Chapter 59HardinYes, I did feel like I was the clown in the life that I had been living. My fears were there, with my suspicions that was growing daily, but I did not want to believe that Lisa would be anyway connected to the death of my mother. She was her twin, and they were always in good terms all the times that she came around while I was little. So what happened now?“I killed your mom, yes, I am saying it out loud. And I regret not killing her earlier, I should have done that when we were still little so that she will be dead and long forgotten.”Lisa’s words kept on replaying in my head, and I had to shut my eyes to stay sane. I only managed to open my eyes when I heard Russo’s voice and I turned towards the door. “Answer me Lisa,” he repeated. “Did you have much luck trying to kill Camila?” His growl was very much domineering this time, and it took all the effort for my wolf to not cower. Lisa was already fidgeting, and in a split of second, Dad was unto her, pressing h
Jasmine“Where exactly do I start from?” That was the exact question that played out in my head ever since the guard walked into the room with what would have been a good news, if Lisa’s well-being was not necessary for my mother’s survival, but now a bad news and my lips could not part to even release any words. “What?” Russo was the first to blurt out, “Lisa is dead? How?”“She definitely killed herself!” He added, as it was obvious that none of us knew the answer to his first question. “She was such a vile woman, I hate that I even trusted her in the first place,” Hardin finally spoke, and as my eyes wandered between the both of them, I was left wondering if any of them was actually talking about the real issue at hand. Lisa had killed herself, and we still had not gotten hold of the antidote for mum, or at least had an idea of whatever could help erase the poison in mom’s system. “How about mom?” I managed to speak out, asking no one in particular. My eyes were wet, and I had
JasmineMaking my way back home in Nadia’s car, as Hardin could not stay around to take me back home because he had to attend to pressing issues and had only convinced me to come to school on Dad’s instructions, I hissed endlessly. “What is it? I’ve been asking and you’re not saying anything. Is everything fine at home?” Nadia asked, and I shook my head. It was not the best answer, as I had been the one to call her attention to me with the way I hissed. But I doubted I wanted to add my problems to one more person. The last person that I had just talked to, Lorenzo had only added more problems to me. But putting my mom’s condition first, I had to accept the creepy condition. The thought of it still ate me as I quietly stayed in Nadia’s car. And even as it was necessary that I tell her about my mom’s health, and I did not want to accidentally add the part of Lorenzo’s offer so I decided to keep shut.“Drop me here!” “Here?” Nadia’s question came. “But it’s still a distance from yo
Chapter 62HardinMaybe it was the way Camila's eyes were bright with life and Jasmine's with joy. Maybe it was the way it looked like oxygen had finally reentered my father's lungs when he saw that Camila had gotten better. But I could not stand it for obvious reasons. It did not mean that I hated them, well that was exactly what it meant, did it not? I was so jealous of the fact that my mother had not survived it. Because if she had, she would still be here, smiling at me, holding my hand and chastising me for being so uptight and irritable. If she was here, then maybe I would not be as unhappy as I was. I needed to leave. The talk of celebrations were getting to me and even though I had contributed my part to ensuring that Camila was well and she had shown her gratitude over and over again, I did not have it in me to participate in a party. Not when every time that I saw Camila on that bed, I remembered the desperation that I had felt everytime my mother deteriorated instead of
Chapter 63Jasmine"Seeing your mother laying on that bed reminded me of mine. She used to be the strongest woman I know and one day, she fell sick and she never recovered. I wonder if I could have been able to save her. That thought keeps me up at night, that if I was older then or more sensible. That maybe, just maybe I would have been able to save her. And that maybe she would still be here with me. And everytime I go to her grave, I ask her if she forgives me for being too young to rescue her."I had no idea why Hardin's words stuck to me long after we had returned from visiting his mother's grave, a request that I had made that still surprised me because I was not expecting him to say yes or even take me there."Thank you." I whispered when I got to the door of my bedroom after we arrived back at the house and when he paused and looked at me, it felt like he wanted to say more. But he thought against it and nodded, walking down the hallway and entering his room. I could not deny
JasmineMy vision felt blurred as I stared at myself in the mirror. I felt confused and angry at the same time. Why did he have to continue taking advantage of me that way? It had been weeks since the incident but somehow, I wished that Hardin had actually changed."It is probably not happening,” I muttered out, rather sad, and took a piece of tissue to clear my nose. I washed my face in an attempt to somehow free my emotions and then I walked out from the bathroom.I needed to think up something. Hardin didn't understand the consequences of what he had done. I did not want to care if the full moon effect took a toil on him. There was nothing that I could actually do, it dawned on me. And as I tucked myself into the duvet trying to sleep, I hoped that somehow I was going to forget that Hardin had released into me that night, and that I could not take any pill to prevent whatever effect that might arise as the last thing that I wanted to do was to visit the pack doctor to get pills.
HardinDad was right, not like I could deny it. It was really okay for him to worry about me finding my mate, and maybe the reason why I flared up so much whenever he talked about it was how I badly avoided the talk. I did not want him to keep on mentioning that I was mateless though it was a sad reality that was catching up faster with me than I could imagine. My inauguration ceremony as a wolf was in a month’s time, and if I did not have a mate as at that time, then the position of the Alpha might as well be taken away from me. “Fuck!” I cursed, slamming my hands on my car’s steering wheel. School was over for the day, but for some reasons, I wanted to stay away from home. I had been driving about the pack, and frustratedly, I parked by the roadside to clear my thoughts. The pressure from the elders was not something that I could handle and I understood that it was the reason why Russo was pushing so much and just maybe, it was not because he hates me. I drew out a cigarette f
Jasmine"You did great today, Jasmine. You don’t have to look so down. It's progress." My instructor said when she saw the disappointed look on my face and even though I nodded in response, walking to the tree to grab my bottle of water and towel to wash my face, I could not help but feel a very large sense of sadness because I knew that I had been so close to shifting. I had felt it in my bones and in that split second, I had transformed, and even though it was not even completely, I had seen the claws. I had felt my sight sharpen, I had felt everything around me change, my sensations heightening and then before I could blink, it was gone. Like it never even happened. "You did good, Jasmine." My instructor said again and she smiled as she came to sit beside me where I was currently seated, at the foot of the tree. "How do you get over something like this? How do you continue to not give up hope? I was so close and now it felt like I had only imagined everything." I said, my lips
CHAPTER 80~Jasmine.Sinking into the rocking chair, I racked my brain for a new lullaby to sing, as I had already sung the ones I had at the top of my fingers. I looked down at the little infant who was yawning out of tiredness yet had refused to fall asleep.I smiled as I rubbed his little nose, just when I had thought I had known love, someone little came to remind me of how big it is. He had these sparkly blue eyes just like his Dad and with the way he was fighting so hard not to yield into sleep, I bet he would be as stubborn as his father is.A new relaxing poem rushed into my brain and just as I began humming the lyrics and rocking to its tune, the door to the room opened and Hardin walked in.“He still hasn't fallen asleep?” He whispered as he gently closed the door behind him and I shook my head in negation, “Ugh, he is as stubborn as his mother,” he said in mock annoyance and rolled his eyes.“As stubborn as me?” I asked, and he chuckled and gave me a light kiss on the lips
HardinJasmine had said that she loved me, and had helped me walk through the phase where I had to get over mom’s death especially after hearing that it was all for a petty revenge, and all of her actions threw it at my face that I had done nothing, and was rather banking at the fact that she had easily let all my sins slide. But it was not what I wanted. The only problem being that at the moment, I was still lost on what to do. I still felt guilty, because every everytime that I told her how sorry I was, she said that everything was fine and that she had really forgiven me. Camila and Russo had also mentioned about how I was probably acting out of ignorance and had accepted that I was set to turn a new leaf. The joy in the house had returned, and Camila and Russo had planned so many dates for me and Jasmine to get better than we already were. Thanks to them, it was working really well. Everything at home did feel like it was working perfectly well, if my wolf did not keep haunting
JasmineThe moment those words had left my mouth, I wanted to cringe. Feeling stupid, I wrenched my hand away from his and ran as far as I could. Acting as the best man there is in the world, did not feel enough to me, to make up for all Hardin had done. My heart might have flustered a little after Hardin's words, but my vengeful conscience was not a very forgiving person. His words had moved me for a moment, but going back to our past and all that Hardin had put me through, I just couldn't find myself forgiving him so easily, especially over spoken words. Was I supposed to just give in, and welcome him back? What if he decided to go against his words one day, I would be the one hurting and not him. "But he's proven himself to you Jasmine, he's your mate" my wolf reminded me but I wasn't listening. Being my mate was not enough of an excuse to buy him forgiveness. Had I not been his mate, would he have felt sorry that he tortured and harassed me all these while? If for anything, Ha
Chapter 77JasmineOut of the corner of my eye, I only caught wisps of dissipating smoke, when out of nowhere a massive caramel blur moving at a high speed slammed into the oncoming beast to send it crashing backwards to the trees.A positively huge wolf covered in familiar brown colored fur prowled around in the middle of the clearing. I did a double take at this newcomer and only then had I recognized it was Hardin. They circled each other for several moments before leaping at once. Possessing greater body mass in his current form, Lorenzo pushed the brown wolf backwards. But in a show of skill that convinced me that it was definitely Hardin, the brown wolf fell on its back and kicked the black one over it.Rolling onto his feet, he dashed after the beast, biting and clawing at everywhere he found entry until Lorenzo threw out an attack that made Hardin retreat. I continued watching in terror as Lorenzo lunged at him to grab his head. Slinking under the beast's large arms, Hardin
Chapter 76Jasmine.I exhaled deeply and released the breath that I wasn’t aware I was holding in as Hardin rounded the third round and successfully made it to the stop. My heart thumped, even though my face was void of emotion, as I watched him step out of his car with a proud smile on his face, but I tried my best not to show my happiness. I was glad that Hardin had won but I was happier that he was the one to be proclaimed my mate.I kept my eyes on Hardin as he looked up at dad and mom, who were looking down at him with so much pride. And when he turned to me, I locked my eyes, pulling him into a staring contest. It was not until we heard Lorenzo’s car screech loudly before coming to a halt that he turned his eyes away to look at Lorenzo. I kept my gaze, still, fixed on him without even caring to look down at Lorenzo who was now accusing Hardin of cheating his way through the competition.“The young lad would have dropped dead by now had your eyes been guns,” Mom said, rubbing my
Chapter 75.~Hardin. Nobody would have probably believed me but, I was damn serious when I said I could give up my position as the Alpha if that was what it would take Jasmine to forgive me, I thought as I walked through the hallway.I had wronged her and I didn't realize my wrongdoings early enough to apologize. I was sorry now and was willing to prove it but, first, I needed to make her see reasons why she should forgive me.And I intended to do that, right until Lorenzo interrupted my thought with a growl that came at me. With a frown on my face, “What is it Lorenzo?” I asked. “Don’t try to be innocent with me, Hardin!” He bawled out immediately, and I wondered for a start, if Lorenzo was even sensible enough to realize that for one of the first times since I had known him, I just wanted to have a peaceful talk with him, without having to throw punches. “Innocent?” I scoffed. “You know that is one thing that I would not dare. Good thing, I don’t find myself pretending like you
Chapter 74Jasmine For the most part of the night, I struggled to sleep.I spent it thinking about what I was going to do and I must have dozed off again, thankfully without having to wake up in the middle of the night this time, because there was a knock on the door and when I opened my eyes, the sun was already up. “Who is it?” I muttered out, as a yawn escaped my lips. I had definitely placed my neck in the wrong position while I slept, because it was hurting terribly. “It’s Lily. I have a message for you from the Alpha.” The quaint voice said. Massaging my neck, I left the bed and opened the door, to meet Lily standing with a tray of food in her hands. I must have slept so long, I could not even meet with breakfast at the table. “Your mother asked me to bring this up. Can I bring it in?”I nodded and moved aside for her to enter. “Thank you,” I mentioned as she kept it for me. And when she made to leave, she halted in her steps and turned back, causing my eyes to narrow.
Chapter 73JasmineI went for a run in the woods, ignoring the whine of my wolf as I ran farther away from Hardin, but the last thing I wanted right now was to see him. How could he expect me to just accept him back after everything?He had even organized a ball to pick a mate because he would rather do that than admit to himself that he could be responsible for my pregnancy, choosing to call me a little whore because it served his purpose of not taking accountability for his actions.I could not believe that I had gone and fallen for him despite everything, that somewhere along the line, I had stopped hating him and started hoping he was just misunderstood, but if he thought that just because we were mates that I was going to accept him then he had another thing coming.My wolf whined but I ignored her, changing our course and decided to run towards the house.If there was an option to go somewhere else, I would have as I was not yet ready to face my parents.What was mom and Dad goi
Chapter 72 HardinThe only thing that kept me from falling back after I had heard what Jasmine said, was the pillar that I had held as a support. Even as it was not physical - her words, the gravity of my guilt immediately clouded my mind and I hated myself for how terrible I had been all along. That the baby in her womb was mine? And that as much as I can be the way that I am, she would never be so reckless as to have some sort of intimacy with any other man. I had been a terrible person all along, with the way I just thrust my dick into any lady’s hole. “I have been terrible,” I muttered out. And then, remembering how I had not just had sex with other girls, but brought them to Jasmine’s knowledge by making her watch videos made me cringe. I was completely shocked at everything Jasmine said to Lorenzo. I didn't know this was how she felt till now and I feel like a total idiot, a sadist and a maniac. I'll have to apologize sincerely to her. It was not something I enjoyed doing,