Chapter 21 - Suzie

I am about ninety-nine percent sure I am making an utter fool of myself. I bet anyone looking at our table is thinking, ‘that girl looks like a deranged idiot licking that spoon.’. I doubt this is even a fraction of as sexy as I wanted it to be.

‘I don’t care about what others think, but given how our mate is looking at you, it certainly enticed him.’ Kayla snickered as Austin seemed to be in a hurry as he escorted me to the jeep.

I laughed softly as we started driving, and I saw he was going a bit faster than the drive to the restaurant. Oh yes, someone is eager to get home.

I am eager too. I’m also nervous and terrified. By all accounts, I know that the pain of having sex for the first time is more fleeting, but as a werewolf, I also have to pain of marking to contend with.

“What’s funny over there?” Austin arched an eyebrow.

“Just that you seem rather eager to get to your house.” I shrugged, smirking.

“Well, you did imply we might be having sex. If sex isn’t on the table or is a maybe but doesn’t happen because you changed your mind, it’s okay. We don’t have to.” Austin assured me.

He was rambling like he was trying to overcorrect to not sound like an asshole. It only made me laugh more.

“You are trying hard not to be a douchebag and coming off like an inexperienced virgin. I’m the inexperienced virgin here.” I laughed, shaking my head.

“Maybe, but I just don’t want you to think that implying sex means we have to or that I’ll get upset if we don’t.” Austin shrugged.

“I know. You’ve not tried to pressure me for more than I was willing to give in the last week. I doubt that was going to change. Mostly because you know I’d knock you into next week.” I continued to laugh.

He’s adorable as he rolls his eyes at me. He knows I’m right. He saw the damage I did to his grandfather, and he was only being a rude asshole. So I’m sure Austin has pictured how he would get hurt if he tried to pressure me for sex.

“I admit to nothing.” He sighed.

“That’s a yes. It’s okay. I don’t blame you. Just know I wouldn’t outright ever hurt you. In defense of myself, sure. But you are my mate, and I would never want to hurt you simply because you made me angry.” I assured him.

“I know, Suzie. As strong as your gift makes you, it doesn’t override the strength of your heart.” Austin smiled.

Awe, that was probably the sweetest thing I’ve heard him say.

“You were always a loud-mouth girl with zero filter.” Austin’s smile transitioned into a smirk as I narrowed my eyes at him.

“You go from saying something charming to being a dick.” I huffed.

“If you’d let me finish. Your lack of filter and loud mouth is because you wear your heart on your sleeve. I think it’s genetic for Waltersons. Your dad and brother are the same way. They don’t also have your mom’s blunt manner.” Austin explained.

“You have a big heart. When you feel something, you feel it with all of your heart. You’re fearless in how you express your feelings and opinions. It’s not something many others could do. It’s admirable.” He shrugged.

Okay, that was now the sweetest thing he’s ever said. I’ve never had anyone complement my loud and blunt behavior like that. Many find it annoying, but he’s calling it admirable.

“Wow… um, thank you. I don’t think anyone’s ever complimented me for being what most call a loud-mouth bitch.” I sighed.

“Well, they don’t see it the same way as me. And that’s fine. They don’t need to see you the way I do.” Austin smiled as we pulled into his driveway.

Before he could get out, I leaned over, kissing him. I’d wanted to kiss him since he started talking but didn’t because he was driving. But I can now since we’re parked. Just as I thought he would deepen the kiss, he pulled back.

“Let’s go inside.” Austin whispered, his eyes rimmed with the silver I know belongs to Jax.

“Okay…” I absently agreed, nodding as we exited his jeep.

The nerves were back in full force as we walked up the steps to the front door. The door has been replaced since I broke the last one by punching Dillon through it. I need a distraction, something to get me out of my head with worries about what will happen.

‘Hello, distraction.’ Kayla practically purred as Austin pressed me to the foyer wall, his lips devouring mine in a hot and needy kiss.

I moaned into the kiss, welcoming the distraction the kiss offered and the bliss the sparks from the bond created. Neither of us pulled apart as we helped each other out of our jackets.

I gasped as his cold hands stared to push up my dress, dancing across my thighs. The coldness of his hands was such a contrast to how hot his touch made me feel. I eeped as his hands moved to knead my ass.

“Fuck… a thong? You’re killing me, honey.” Austin groaned, breaking the kiss for only a moment before his lips were on mine again.

I gasped as he lifted me by my ass, my gasp becoming a moan as I wrapped my legs around him and felt just how affected he was through his slacks. That nervous fear started to creep into my mind thinking of where this was going.

‘Don’t you dare back out now. You even went so far as to buy condoms. So don’t back out. You set your mind to something, don’t change it now. Those worries are normal and will pale in comparison to the pleasure.’ Kayla warned.

‘So stop thinking and let the mate bond and our mate distract you.’ She added.

Okay, she’s right. I did make up my mind about wanting to mate tonight, and I shouldn’t back out because of natural worries. Kayla distracted me with her lecture enough that I didn’t realize we weren’t in the foyer anymore until I felt my ass hit the mattress.

I’ve never seen the inside of Austin’s bedroom, and I’m too distracted to pay attention. His hands had moved to untie my dress.

His lips made their way from mine. He kissed my jaw and down my neck, nipping at the hollow where his mark would be before the night ended. I shivered, failing to suppress a moan as he pulled my dress open with an appreciative groan. It looks like someone approved of the sheer black lace bra and thong combination.

“So damn gorgeous….”Austin groaned as his lips trailed down my collar as he moved to kneel between my legs.

I couldn’t even muster words to answer him. Even if I tried, it would have just come out as a moan, especially as he tweaked my nipples through the sheer fabric.

Panting with a familiar need, all the making out we’ve done this past week may not have been like this, but they certainly left me with a need in my core. A need that would be fulfilled tonight.

I hurried to get my arms out of the dress, wanting it gone. Austin groaned again, finding that the bar was clasped in the front. I blushed as he stared when the bra fell open, freeing my breasts.

This is the most of my body I’ve let him see, up close at least. When we’ve allowed Jax and Kayla to run, I've shifted around him, but I constantly change into clothes quickly.

“Absolutely perfect.” Austin murmured in awe.

I moaned, arching into his touch as he gently stroked and massaged my breasts before letting his lips devour them. Thankfully, the sparks of the bond and the sheer pleasure of his touch were enough to distract my mind both from what would happen and how he became so good at this.

“Lay back for me, honey.” Austin encouraged as his lips started trailing down my stomach.

Licking my lips, I obeyed. I propped myself up on my elbows to see what was happening. I don’t know if that was a good or bad idea as I had the perfect view to watch Austin.

I licked my lips, watching as he pulled thongs down, raising my hips to help him. I moaned as his lips started trailing, scorching kisses up the inside of my leg. Instinctively I let my legs open wider.

“Oh fuck…” I gasped as his tongue licked my entrance before slipping inside.

Wow. Just wow. Austin’s going down on me, and fuck, it feels good. I may be a virgin, but it’s not like I haven’t touched myself, but this is different as he added his fingers, one at a time, teasing and driving me crazy.

“Fuck… you taste just like you smell.” Austin groaned as he took a breath before going right back to driving me to that edge.

“Ooo… oh, Austin….” I moaned, reaching down with one hand to grip his hair.

My grip didn’t deter him. It seemed to encourage him as he picked up the pace. My hips bucked against his fingers and his face wanting, needing more.

“Cum for me, honey. I want to taste you.” his husky voice encouraged as he expertly curled his fingers to find the right spot to send me over the edge.

“AUSTIN…” I moaned loudly.

I collapsed on the bed as I started to come down from well cumming. I raised my head, hearing Austin softly chuckling. I blushed, realizing I was completely naked, and he was still fully dressed. I blushed, knowing the wetness he was licking from his lips was from me.

“You’re overdressed.” I smirked, biting my bottom lip as he kissed back up my body.

“I can fix that.” He smirked.

“No, I can fix it.” I retorted, sitting up more to reach the buttons of his shirt.

He chuckled but didn’t stop me, moving to stand again so I could undress him. I’ve seen him naked but never got close or touched him anywhere below his waist. And well, seeing his cock after shifting is very different from having it hard and quite literally in my face.

‘Lick it! Touch it! He gave us pleasure, time to return the favor! What was the point of watching those videos if not for this?’ Kayla encouraged me.

Hesitantly I licked the tip, noticing how he growled in approval, and grabbed my side ponytail. I’ll take that as a good sign because I have no clue what I’m doing.

I continued my exploration, sure that I was probably doing something wrong. But Austin doesn’t stop me. He growled, groaned, and moaned, even rocking his hips, pushing himself deeper into my mouth.

Just as I thought, I was finding my rhythm when he pulled my hair just enough to pop his cock out of my mouth. I furrowed my brow looking up at him in silent questions since I thought he had been enjoying it.

“I don’t get to have multiple orgasms, and unless you tell me oral is as far as we are going, I’m not blowing my load in your mouth when a much better place is available.” Austin panted.

I blushed. I’d been so caught up trying to give Austin the pleasure he’d given me that I forgot that we weren’t nearly finished. I’m still an unmarked virgin.

“Right… um, I did bring condoms. They’re in my purse…downstairs.” I groaned, realizing my purse was abandoned with my coat.

“You really did plan things, honey. But I have some in my nightstand. And before you ask, they are new and not bought with anyone but you in mind.” Austin smiled, leaning down, tilting my face up, and kissing me.

Well, I can at least appreciate he was responsible too. Plus, I like that they aren’t condoms he got when he was with that bitch. At least I know she’s never been in his bed.

“Okay, good. No offense, but I am not looking to start a family yet.” I smiled, moving further onto the bed.

“None taken. I’m not looking for that yet either.” He assured, reaching into his nightstand and taking out a condom.

Clenching my thighs in anticipation as I watched him roll the latex down his length. I was a mixed bag of emotions inside but at the moment, and the one winning was horny. I want him, and I want him now.

“Last chance. Are you sure you want this? Want to have sex? To be marked?” Austin questioned, positioning himself between my legs.

“More than anything. So stop stalling.” I smirked.

My bravado crumbled into a cry of pain that became a moan of pleasure as he entered me. It hurt at first, but as my body became accustomed to his size, the rhythm of our movements created a pleasure that left the pain to fade away. At least mom was right about that part.

As the pleasure started to build, I knew we should mark each other. Mom said it was essential to mark during the act, before the climax, to ensure the pleasure could balance the pain.

“Au…Austin… we should mark each other.” I moaned.

“Don’t have to tell me twice. Jax has wanted this since day one.” Austin nuzzled against my neck, licking where his teeth would soon sink.

“He’s loved you since the day he knew you were for us. Hell, so did I.” He admitted, his words whispered against my skin, but I heard them.

“You… you love me?” I blinked.

“Of course I do. I was already falling for you before you got your wolf.” Austin smiled, pressing a kiss to my neck.

I smiled because who wouldn’t smile to be told they are loved?

“I love you too, Austin. Now mark me so we can make this official.” I encouraged tilting my head to give him more access.

I howled in pain as his teeth sank into my tender flesh. The mate bond half clicked into place as he left his mark on me.

As if knowing or at least sensing my pain, Austin started to move again, reaching between us to tease my clit to draw my body from feeling the pain to feeling pleasure instead. I was panting, hovering between pleasure and pain as he licked his mark, offering me his neck.

“Your turn, Suzie.” He encouraged.

Kayla didn’t need to be told twice as she half pushed forward, eagerly sinking my canines into his neck. He howled as well in pain, picking up his pace.

I licked his mark, eager to find out what they would look like. But any thoughts fell to the wayside as I was pushed over the edge, moaning his name as I came.

“Suzanne…” He groaned as he found his release. I kind of like that he used my proper name. I’m not a little girl, not anymore.

He kissed me deeply before moving to lay next to me. While I tried to catch my breath, I barely noticed him throwing out the condom or taking off his prosthetic. I know he wrapped me in his arms, whispering that he loved me as I fell asleep.