~Moji~
Not long after Fola left the class for the library, I closed the stupid color book that I was painting too. I did not even understand why I was painting it in the first place. My siblings self stopped painting in color books already. I glanced back to see that Tobi wasn't in class and I subconsciously glanced at Leke too. He was engrossed with something in his notebook and I smiled at how his brows furrowed in concentration.
He looked so handsome.
Where did that come from?
Where did that come from?
He looked up at that moment and his eyes met mine, a look cou
~Fola~I did not go down for dinner.And that was the first time since forever.I knew I should go because mom was going to be worried but I just couldn't bring myself to. I kept thinking of Moji, of her expression when she saw us, of her sniffles and her curled up figure in the school clinic.And I couldn't get over the fact that I did that to her.I felt so bad.And still, a part of me was reliving the sensation of been kissed, the sweet sensation and the butterflies at the pit
~Fola~Moji did not say a word to me and she ignored me too, acting like I wasn't even beside her. She disappeared to God knows where during lunch break and even though, I did not exactly plan on going to the cafeteria too, I was still kind of hurt, though I brought it upon myself and I deserve everything and anything. But I was still desperate to talk to her. Fine, she has every right to be angry at me but I also had to apologize so when she left the class when we had a free period, I found myself following her after some minutes.I loitered around the school premises because I had missed her. I did not know where she disappeared to or what class she entered and I had to lie to the teachers that asked me where I was going. I was about g
~Moji~I walked into the main house in a daze. I still couldn't believe the conversation I had with Fola. I couldn't believe what she had concluded on. I'd never say something like that. She should have known that I'd never say something like that but the fact that she believed it was hurting me.And the fact that she must be going to extreme pain because she believed it was hurting me more."Eku Ile Ma."I greeted mom who was watching a movie on the TV and my two siblings immediately stood up from where they sat to hug me.My legs, literally because that's where their height
~Leke~Tobi told me everything.From him liking Fola, to confessing his feelings to her, to her turning him down, to him kissing her, to Moji walking in on them, to Moji getting all angry, to Moji finally telling him that she likes him and blah blah blah.I found myself skipping school the next day, not like I needed permission from anyone. There was no one to even get the permission from. My parents weren't home and it wasn't like I'd ask for permission from the maids.I did not actually have a reason for skipping school but deep down, I knew I'd end up going to Moji's house and that was exactly what I did. The gateman allowed me
~Fola~I was worried about Moji.I was very, very worried.But I kept it all to myself. I avoided Tobi like a plague, kept to myself during classes, disappeared during lunch breaks. I basically acted invisible and even though my therapists had always warned me against acting like that, I liked it.For the two days Moji skipped school, I'd bring out my phone, start to call her before pressing the end button, start to type a message to her before clearing it all. I wanted to ask her how she was fairing but I still couldn't get her words out of my brain. The but Fola just kept repeating itself in my head over me over again.
~Leke~I was in Moji's house.Well, I found spending more time with her these days which might end up becoming a recipe for disaster but I actually don't mind risking that only if it just means spending more time with her.We were currently outside the main house but still in the compound and we both sat on the high table that was in the compound, a table that I've always wondered about what it was used for. Moji was typing away on her phone and she'd burst into occasionally, throwing her head back and it was obvious that she was enjoying herself.I don't have any problem with her enjoying herself. I just have a problem with her enjoying hers
~Moji~I've had my first kiss.And I don't even know what to say or think.I've always fancied my first kiss to be romantic and all.I've never actually thought that it won't be a real kiss. A kiss on the lips.I never thought it would be a kiss on my neck and earlobes.And to say I loved it would even be an understatement.I kept replaying the scene in my head, how his tongue had trailed from my neck to my earlobes and how much I had loved that moment.
~Fola~My parents were looking at me cautiously, looking at me through hooded and guided eyes, looking at me as if I'd snap anytime, looking at me exactly the way they had looked at me when it first happened and the first few months after that.And it wasn't like I did not notice that they were keeping all the sharp objects away. I noticed but I choose not to talk or think about it. Thinking about it might make me wonder if physical pain would hurt more than the emotional one, if physical pain would dull the emotional one.Thinking about it might make me want to do it. Doing it would mean blood all over.A memory instantly flashed in f
~Fola~Preparations for the ECOWAS Oratory Contest started in full force. There were lots of articles to read, lot of things to do. It was rigorous. Lakeview did not even give us a breathing space. It was Tutorials and tutorials and tutorials.The five of us were overstucked with work and in all sincerity, I was starting to get frustrated. I've never been overworked in my entire life. And Peju acting like she already won and the rest of us were just wasting our time wasn't helping matters.It was exactly a week to the Dday and I was already tired. If not for Tobi's constant support, Moji cheering me up and Leke's silent support was all I needed. Even Peju has got nothing on me with this geng constantly supporting me.I knocked on the Gate the Gateman opened the gate. I was in Moji's house. I was meeting her bro
~Fola~Preparations for the ECOWAS Oratory Contest started in full force. There were lots of articles to read, lot of things to do. It was rigorous. Lakeview did not even give us a breathing space. It was Tutorials and tutorials and tutorials.The five of us were overstucked with work and in all sincerity, I was starting to get frustrated. I've never been overworked in my entire life. And Peju acting like she already won and the rest of us were just wasting our time wasn't helping matters.It was exactly a week to the Dday and I was already tired. If not for Tobi's constant support, Moji cheering me up and Leke's silent support was all I needed. Even Peju has got nothing on me with this geng constantly supporting me.
~Fola~The top five contenders names for ECOWAS oratory Contest was posted on the school's newsboard and as I walked towards where it was with Moji, my heart was literally in my throat because I did not want to expect.I don't know if I'd be able to handle it if I did not make it.I sincerely don't know how I'd feel self.Lots of students were gathered in front of the board, checking for their names or for their friends and while some started crying openly, some would shriek loudly and it was so obvious that making this list was such a big deal.We pushed our way to the front and my
~Moji~Leke did not show up in school the next day.And the day after that.Looking into their compound was always futile because there was basically no life there.No laughter, no nothing. He seems to always be the only one at home and that even confirmed the fact that he must be very lonely.And yet, he was always smiling. He never showed anybody a glimpse into his soul and now I was feeling so bad because I knew so little about him.I pressed the doorbell again.
~Leke~Frustrated wasn't the word. I was beyond frustrated. I really don't know any word that would describe what I was feeling. The fact that she was pretending nothing had happened. The fact that she was smiling, talking to me and ignoring me at the same time was baffling. And it was killing me. Because I knew it was all a mask and that she was hurt and that was hurting me too.A whole lot.I'd attempted to corner her and to talk to her but she'd just tell me off plainly. It's like we never existed. I don't know if we ever existed self. I wasn't even sure what the meaning of we was.I was in my room, staring out of the window and staring at her room. The curtains were drawn and once or twice, I'd catch a figure in the room. I knew it was her. I don't know how long I stood there but the next thing I knew was that I was climbing the stairs to her room. It was only when I got to the front of her door, hands poised in the air to knock that I stopped. What was I doing here?Wha
~Fola~We were in the conference room.By we, I mean, the students that showed interest in participating in the intra school competition for ECOWAS oratory Contest. One of the school's administrators and a speech instructor were with us. We were 12 students and it was a question and answer session so they'd lay 7 people off, then the last five would climb the stage next Friday and the final winner would be chosen.I released a shaky breath as I felt like sinking more into my seat. Peju was sitting in front me, pretty in all her glory, eyes blaring and shooting daggers at me. It was hard to maintain my stance under her scrutinizing gaze but I folded my hands over my chest and I matched her gaze
~Leke~Screwed doesn't quite describe what I was going through.Messed up.Fucked up.I've done absolutely nothing since the moment she walked in on us than go think about her expression, the surprise and hurt and disgust and repulsion.I've successfully ruined whatever it was between us. I've successfully hurt the feelings of a girl that genuinely care about me. I've successfully ruined everything.I kept staring at my phone, torn between calling her, then dismissing that thought because I have absolutely nothing to say to h
~Moji~It took me just a few seconds to put everything that was in front of me. Leke with his back to the table, Peju kneeling in front of him, hands inside his trouser.I stared at them in disbelief, intense anger shaking me.For a moment, I was too stunned and too stupefied to move. It was only when Leke jerked away from Peju that I was to blink back into reality and I turned back.It was almost closing hours anyway so I walked to the garage, my foot barely touching the ground until I got to the garage. The driver was already around do I just entered the car, biting the insides of my cheeks to keep myself from crying.
~Fola~I was at the park with Tobi, talking about random things. We were doing that more often these days, talking about everything and nothing. Sometimes, enjoying the absolute silence, our souls talking more in the moment than our mouths.And he'd use that time to probably kiss my neck or even my lips. He was always looking forward to us being alone."Stop it."I mouthed cheekily and I attempted to move away from him but his hand on my waist kept me close, nudging me even closer as he continued kissing my neck, my earlobes and I shuddered involuntarily.Who'