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Chapter 041: Forgetting

Author: Bee Diaz
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Ada

When I get back to my apartment, I'm shaking.

Literally. Shaking.

I close the door and when I try to lock it, I drop the keys multiple times. To be fair, I don't know how I drove myself here. I should've crashed the car. It's a miracle, it truly is.

Because I'm a mess. I have been since he kissed me.

I even came home in my uniform. That's how jumbled up my mind is. I didn't change. I just grabbed my clothes and my bag and came running.

The truth is that I was afraid he'd follow me.

But he didn't.

Now that I'm home, in a place that's safe for me, it's easier for me to focus and think about what truly happened. The horrifying part is that I kissed him back. There, I've said it. I kissed him back. I should've pushed him away but for some reason, that didn't occur to me. I had this curiosity to kiss him back. To know what it would be like.

And now I’m regretting that because it’s just about the craziest thing I’ve ever done, arguably the dumbest.

I chew my thumb nonstop and
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