"Why is it bad?"I smiled and hugged the pillow."Mama and I are leaving for Capiz today. We're going home on Sunday night. We can't see each other today."I was slightly disappointed. We were both busy for the past Saturdays. Now that it's all over, we won't meet. But of course, it was his family. He should be there."It's okay. We'll see each other on Monday," I said positively."Yes. I'll see you, then."I just spent the weekend doing unfinished school works. Janice called me and asked why I suddenly lost the ball last night. Even Daryl messaged me if I was fine. I didn't tell Janice about it yet. All I said was, I’ll tell him when we see each other. She told me how amazing that night for herbecause his crush is his partner. He said a lot so it took us a while to call. After the call, I just replied to Daryl.I was kind of guilty for leaving him like that. That person is friendly and kind. When because of me I feel like he didn’t enjoy the ball.Me:I'm really sorry for last night
Staring at him deeply, little by little, I slowly began to understand everything. I rejected him not because I don't like him on that level. I was afraid. I was so afraid to break my own principles. I was afraid that I might end up being enslaved by my emotions. I was afraid I'd end up getting consumed by that feeling. I put him on the pedestal because that’s what I think is right. I let my mind control everything that I ended up lying to myself.I'm afraid that once I gamble, I won't be able to give up. Because now, I realized I am very, very infatuated with him. And I fear the fate of how I feel. Because this time, I know I can't hold back anymore. I couldn't even hold it when I was still in denial, how much more now that I finally accepted that I do like him?"You chose your clothes?" Rustov asked as he raised his hand behind my back. I shivered when I felt the warmth of his hand against my bare skin."Mommy did ..." I said almost mutely."Are you comfortable with it, though?"I co
"Will you pass?" I asked, trying not to sound hostile."No. That's our position so back off," he said arrogantly.My lips parted, offended."We've been standing here for a while. Why did you say this is your place?" Janice who also didn't like the woman's tone."So we're not going back. We earned our spot here. So line up properly," I said softly, trying to be patient. I promised Rustov I won't involve myself in troubles again. I don't want to break it just because of something trivial."We just bought soft drinks for a while and then you're there? You line up properly if you don't want trouble."And the stupid girl even had the audacity to say that! Who does he think he is?"Don't you know Sheena? She's the Vice Governor's daughter," he said behind her as if we were interested to know that."And?" My eyebrows rose."Are you stupid? Back off if you don't want trouble. You might just be embarrassed?" the girl named Sheena said.My mouth was crying. Me, be embarrassed? The nerve of this
"You did well..."I sniffed and held back a smile. I averted my face and looked out to sea. It was Friday, so we had a little time to talk. We headed straight to the Dales after class. Though, I got conscious thinking that maybe he noticed how tensed I was during the oral defense."Really?" my sarcastic question.He nodded, suppressing a smile."Your smirks made me feel like you were secretly mocking me.""I wasn't ... I was just ... amazed."I raised an eyebrow at him and ambushed him to stand but he just pulled me closer to him. Now I'm sitting in between his legs. He was behind me as I was slightly tilted."Don't lie to me. I was so nervous before! I'm sure I didn't look amazing at all! Maybe you're silently making fun of me in your head!"He laughed and shook his head."And what, your question is just simple! I told you don't be easy on me. I want it harder!""Harder?" he echoed softly."Yes! Why, don't you think I can handle it, huh?"Her eyes darkened, there was a ghost of a smi
"Don't. I'm not hungry because I just finished lunch. Maybe later after your practice."He tilted his head to have a better view of my face. I fixed the hair that was blowing in the wind. I just finished last week so that didn’t go over the shoulder."Are you eating well? You're getting more slender, Audrey."I looked down at the body and frowned. I'm slender, right! But my body is just fine for me. I looked at him a little irritated."What do you want? That whale -looking one? You know what, even if I eat a lot, my boobs and butt won't get bigger like the women around you."Her eyebrows rose, smiling."That's not what I'm referring to.""Oh, really?" I spat.He shook his head, smirking."That's not what I want," he said with a laugh."You know, it's better that you just get dressed because your practice is about to start. Let's stop talking nonsense here."He chuckled and nodded. He picked up the duffel bag and stood up. I saw a few college girls pass by with Kiara behind her. I saw
June when class started. High school is two weeks ahead of college so for two weeks Rustov always picks me up. By the way, when their class started, he couldn't take me anymore. We have different schedules. And often, his class was until five or six o'clock while my dismissal was always at four o'clock.I insisted that I could just wait for him so that at least we could go home together. But he don't like the idea of me waiting for him. I got dismayed of the new situation. However, he consoled me that we can meet during Saturdays, if we are both idle. And we can meet sometimes in school, too. At lunch breaks and if there is vacant time. Even if it was a little against my will, I couldn't do anything.Janice and I were in the cafeteria with a few classmates to discuss a group work while eating. The question didn't just enter my brain because the eyes were on the other table. Rustov was there with friends, and of course Kiara. I was bothered a bit. I think we should have just been tog
He licked his lower lip and sighed. He then whispered..."Maybe ... I could just change my plan. There's a firm there in Albeda. Once I pass the board, I can work there first. Let's just wait until we're both ready for a long distance relationship. There's no need I'll leave Manila immediately. You're not ready for it. "My lips parted in shock. I stepped back but he immediately caught my elbow. Good news that we are not separated. But I couldn’t help but be happy.It didn't sound right. It will never sound right. I understand that he has to leave for that. I'm sad but I won't go against it because that's how it should be. He already planned that. How can I destroy that?"A-What are you saying?"He's unbelievable!"No, you're not staying, Rustov! Just for me, will you do that? Do you think that's right? Yes, I'll be sad if you leave, but you shouldn't change your plan just because of that! After the board, if you'll have the opportunity, then take it and stay in Manila! "He touched m
"Look at you. Its cute!" at the same time I will show the picture of baby Sia to Rustov.I've been with Ate for the whole semester break and I'll just be back. I couldn't go while he was in labor so I was a little guilty. Besides that, I also plan to tell him about Klyde's girlfriend Sia for a few months now. I had a lot of chances to tell her, but I just couldn't keep up. She seemed very happy, I don't have the courage to spoil her happiness."Yeah. She's cute and pretty," Rustov said. We sat under a coconut tree, in front of their plantation."That's because her aunt is pretty."His eyes drifted at me. He tilted his head and stared at me intently. Then, his lips curved into a mischievous smile."Why? You don't agree?""You're beautiful, of course ..." he said softly.I stifled a smile."Who's prettier than Kiara and me, then?"He groaned."You don't have to compare yourself to her, Audrey. That's just my friend.""Right. I already know that. I'm just asking. Why, is it bad? Why don'