Cali“Sweetheart.” Gems voice brought me back to myself. “If he’s not here by now, he’s not coming.” Her voice was wary. Like she didn’t know how I would take it. I knew what I must look like to her, as I stared out through the dark window. I looked like one of those sad women. The kind that pined after a man who she knew was just playing her. I wanted to tell her it wasn’t like that. That I had some self-respect. But what would be the point? True I was leaving in the morning, but I had been looking forward to seeing him one last time. To fooling around with him one last time. Truth was officially the best sex I had ever had. I wasn’t even sure any other men were going to live up to him. “I know.” I gave her a smile. It was forced, but I made my lips move. “I'm leaving tomorrow anyway.”Gem studied me. Her head cocked to the side. “I told you not to get too attached….” she trailed off.“I didn’t.” Instantly I went on the defensive. It was a stupid thing to do; the knowing smile on
Truth I knew what they saw when I lead Cali through the doorway to the main room. I knew, and I didn’t care. They saw what I wanted them to see. I knew what it meant, bringing her to them with my colours on her back. She might not know, but they did.“Truth?” Gents eyes were the widest of the lot. He seemed genuinely shocked. But he hid it well as he climbed to his feet. Coming towards us with a massive smile on his face. “Cali love.” He bent with his hands on her narrow shoulders.”It’s good to see you again.” His eyes dived over her in a way I hated. “And a blonde? It suits you.”“The pink was a….” Cali faltered. She was uncomfortable, I could tell. And I couldn’t blame her. I would have been as well in her position. “Blonde is my natural colour.” She gave the smallest of shrugs under my arm. “Kind of.”“It looks good on you.” Gents eyes raised to mine for a second; the question was in them as clear as day. They all had questions, and I would have to answer them sooner rather tha
CaliThis was crazy, absolutely crazy but hadn’t I wanted to live a little on the wild side? And being with Truth was definitely living on the wild side. The fact that he was insanely hot and blew my mind out of the top of my head in bed was an added bonus.It couldn’t last forever. I knew that, and I was ok with it. A fling, a few weeks of letting loose and living wild and then I could go back to my boring, mundane life. I was owed some time off, and even if I wasn’t, I was sure they could cope in the office without me. It wasn’t like I was important there. I flopped back on the small double bed, letting my eyes wander around the room. It was sparse, almost threadbare, but at least it was clean. But there was absolutely nothing to do. I didn’t have my bags with me; all I had was my phone.Pulling it from my jacket, I flopped back down. I did have something I needed to do. It wasn’t particularly fun, but it needed to be done.“Hey.” The deep male voice answered on the third ring. “
TruthI got it now, why Ruined always had a grin on his face every time I saw him. Three weeks I had woken up with Cali wrapped around my body every morning. Or found her in the kitchen, brewing coffee with her hair sticking up in every direction. A thoroughly fucked look making her face look serene. So yeah, I got it. ,I liked having a woman around. And Wicked did as well. Even if he would never say so out loud. I could tell. Not that my older brother was here all that often. He was pretty good about making himself scarce. Apart from that one time, when he had walked in with Gent, I had been eating her out when she was sat on the kitchen counter. Both of them had thought it was hysterical and I had wanted to visit violence on the pair of them. The only reason they hadn’t felt my fist connecting with their faces was that they had left pretty quickly. After several obscene comments about joining in or at least watching.“Morning.” I wrapped my arms around her from behind, pressing my
Cali“He said what?” Gem froze from her place behind the bar, the empty glasses in her hand forgotten as she turned to where I was perched on stool, my arms crossed on the wood as I waited for her afternoon shift to finish.Not that I wasn’t enjoying myself. There was a freedom to being here. I had felt it from the first moment. This was a place where you could just be …. well just BE. There was no judgement. “Truth said what?” She repeated when I didn’t answer quick enough.“He said he had something important to ask me.” I took a sip of the cola in front of me. I wasn’t above day drinking. I had done more of that than was healthy over the last few weeks. But I didn’t want to be falling asleep on Gems sofa before six because I was steaming.Doing that was a great way to have the piss taken out of you forever. A lesson I had learnt the hard way my first week. I wasn’t going to make that mistake again. “Important to ask you?” The glasses slipped from her fingers and crashed to the flo
Cali Truth.His name seemed to haunt me, but it was nothing compared to the nightmares I had every night since he had pulled a gun on me. Nightmares of his cold dead eyes as he pressed that deadly piece of metal against my forehead. Only in my dreams, he hadn’t let me walk away in my urine soaked panties. He had pulled that trigger.Every single night he pulled the trigger over and over again.Weeks had passed since the day my whole world imploded. And I tried to skip back into my old life. I really tried, but nothing felt right. This wasn’t my home anymore.I went through the motions. I got up, showered, and dressed, I went to work every morning with a forced smile on my face. I even socialised with my flatmates and friends, and then I fell into bed and cried myself to sleep.I couldn’t do it anymore. I couldn’t carry on living this half-life. “You can do this,” I told myself as I swiped the mascara over my lashes. “Talking to yourself is the first sign of madness, you know.” My
TruthI was a mess. I had been a mess since the moment I had found out. Sure I kept my agony locked deep down inside of me. But that didn’t mean it wasn’t there. Buried within.I had pulled a gun on her. On Cali. I had pressed it against her skin, and she had been so scared she had wet herself. It wasn’t the first time I had made someone piss themselves, but it had been the first time I had done it to a woman. And not just any woman. A woman I loved.I hadn’t let her explain. I hadn’t given her a damn chance to say anything. And I should have. I should have done a lot of things differently. Maybe I would have done them differently if I had allowed myself to actually listen to her. I had been so obsessed with hearing the truth that I had been blind to the truth right in front of my face.Cali.Everywhere I had turned, there were memories of her. Her clothes in my closet, her damn pink, purple wig on my nightstand. I couldn’t get away from her. My sheets smelt like her perfume. And I
CaliI kept myself together the entire time I was in the same small cramped room as Truth. I wasn’t sure how I had done it, but somehow I did.“Cali?” Layla’s voice was startled as I crashed through the front door. My legs buckled before I even had time to shut it, and I crumbled to the floor in a heap. Sobbing uncontrollably.“Cali.” My best friend in the world was there in a second. Kneeling beside me, she pulled my head into her dressing gowned breast. “Cali, what is it?”I couldn’t speak, I could barely breathe. All I could do was sob. Great wracking sobs that made my chest hurt and my throat sore. “Cali, come on babes. Talk to me.” Gently she pulled me to my feet, and I let myself be lifted. Just like I let myself be lead over to the sofa. Loosing one of my heels as I went. “What’s happened?” Layla’s hands went back around my shoulders.“Truth.” His name ripped out of my mouth. It was the only thing I could say.Layla’s eyes blazed. “Did he hurt you?” She looked around like he w