“Children?” To say I was surprised is an understatement. That was the last thing I had expected from him.“Yeah, it wouldn’t be bad. I am an only child, and sometimes I’ve always wished I had a sibling; that is no longer possible, hence why I would like a large family so my children will not be lonely.”“That is fine.” I mean, the man wants a large number of children, and that is on him, but I wasn't going to be popping out kids like candy.For me, I felt the opposite about children. Back when I was still struggling to make ends meet, I had vowed never to have a child and bring them into this world; otherwise, they would continue my line of poverty.That was one of the reasons I was consistent with my birth control option and almost always had an implant in my arm.I knew I wasn’t cut out to be celibate, but I also had to make sure I eliminated any risk of unwanted pregnancy, and that has been working for years.It has become a part of me that I often forget that I had an implant, exc
As I walked down the stairs, I half expected him to follow me; that was the reason I had taken the stairs instead of the elevator and the reason I was walking like I was a snail, just to stall time.Who was I kidding?I should have known that Alex’s ego was too big for that, and I had already angered him more than I could count. I had pushed him to his limit, and he had backed down.As I walked out of the lobby, I bowed my head down, trying to make myself small. Even though the staff didn’t say anything, I could feel their judge gaze on me, and just the walk felt very much like the walk of shame.I made it through my own personal hell, and I was rushing to where I had parked my car, entering into it, and driving off without looking back. I headed straight for home, although it was a little difficult trying to see the road when my eyes were filled with water.I had just blown my chance of having anything with Alex, and tomorrow he will be going back to New York, and that will be the en
I enjoyed the stay with Anna more than I thought I would; it was just the right thing I needed at that moment to get me back on track.Since most of their children were hardly around, Anna doted on me like her daughter, and Charles was left out doting on me. I was so spoiled and cared for that I was reluctant to go.It was my last day with them, and Anna was in my room, helping me pack. It wasn’t supposed to be much, but I had gone shopping with them. Of course I had to get more clothes since it was catered for, and now I had a lot of things to pack.“Anna?”“Hmm?” She turned to look at me, giving me her full attention. “I am getting a divorce.”“Good, it has been a long time coming. You should have ditched his ass since the very first time.”"Well, I was going to get a divorce, but the judge refused to, as she believed we still had a lot to settle. She gave us about 6 more months to get to know ourselves and come back.”“Six months is a long time; how do you feel about this?”“I don’
In all the times that I had known Jeremy, this was the first time I heard such a tone from him, and I couldn’t bear to hear it. It was monotone and dull, as if all life had been sucked out of him and there was nothing else he would do.“Jeremy?” I came closer to him, but he shifted away from me, and that hurt me more than I could have imagined.“I must apologize; I didn’t know you had a visitor. I will be on my way now, but here, I have something for you.” He said, stretching his hand towards me to reveal a hint box. “Goodbye,” he said, turning to go, but I held his hands to prevent him from doing so.“You just came here; surely you can’t just leave like that,” I said to him, completely ignoring Alex.“I don’t see any need for me to stay here any longer; you have a visitor, and you seemed to be busy. I wouldn’t want to disturb what you have.”I rolled my eyes at him. Men, why do they have so much ego?“Come on, it wouldn’t be bad if we could all gather in the living room and celebrate
I waited for a moment, watching his ripped back as he went far away from me, and I whispered to the air, hoping it would carry it to him. “I will miss you, Jeremy.”I got on with watching until he disappeared completely from my sight, and I went back inside to meet Alex. The oblivious man was still sitting in the same spot I had left him. I came to meet him, and he took one look at my demeanor and was instantly standing up.“What is wrong? Did he hurt you? Because I swear I will make him pay.” I shook my head, indicating he didn't, and before I could say anything, the floodgates opened and I began to cry.Alex was at a loss for words, seeing me in such a state, and he had no idea what to do. Instead, he held me and drew me closer, hugging me tight.“It is alright.’ He kept on whispering gently on and on, allowing me to cry out of my heart. And whenever I wanted to stop, I would hear his gentle voice coursing through me, and I would begin another round of tears.I cried until I couldn’
“Fucking hell.” Alex growled as he saw me, and he was already on his feet, walking towards me as if he were enchanted. “Ruby.” He groaned as if he were in pain.“How do I look?” I asked, twirling for him. I already knew the answer from the way he was devouring me, but I needed to hear him say it.“Magnificent. If you weren’t single, I would have fought your man just to be with you.” Alex had said, and I shielded my mouth with my hands as I laughed.His eyes raked over my entire being, looking at me appreciatively, and I was beaming with pride. I have never been so happy that I got this dress.“I think you have asthma because anytime I see you, you take my breath away,” Alex said, and I was shaking my head, almost doubling in laughter.I think I like this new side of Alex; he was flirtatious and fun—everything the old one wasn’t.“Shall we, my lady?” He held out his arms for me, and I gladly took them.“Of course, my prince.” I took his arms and let him lead me out, but not before turn
I couldn’t keep off the nagging voice in my head as I made it to my hospital appointment, and all the while I was occupied thinking about the last time I got my implant.It has become a part of me so much that I have forgotten about it, and now I am regretting it. I have been unsafe for the past month, and I needed to be sure.I arrived at the hospital and headed straight to the fertility clinic, wearing huge sunglasses even though I was inside. I was trying to avoid an unnecessary run-in with someone I know.I sat in the waiting area, waiting for my turn, while I busied myself with my calendar, trying to remember the last time I had a period.All that was only giving me headaches, and I couldn’t be more grateful when the doctor called my name and I entered in.“Miss Ruby, it has been a while.” The female doctor said with a huge smile that threatened to tear her lips. It was even surprising that she remembered me because I couldn’t remember the last time I was here, nor could I rememb
I came to that conclusion after I had imagined what my life would be like, and I knew I wasn’t ready for a child yet.Tomorrow, I was going to go back to that clinic, and I was getting rid of the child. I don’t care what the consequence is, but I was not ready to burden myself with this labor when I was still young.A nagging voice was prompting me to tell Alex. “He is also the father of the child; he had every right to know.”But I couldn’t tell him; Alex would be so excited. He had told me his plans for a large family, and he would insist I keep them, and I didn’t want to do that.I rubbed my temple with my thumb and forefinger as I felt the onset of a headache coming on. Today has been particularly stressful; in fact, the whole of the week has, and I was trying my best to remain calm.Tomorrow was a work day, and I guarantee that I would be much happier after I immersed myself in it. Then, come evening, I would be rid of this unwanted stress growing inside me, and my life would be