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78 - I Get It Now

Author: J. Tarr
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Ruin

We’re laying in the private room of the cabin and I watch Chloe Jane sleep, her chest rising and falling softly with each breath she takes. It’s been months since I’ve had the luxury of just watching her, of being this close. The private jet hums quietly in the background, a dull noise compared to the storm of emotions swirling inside me.

My heart is full, so bloody full it feels like it could burst right out of my chest.

I still can’t quite believe she’s actually here, with me, after all this time. The ache of being apart from her was a constant companion, one I thought I’d never shake off. And now, with her revelation... Fuck, I’m going to be a dad.

The thought sends a mix of terror and elation coursing through me. I understand now, really understand, what Konstantin meant about how having a family changes you.

I glance at her again, her blonde hair cascading over the pillow, a stark contrast to the dark material. Her eyes are closed in sleep, but I remember the way they spa
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These two were the sweetest chapters! Got all teary eyed, in the best way :)
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