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Jack: I figured that wasn't all that you wanted 😚

My face instantly lit up and my cheeks immediately begin to heat up, causing my face to turn crimson. As I allow myself to dwell in my excitement, guilt immediately begins to suppress my previous joyful state as I begin to think back to my conversation with Aubrey.

I shouldn’t have called her that.

I shouldn’t have acted so irrationally, I’m such a horrible friend.

I was just upset with her in that moment, I wasn’t thinking clearly but obviously she was only trying to help me.

Why would I think anything different? We’ve been best friends all of these years, she’s never done anything other than be there for me.

God, I’m so stupid!

~Six weeks later~

Jack and I have been d.ming everyday for about six weeks now and I'd say that our friendship is really starting to blossom. He’s started to grow into someone that I can actually turn to if I need advice or if I just need someone to talk to, I really enjoy our conversations. Still, I get excited and anxious every time he replies to me since I'm still such a super fan girl. But I’m I’m not sure why. It’s not like he’s a stranger to me anymore.

Me, Ella and Aubrey had just made up since our fight and I’ve started working on control my emotional outbursts more. It’s not right to take out my emotions on that just because I feel overwhelmed in the moment. It’s not right.

“What do you guys want to watch?” I ask, turning to the two of them as I scroll through the N*****x selections in my movie room.

“Um, it doesn’t really matter to me.” Ella replied.

As I go to find a good comedy movie for us to enjoy, the sound of my phone vibrating catches my attention, completely distracting me from what I was doing. My eyes look down at the screen, having happiness shoot through me as I read over Jack’s message.

Jack: hey😊

Me: heyyy.

Jack: I would give you my number but I'm scared you might give it out to ppl or some shit

As I read his message, I couldn’t help but feel offended by the fact that Jack really didn't trust me enough to give me his number. I mean we have been talking on a daily basis, I thought he would’ve known me better than that by now.

Me: oh okay so u don't trust me? It's cool I wouldn't want your number anyways.

It was killing me on the inside to say that because I really did want his number, I mean who doesn't? But was he seriously going to say that to me?

After a while of arguing back and forth he finally gave in and sent it to me. I smile in satisfaction as my body begins to tremble from the amount of excitement that imploded throughout me.

My phone slips through my hand as I look down at my screen past my shakey fingers. As I stay locked in this state for several moments Ella takes it upon herself to grab my phone and input his number for me, seeing as I was incapable of doing it myself.

I finally had his number. And it didn't really seem real until I texted him and got a response.

Me: hey it's kat

Jack: hey gorgeous

~three weeks later~

Jacks was coming to Houston and Me, Ella and Aubrey hadn't bought tickets yet because we were completely broke and our parents were being difficult, refusing to buy them for us. After storming to my room completely angered by my parents and their stubbornness, I immediately go to text Jack. As I pull out my phone it lights up, taking me by surprise as I go to read the notification.

Jack: hey we're coming to Houston and I really need to see you.