Feelings

“We already have feelings”

“Ah, Nyra please stop this”

“Don't you try to hide them to me, remember we are in the same body and I feel what you feel.”

“i do care about him, obviously. You know very well how scared we both were after moving here. We had lost everything and he was always good and nice to us. He never treated us with pity, he was always protective and never let any other kid be mean. So yes I obviously do care about him, I will be thankful to him for the rest of my life for our first years together. But that's it, stop imagining things that are not here!”

“Lya, I know your body and it has never ever tingled in this way for anyone. Admit it!”

She was right.

“Even if I have feelings for him, that is not true, what should I do? Do you think that he would be interested in me?”

“Lya he was eating you with his beautiful glacier blue eyes yesterday. He obviously feels the same for you. And just to make things clear you stubborn human, you are just exactly as beautiful as he is, if not even more. You refuse to face reality, but you are a gorgeous girl, and don't have anything less than him. Woman up and be more self confident”

I smiled. She was harsh to deal with most of the times, but Nyra was always very sincere and I knew she was saying these words not out of compassion, but because she really thought it. She was right, and I had to be more self conscious about my body. I knew how to protect myself and not let people walk over me, but on the other hand I was not used to consider myself beautiful, maximum just nice looking.

I finally decided to get up and get ready for university. I took a warm shower, dried my hair while still wearing my bathrobe and standed in front of my wardrobe for the longest time ever. Everything that I owned looked so dull and looked so bad on me.

“You're even struggling to get dressed because you want to look good for him, just admit that you care more than a friend.”

“If I do, will you give me some peace?”

“Mmmmm…yes.”

“Okay then probably I like him more than a friend but…”

“There is no but, just go with the flow and wear that white blouse, you look so elegant with them on. Put the green pullover on, it makes your eyes shine even more and just wear those skinny jeans and the high boots. You'll look beautiful, but still acceptably elegant for a casual day at the university.”

“Thank you”

“No need to thank, I am doing this all because he could be our mate and I definitely don't want to pass the chance of having someone like him by my side”

I laughed and said “Forgot you wouldn't do this all just for me, without having your own personal interest”

She stuck out her tongue and went back to relax in her corner of my mind.

I dressed just as she suggested, wore my light brown hair on a high ponytail, let some strands out in the front and went downstairs to just say bye to my parents.

My mom complained about me not having breakfast, but I was already running late and didn't want to make it worse.

When I arrived Tara and Cara were already waiting for me to park near their car, as usual. As I came out, they both looked at me shocked and said in unison “Wow”

“What? What's wrong?”

“Actually there's nothing wrong, you just look gorgeous and we’ve never seen you like this for university.” Said Cara

"I'm not wearing anything special, stop making such a big deal.” I said whit my cheeks slightly blushing.

“Omg you blushed this means you really got ready for someone.” She widened her honey eyes and tried to say as low as she could “You did it for Romer?”

“Shhhh, stop with this nonsense. Even Nyra bothered me the whole morning with this. I did it just because I wanted to look good.”

Both Tara and Cara laughed at this. I started walking forward, and they reached me quickly. “Ok don't get offended, we just have never seen you act like this. Especially for a boy, you are usually so direct to push them away and never cared to look good for them.”

I stopped and stared at them both and said “Is it so visible? I should probably get back home and wear something different to not ridiculise myself. Maybe my usual sweater and leggins...”

“No, don't you even dare think about it..”said Cara, and immediately Tara added “Plus you look gorgeous”