The shrill sound of my alarm clock wasn’t what jolted me awake. It was the yelling. My stepfather’s voice cutting through the walls.
I stared up at the ceiling, straining to hear my mom’s voice fighting back, but it never came. It never will.. “If this was toast, the whole of America would be fucking dead!” His voice boomed again. I sighed, sitting up in bed. Pain shot from my hips and... lower down, a raw reminder of last night. It wasn't a dream. It happened. *“Changing the list?” The phone camera clicked. “You little devil.”* “Listen, it’s not what you think,” I had said, heart pounding. “Oh, I know *exactly* what I think.” His voice dripped with amusement. Shit. “But I’ll keep my mouth shut," he whispered, stepping closer, "if you fuck me." I shook my head, the memories flooding back with nauseating clarity. The worst part was I didn’t even know who he was. Yet, I had agreed. “Myles?” My mom’s voice, soft and hesitant, floated through the door. “You’re late for school, you know.” Before I could answer, his voice cut in. “Treating that boy like a fucking baby again? You never listen, do you, woman?” I bit my tongue to stop the retort burning in my chest and instead called out, “I’ll be out in a minute.” In the bathroom, I stared blankly at the wall, my mind running a million thoughts per second. What the hell was I thinking last night? No, the real question—who was that guy? He couldn’t have been a student with that massive tattoo and those scars on his back. And no way he was a teacher, not with the way he talked. *"Christ, you’re so tight. Urgh."* The red, scaly tattoo on his back as he walked out of the hotel door flashed in my mind. My stomach twisted. He had to be a visitor—someone passing through. I’d probably never see him again. That thought made me feel a little better. By the time I left my room, I was calm enough to kiss my mom on the cheek. “What about breakfast?” she asked, her eyes wide, the bruises around them barely hidden under her makeup. “I made pancakes. Your favorite.” “I’m good,” I muttered, watching her face fall. Guilt gnawed at me, so I kissed her forehead. “I’ll eat when I get back.” She nodded, but before the moment could settle, his gruff voice filled the kitchen again, ruining everything. “Isn’t it nice to have the luxury of choosing when to eat? Must be, when you don’t have to earn the damn food.” It wasn’t his money. My fists clenched, the words ready to explode out of me, but my mom squeezed my palm. "Myles, just go to school, okay?" I sighed, grabbed my bag, and turned to the door. Standing up to him was pointless. And she… she’d never leave. “Hey!” he called after me as I reached the door. “Why do you walk funny?” “Tripped down the stairs,” I muttered, slamming the door behind me. Dammit. If he noticed, others would too. I couldn’t miss school, though. I needed to know if Coach had discovered the missing list. I really shouldn’t have chewed it up like some desperate idiot. What the hell was I thinking? Was going to school the right move? I sighed. Anywhere was better than home. I arrived twenty minutes late, and the moment I saw the students gathered in hushed circles, I felt my stomach drop. The atmosphere was thick, electric with tension. Everyone was staring toward Coach Daniel’s office. I was so fucked. I pulled my hoodie up, ready to slip out unnoticed, but two hands grabbed my arm. “Son of a gun, where did you go last night?” Leo demanded. “Jade went to grab her bag, and poof, you vanished!” Before I could respond, Jade yanked my hoodie down, her face red with frustration. “I’m too young for a heart attack, you absolute idiot!” She started pounding her tiny fists against my shoulder. “Crazy, fine-ass hunky bitch!” “Ouch,” I muttered, rubbing my shoulder. I glanced toward the crowd of whispering students. They were still staring at Coach’s office, eyes wide with anticipation. Whatever had happened, it wasn’t just about a missing list. “Uh…” Jade cleared her throat, her voice hushed. “Tristan Medici’s in Coach’s office. The whole school’s losing its mind.” Of course, he was. My body tensed, anger simmering just below the surface. The golden boy had arrived. Big fucking deal. “You know,” Leo said casually, “you could join the figure skating club. It’s almost the same as hockey, just with more sequins.” Jade shot him a glare. “Leo, you’re so dumb.” She turned to me, eyes wide. “Myles is stiffer than a tree trunk.” “He could learn.” “You can’t teach an old chicken new tricks.” I raised an eyebrow. “Chicken?” She shrugged, grinning. “Would you rather I call you a dog?” Before I could answer, loud cheers erupted near the entrance. All heads turned, including mine, toward the boy walking beside Coach Daniel. Tristan Medici. The school's newest obsession. “Oh my God,” Jade breathed. “Guess this is the part where I tell myself I’m not bi,” Leo chuckled. I said nothing. My eyes, like everyone else’s, were locked on him—Tristan, with his perfect hair and stupid grin. He looked like he belonged on a magazine cover, not a hockey team. Everything about him screamed privilege. “He’s so hot,” someone nearby whispered. “I wanna have his babies,” another girl giggled. Yeah, great. He was perfect. Whatever. He looked like someone had carved him using God as his model. That raven-dark hair, the light gray eyes that reveal nothing except the stupid sly grin. And that body hidden beneath the joggers and cardigan. He smiled at whatever Coach Daniel was saying, and everyone swooned. I grimaced. What the hell was wrong with all of them? He wasn’t even all that. “Oh my God, look at that smile,” Jade sighed. “I’d let him bang me,” Leo said, dead serious. Jade and I turned to him. “What?! Look at him!” Leo defended himself, motioning toward Tristan. “You can’t blame me.” I rolled my eyes. My friends were useless. But why did it feel like Tristan was searching for someone in the crowd? His eyes swept over the students, scanning. Looking for his next girlfriend, no doubt. Natalie, probably. Sorority queen and prom princess. George would be dumped in a week. Maybe something good would come out of all this, after all. Another boy, a redhead, grabs Tristan's hand and pulls him toward the opposite direction while Tristan laughs. Of course, if I had no worries in the world, and everyone crushed on me, I'd laugh that hard, too. Fucking rich brat. "Speaking of which, Myles," Leo took his gaze off the leaving Tristan, "where did you go yesterday?" I had thought of a lie, 'I walked home.' I was ready to spit it out from my throat when Coach Daniel's voice hit me out of the blue. "Astor." He glared as he walked past me. "Get your ass to my office right this moment!" I swallowed.Hiiii. Blue Haze here. When I started this book, I had no clue where it would drag me — or how deep I’d fall with it. The fact that my first step into this chaos found even a shred of success? Still shocking. But none of it would’ve meant anything without every single one of you. The story isn’t over. There will be a Book Two — and no, I still don’t know if Myles is breathing or rotting (but if you’ve made it this far with me😏, you know hope is a dangerous thing). Thank you for the likes, the comments, and the Gems — they were the only reason I kept going when the story got too...loud. --- BOOK 2 SYNOPSIS Tristan Medici has two goals: burn his uncle’s empire to ash and stand once more on the rooftop where his entire world bled out dead. He was close. Too close. Until the news came — a revelation so impossible, so gutting, it made him want to rip apart the only person he’s ever truly loved. But that was then — when life still held a little innocence...high school. This is no
"...breaking news tonight from St. Augustine Hospital regarding the tragic death of the only son of a local worker. Authorities have confirmed that Astor, 19, fell from the rooftop of this very hospital late last night in what officials are calling an apparent suicide....”More ramblings from the reporter on TV, words I can barely register. I feel like a husk, a husk full of nothingness... as though my soul had been snapped into two.El Refugio is a kaleidoscope of colors; I can barely see the Boss through bloodshot eyes. He shouldn’t be standing this close to me, knowing what I could do.But it seemed as though he understood, for he had his goons surround my chair, while Al sits beside me, watching closely.It was Al who’d broken the news, the first person I saw after I revived in that white, empty room that contained only a bed and the drip attached to my wrist.Ripping it out didn’t hurt as much as it should. The excess bleeding didn’t kill me. Ripping off the soft wallpaper and po
MYLES What more do you have to lose before you realise it isn't meant to be...Myles... your mum is gone... her heart failed and...'...You should have left me there, why do you have to bring me out...''I'm sorry.''...What are you doing...''Retribution.'I'm at the center of her ward, shoulders slumped, staring at the empty hospital bed as if she might still be here, and all I needed to do was just wait and soon I'll be hearing her voice...Carino, are you okay, Carino...But... she's gone.I knew it before the mayor said it. The way he had clenched at the wheel, his voice when he cursed, hollow and weak, with every word he dropped, it lost meaning.I should have sensed it sooner though, when Diego dropped all of those cryptic words before he pulled the trigger on his own self. It was all because of this.Retribution."Sir," the nurse beside me breaks the silence, the pity in her eyes looking at me frozen on the floor, "You need to get treated."I looked back at the bed, feeling m
*You first.*I shut my eyes. I think of my mum, Tristan, and Jade, wishing I’d actually spent my time with them instead of hiding away like a maniac. Maybe in another life…Another bang. I stay still, waiting for the pain to hit, but once again, it doesn’t. I’m still on the floor, brows knitting in confusion, listening to grunts, fists slamming hard against skin, muscle, and bone—then curses. One voice sounded like…Diego?I opened my eyes, and there he was—my stepfather, right on top of Connor. The gun was out of reach beside them, and Diego’s fists slammed hard against Connor’s face. It hit me then—Diego was a burly man, something I never really noticed before.Did he come to save me? Pigs couldn’t fly though, so I had to be dreaming…“Get off me, swine,” Connor struggled, but either Diego’s sudden rage was overpowering, or Connor was too dazed from all the beating.The gunfire outside resumed.“I told you,” Diego roared into Connor’s face, “I told you I was gonna get you if you dou
MYLESNo way out…The only window is barricaded with iron rods, ones I had desperately tried to pull down. But the air from the window gave me a clue as to where we really are — the salty scent of the ocean brushing past my nose.There’s nowhere to run to; the walls are thick. It’s been hours since I was left here, without anyone coming to check on me. Every time I hear footsteps, my heart skips, waiting for the lock to shift, but there’s nothing — just the sound of their footsteps retreating.I’m still groggy, so after hours of pacing, I’m seated at the far end of the room, watching the door, waiting for the last step I’d hear before it all goes blank.I wrap my arms around my knees, shutting my eyes. Mum… Was she okay? Hopefully, the mayor was there and wouldn’t let Diego move her.Perhaps she’d be alright… Perhaps I should think of myself and not Tristan. But I can’t stop — can’t stop wondering if staying away was the right choice. And now, like everything that involved me, he was
DOMENICO"Nico... Nico, what the hell are you doing? You know this won't work."Nico felt the cold chill run down his spine as the voice filtered into his ears, trying to infiltrate his numb senses."What do you know, brother?" he muttered, watching the smoke swirl up to the ceiling. "This isn't politics where you seduce your way into things."Nico stared at the city from his window. In Viktor's background, he could pick up the faint noise of traffic and his own car blazing down the road. He didn't need to be told he was being tracked.So predictable."Nico...""I can't get the memories out of my head." His voice was quiet, eyes on the light far away. "You used to drive so fast to get me out of trouble, arriving just seconds before I got my head blown off."Nico rubbed at his eyes, the silence on the other end of the line too loud. It settled — the ghost of another time, memories he couldn't even reach.He let out a small chuckle. "The bar fights, we used to do it together. Remember w