'I must be imagining things' Tan darted at the love of his life, the only woman he had ever loved and will ever love. Gabrielle Lot.
God knows he tried to get rid of any memory of her in his life, he used anything possible; his time, his work and other women but he couldn't she wasn't easy to get rid off.
Gabrielle was his ex girlfriend. The woman he pushed away without thinking of a way to save the relationship. He often thought of the damage he had caused but that was like crying over spilled milk.
He abandoned her within a backward glance. He hated himself for what he did to her. He hated he had to see those beautiful eyes of hers again. She hasn't changed except for the rage and boiling hatred she was looking at him with which was replaced by the look of love. She still maintained her tall gorgeous frame Her curves Which he could trace with his fingers. She was still the Gabrielle, everly Beautiful with her cheek bones and her elegantly sloped nose. He clenched his fists in a manner only him knew what was going on.
He watched as her lips parted on the sight of him, those lips which her had hovered and plummeted over many times.
He hated the effect she still had on him, the instant their eyes clashed.
What the hell was Gabrielle doing in New York. Not belittling her, he knew this restaurant was for the big leagues in New York. What was his business though, he had no right to to her life. He left her like a discarded thrash.
As if they'd never curled their sweat dampened bodies around each other, lost in their little bubble where the outside world couldn't pierce through.
He did what had to be done, even though he hated himself. He'd earned a degree in the field of breaking hearts.
He could blame his family for their breakup all he wants but it didn't change the fact he hurt her badly.
After what he did to Gabrielle courtesy of his parent he never intended to see her. But there she was, standing two feet apart from him.
He remembered the promises he made to her, he swore to protect her when the world wasn't in her Favour and he failed to do that. He didn't deserve to see her again, not now not ever.
If he knew he would see Gabrielle at this restaurant then he would have stayed put in his office. He could only blame one person for this mishap, his secretary.
"Hi" Gabrielle greeted, her gaze fixed on Leo Tan's friend who had come to eat in the restaurant with him, they had a lunch date. Out of habit, Leo stood up from his seat, with Tan following suit.
That soft low voice grazed over her skin. Even before they began dating, his voices reminded her of tangled sheets, throats chafed from pleasure soaked screams.
"It's been a long time Leo, I haven't seen your face in like forever...you look good though" Tan hated the fact that she spoke to Leo first.
Just when Tan believed she was going to ignore his existence, she peered at him and deeped her chin.
"Hello Tan. It's good to see you again" if anything he could tell she was lying.
"You both come here often? Gabby asked as they lowered back into their chairs, saving Tan from replying to her fake smile. Leo glances back and forth between Gabby and Tan, all he could see was a flood of mixed emotions on their faces. A mixture of love and hatred.
"Yes" Tan responded relaxing his nerves.
"I came to do business in this part of the city and we decided to meet up for lunch"
"Right, LEE has a business branch here" she said while nodding her head.
Why did she say that? she didn't want their conversation to go any further.
"What a small world Gabby" Leo stated. I never thought I would see Gabrielle Lot again"
"Neither did I ever think of seeing Leo or Tan again" she said letting a small smile escape from her mouth.
"I should get going" Gabby spoke warmly and made a turn to leave. "You don't have to leave because of us, we were just about to leave. It was nice seeing you Gabby".
The two friends stood up to leave, Gabby watch them walk to the entrance of the door, just when she thought she wouldn't see his face again, Tan looked back.
Tan had to fight the urge to touch her again, but he lost that opportunity a long time ago and he would be lying to himself if he didn't want that opportunity again.
"Are you still thinking about Gabby?
"Yes, she hasn't changed at all, she still looked like Gabby, the only difference was that she wasn't his Gabby anymore”
"I don't agree with you, I think she changed, she looked sought of rich and accomplished" Leo argued. Even though Tan didn't admit to that, he knew Leo was telling the truth. She looked better off without him.
"I 'd suggest you forget you ever saw her, to avoid hitting destruction mode"
Leo knew the mess his friend became when they broke up. Although he didn't know the reason they broke up, he knew he didn't want to see his friend get hurt again.
"Thank you, but I'll be fine" Tan replied assuringly.
"You should have seen your face when you saw her, you looked so pale, like you have been drained of all your blood" Leo chuckled. Trying to bring his friend back to reality, he wanted to think about Gabby and the good memories they shared.
He could still detect her scent even if they weren't close enough.
He thought about Gabby and how he wanted to give the answers to all the questions she asked or find out if she still made a low gasp if he fisted the thick strands of her silk textured hair and tugged, if her eyes would darken with desire.
Man, the things they'd done to each other in their college dorm, unbidden lust burning through him, hot memories of their skin sliding against each other.
"Tan, what are you thinking about" Leo brought him back to reality.
"I'm just going to say this, then leave you alone" Leo murmured.
"From a friend to another, whatever is eating you up deal with it before it swallows you-
"As for what we discussed earlier, GALA would be great to push forward the design of LEE Fashion line, I've already sent a mail to the company and an appointment had been scheduled for tomorrow"
"You should make sure not to keep them waiting" Leo continued.
Tan went along with the subject change, nodding and replying when Appropriate but his mind was still on Gabrielle.
His mind drifted to the day he broke things off. When he broke her heart. Thinking about it, if it had to do with anything to protect Gabby, he would do it over and over again without hesitation.
This is my(Gimbiya) first lone project, so it means a lot to me.
Authors note Hi, thank you for reading this book, please don't forget to comment as this will only serve as an encouragement for me❤️
Gabby spent her night thinking of Tan. There were things she wanted to forget about, but the moment she saw Tan, everything came flooding back. Every memory from when her face lit up whenever she saw him, her skin against his skin...it was all coming back. Tan was past tense and he had to remain that way to keep her sane. Getting involved with him would be Trouble. She didn't feel like she would have to see him again. "Even doing business with his family company does not mean she would see him, they would use a representative" she thought to herself. "Thanks, Larry" Gabby said to her driver as he alighted from the gleaming black Audi car. Shivering a little, she shut the door before he could. "I should be finished by six tonight but if I'm leaving earlier I'll call you " "Yes ma’am," Larry drawled, touching the brim of the black cap he was wearing. Gabby shook her head chuckling because today was going to be a good day. As the day before hadn't been. "Good morning, Ms Lot" Andre
Gabby was going to the fucking dinner. Standing in front of her large closet, Gabby squeezed her eyes shut, pinching the bridge of her nose. Gabby surveyed her closet for clothes. She had clothes suitable for work and casual outings but nothing there was appropriate for a dinner. You would think with all the money she had, she would have a lot of dinner wears but the truth was that Gabby didn't do dinners, she didn't care for such things. When Gabby had decided to start her company, she didn't think it would involve dinners with other big names. But no, Laila had called this morning to inform her they were attending a business dinner and it involved top leagues in the new York business world. God; what had she been thinking to agree to this? Laila said they needed to associate more with other fashion big names. Right. If she constantly said that to herself, maybe she could make it through this evening without going insane. Sighing, she grabbed her phone to call Andrew, he was
She looked stunning. Tan Lee tuned out the voice of his father who was speaking to him, as he studied Gabby who just walked into the ballroom and was weaving a path through the crowd. She stood out like 'bridgerton' diamond of the season, making those around her look like mere stones. He noticed her neck and how the silk dress she wore glided over her breast. He hated the way people ogled at her. Did he say stunning? He meant exquisite. And she hadn't even come closer. Yet. "Excuse me, Dad." Tan said abruptly interrupting his father's conversation with him not bothering to give a polite explanation for why he is walking away. His father surprised sputtering should have made him feel some ounce of guilt but he didn't care, his mind was set on Gabby, he couldn't bear another man whisking her away. Normally, he would stay to hear everything his father had to say and watch his father introduce him to guest, but tonight he wasn't interested. He despised this dinners, it only benefitte
The ringing pierced into Tan's dreamy sleep, waking Tan up. Tan frowned reaching out to pick his call. He still felt sleepy, a warm lassitude weighing down his muscles, relishing it instead of chasing it away."Fuck" he muttered but instead of reaching for his phone on his bedside table, he slapped the air. No bed.He sat up, and realized he had slept in the living room, scanning the room with cushions, a round glass table and large television.The dinner.Gabrielle As if her name offloaded a truck of memories from the previous night. The conversation with Gabby and his mother, talking with her. Kissing her. Leaving him after the kiss. Getting drunk.He whipped around, scanning his environment for his phone, it was his mother calling him. He felt angry, remembering the way his mother spoke to Gabrielle at the dinner."Hey, Mom" he said in greeting, trying to get himself together as he spoke."I just woke up, so I don't think I can talk""Tan", she said and her angry tone cut him off,
Gabby really wanted to mend her broken relationship with her family. That was why when the call came in informing her that her mother was ill she rushed back to Houston .Gabby paid the driver with a swipe of her phone and stepped out. Although she hadn't been to Houston for a long time, she could still feel the homely spirit the city had to offer. She received a call early hours of the morning that her mom was sick and she wanted to see her.Gabby climbed the steps to her childhood home and twisted the door knob and pushed the door open. Since the matter was urgent she felt there was no need to knock.From the balcony she studied the environment as if she was new to the place, since her last confrontation with her parent she hadn't stepped foot in the place that housed most of her memories growing up. She missed them badly. She felt angry towards them but figured all those anger was turning her into something else and she didn't want that. She had loved them unconditionally until t
Tan was scared when he heard the news of Gabby's mother from Laila. It would do Gabby good if she saw a familiar face to share her pain with, he thought. He knew Gabby's family they were friendly to him, they never made him feel like an outsider like his parent did to Gabby.He packed some clothes and told his secretary he would not be around. Since Gabby had no sibling, and Laila was busy with their company, she would need all the support she could get.Tan climbed the set of stairs to the house and stared at the purple hibiscus which was planted on the pathway. He knew Gabby's mother would have planted them, she loved gardening from what he could remember.The flowers added a touch of humility to the house which was a perfect description of Gabby's parent. He smiled thinking of them. He knocked on the door and someone opened the door."What in God's name am I doing here?"The question kept on singing in Tan's head, what if Gabby sends him away... he couldn't bear the fact that she w
The last thing Gabby needed was Tan clogging up her brain God knew having Tan in Boston could distract her from the inevitable ( her mother's death) and she couldn't lie to herself she craved the distraction. Days passed so fast and It's seems Gabby and Tan became closer again. Gabby feared that this would end if her mother died. She gradually convinced herself it was only a distraction. Tan's family would never accept her and Tan wouldn't dare go against his parent for her. Gabby heard her phone ring, it was Tan. "Hey" his voice calming her nerves. "Hey" "I was wondering if you were free today, so that we could hang out, I would be going back to New York tomorrow, I need to attend to some urgent business" "Yes of cause, I really need a breather right now" "I would come pick you up then" Tan said as the call ended. Gabby showered and got dressed. She wore a summer dress. Gabby heard the door bell ring and rushed outside to see Tan, he was gorgeous as always. "Hey, you ready"?
Gabby welcomed the demanding thrust of his tongue eagerly, she returned the hard, rough sucking.She pulled back but Tan pulled her in, his lips covering hers again. His hand lowered to her neck as he necklaces it. She slightly leaned into his palms. His erection jerked behind his zipper.Inhaling, he dipped his head, dragged his up the tendon that ran along the side of her neck."You are sure, you wouldn't regret this?". She shook her head. "Not doing this will leave me with regrets."He crushed his mouth into hers in an insatiable onslaught. It felt aggressive. Deadly.She opened for him without reluctance and he swimmer deeper,taking advantage of the opportunity. He tugged on her curls, hauling her head back. He left nothing untouched but he wasn't impressed, he wanted more.Her pulse heaved under his palm and sent excitement and lust running through him. Because it was all for him. She cupped her breast underneath her dress and kneaded then to lessen the pain. He held her arms and
Gabby stared at the numbers on the elevator as they contend, tapping her foot impatiently. It took forever until the elevator finally gave a ting and let her out. She felt so anxious and needed to keep her mind off anything that concerned the Lees; including Tan. She got a call from Laila earlier about the Lees contract though so she didn't have much of a choice but to think about it. It wouldn't come as a surprise though, if they wanted to call off the deal after what happened. She expected it and if she was being honest, she couldn't care less. It was a great deal and she would gain a lot by it but LEE wasn't the only company there was. She would take her business elsewhere. Even as she tries not to think of him, she hoped she wouldn't have to meet him today. It's been days and she had no idea how she would react. No she wasn't prepared at all. But who's to say? It wasn't like Tan needed to to be here by himself. She'd gone days without seeing him, hearing his voice, breathing in h
Tan stared down into the glass of whiskey he had in his hand. No matter how deep or how long he stared into the brown liquid, he couldn't get the image of Gabby's face, the last time he saw her, out of his mind. He really messed this one up big time. The memory of Gabby flipping free his hand was engraved in his mind. At what point would the alcohol stop the memories from intruding his thoughts, he often wondered and even after downing shot after shot. Even if he ever survived this phase of his life where he felt like his heart was ripped out of his cage whenever he was sober, his liver might have a hard time catching up.He hurt her. He failed to protect her from his world. He made excuses instead of fixing his problems and in the end, she let go of his hand. He didn't blame her one bit. If he were her, he'd shut him out of his life too. Tan didn't think he would ever be able to get the look of hurt he saw on her face out of his mind. God, she hated him and she had every right to too
Gabby was trying to make some toast for breakfast when she heard the doorbell ring. It was Sunday morning and she was hoping to sit in and rest. It didn't matter that she'd been doing that all weekend, what mattered was that she wasn't expecting anyone this morning. She was supposed to meet up with Laila later in the afternoon and it was too early for her to be here. Besides, she expected that they'll meet each other in a café for some coffee. It could be Tan too. She hadn't seen him since the dinner on Friday where she felt like they were saying goodbye to their relationship. For someone to disturb her blissful moment, it had to be very important she hoped. She dropped the bottle of jam she had in her hand and went to get the door. Maybe Tan finally came to have that important discussion he kept running away from. She could admit that the possibility of it being him caused a warm feeling to swirl in her chest that both excited and scared her. She knew she had fallen in love with Tan
Going to his parents' millions of dollars 10 bedrooms and 11 bath extravagant house on a Saturday night was many items below the list of what Tan has hoped to do with his evening. He didn't know what he might have done in his past life but someone up there seemed to be having a good laugh in his regard. Even as he really could be anywhere else, he was here, parked in front of their house, dreading what he will meet if he were to go in. He would go inside eventually. For Gabby, he reminded himself as he reached for the flowers he threw carelessly at the back of the chair. White roses. Gabby loved those. It wanted to turn his car around and take them to her. He wouldn't do that though, instead he would pick them up and go in through the front door and be polite. He'd do that to protect her.When his mother called him earlier in the day, he'd known within him that she was calling to warn him. "I assume your father mentioned the dinner with the Parks to you?" more like threatened but who
Chapter 16.Gabby and Tan were going out to dinner tonight.Tan stood at the entrance to her apartment looking dapper as always. He needs this night to forget all the drama with his family.“We should go.” She needlessly announced running her palms to smoothen the invisible crease on her dress. She didn’t know why she suddenly felt nervous around him. She’d known him almost all her adult life. She raised her gaze to meet Tan’s. He looked as handsome as ever. There was however a hint of trouble in his eyes. Maybe that’s why she felt so nervous or maybe she was reading into things that were not there. She let her eyes dip down to his chest accentuated by a pale blue shirt. The two buttons on the top were undone and sleeves were rolled up to his elbows. “You look gorgeous.” He said his voiced rough and husky. His eyes met hers and held the hot gaze she imagined hers held as well. She watched him as his eyes travelled over her, taking her in. her choice of outfit was a black satin dress
Tan was in his office the next morning. His had his chair turned to face the huge floor to ceiling windows in his office while basking in the warm sunlight enjoying the what-should-not-be-considered-soothing-but-is noise from the city. He had a lot of thing to do but he couldn’t help but indulge in musing over the night he had with Gabby. Waking up with her in his arms, he felt like he had just discovered a new kind of heaven. The way their bodies molded against each other creating the illusion that what they were feeling for each other was set in stone. Their relationship wasn’t defined yet, he wasn’t even sure if he could call it one, but Tan knew there was something that they shared and he wanted to enjoy this experience with her as long as he could have it because knowing his luck in life, their current situation might just end when he least expects it and shock them both. It wasn’t that he was trying to jinx himself; lord knows he already has enough share of bad luck, but it was
The meeting was over and Gabby was left with Lana in the conference room. Sharing the same space with the little sister of the man she just about resented was beyond awkward. Back when she and tan were still, together; conversations with Lana weren’t so difficult. But it was long ago and she couldn’t remember the person she was all those years ago. It was such a struggle to begin a conversation with someone she use to talk to all the time.“Hey.” Gabby said and mentally slapped herself over the head. Hey? To someone she spent the last hour in the room with? Real smooth. Lana bless her soul didn’t laugh even though the situation allowed it.“Hi Gabby,” Lana said her ever ready smile brightening up her face. “Tan told me about your mother. I’m really sorry for your loss.”At the mention of his name Gabby felt something in her jump. She never got the hang of controlling her boy’s reaction to that man. It hurt that he never thought to call her to check upon her after the call she’d given
Gabby knew what she and Tan shared the other night was just sex. The no strings attached kind of sex. She knew with firsthand experience about what it meant to expect more from Tan Lee. The last time she believed in forever with Tan she was left with nothing but a broken heart. Tan was always going to choose duty to his family every time and not that she blamed him; it was just that she wasn’t going to let herself be to delusional. She couldn’t help replaying everything that morning after Tan left her side. That morning she realized that if she let herself indulge in the moment with Tan and kept herself inside the bubble. The outcome would be just like last time. Then she got the call about her mother and if anything it was the shock she needed to wake up. She only had herself no other person had her back.She returned to New York not few days after she believed shed grieved enough for her mother. It was one of those she never wanted to revisit again. Even though her mother was at the
Tan examined the road on the way to the office. The road signs seem blurry under his focus. The traffic on the road didn’t seem to ease the situation. The drive to the office felt frustrating because all he could think about was Gabrielle lying next to him, he longed for her he craved for her touch. He was drained in guilt and longing. Mostly, it was guilt.He shouldn’t have touched her; they shouldn’t have gotten that far with each other. They should have ended the night with the wine but he let his hormones be master over him. Control was something Tan prided himself in having but if the situation involved Gabby, all control was like putty in his hands. He must be an asshole because he didn’t regret it one bit and if he had to choose again, he’ll make the same decision over again. He pictured her body, the warm, soft, lithe nature of it as it pressed against his skin. He felt fucked and yet for the first time in four years he felt his body exploding with life. After dating Gabby, h