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19 - Full Moon Part 1

Author: J. Tarr
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

Chloe Jane

As I pace the bedroom floor, the wooden floor creaks under my hesitant steps, each one a stark reminder of my racing thoughts. It’s almost the full moon, the time I’ve always dreaded, and now, it’s entangled with a sense of impending doom. The room feels smaller, the walls closing in on me with every labored breath.

I can barely focus on anything else, all I’m thinking about is how my wolf will react to the only male close to me. I shudder as I think about it… but not out of fear. I don’t even remember meeting my wolf, if I ever did.

Knowing I’m about to experience the full moon without the help of medication, has my heart beating erratically. It’s like standing at the edge of a cliff, knowing I’m about to fall but not knowing what awaits at the bottom.

I’ve never experienced my heat before, either, and the idea of going through it with Ruin, the man who’s been my rock, my protector, sends shivers down my spine.

Ruin... He’s been more than just a bodyguard to me. There’s a
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Kathryn Keogh
can't wait, either
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YAILYN
Somehow I have a feeling this won’t be the first time she says “you’re huge” :)
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Jemmons
ahhh I knew I shouldn't have started reading so early! I'm dying here waiting for your new chapters!
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