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“We are neighbors and acquaintances, don’t worry”That sentence gave me an agony in my chest that I couldn't describe. The way he walked away and entered the apartment without looking back hurt me. He always looked back when he entered the apartment and this time, he didn't.
“Deep down you know what you want, but you’re afraid. Fear is normal, Luke, we all have it, but don’t let fear stop you from doing what you want.” It was one of the phrases from my psychologist who had been advising me. I continued going to appointments, wanting to understand myself better not only when it came to the romantic relationship, but also in other aspects.
I left the order on the table and sat on the sofa looking at my hand that had the ring and I took it off looking at my hand without it and I had a worse feeling. I felt a freedom that I didn't want to have, that scared me and it was at that mom
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Luke After a long wonderful day, Jackson and I were at the hotel where we would spend our wedding night. The room was beautiful, with the bed decorated with heart-shaped flowers and candles scattered around the corners. It looked like a fairy tale. While I was taking in the room, Jackson was behind me, taking off his suit and putting it on one of the couches. " Finally married. “I heard your voice. “ Married... “ I looked at him smiling, but I looked back at the place, appreciating the place and thinking to myself that after what happened in the past, I couldn't imagine getting married. I didn't imagine that I would trust someone to the point of accepting him as my husband, but here I was, married and on my wedding night. . I heard Jackson's footsteps towards me and my body immediately responded, as if it recognized its owner. He leaned down, bringing his face closer to my neck and I closed my eyes, inhaling his perfume, I shivered when I felt his lips kissing my shoulder, going up
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2 years later DERECK AND LUCIEN Lucien He is the most mysterious person I have ever met in my life! There's something in that man's eyes that is dominant and maliciously perverse. Yes, I'm talking about my boss at the place where I work, who I serve every day, because I'm his unlucky assistant and, therefore, not a day goes by without having to deal with him. You know, being a CEO's assistant is not easy! I'm talking about a demanding, arrogant man who thinks the world revolves around him and the worst part... The worst thing is that he is incredibly beautiful. Dereck is the name of my boss, who I would name all the children of Satan. Well, I'm sitting at my desk, along with my colleagues who spend the whole day teasing each other, or talking bad about my boss before he arrives and the company is in order. The company is multinational, one of the most famous publishers in the USA and known internationally. Yes, I'm ta
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LUCIEN After almost half an hour in the car waiting for my boss, he finally gets out. I'm not one to notice details, but Dereck didn't go unnoticed wherever she went. “Good evening, Mr Dereck. He simply ignores it and answers his cell phone, just makes a gesture of greeting, but it's done very quickly. I'm already used to this man's arrogant attitudes that don't even affect me anymore; At first I thought it was personal, but I ended up seeing that he was like that. We arrived at the event location, got out of the car and walked along the red carpet. The event was full and as it was the first day, only guests were present. Walking past the carpet, I could see how much she is admired and loved by many, but also hated by some. I could see some men making surreptitious faces at Dereck, and those who hate her certainly don't hate her more than me. “Where is Carmen? I have no answer. Carmen is an escort for events like these, which many celebrities or high society people have. Escorts
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Lucien I look at the clock on the wall and see that it's past time; I only have two minutes, I say goodbye and rush out to buy coffee from Megeralina. The process is the same, the girl who works at the coffee shop favors me and I can get to the front of the line, have the coffee in hand and go straight to the office. The unexpected happens; Entering the office, the first thing I do is bump into the devil herself, causing my shirt to get completely soaked in coffee. I can not believe! Luckily the coffee isn't so hot that it burns me, because I know how hot this woman likes her coffee. “Not too hot and not too cold, no extremes.” That's what she says. I'm facing her, we stare at each other for a few seconds and I'm facing the fury of the devil with the name of an angel. Surely I am the prey, about to receive her poison. “Don't you watch where you're going? “Dereck walks away, going to the table and taking a tissue and cleaning his hand. “I didn't see you and it was you who bumped in
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DERECKAfter long days full of work, I feel like I deserve all the best. I deserve a good night of drinks and women. I'm in a bar, better said, I'm in a strip club, specifically a gay club. Today there will be an event, as there is every Friday and Saturday. I'm not much of a stripper, my friends are in the habit and invite me, but I always refused, until today I decided to accept. I'm stressed, exhausted and I need to relax, have something different. What really makes me accept it is knowing that in this strip everyone is masked. It is a spacious but discreet place, especially for those who want to visit without being seen. The place, without a doubt, is for people from high society or those who have a lot of money to spend on one night. I saw strippers everywhere, several tables distributed and small bars for service. I am sitting at a round table, among my friends, Markus, Tomás and Wilson; There are four of us at a round table with veils around us. Because we are in a discreet pla
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LucienSitting next to Carol, I help my daughter do her homework. We have to put together a project, build a cardboard house. So we are both setting up the house. Carol is capricious, she wants to paint the house in different colors and add some glitter to give it a little shine. My daughter is creative. I take one of the cardboard pieces and my daughter hands me the glitter, reminding me of Friday night. A bright and pleasurable night. That masked man touching himself while I danced for him, the sensation of his hard member rubbing against my groin... That man came to me for nothing, even when I tried to concentrate.“Little brother...I wake up, returning to earth and look at my little one.—Thinking about what?I stop for a few seconds, confused, not knowing what to say.“Thinking about the next piece we're going to add glitter to.“Oh, I know... You've been walking on the moon since yesterday...“Of course not, daughter.“Come on, yesterday we watched an animation and you spent mo
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Days laterDerekSitting at the table, I'm with my friends and kids from the club, but none of them are what I'm looking for. Every sip of wine I take, I imagine my lips kissing that boy's body, my hand touching his brown skin, the color of chocolate, as beautiful as it is delicious. I didn't need to penetrate her to know how much he would satisfy me. I wait an hour, I wait two... Anxious and frustrated I go to reception and ask the same guy who helped me the other day:“He saw a boy who last Friday wore a pearl”colored outfit, white shoes, black, blue hair...“What was in room number 7?“ Yes!—he hasn't arrived yet!—He’s not coming to work today?—he doesn't work here, he's a client like you.“So, I run the risk of not seeing him?The man looks at me and smiles sideways, raising his shoulders, giving a sign of possibly not, making me more frustrated. I sigh and adjust my mask, then return to my seat.“Is everything okay, Dereck? “Tobias asks me. “Looking for or waiting for someone?
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DerekIt's not possible! I can not believe!“Lucian... “I say, looking at him, surprised.He looks at me confused and without understanding.“ As you know...I look away and shake my head, without looking at him, I take off my mask, showing who I am. I look at him, and, facing him, he sighs, shaking his head and jumps back.“ No! “She whispers in surprise and distress.“Lucian... “I approach him, and he backs away, wanting to escape, but without success. He's so stunned that he forgot the handcuffs. Lucian pushes so hard to get up that he soon falls onto the sofa, letting out a groan of pain. I get scared when I see one of his wrists bleeding.“Calm down... “I then approach and hold him so he stops moving.“Let go of me “he screams, distressed and tearing up.“Calm down, Lucian... You're hurting yourself “I say, holding her, he calms down and stays still, but he's panting. I let go of him and as soon as I do, he pulls away from me and pushes me away. I see his enraged look. I'm as sur
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LUCIEN I wake up early because I have to prepare Carol before going to school. I wake up 15 minutes late, now that I'm anemic, nauseous and dizzy. I'm slower and I can't have the same agility as before, but I'm improving. Dereck gave me his room and went to sleep in the guest room as I ordered. Lazily and drowsily, he gets me out of bed and leaves the room, walking down the hallway until I reach Carol's room. “Carol, wake up... “I say, entering the room and see the empty bed. I hear voices and I walk calmly, because I recognize Dereck and Carol's voices in the bathroom. I look over and I can't believe it when I see Carol already ready and Dereck holding her hair, trying to make a bun. The two talk, laughing. Carol teaches Dereck how to make a bun and the two have fun together. This dedication from Derek moves me. “Lucien, good morning... “Carol notices my presence. They both look at me without understanding what is happening. “ Sleep well? “Derek looks at me smiling. “Yes... “I
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Lucien Next morning I was sitting on the bed in the hospital clinic. After so much effort I managed to eat, as she was dying of nausea and lack of appetite. Days later I felt unwell again and ended up in the hospital again. In fact, I had severe anemia and needed care. I finish eating lunch and place the plate on the tray. I pick up my cell phone and start texting my friend, wanting to know about my sister. I'm missing my little one. As soon as I pick up my cell phone and the door opens, I see the vision of Dereck and Carol entering my room together. Carol soon runs to me, carefully sits down on the bed and gives me a hug. “ My love! “I give a lot of kisses, full of longing. “ Are you well? “Yes, but I miss you too. Dereck approaches me with a calm look. “Are you feeling better, Lucien? “ What are you doing here, how do you know “Lorena told me everything. “ It's nothing serious. Thank you and thank you for bringing my sister “ I say smiling, because I can't disguise my happi
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3 weeks later Lucien I walk through the garden near my house with my sister, who is now 9 years old. She's getting more and more beautiful and it just fills me with pride. Always on Sundays, from 8am until 1pm, they close the street for walking. It's 9 am on a beautiful summer day. I wear black leggings and a black top, with a cap, and my sister is wearing yellow. Her favorite color. “Lucien, can I have a puppy or kitten?" “Of course you can, but do you promise to take good care of your pet?" “ Promise!" “Okay, this week I'll take you to an animal adoption home and you choose. “Yay! “Carol smiles, jumping. My sister has always liked animals, just like me, but since my dog died ten years ago I've never had another pet. Her name was Betsy, she was my companion and best friend. “Little brother, isn't that Dereck? “Carol points out the last man I want to see on the face of the earth. She runs happily towards him, calling him. “Carol, come back here! “I quicken my steps, wanting
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LUCIENI want to hurt him at all costs. I want him to feel what I felt, to live in a dark world like the one I lived in when she simply took me out of her life as if I were nothing. “You’re no use to me.” I never forgot that phrase, but what continues to kill me inside is the way she said it, looking coldly into my eyes and having said it so easily, without even blinking. I didn't know if she ever really loved me or if it was her comfort, as she said the last time we saw each other, before I went to New York. If Dereck knew, I would leave everything for him, because he had everything here. He felt complete and anyway, he encouraged me to fight for more, but he destroyed every good thing I believed in. He made me see that love is for idiots and only serves as a consolation. That social level is much more important and now here I am. I'm on the list of the most successful.I've been in several places, until I got here, fighting to finally have the world I had left without him. I went to
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LucienI am stopped, as Dereck closes the door again, blocking my passage.“ You are crazy? “Dereck holds my arm and forces me to face him. “You're the one who's crazy and has a level of infinite arrogance!“I learned that from you.“What did you call me here for, then? To humiliate me? To be arrogant and rude?"What did you expect from me?"I stare at him for a few seconds, with no answer to give him, as I was expecting the opposite. I expected a yes and not just on the proposal, but on everything. I was hoping for a yes to having him back in my life. I expected a kiss and hot sex like other times. I was waiting for that Dereck I had known for four years, who said he loved me and adored my sister. That Dereck, who today was more like a Lucifer, a traitorous angel.Dereck holds my face, puts his mouth on mine. A rough, dominating kiss, as if wanting to demonstrate who the alpha is. A good, suffocating kiss, a mix of love and hate, perhaps more hate than love.“ Let me go. “I push him
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3 years laterDerekIn my room, just wearing a towel, choosing the suit I'm going to wear. I go to the wardrobe and see the shirt I wore the day I met Lucien at the strip club, a splendid night and a path to happiness, which I interrupted or which fate did not allow. I show a smile and run my hand over my dress, I close my eyes remembering the wonderful night I had. I remember his hands on me, feeling me, a touch without kisses, but one that managed to cause incredible sensations in my body. I open my eyes, returning with my feet on the ground; I close the wardrobe and finish getting dressed.I had been invited to the opening party of a multinational company called “Lucius”. An international magazine company, and one of the most expensive. This company exists in several places around the world and now it would have a branch here too. I had no idea who the partner of this company is, since it chooses a partner in each country where it has an established branch. However, I know one thin
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LucienI'm at home, I just got out of the shower, as I had gone to the gym. I just wear sweatpants and go to the fridge, make a snack and hear the doorbell ring.I quickly open the door and have a pleasant surprise when I see Dereck in front of me. I then give way for him to enter. I see the concern in his eyes, he looks distressed and afraid.“ Did something happen?He takes a deep breath, takes out his bag, takes out an envelope and hands it to me.“ What is that? “I ask, already opening the envelope. I take out the letter and start reading. I was accepted to do a 4”month corporate management internship and, if all went well, I would be given the position on a two”year contract. I'm speechless.“Congratulations “Dereck says with a trembling voice.I look at the date the letter was signed and it was just over a month ago; I only have fifteen days to prepare.“Dereck, when did you receive this letter?“ A month ago...“ One month? It took you a month to show me this?“I know, sorry! I
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DERECKIn front of my papers, I am analyzing some documents and signing new partnerships. In the middle there is a letter, coming from another multinational company in New York. In fact, this letter came by mistake, it was for Lucien. Months ago, another publisher opened applications for anyone who wanted to do a management internship at the company. Lucien and many signed up; he, as my assistant, is more than aware of what it's like to have to deal with certain companies in terms of business and everything. That's why he signed up. I took the letter and was in shock, not knowing what to do, I don't know why I'm anxious for the answer. I'm selfish for a moment in wishing that the letter stated that he didn't get the position, as I want him close to me and not far away, but I also hoped that he would be accepted, as it would be a great opportunity for him to grow in his professional career and I I would be very proud. I spend a few seconds looking at the letter, not knowing what to do,
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LUCIENI leave Dereck's office and go to my desk. Dereck does the same, going to his appointment. I spend some time at the company, sorting out some of my documents and sorting out some things. There's only me in the company, my other colleagues had already come forward. I close my suitcase, turn around and come across Ryco, who is looking at me in a bad mood.“Geez, Ryco, do you want to scare me to death?“What's going on between you and Dereck?“ What do you mean by that?“I'm not an idiot, Lucien, I see the looks, your reaction to her... “Ryco puts his hands on his hips. “She even tries to hide it, but I see a sparkle in her eyes.I don't comment, I just look at her as if I don't understand what she's saying.“Have you guys been fucking each other? You left me to hit the boss, didn't you? So you Lucien, all correct, opening your legs for your boss?—Watch how you talk, Ryco! He pays your salary and mine too, so let's have respect in our work environment.“I know you have been seein
