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"where the hell have you been?" My dad says rather sternly.

Panic immediately floods my being as I go to say the first excuse that I could think of.

" I'm sorry that I left without asking. I had to get up early to go to the store and get some pads because I started my period and I ran out. I’m sorry that I didn’t let you guys know beforehand. I promise that it won’t happen again" I say as my eyes fixate on the ground beneath me.

I wouldn't dare lie to my parents face like that.

"Katrina Jeffries are you telling us the truth?" my mother says in a sweet yet skeptical tone, joining herself into the conversation.

"yes! but I'm really tired so im just going to go to bed now" I said, now walking upstairs in attempts to end the conversation.

As I go to make my way towards the staircase my parents remain silent, allowing for me to return to my room in peace.

How could I just lie to my parents like that?

I'm going to hell...it's official now.

When I finally made my way to my room, I immediately fall onto my bed before attempting to sleep away everything that just happened. But after two hours of tossing and turning within my bedsheets, I discovered that it was no use; my mind wouldn’t let me sleep.

I couldn't stop thinking about how soft and passionate our kiss was.

How good his body felt on mine.

How our bodies moved in a perfect sync.

And most of all, I could stop thinking about how much I craved his touch.

After what felt like hours of me replaying my moments with Jack, I must’ve fallen asleep because the sound of someone knocking on my bedroom door causes me to awaken within my bed frame.

"Good morning honey! Your father and I made breakfast if you want some." I hear her yell from the opposite end of my door, followed by the sound of retreating footsteps.

Wait was any of this real?

Did I almost hook up with jack or was it all a dream?

With confusion and uncertainty laced throughout my brain I slowly peel myself out of bed before tossing on my sweats and throwing my hair into a messy bun. I didn't even attempt to put on any kind of make-up because I didn't know if what me and Gilinsky had was real or just a dream.

Even if it was real… it’s not like Jack would want anything to do with me now anyways.

After finishing breakfast with my family , I eventually make my way back upstairs before checking my phone.

5 missed calls from Johnson

Okay, so it definitely wasn’t a dream.

Without thinking, I immediately called him back. After about three rings, he answers.

"hey kat!" he said, sounding somewhat excited to be hearing from me.

"Hey, what's up?" I said sounding a little confused as to why he would be calling me rather than Gilinsky.

"Jack mentioned that you and your friends don't have enough money to buy a ticket to our show tonight. Soooo-" he starts, having me go to interrupt him as my sense of excitement takes over me.

"So what?!!!!!" I question with excitement and eagerness clear in my tone.

"So, we got you guys all access passes tonight" he says, laughing at my current state.

A loud gasp escapes my lips as I couldn’t even believe the words that I was hearing.

“Oh my God!! Thank you so much! I can’t believe this.” I say, still in a state of shock.

"Of course, don’t worry about it. Just make sure that you tell Aubrey I'll be waiting for her" he says, somewhat laughing as his tone turns a bit more serious than before.

"Okay, I will. But I have to ask, are you guys like…a thing now?" I question, feeling really confused since Aubrey didn't say anything to me regarding him.

"I could asked the same thing about you and G" he says in response, avoiding my previous question.

I couldn't help but smile at his words, but that sense of happiness was short lived as the sound of something from the other line takes me a bit off guard.

" aww, G. Stop it ! You’re such a fucking tease." A female voice repeats in the background, followed by the sound of laughter. Before I could say anything else, the line ended causing my heart to sink.

Maybe what me and Gilinsky had wasn't real, maybe it was just all in my head.

But if me and G weren't real then why did Johnson say that?

why is this so confusing?

Why do I even care?

He’s a celebrity, why would I be important to him?

After recollecting my thoughts I then go to call Ella to tell her the good news. But, since she was my best friend she knew something was wrong.

"What's wrong K? Why aren’t you happy? We finally got those tickets that we’ve been talking about! How come you sound so sad? Did something happen? " She questions, sounding genuinely concerned for my well being.

" I don't know ella. I was talking to Johnson and I could hear Gilinsky messing around with some girl in the background. I know I shouldn’t care but for some reason I can’t help but to feel hurt.” I say honestly as tears begin to well up into my eyes.

Am I really about to cry over this right now?!

Why do I even care so much?!

"Kat are you serious right now? Fuck him! If he can't see what an amazing girl you are then, oh well. He doesn't deserve you. Don’t sit around and cry because you’re not with him, make him sit around and cry because he lost you!" She says passionately, causing me to feel somewhat better.

She’s right.

Why should I be the one crying?

I’m going to show up at his show tonight and make him wish he could have me.

I’m going to show him just what he missed out on.

"You’re right Ella, thank you. I’m going to look hot as Fuck tonight and make G cry knowing what he missed out on." I say confidently.

“Okay girl! I’ll see you tonight!” She says, laughing.

After saying our goodbyes and ending the call I immediately make my way into the shower before playing jack and jacks music on repeat. As I stand underneath the warm stream I begin to think deeper into my last conversation with Ella.

She’s right, if Jack was going to sit there and act like nothing happened then I was going to do it too.

I’m going to make him wish that I was his.

His little game of being a fuckboy was hard but I could play it ten times better than he could.

Just because I'm a virgin doesn't mean that I can't break his heart.

After exiting the shower I immediately do my skincare routine before putting on a full face of make-up. Once I was finished perfecting my look i then bring myself over to my closet before looking over all of my options.

I decide to settle with a denim mini skirt along with a pink crop top that only covered up necessary parts and pink strappy heels. I pair the outfit with a variety of accessories before curling my hair into tight curls. Once I was completely dressed and ready to go I then put on my newly bought Chanel fragrance before running out the door as Ella and Aubrey were already here to pick me up.

“Hey guys! Are y’all ready for tonight?!” I ask excitedly as I climb my way into Ella’s jeep.

“The real question is… are you ready for tonight?” Ella emphasizes

No, no actually I’m not.

“As ready as I’ll ever be.” I say, flashing the two of them a smile.

“Don’t worry you guys. We’ll have a great time!” Aubrey says, joining in on the conversation.

“I still can’t believe you managed to score us all access passes for tonight’s show. That’s insane.” She continues, seeming to be in disbelief as she adjusts her makeup in the overhead mirror.

“I know right! This is all so crazy to me. What do you think happens backstage?” I question, already daydreaming about what was soon to be known.

“I guess we’ll find out.” Ella says, smirking as she thinks about all of the different possibilities for what’s to come.

We spend the rest of the ride just talking and listening to music as we prepared ourselves for tonight. After driving down the busy roads for another forty minutes, we finally arrived at tonight’s venue.

The streets were flooded with fans and the line to the inside seemed endless as they all waited to be checked by security.

“Oh my god how are we even supposed to get in there?! This line is crazy!” I groan, feeling overwhelmed by the amount of people that were here tonight.

“Maybe you should try calling one of the boys.” Aubrey calls out as we make our way over to the sidewalk.

Anxiety immediately settles into my stomach as she says those words as I now realized that I had no choice but to face Jack. I take a deep breath in attempts to build up a fake sense of confidence before pulling out my phone and dialing his number. After the first ring, he answers.

“Hey Jack. Me and the girls are here but it’s really hectic and I’m not sure where to go.” I explain, sounding as nonchalant as possible.

“Okay, go to the back of the venue and I’ll wait for you out there.” He says, quickly ending the call before I could respond.

“What did he say?!” Ella questions, as the two of them stare at me awaiting answers.

“He wants us to go to the back of the venue and he says he’ll get us from there.” I explain

They both nod their heads in understanding before we all separate from the large group of people surrounding us. We walk four minutes through the dirty streets in heels before finally making it to the back of the venue where we are met with security.

“Ladies you can’t be back here. You need to check in at the front.” The tall and muscular man states.

Before I have the chance to respond I am interrupted by the sound of someone doing it for me.

“They’re with me.”

As soon as I hear those words I look up to find Jack already staring down at me from the top of the entry ramp. Sparks and butterflies immediately fill my essence as our eyes meet, causing my entire body to flush.

The security immediately nods his head in approval before removing the rope in order to grant us entry.

“Hi gorgeous. You look sexy today.” Jack says, smiling down at me as I approach him.

“Thank you.” I blush.

Jack holds the door open for Ella and Aubrey before coming back to my side in order to walk with me. He places a possessive hand at the small of my back as he begins to lead me down the hallway to where I assume his rehearsal or dressing room would be.

As soon as we make our way to his secluded area my face immediately scrunches together as I see all of his friends smoking backstage, causing the entire room to be cloudy and filled with a potent aroma.

Before I could say anything both Ella and Aubrey abandon me to go be with Matt and Johnson, leaving me to be alone with Jack once again.

“Johnson and I have to go do meet and greets before the show. You’ll be able to see me from here so just text me if you need anything okay babe.” Jack says.

Babe?

God, he’s messing with my head!

I’m the one supposed to me be making him crave me, not the other way around.

“Yeah, whatever.” I say, trying to seem somewhat uninterested.

As the two of them leave I immediately go to sit myself down on the couch that was in the room as Ella comes over to accompany me. We both watch as different fans crowd around the boys, begging and pleading just for their attention.

How desperate.

I hope this isn’t how Jack views me

…even though I am.

As I watch Jack interact with his fans I couldn’t help but to get jealous as I watch him kiss one of the girls at the meet and greet. I know he’s just trying to make his fans happy and that it shouldn’t phase me, especially since we aren’t together; but I couldn’t help the ping of anger that arose within me by watching their exchange.

“God, Jack is such a fuckboy. I guess all the rumors about him really are true.” She says.

And that would make me just another dumb fling for him.

After sitting in my thoughts for a few minutes I decide it was time that I’d stop sulking in my emotions and instead do something about them. My eyes scan over the group of jacks friends, looking over at all of the hot options as my eyes lock with a certain blond haired boy.

He was tall, with deep sunken eyes and shaggy hair, making him look as if he had just gotten it styled. As my eyes rake over his physique, he sends me a suggestive smile as he breaths in a breath of smoke.

Maybe if I hook up with jacks friends he’ll actually start to care about me.

Maybe it’ll make him realize what he’s lost.

Slowly I make my way over to his direction before building up the confidence to speak to him.

“Is this seat taken?” I question, pointing to the seat beside him.

“Yeah.” He says, causing me to become slightly discouraged.

Just as I was about to walk away the feeling of him tugging on my arm takes me by surprise as he sits me down comfortably on his lap.

“This one is free though.” He says with a sly smirk

I immediately start to blush from this close proximity as I try to think of something to say in order to ease the tension.

“I really like your hair.” I say sweetly as I run my fingers through his platinum blonde strands.

“Thanks doll face.” He says as he takes another drag from his blunt.

The unknown man runs his hand down the side of my legs as he continues to enjoy his blunt while staring up at me with lustful eyes.

“What’s your name?” I question in attempts to keep the conversation going.

“Sammy and you?” He questions.

Just as I speak those words the sound of the door opening gains my attention. I look over to that direction to find Jack coming back from the meet and greet. A small sense of adrenaline begins to pumps through my veins at the sight of him, having me immediately turn my attention back on Sammy.

As I look down at the blonde man below me, the feeling of two eyes on me doesn’t go unnoticed. If looks could kill I would be one dead bitch.

Good, I’m glad he’s noticed.

“My name doesn’t matter.” I say jokingly in response.

“You’re right.” Sammy replied before grabbing my face and pulling me in for a kiss before I have time to react.

I immediately pull away from his embrace before looking down at him in a state of shock.

“What the fuck?!” I question, immediately standing from his lap as I was taken completely off guard.

Once realization hit me I immediately turn to see jack clenching his jaw in what seemed to be anger before storming out of the room. Before giving Sammy the chance to explain himself I immediately go to chase after him.

“Jack!” I call out as I walk as fast as I could through the semi crowded hallways, trying my best to keep up with his quick pace.

“Jack, wait!” I try and call out as I continue and struggle to catch up to him.

Jack continues to walk with a sense of urgency, having me finally go to reach him as we meet the end of the hallway.

“Jack-“ I say before being interrupted by the sound of his harsh tone.

"Security! Can you please escort this bitch out? She can’t be here anymore." He spat.

I immediately was taken aback by his words and by the way he was reacting.

I thought Jack didn’t care about me?

Why all the fuss now?

"Wait what?! Jack, I just want to talk." I say sincerely in attempts to calm him down.

“Do you think I want to talk to you?! Fucking bitch. You’re just some slutty, desperate fan that I felt bad for. I have nothing to say to you.”

His tone, it was so cold and harsh i nearly flinched from the sound of it.

Is he really that mad?

Is he being serious right now?

Why would he say that to me?

"Wow Jack, fuck you. You know I’m glad I came, because if I didn’t then I never would’ve known that your friend Sammy is a way fucking better kisser than you. But you know what? You probably don’t even remember our kiss, do you? Since I’m just some slutty fan. I guess that’s all that I am to you right ? All that I’ll ever be?” I question, feeling tears line my eyes.

Jack remained silent at my words, just confirming everything that I already knew.

“Fuck you.” I say, clutching my phone for dear life as I run my way out of the stadium.

I hate him!

I can't believe I was actually starting to have feeling for him!

What the fuck is wrong with me??

As I made my way outside I immediately push my way through the many groups of people before standing outside of Ella’s car. I quickly pull my phone out to dial the girls since I can’t leave without them and to update them on everything that just happened.

Tears stream down my face as I dial Aubrey’s number, hoping desperately that she would answer so that I could finally get out of here. After calling her on three separate occasions, she finally decides to answer.

"Hey Aubrey can you please get Ella and meet me by the car? Im already here, Jack kicked me out of the venue.” I explained, trying my hardest to keep it together so that she didn’t know I was crying.

"Are you serious kat?! How do you manage to get kicked out after securing all access passes. This is a once in a lifetime type of thing. I can’t miss this just because you managed to get yourself kicked out." She says, sounding somewhat annoyed by the situation.

“Aubrey?! You can’t be serious right now-“ I start before being cut off by the sound of her speaking once again.

“Sorry Kat, I’ve got to go” she says, before ending the line.

A baffled gasp escapes my lips as I take in the conversation I just had.

Did she just hang up on me?

Did she just leave me out here to find my way back alone?

Does anyone even care about me?

I take a deep breath in efforts to calm my emotions before deciding to call myself an Uber. After waiting beside Ella’s car for another twenty minutes the driver finally arrives, having me climb my way into the vehicle immediately.

The car ride was long an excruciating with me just crying silently the entire time as I thought about everything that happened with both Jack and Aubrey. When we finally arrived at my house I immediately made my way inside before being met with my dad.

"Hey sweetie, is everything alright?" He asks as his face twists into a look of concern.

I immediately wipe away my tears before flashing him a fake smile as I go to speak.

“Yes sorry, I'm just really tired. I'll talk to you tomorrow, goodnight.” I say before quickly running upstairs to my room.

When I finally found myself to be alone I immediately lock the door behind me before breaking down into tears. I couldn't comprehend what I was feeling in the moment. This feeling was overwhelming and completely foreign so I don’t even know how to deal with it properly.

I’ve never had anything like this happen to me.

I’ve never been talked to in that manner before.

I’ve never been treated like this by a man before.

Fresh tears continued to replace the old ones as I try to process my thoughts. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't stop thinking about how Jack called me a slut and how Aubrey just completely left me for dead out there.

It’s not like any of this was really even my fault.

After what felt like hours of more crying, I finally managed to fall asleep.

~3 hours later~

The sound of something banging against my window catches me by surprise, having me immediately jolt awake as fear begins to engulf me.

What the fuck was that?

I grow still against my sheets as the sound repeats itself, this time sounding more like a sequence of patterns.

Is somebody here?

Slowly, I make my way over to my window before slowly pushing open my blinds.

Jack?!