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"where the hell have you been?" My dad said sternly.

" I'm sorry I had to get up early and go c.v.s to get some pads because I started my period and I ran out" I looked down at the ground because I wouldn't dare lie to my parents face like that.

"Katrina Jeffries are you telling us the truth?" my mom said in a sweet but pitiful voice.

"yes! but I'm really tired so im just going to go to bed now" I said, now walking upstairs. My parents didn't say anything after that, they believed me. How could I just lie to my parents like that? I'm going to hell...it's official now.

When I got to my room I attempted to sleep away what just had happened but I couldn't seem to sleep. I couldn't stop thinking about how soft and passionate his kiss was, how good his body felt on mine, how our bodies moved in perfect sync, and most of all I could stop thinking about how much I craved his touch.

I awoke to a knock at my door, it was my mom. "honey your father and I made breakfast if you want some." I heard her walk away when she didn't get a response. Wait was any of this real? Did I almost hook up with jack or was it all a dream?

I got out of bed and put on some sweats, a tank top and threw my hair in a bun. I didn't even attempt to put on any kind of make-up because I didn't know if what me and Gilinsky had was real or just a dream.

After a finished breakfast I went upstairs and checked my phone. 5 missed calls from Johnson, yup it was defiantly not a dream. I immediately called him back.

"hey kat!" he said really excitedly.

"yeah what's up?" I said sounding a little confused.

"Jack had told me that you and your friends don't have enough money to buy a ticket to digi, soooo-"

" so what!" I said interrupting him with more excitement then before.

" so we got you guys all access passes" he said laughing. "oh and make sure u tell Aubrey that I'll be waiting for her" he said with a more serious tone

"okayyyyyy? are you guys a thing now?" I said really confused since Aubrey didn't say shit to me about anything!

"I could asked the same thing about you and G" I couldn't help but smile,but then I heard some thing in the background.

" aww G stop it your such a fucking tease" a girls voice kept saying and laughing in the back ground. Before I could say anything the line ended, and my heart sank.

Maybe what me and Gilinsky had wasn't real maybe it was just all in my head. But if me and G weren't real then why did Johnson say that? why tf is this so confusing? Why the fuck am I so heart broken over him?

I called Ella and told her the good news but since she was my best friend she knew something was wrong.

"what's wrong K? you should be happy! why do you sound so sad?" I could tell in her voice that she really did care.

" I don't know,I was talking to Johnson and I could hear Gilinsky messing around with some girl in the background" My voice started to crack and a tear rolled down my face.

"Kat are you serious right now? Fuck him...if he can't see what an amazing girl you are then oh well he doesn't deserve you, don't sit around and cry because your not with him make him sit around and cry because he lost you!" I started to laugh because she seemed so upset by it.

"okay well I need to get ready so that G can cry over me" She laughed and I was about to #slay.

I took a long hot shower while listening to cold hearted and like that on repeat. I really took what Ella had said into consideration. If he was gonna sit there and act like nothing happened then I was going to do it too.

I was going to make him wish I was his. His little game of being a fuckboy was hard but I could play it 10 times better than he could. Just because I'm a virgin doesn't mean that I can't slay on everybody.

I put on a full face of make-up, a skin tight red pencil skirt, a black crop top that only covers up necessary parts, a white kimono and black heels. I wonded my hair in tight curls and then put on my newly bought Chanel fragrance. Then waited for Ella and Aubrey to come pick me up.

After Me, Ella and Aubrey arrived at digi all the guys jaws dropped at the sight of us, including Gilinsky. I smirked and slowly strutted right passed him while Ella and Aubrey ran straight to Matt and Johnson. I sat on the couch that was backstage and watched as a whole bunch of fans crowded around the guys. I got jealous when jack kissed this girl but I tried to act like it didn't phase me when I was really dying on the inside.

After the meet and greet I couldn't help but notice that jack kept staring at me and biting his lip. It was so sexy and I just wanted to kiss him right there but I couldn't, I needed to make him want me not the other way around.

Since Sammy seemed interested in me I went over there and started to flirt, doing whatever I possibly could to make Jack jealous.

I watched Jack watch me and I was loving how jealous he was until Sammy kissed me and I kissed back.

I opened my eyes to see Jack clench his jaw and walk away. I pulled away from the kiss and chased after Jack leaving Sammy really confused.

Everything I said to Jack he ignored and then he did what I didn't even think he would do. " security can you please escort this bitch out I really don't want her near me I feel threatened!" He spat.

"What the fuck G? I just want to talk" I said sincerely.

"Sorry I don't really want to talk to you because I have nothing to say, your just some crazy slutty ass fan that I want to be away from." Did he really just say that? Was he serious right now?

" oh well I hate to break it to you but Sammy's a way better kisser than you but I bet you don't even remember our kiss since I'm just some slutty ass fan and ur just some stupid ass fuckboy!" I said leaving the stadium. I can't believe I actually had feeling for him! What the hell is wrong with me!

I stood outside waiting at the car but I couldn't leave because I came with Ella and Aubrey but Jack had only kicked me out! So I called Aubrey.

"Hey Aubrey we need to go Jack called security on me and got me escorted out" I said trying not to let her know I was crying

"Well that's your problem not mine, I'm sure he had a reason for kicking you out but no I'm not coming to get you, walk!" She spat into the phone. Before I could say anything the line ended and I dropped to the ground.

How could my so called friend say something like that to me? She's supposed to cheer me up but instead she's breaking me down. I can't do this anymore I just can't.

I called an uber driver and I was crying the whole way home. When I had finally got home my dad had noticed something was wrong.

"Hey sweetie is everything alright?" He asked with a warm smile and soft eyes.

"Yeah I'm just really tired, I'll talk to you tomorrow goodnight" I ran upstairs to my room and threw a tantrum. I couldn't comprehend what was going on. This feeling was overwhelming and I didn't know how to deal with it.

I couldn't stop crying, I couldn't stop thinking about how Jack called me a slut and how Aubrey blamed it on me. IT WASN'T MY FAULT! I laid on the bed with tears in my eyes and cried myself to sleep.

I woke up to a knock on my window, and it was Gilinsky. Oh god what the fuck did he want?