Jonathan sat in Liza’s room, stroking her hair. It had been a week since Stacy had visited. Even though he had broken things off with Stacy he couldn’t help but cringe when he remembered. Stacy was definitely an attractive and intelligent woman, but she was nothing compared to his Liza. He wondered why he had ever started fooling around with Stacy when he had the woman he loved the most waiting for him at their home. He loved everything about her, her smile, the way she laughed when she found something funny, the way she blushed, her habit of sniffing him, or how she bit her lip when she was nervous. He was in love with every single trait of her. There was no part of Liza which he didn’t love. She consumed him completely. He couldn’t even remember a single reason why he did all those things with Stacy. He wondered if he could ever forgive himself for the mistake he made. ‘No’, he thought to himself ‘It wasn’t a mistake it was a sin tha
Jonathan had been right when he assumed that he wouldn’t be able to sleep even if he wanted to. The bed in his room was way more comfortable than the dingy hospital chair but still, he felt edgy while sleeping on it. It felt too wide and too empty without Liza beside him. He sighed and sat up, his back hitting the pillows arranged behind him. He glanced at the box of letters warily. He knew that once he started reading them, there will be no going back. It was true that he had read many of the letters before, but at that time he was trying to know how Liza felt but now reading those letters were a form of penance for him. A way to punish himself for hurting Liza. He picked up a random letter gingerly and opened it. Just by looking at the handwriting, he knew that it was from one of those times when Liza was really happy, from the time when he hadn’t messed up his life. There was a sway in her writing, he remembered how Liza’s handwriting changed with her moods. Whe
Jonathan folded the letter he was reading and picked up another one. It looked almost green in the golden light shining above him. He leaned back and rested his head on the Pillow as he shifted around to adjust himself. He had been reading the letters since the past three hours and yet he was not even close to finishing them. He discovered a new part of Liza every time he read a letter. He thought he knew Liza inside out but every time he read a letter he came to know something new about her. He wondered if she would have ever given him those letters if he hadn’t found them by mistake. He propped himself up on his elbows, making the mauve sheets crinkle beneath him, and started reading the letter,“24th February 2014To Jonathan,I am sorry Jonathan for being the way that I am. It’s been such a long time since we have gotten together and I am still not able to open up about my past. It’s difficult for me to talk abou
‘16th November 2015To JonathanYou are killing me, Jonathan. I can’t bear it any longer; I am at my breaking point. What have I done to deserve this? I have tried everything, done everything to bring you back to me but you distance yourself more with every effort I make. You rarely smile at me now, hell I rarely see you now. Either you are at the office or you are away on your ‘business trip’ and it kills me to know that every second that you are away from me you are getting closer to her.My nightmares have gotten worse now since you are never there to fend them away from me. I wake up to an empty bed and an empty house every day. I don’t even find any sign to know that whether you came back to home last night or not. I miss you, Jonathan. Where did that old Jonathan go? The one who used to love me endlessly, the one who used to hold me while I slept, or the one who kissed me awake. It’s been so long since I have slept in yo
Jonathan was sleeping on the small plastic chair beside Liza. His hand was still holding Liza’s hand as if she would somehow vanish in thin air. His shirt was rumpled and his hair was a mess. He had spent his whole day waiting for Liza to wake up. He had refused to move from his place beside Liza for even a moment. As the day passed and Liza made no sign of waking the light in his eyes began to dim little by little and his heart grew a little less hopeful. It was around the time when he was dreaming of holding Liza in his arms once again, that the heart rate monitor began to go crazy. All those green little lines which held Liza’s life began to go haywire. Jonathan jolted awake, his eyes flickering to the machine which gave him hope that Liza was still alive. He panicked as it beeped in frenzy and rushed to call the doctor.It is said that Light travels faster than sound, however, when Liza woke up she first heard the consistent beeping of the machine first, the k
“You said yes!!!” Alice shriek as she helped Liza put on her shirt. “How can you go back to that house Liza? How can you go back there after what he did to you?”. “I didn’t have an option Alice. You are going to Paris for your conference soon and I am not allowed to live on my own for another three weeks “Liza replied. “I would have stayed with you Liza, I would have missed that damn conference,” Alice said.“I know Alice but I can’t ask you to do that. I know how important this conference is for you and how excited you were about going to Paris”. Liza replied“It’s not more important than you. My brother has already ruined your life. If we hadn’t become roommates, there was a chance that you wouldn’t have met him. It’s partly my fault too Liza” Alice said as tears filled her eyes. Alice had never felt ashamed of being Jonathan’s sister even for a moment bu
The drive to Jonathan’s house was spent in tense silence with Jonathan stealing secret glances at Liza. The beautiful white double storied house came into view as they rounded around the corner. Jonathan stopped the car and turned off the engine. He went around to Liza’s side to open the gate for her but before he could do it for her, she had already opened it and had begun to step out of it. She was struggling to step out due to the plaster in her hand and ankle. Just two more weeks and then it will be off, she thought. Jonathan touched her ankle in an attempt to help her to lift it out of the narrow foot space of the car, but as soon as he touched it Liza jerked it off. Her face was expressionless and her eyes were as cold as chilly arctic wind.“At least let me help you with it,” Jonathan said, Liza paused her shuffling for a minute before trying to lift it out for one last time before simply nodding and giving him a ‘go ahead’ look. Tak
Jonathan knocked on Liza’s door, on receiving no answer he cracked the door open only to find her sleeping. He entered the room, closing the door gently behind him, and sat beside her. Liza’s hair was splayed over the pillow and her eyes were fluttering behind her closed eyelids, a small smile graced her lips and he wondered what she was dreaming about,’ certainly not about you’ his inner self poke. Suddenly her smile disappeared and her breathing became labored and within seconds she began screaming and thrashing. Jonathan shook her “Liza, it's fine. It’s alright baby. It is just a nightmare. You are alright Liza. I am here, I am always with you baby.” He soothed her. After a few minutes of soothing Liza’s nightmare had died down and she was once again asleep peaceful. Jonathan had forgotten how horrible Liza’s nightmares had been. He regretted letting her spend so many nights alone, letting her battle with these nightmares alon
After Jonathan’s failed attempt to seek an apology, Liza had spent most of her time locked up in her room. Jonathan hadn’t heard a single sound from her and honestly, Liza’s silence terrified him more than her words. It was nearly 9 pm when Jonathan knocked on Liza’s door. ’Um….hey Liza, I know you don’t want to even hear my voice and that you hate me right now but please eat something. It is time for you to take your medicines.” he said through the door. Liza didn’t give any response so Jonathan knocked again “Come on Liza, I know that you are angry but it is not the way to deal with issues between. Just eat your dinner and I won’t even bother you.” He was once again met by silence. “Come on Liza open the fucking door” he shouted through it and knocked it again and again, till Liza opened the door.Liza’s hair was disheveled, her eyes had red rings around them as if she had been crying
Jonathan went to his office and called Liza. Stacy's hug didn't feel right to him. It was as if his body was rejecting her touch. However, feeling her press herself into him made his ache for Liza grow. He was going to go home and take Liza out tonight. He would finally get to spend some time alone with her. It had been days since he had properly talked to Liza and he intended to set it right. He planned on taking the next day off and spending it with Liza. He would make sure to make it up to her. Liza never complained but he knew that she got lonely. Alice kept Liza Company, but she had her own life and couldn't be always there. Then there were those nightmares. Liza still suffered from nightmares, they weren't that often but they still plagued her sometimes. He hated staying in the office while Liza could be fending off the horrible nightmares on her own.Liza's phone kept ringing but she didn't pick it up. After calling her for the fourth time, she finally picked it. "Hey
Jonathan sighed as he loosened his tie and shrugged off his jacket. It had been a tiring day for him. The office work was continuously piling on in heaps, there wasn't even a single moment to spare since the last three days. His company was rapidly emerging as one of the most profitable companies in the country. He hadn't reached the goal yet but he was sure he would.He remembered when he had taken over this company, it had been a fledgling then. He had worked hard to get where he was now. He had given up so much to take this company to heights and to make it successful. For the past three years, the only thing that had been on his mind was this making this company big. He had worked day and night and had put everything in his life on the back burner for it. He would have never made it without Liza. She stood behind him, like his biggest supporter.Liza... he missed her so much. He had barely seen her last month. He never had time. He would come home late and go
2nd year of the collegeDing-dong. Jonathan rang the doorbell and tapped his foot impatiently, waiting for Alice to open the door. He had an important test tomorrow and Alice wasting his time asking him to run errands for her. He tightened his grip on the ice cream bucket he had and rang the doorbell again. He looked at his silver watch. He had been very busy lately, with his finals and the football tournament coming up, the stress was piling upon him. He absolutely hated wasting his time but then Alice was his sister and he could never say no to her. He had even agreed to buy tampons for her once even though after that his friends had given him a hard time, cracking jokes at his expense.He sighed as he shifted the ice cream bucket to his left hand and held up his right hand to knock on the door again. He knocked on the door "Alice, open up the door" he shouted. He shifted his weight from one foot to another as he waited. He had an important test on Jane Austen’s 'Pride
Have you ever read something, so familiar as if it is your own life story? Did you feel the growing sense of recognition in your stomach? Or have you felt the sympathy that you wished someone felt when you were suffering? Well, Liza did. As she read each word of the manuscript in her hand, she felt the growing sense of familiarity. She wanted to reach out and console the female protagonist of the novel, she wanted to wipe her tears and tell her that it will be better when that girl found out that her husband was cheating on her. It felt as if she was living it all again and though it had been nearly three years those memories still brought tears to her eyes.Liza sat there in her office all night reading through the manuscript, as the female protagonist confronted her husband, kicked him in the balls (something that Liza wished she had done). The lead of the novel was much more independent than Liza ever was, she was one of those characters with whom you wouldn't want to mess
2 years laterAlice knocked on the clear glass door. She could see Jonathan's head bent down over a file. He knocked on the door. "Come in," Jonathan said in a distracted voice. "You didn't even look up to see, who was it. What if it was one of those annoying people you don't want to meet?" she asked. "First of all who said you were not annoying and secondly Dave wouldn't have let you in if I didn't want to meet you" he said, still looking at the file. "At least look at me when you are talking. I just came back from Paris and you can't even spare few minutes to talk about the meal you do is work. Why don't you ever take a break?" Alice said pouting. Jonathan sighed as he kept the file aside and looked at her. "Are you happy now?” he asked. "Somewhat, but now I have to see your shitty face," she said lightly, teasing him. "I don't have time for jokes Alice, just say what you want to and go. I am busy" he said."You are always busy Jonathan. When will you get over it? Ever
Alex had been waiting for Liza's call all morning. He didn't know if Liza had made the right choice by leaving Jonathan because he could see how torn she really was over leaving Jonathan. He knew that Liza was determined to find herself and he knew that once she set her heart at something she would never back away from it. But he worried for her. There was a time when he had loved Liza. She had been the only one to see past the mask he put on, the only one to believe in him when even his parents had given up hope. But that was a long time ago. He still loved Liza but like a friend. He had seen Liza when she had told him about when Liza and Jonathan had first met. He could see the sparkle in her eyes as she had talked about it. Alex wasn't sure if he could ever bring that spark in her eyes. He loved Liza but for now, he was content in standing behind her as she moved ahead with her life.Jonathan woke up to find himself sitting against the wall in Liza’s bedroom. Unlike last ti
Liza had been nervous all day. She had been second-guessing her decision and now as she looked at herself in the mirror all dressed up, she still wasn't sure if she was making the right choice. Liza suddenly wished that there was an on and off switch for the feelings. It would have been so much easier for her, had she been numb, she would have left Jonathan easily without a moment of hesitation but since she still had feelings for him, she had to suffer now. Liza hated being so conflicted. It was difficult not to second guess herself when her heart was on the line.Liza had been through so much pain and she didn't want to be in pain anymore. It would be difficult and too painful for her to leave Jonathan and it would hurt her too much to stay with Jonathan too. There was no choice that would be painless for her. By choosing to stay with Jonathan her confidence, her self-respect and her values would be compromised but by leaving Jonathan her heart would be ripped apart.L
Liza eyed the box kept on her nightstand warily. It was like Pandora’s Box. Liza knew that it would only add to her conflicted feelings and should leave it like that, but she was also having trouble in resisting the temptation to open it. She had always been curious and this box was increasing her inquisitiveness every second. Finally, frustrated with herself, Liza gave in to the temptation and opened the box while cursing herself.She slid open the lid of the box to find a rose-colored paper folded and kept on the box in which she kept the letters she wrote to Jonathan but never gave him. Liza was surprised that Jonathan had found the box. She had meant to take the box with her when she had left the house but had somehow managed to forget it. To be honest she had forgotten all about the Letters. She had started writing letters as a way to let out her feelings, those feelings which were next to impossible for her to tell Jonathan in person.Growing up, Liza never had many f
Jonathan paced back and forth in his room. It had been two days since he had last talked to Liza and Alice would be coming back any day now. He had wasted all the time he had in being Jealous and overbearing. He hated the fact he somehow always ended up hurting Liza. He could never do it right. He had tried numerous times but he always said the wrong words. He knew that he was being selfish by asking Liza to forgive him and give him a second chance but he couldn't help it. Liza was like a drug for him and he couldn't get enough of her. He had made a grave mistake when he had let himself get blinded by Stacy's charms and had let go of the most important woman in his life. Liza was too precious to be lost, he had cheated on her, broken her trust, and had lost his faith in her.Liza hated grand gestures. She had never been a fan of them, so Jonathan knew that performing grand gestures was not an option for earning her apology. He had to think of something which was like Liza, war