Chapter 04: One Step Closer

“So how are you doing, Miss Flynn Louviele?”

Flynn stops, she actually doesn’t know what to answer with that but she has a question towards her as well.

“Will I ever become a normal person?”

…

Flynn sighs. Is she even improving from being a sociopath or not? Even Dr. Chiong could not tell her status.

“You’re done? You took quite a while, Miss Louviele.”

It’s Hee Sun. He is sitting at the waiting area right after the door of Dr. Chiong;s office.

“Why are you still here?” Flynn asks harshly.

Hee Sun laughs.

“I barked at you wrongly days ago, right? I want to treat you lunch--”

“Save it. I don’t eat Devil’s food.” She cuts Hee Sun off.

Hee Sun laughs at her harshness and replies,

“You don’t eat devil’s food? Why are you at a devil’s lair?” He laughs. “This place is where devil people ask for help, am I wrong?”

Was she really evil? Her work is bad and everything but.

Does being a sociopath that couldn’t feel anything make her evil, too?

Flynn deadpans at him and says,

Why do you keep on appearing right in front of me when I always make it clear that I don’t like you?”

“Because you need me, Lee.”

He says. For a second Flynn saw a hint of emotion in his eyes but she snapped to reality with the way he just called her.

“My name is not Lee.” she says sharply. “Now if you may excuse me, fellow devil.”

“Aren’t you curious about what's going to happen if you come with me?”

“Shut up. Aren’t you really going to leave me alone?” She asks, almost surrendering her barrier to his persuasions.

“No. I will never leave you alone.”

…

I was blinded by everyone's judging eyes.

I listened to them and your truth became my lies. 

You always say it was a great love,

And for me it's the best love.

But did my absence made you wonder,

If I am really still the one that makes your heart flutter?

Or am I just another?

"It's weird, he seemed to be so in love with the girl. Why did he kill her?"

“What are you reading?” Hee Sun asks. Flynn came with him because he just won’t stop bugging her and she’s getting tired of it.

I came home from a three month conservatory military service.

I want to see you there in the comforts of our warm home, waiting for me in peace.

But before I could even waiver and get up on my war horse,

One of my men told me you are being bewitched by an evil force.

Jin looks at the moon and smiles. He could only go back up on it when Flynn recognises him as her own lover. If he fails to make her fall in love with him within 60 days, he and his men will turn into ashes. He will not even be able to use his powers until she says that she loves him too. This is why he never wanted to come back down here because once he did, it would be all or nothing for him.

He said that he saw you in the arms of someone I know.

I was enraged, I never thought that you could really act that low.

I was curious,

I was jealous.

"She cheated on him?"

“Was that, that jerk’s journal?” Hee Sun laughs. “Why are you reading that?”

“Jerk?” Flynn finally looks at Hee Sun and he laughs.

“At Least now I could say that you could really see me.” He shrugs. “Yes. That jerk who killed his own sweet and beautiful wife. The cursed Moon Guardian. Isn’t that his journal?”

In the end I came home furious,

and you talked to me and said what I heard is hideous.

You said that you will never betray me,

And now all I can say to you is sorry.

(One month before Lee's execution, November 1321)

Jinan looked at her with disgust and it hurt Lee so much.

She had never even talked to her step brother, Sun nor her father since the two of them got married. She’s not even allowed to go out of their home so where did he learn of this news? She even thought about how unfair it is for girls to not be able to do things when they get married these past few months of being alone when men don't have limitations. Women are being treated as possessions and she hated it but she loves Jinan so she tried to shrug all the negative thoughts away.

"I only talked to you and only you since our marriage, Jinan. What you're saying is hideous and impossible." She tries to look away but Jin grabs her by her arms.

"Are you saying that my men are lying to me? They saw you and Sun!"

"Sun is my brother for all the God's sake, Jinan Kim! And don't you ever dare try to touch me when you're clearly not sober and drunk!" Lee screams.

"Sun is not your blood brother and you even had the guts to shout at me like that?" He slaps her, so hard that she wants to punch him in the face back. Lee had always been a feisty woman but she chose to abide by the rules. But the rules for women are just too much and unfair and it was just until now when she wanted to break off from it.She’s tired of this unjust life that men give women. They deserve better. She deserves better.

"You know what, if you hate me so much with what you think I've done-- just kill me." Lee says as she stares right deep into Jin’s eyes. She looked so daring. She seemed so fearless. "I'm so done with all the shit you men that women had to put up with! I’d rather die than to live like this!” She says, walking away from Jin and slamming the door right after her.

...

"What are these things all about?" Flynn asks herself.

"A young guy brought it to our apartment's lobby so I got some help to get it on our floor. He said his name is Jinan Kim and it's his apology gift to you." Seolla explains.

"That shit." Flynn grits as she stares at the appliances and furniture he bought.

"Does he think I'm renting a whole luxurious apartment? These things won't even fit in my apartment."

"He looked really sad and sincere though." Seolla informs.

"He said he was really sorry and wanted to talk to you at the rooftop one last time."

"He said that? He's so corny, isn't he? Is he dying or what?"

"I don't know. But he told me that he will really be sad if you won't come and save him."

"Save him from what?" She asks again.

"I don't know, really. Maybe he's just talking with hyperbolic words but yeah, he said he'll be waiting for you."

She doesn't know why, but she still made her way up on the rooftop. The way to the rooftop is nothing but a narrow metal staircase that will give you a full view of where you'll land if ever you fall. The way up the nasty rooftop is sure scary but it's perfect if you wanted to die.

"Why the hell would he go up here just to talk to me?" She asks herself.

When she reached the rooftop, Jinan was there. Standing by the railing and taking deep loud breaths out of his body. It's like he's trying to meditate.

"Hey--"

And that's when Jin grabs the railings and tries to jump.

"No!"

She runs to him, wraps her hands in his waist tightly and with a soft voice she begs,

"No, don't kill yourself. You don't know how hard it will be for the people you love to get by without you."

Jin gets flushed with her sudden appearance. Why is she here?

"Don't... don't give up just yet. You have more than a million reasons to live."

She's crying. She has her feelings on his back and he can hear all her burden and heartbreak with her breath.

"Flynn.."

"Why are you doing this?"

She asks, her arms are still safely wrapped on Jin's waist and it is as if they are there to stay.

"I am just.. trying to do something."

"Don't die, Jinan. If you don't have any reason to stay in this world, let me be your reason, then."

Seolla watches as the two talk to each other. No matter how they try to avoid it, they will be each other's moon. They are bound to meet and bound to be in each other's lives.

...

Flynn must have lost her mind.

"Don't die, Jinan. If you don't have any reason to stay in this world, let me be your reason, then."

How dare she say those words? She must have become crazy because she had been hanging out with Jin these past few days. She must have some loose screw in her head.

"Why do you only have books in your apartment?"

He asks. After that dramatic scene at the rooftop, Flynn invited Jin to just go down to her space and talk.

"I like books." She simply says.

"I know." Jin answers instinctively.

"Wait, what?" Jin panics.

Should he tell her that he had been looking out and watching her since the day she was born? No, that will be really creepy. The fact that she came to save him while he is trying to test if he could actually fly on earth and not kill himself is already alarming and weird, if she knows a little more then she'll freak out.

"I mean, you look like the type to read books all day."

"I don't look like the type to read books all day, I look like an honest punk. Don't lie to me."

She says as she walks towards his floor seated figure. The way she stares at him is like the way Yoongi looks on his piano every time he gets to play it. As if she wants to devour him. She then leans in front of him, grabbing him by the neck, still glaring in his eyes. He gulps down. She's so close.

"At Least I know you're not a maniac or a bad person, I can easily intimidate you and that's what I like." She laughs and then pushes him away.

Is she playing with him?

"H-hey! I am not intimidated by you! Are you playing with me?"

He asks as he snorts his nose in annoyance.

"Oh no, boy. I am not playing with you." She says, dead ass staring into his eyes. "I am trying to figure you out."

...

Flynn finds herself laying on her bed and reaching for the book Seolla had given her.

You turn your back to me,

For days you refused to see me.

I did not know what to do.

The language that my heart knows is only you.

I did not tell you how sorry I was but,

I am really sorry for the ruckus I caused.

And before I could even open the door and push myself to you,

The memorandum from the royal institution came to me, as if it flew.

Flynn did not know how but in the middle of reading the book Seolla gave her, she fell asleep.

"I will never let you go."

She's clearly dreaming and she knows it.

She could hear someone murmuring things that she could barely understand.

"Forgive me."

Before she opens her eyes to reality, she sees who is speaking.

The man that is talking to her in her dreams is none other than,

"Jinan Kim?"

...

"I will pay you. Just keep me company today."

She woke up to the sound of someone knocking on her door. It's Jin. Her mind is still fazed because of her unexpected dream and she could not keep her eyes on him. Why will he appear in her dreams like that? And why is he asking for her forgiveness?

"It's so early, Jin. Damn." She says, leaving the door open for him.

"So will you come with me for the day?" He asks again.

He is honestly starting to get on her nerves and she hates it. Him and Hee Sun. What are their intentions? She's confused and it makes her head hurt.

"What's the matter today? I thought we ended our business relationship days ago, Jin."

"I will never let you go, Flynn."

The way he says those words created goosebumps on her body. Did he just repeat what he said in her dreams?

"Stop it, Jin. You're confusing me."

"I'm serious, Flynn. I want to be someone you cherish in this life."

Now he's babbling nonsensical things?

"You're actually freaking the hell out of me, Jin.We just met."

"If you had met me years ago, would you have married me then?" He asks. And the stupidity inside her answers for herself,

"Yes."

He grins. Her eyes widened in shock with what she just said. Man, isn’t she a sociopath? Why is she saying such words?

"I mean, no! This is not how love works!"

"How does it work, then?" Jin asks.

"Do you not know? Have you never been in love?" Flynn asks curiously.

"I have been in love, but that was ages ago and we met through our parents so.."

"Seriously? You haven't tried to court a girl by yourself?" She asks again.

"It does not matter if I know how to or not. How about you? Have you ever been in love?"

"I-- I have never but--" He cuts her off.

"Then how dare you talk down to me like that? You're no better than me." He scoffs.

"Excuse me? I pretty much started reading all kinds of books when I was three. I've known better!" She spat. "I don't have to be in love to experience and know how it works. Books make me feel those feelings whenever I want to, Mr.-I-have-Never-pursued-a-woman." Even if she can barely feel anything. Books still help her.

Jin looks at the pile of books she has on the side of her bed. The boxes of appliances he had brought her are still untouched but that wasn't what caught his attention.

"What is that book?"

He says, walking towards the familiar book on the top of her books.

"This."

"Oh. It's a book about the Moon God but I haven't finished reading it yet because you keep on bugging me." Flynn says.

I personally think that the common characteristic of the leaders of WPC is their passion. A passion that neither one of them could control, that they all fight for what they wanted to have until they had it and that is to build an institution that will serve as mother of education and shelter to those who need proper instructions with their lives. No rain or storm stopped them and that is because the fires on their hearts never stopped burning. This is what happens when people live with passion, they make the impossible possible.