhengzheng then notices Lin Jiao’s haggard face, completely contrary to her previous arrogance. Fu Zhengzheng is shocked but still doesn’t believe. “That fire was really set off by you?”Lin Jiao shakes her head desperately, but after pausing for thought, she nods furiously. “I did that. I am sorry.”Fu Zhengzheng asks, “Haohao wasn’t hurt badly, and you know that. Do you think you should go so far as to kill me for such a trivial matter? You didn’t take national laws seriously at all. Fortunately, we were quick to react; otherwise, I do
Just as Fu Zhengzheng is getting secretly anxious, Han Siqi holds an earring in his hand and says, “Are you looking for it?”“Why is it here? I don’t know where I dropped it.” Fu Zhengzheng looks at the earring in surprise and answers immediately, pretending to be happy to take it. “I have been looking for it everywhere.”She did drop an earring yesterday, and she didn’t know where it was. Hearing Han Siqi’s words, she secretly thanks God for helping her.But Han Siqi holds the earring in his hand and asks, “Was it supposed to be dropped at home?”Fu Zhengzheng’s hand stops in the air and stammers, “Er, I, I don’t remember where I lost it, so I have been looking for it everywhere. This, this is my favorite pair of earrings.”Han Siqi seems satisfied with her answer and hands her the earring. “Since you like it very much, you should keep it well. The lost things can’t be found every time.”Although Fu Zheng
It is Han Sixian.“Aunt Chen, you are really here. Have you had dinner yet? Siqi didn’t answer the phone.” Han Sixian greets Chen Qiaolan with a smile.“Young master…” Chen Qiaolan is stunned, looking uneasily at Han Siqi in the living room.Han Sixian realizes that there is something wrong. When he sees Fu Zhengzheng standing in the living room with clothes in her hands, his face immediately sinks, looking at Han Siqi with an inquiring eye.“Brother, you are here.” Han Siqi’s face has returned to normal. “Have you had dinner yet? If not, come and eat with us.”Fu Zhengzheng also immediately greets him with a smile, “Good evening, President Han.”Ignoring Fu Zhengzheng, Han Sixian snorts and says, “Come upstairs.”Then he goes upstairs alone.Fu Zhengzheng knows that he didn’t say that to her, and looks at Han Siqi awkwardly.Han Siqi smiles and points at the dining r
Ji Yashu is going to walk out with Han Tengyue. At this moment, a bang comes behind. Others shout simultaneously. She turns around instantly and sees Fu Xing embraced by Han Siqi. The chair on which Fu Xing sat just now topples on the floor.It turns out that when Han Tengyue and Ji Yashu intended to go to the sitting room, Fu Xing, who was standing on the chair, wanted to climb down it and go with them. Unexpectedly, he missed his step and fell to one side with the chair. Luckily, Han Siqi was nearest to him. He saw it, rushed over and caught him in time. Thus, he escaped from being hit by the chair.They all rush to see if Fu Xing is hurt.Ji Yashu realizes what happened. She runs to him panickily, holds Fu Xing and shouts, “Oh, my dear, why were you so careless? What if you are hurt?”“What’s wrong? What’s wrong?” Han Tengyue turns back too. Hearing what Ji Yashu says, he parts the crowd and examines how Fu Xing is.
“What’s up?” Fu Zhengzheng shouts before the wheelchair approaches the crowd.Someone recognizes Fu Zhengzheng and runs to her to explain instantly, “Don’t worry. They come to see Tang Feng.”Han Siqi recognizes this one as Zhen Chao’s watchman and asks, “Is Tang Feng inside?”The watchman nods, “Yes, he just entered. These comrades-in-arms heard that Tang Feng came back alive and all felt excited. They asked for leave this morning and came here from the troop to see him specially.”Han Siqi and Fu Zhengzheng sigh with relief. Fu Zhengzheng smiles, “Are they the comrades-in-arms that refused to leave the unpopulated island that day?”The watchman nods again, “Yes. They were once Tang Feng’s subordinates and also have gone through fire and water many times with Tang Feng.”“No wonder they have such a close relationship.” Fu Zhengzheng gasps in admiration and then asks, “Are Zhu Ting and Tang Feng OK?”
“What?” Han Siqi and Fu Zhengzheng cast their eyes to Lu Song.“Tang Feng is back.”“What?!” Han Siqi and Fu Zhengzheng are both shocked. Han Siqi asks at once, “Is he back alive or…”Or is his corpse sent back?“Alive! He is alive! He is only injured.” Lu Song’s voice is also full of surprise and excitement.“Where is he now?” Han Siqi can’t wait to go out.“Siqi, wait for me.” Fu Zhengzheng sits up.“He’s in Zhu Ting’s ward.”Han Siqi asks, “ICU?”“No, another high-class VIP ward. The second one on the left upstairs.” Lu Song says and pushes the wheelchair from the door.Han Siqi lifts Fu Zhengzheng to the wheelchair immediately, pushes her out and goes upstairs straight.“Brother! Why are you here? Did you see Tang Feng?” As soon as coming out of the lift, Fu Zhengzheng sees Zhen Chao standing outside the ward.Z
“Zhengzheng? Zhengzheng? Help, help.” Zhu Linglong becomes panicky and shouts.Min Zhongxu finds her wrong. Not stopping his feet, he turns around quickly and rushes out to call the doctor crazily.Soon doctors and nurses rush in together.Min Zhongxu takes Zhu Linglong out at once, because he is afraid that she will be knocked over by the rushing medical workers.Zhu Linglong refuses to go out, “I have to look after Zhengzheng.”“Darling, you’re not a doctor. You can do nothing but mess it up.” Min Zhongxu smiles at Zhu Linglong after calling Han Siqi.Zhu Linglong vents her anger on Min Zhongxu instantly, “Don’t you know Zhengzheng is so weak that she can’t have a blow? You know that she is always worried about Zhu Ting’s health, but you still told her the terrible news. If there is something wrong with Zhengzheng, how can you explain to Han Siqi?”Min Zhongxu explains with a grievance, “I d
“Brother, what’s up?” Fu Zhengzheng is seized by a sense of foreboding.“Something happened to my subordinate investigating Xiao Jinchong. I’ll go and see.” Then Zhen Chao strides out.“Brother! Brother!” Fu Zhengzheng can’t stop Zhen Chao.Han Siqi stops her, “Let him go. Now the case about Brotherhood is nearly ending. Perhaps it is not a serious problem. Don’t worry.”“My brother looked anxious. How can I ease my mind?” Fu Zhengzheng keeps staring at the ward door.“Take it easy. If you know how many soldiers your brother has transferred to cooperate with the police of B City to end the case and deal with its aftermath, you will feel relieved definitely. Besides, without Xiao Jinchong’s instruction, Brotherhood is already in a state of disunity, so what are you worrying about?”Fu Zhengzheng thinks what Han Siqi says is reasonable and then doesn’t persist.Han Siqi helps her half-lie with a
Five days later, in Shuguang Hospital of Weihan.Fu Zhengzheng sits in a wheelchair. Han Siqi pushes her behind and comes slowly to the outside of ICU.She doesn’t want to use the wheelchair, but if she doesn’t, Han Siqi won’t allow her to go out of the ward. Because the doctor said women during the early days after miscarriage should not stand for a long time or work hard, or they may have metroptosis or other gynecological diseases. Han Siqi always keeps it in his mind.In fact, after being nursed for a few days, Fu Zhengzheng, who has a quite good physique, gets much better, though she still looks pale. But she can’t dissuade Han Siqi who is stubborn. Thinking that he is for her good, she yields to him so that he won’t worry about her.She is looking worriedly at Zhu Ting who is sunk in sleep, while Han Siqi is gazing at her anxiously, “Don’t be too worried about her. The doctor says she has got through the dangerous period and
Tang Feng’s face turns pale with fear. He didn’t expect Zhu Ting would be pointed at and appear before him soon after he pointed his gun at Xiao Jinchong and asked him for Zhu Ting.Xiao Jinchong fears nothing with Zhu Ting in his hand. He glances at Tang Feng, who is also pointed at by his subordinates, and says faintly, “Tang Feng, if you don’t want to see you woman die in front of you, put down your gun.”Tang Feng glances at Zhu Ting with complicated eyes but says nothing.However, Zhu Ting laughs coldly at him, “Tang Feng, do you think I will fall in love with you if you fall out with Xiao Jinchong? You’re dreaming! In my eyes, you are only a hooligan forever, while I’m a soldier. I will look down upon you forever…”Tang Feng’s face changes suddenly, “Ting, you…”Without saying anything, Xiao Jinchong just looks at them coldly.Zhu Ting glances at Tang Feng with disdain, “Well, are you surprised to kn
Helicopter?Fu Zhengzheng looks up immediately, but the trees are so dense that she can just hear the sound and can’t see the helicopter.“Zhengzheng, hold me tightly. We’ll leave now.” Han Siqi carries her on his back again.Then Fu Zhengzheng notices a ladder before them. Han Siqi is holding it with his hand and is about to climb it.“Zhu Ting. Zhu Ting is here too!” How can she forget the comrade-in-arms that once went through thick and thin with her?“She will be rescued. Let’s leave here first.”“Mr. Han, be careful. We’ll protect you.” A person says in a low voice below.Soon Lu Song climbs up first. Then Han Siqi climbs up the ladder with Fu Zhengzheng on his back. Lu Song helps them on the top.“Zhengzheng, I’ll rush you to the hospital now. You must hold on.” Han Siqi holds Fu Zhengzheng tightly in his arms.Fu Zhengzheng has lost the strength to speak. She j
Xiandan is humming a tune on the hay. He is startled by Fu Zhengzheng’s question and sits up immediately, “Heroine, what are you going to do?” “Tell me. Where is the explosive-igniting point of the drug factory? Tell me now, or I will shoot!”“You…you want to explode the factory? We’ll die then! The explosives will demolish the whole island!” Apparently Xiandan finds there is something wrong with Fu Zhengzheng and asks tentatively, “Heroine, are you sick?” “No more nonsense. Tell me right now.” Fu Zhengzheng throws her head for more times and tries to brace herself up.“Heroine, you must have a cold. Alas, we can’t find cold medicine here. But don’t worry. I know a kind of herb that can treat cold. I’ll get some for you.”“Stop!” Fu Zhengzheng pulls the trigger.Xiandan pauses in panic and stammers, “Don’t…don’t shoot. Be careful that the gun will discharge accidentally.”“I just want to ta