Avery
What right did he have to tell me who I could or couldn't sleep with? And yet he had done it without a second thought. I got that we had a past, I really did but it was the past. And I wanted it to stay there. Except it wasn't in the past, it was very much my here and now. I knew coming back here would come with risks, and one of those risks was running into Ruin. I just hadn’t expected it to be so damn hard.
I hadn't expected him to make my body react to him like I was still the same teenage girl who couldn't believe he would even look twice at her. Even now as an adult he made my legs weak with that shit-eating panty-dropping smile of his and I hated it.
I hated the fact that even after all these years, even with as much as I hated him. He still made me want him. Just like he had back then.
Tearing the brush through my hair, I groaned. What the hell was I doing? It wasn't like he could actually make me go to dinner with him. I could refuse to open the door, although I wasn't sure my father wouldn't open the door to him anyway but even if he did, I could just say no.
No, we are not going to dinner with you.
It wasn't like he could physically kidnap me and make me go.
And yet here I was, brushing my hair out, my lips shiny with gloss. Acting like I was going out on a date when I should be locking the doors and protecting my son from my past.
He wasn't my past though, not really. We had a child together. He may not have known about Parker before but he did now. Didn't I owe it to the pair of them to let them build a relationship?
I just had to paste over the cracks in my hard outer shell when it came to Ruin and be civil for the sake of my child. And that meant no more dirty thoughts, no more thinking about the past and most definitely no more getting drunk and ending up in his bed trying to cop a feel.
We had to leave that part behind us.
It was the only way either of us would be able to get on with our lives and I planned to restart my life far away from all men who thought to control me.
“You look beautiful.”
Ruins voice made me jump, I hadn't heard the sound of his bike on the road or the front door being opened, yet here he was, leaning on the door frame of my old childhood bedroom like he owned the place. “Don't you knock?” My voice was combative, I just couldn't help it. It was the effect he had on me., he instantly got my back up and I went on the attack.
So much for being civil.
“Your door wasn't shut.” He glanced around. “Where's the lad?”
“He will be back soon, he went out with my dad to grab something. I'm not quite ready yet so make yourself at home downstairs….” I shot him a look and he stared right back, his eyes boring into mine before drifting down lower still, and that damn smile tugged up the corners of his mouth again, deepening his dimples.
“You look beautiful Avery.” He repeated and I shook my head at him. Did he really think I was going to fall for those kinds of lines again like I had done before?
“Yeah, you have said that already'' I turned back to the mirror, reapplying another coat of gloss over my lips. It was a nervous habit but I just couldn't help myself.
He made me nervous, made into a bumbling teen and not the strong woman I had been forced to become.
“It deserved to be said again…. Here” His hands were suddenly on my shoulders and my head turned to him instinctively “You smudged your gloss…” His thumb brushed the corner of my mouth and my lips parted in a gasp that seemed to echo in the silence.
Why did he have to have such a hold over me?
“You're killing me, woman.” He muttered, his eyes darkening but he didn't move his thumb from my mouth, just kept sweeping it back and forth.
“You could try just leaving me alone?” I whispered it but I knew the moment he heard it. His features tightened into hard lines. “I can't” He shook his head and the finger he had been caressing my lips with dropped lower, his hand closed around my throat as he drew me up and out of my seat. His grip was hard but not uncomfortable, he wasn't doing it to hurt or scare me I realised with a start. It was purely instinctual. “Don't you get that yet Avery? I CAN'T LEAVE YOU ALONE” He punctuated every word with a hiss as if he was as angry as I was. And maybe he was. Maybe I wasn't the only one who was struggling with separating the past from the present. “Not now I have you back”
“Have me back? Ruin I was never yours, to begin with. All we had was one summer. And I sure as hell wouldn't have spent that summer with you if I had known who you were.”
He cocked his head. “Yes you would have, you would have done it to give the finger to your old man whether you knew who I was or not, let’s not pretend otherwise. That whole summer was one big screw you to your dad.”
“Well backfired on me didn't it?” I sounded bitter and I didn’t care. Sure on paper, my life looked pretty damn good but in honesty, it was a shit show. A shit show I would have lost years ago if I hadn't had Parker to protect. “I actually did…” I paused. What the hell was I doing? I had been about to tell him that I had been more than half in love with him when we had finally spent the night together. If he had asked me to leave with him I would have.
“It may have started out with me trying to get one up over on my dad and club but in my position what would you have done? He was trying to marry me off to…”
“To me.” Ruins voice was soft but his grip on my throat tightened as he tugged me towards him. “You were meant to be mine Avery, and you went and slept with ….”
“Jesus I slept with you, only fucking you. That day when you threw me under the bus? You knew full well I had only ever been with you and you didn't give a shit” I knew my words were having the desired effect. The fingers around my throat slipped down my arm. He looked troubled, a tiny line appearing between his eyebrows. “You ruined me to save face. You could have said no to all the shit they were demanding of us. Said that I should have been free to make my own damn decisions but you didn't... You made it so every single person I loved and cared for turned their back on me... You all go on about the club being family but you didn't think twice about taking mine from me.”
“Would you have married me? If we hadn't met before I mean?” His eyes searched my face. “I didn't want to be told who to marry either Avery.” His voice was ragged as I shook my head. “I was twenty fucking two. I didn’t want to settle down and then I saw you. Standing there and it was like I had been sucker-punched. I thought you had been playing me, and I opened my mouth without thinking. Do you seriously not think I've not spent years wishing I had acted differently? Because I have. Jesus, every time I hear someone shout my name it's like I'm being punished for what I said that day. I should have had your back. I would have had your back if I had known you were pregnant or at least I like to think I would have.” He gave a sheepish shrug. “I can't take back the past Avery, all I can do is ask for the chance to make it up to you..,” His lips dropped to my jaw and for a second I let my eyes close as the anticipation of his kiss flooded me.
“Because of Parker?”
“Because of you Avery, thirteen years and I have never had a serious relationship. Not one. That's because no one ever came close to you. I was a fucking immature boy back then but I’m not a boy now. And I know what it is, I want. And that's you.” He held up a hand. “I'm not saying we should jump into a relationship or anything but don’t we at least owe it to ourselves to try? You still want me, you can't deny it., and we have a kid. A kid that is from what I have seen amazing. You did that alone Avery and I am in awe of you but I want to be in his life. As much as I want you in my life. I want to be a father to Parker.”
“You're my biological dad?”
I scrambled out of Ruin's arms so fast I almost fell. “Parker….” my voice came out wrong, all high pitched and nervous. I had been planning on telling him but not like this. Never in a million years had I wanted him to find out like this.
My son's eyes were wide as he stared between us. He shook his head. “I have a dad, and he was right.” Those eyes settled on me and I had never seen such hatred in them before, it made me take a physical step back. “We came here so you could have an affair, didn't we? You left dad… my real dad, so you could fuck around with scum..” spittle flew from his mouth. “Dad was right.”
***
“Where is he?” angrily I wiped at my eyes for what seemed like the hundredth time in the last five minutes.
Parker finding out by overhearing a conversation had been the last thing I had wanted but him running out of the house was even worse. He didn't know the town, hell he didn't even know the area, and he was out there alone and upset.
“Ruin and the boys will find him, Avery.” From across the living room, my father’s red-rimmed eyes met mine, I could see a million questions there, I was just hoping he wouldn't start asking them tonight. I needed to keep my mind on finding my son and not his pointless questions but I knew as soon as his eyes narrowed I wasn't going to be allowed that luxury.
“Parker is Ruins kid isn't he?”
For a second I just stared at him. And then I shrugged. “Does it matter?”
“Of course it matters if anyone had known you were carrying his kid…”
I cut him off with a snarl. “You would have what? Thrown me a party? Because I got knocked up by the enemy and you might have been able to keep the club in your hands? You were my dad, you should have had my back no matter what. Mum would have. You didn't, the club didn't and Ruin sure as hell didn't….”
“We didn't know…”
I rolled my eyes at him. “It shouldn't have mattered, and it doesn't matter now. All I care about is getting Parker back safe and sound and then we are gone… I can't do this anymore. I can't put my son through this shit.”
“Ruin isn't going to let you go, Avery, not now he knows about Parker.”
And there it was, the truth as my dad saw it. It was ok for them to all turn their back on me and kick me to the curb but yet again I was meant to do what they wanted me to.
Nothing had changed in thirteen god damn years. They all still thought I was just another old lady to be bossed around.
But I wasn't anyone's old lady, I never had been. And the sooner they realised it the better.
I speared him with my eyes. Thirteen years ago these men had thrown me out, for thirteen years I had been on my own, family less apart from the family I had made around me. They had no right to try and tell me what to do with my life now. “Ruin will just have to get over it, won’t he. As soon as Parker is home we are leaving.”
Ruin”You ok there…..” I had been about to call him son, just a figure of speech but I knew it was the wrong thing to say and snapped my lips together before they fell from my mouth. ”Parker?” I called his name and he finally lifted his head to stare at me. Those brown eyes, which were almost identical to his Mum’s were red and swollen from tears he was angrily swiping away with the back of his hand. I got why he was upset, no one should find out who his father was like he had. “Parker?” I tried again when he turned his face to the side. It was obvious he didn’t want to talk to me, let alone look at me but I couldn’t exactly leave him here sitting on the wet pavement in the middle of the night. “Your mum is worried about you, we should get you back…..”His eyes narrowed. “You’re my dad?”Sighing, I settled my bulk next to him. I wasn’t surprised that he wanted to talk about it. He probably had a lot of questions. We both did. “Looks like it.”“And you are ok with that?” His question
Avery“Come on.” I half carried, half dragged Parker from his bed. And in his half-asleep state he didn’t put up much of a fight, there were a few sleepy mumbles but that was it as he let me lead him down the stairs and buckle his still half-asleep form into the passenger side of the car. Our suitcase was already tossed in the back seat. It wasn’t like I had any time to lose. As soon as the sound of Ruin's bike had dwindled to nothing I had started packing. Throwing things in on top of each other haphazardly.I needed to get out of here. And I knew I didn’t have much time. My husband was on the way, hell he could already be in town. Although I doubted it. My husband was a problem but only if he caught up with me. Only if I was still here when he got into town. My main problem right now was Ruin. There would be no way he would let us go without a fight. Part of me wanted to stay. To let him protect us but then another part, and it was the big part that remembered what he had done in
RuinShe was fucking gone by the time I got back to her father’s house. And the old man hadn’t even noticed. Even sober he was beyond useless. And she had left in a hurry. Half of her belongings were still strewn around her old childhood room.She had left even after saying she wouldn’t. But then wasn’t that what she was good at? Leaving? She always fucking left. But hadn’t I known she would, deep down? I had suspected she was planning something when she went from annoyingly argumentative to sex kitten who was all sweetness and light. It made me suspect she had been trying to seduce me so she could leave when I passed out asleep. I wouldn’t put it past her.“What do you mean you don’t know when she left?” I rounded on the old man with a snarl. Cutter didn’t even raise his eyes to me, just sipped at his crappy coffee. “How can you not know?”“Because she’s an adult Ruin, a grown-ass woman. She can come and go as she likes.” Finally, his eyes met mine and there was hatred in them.
AveryThis was a bad idea. As soon as I saw the bikes outside my father's house I started having second thoughts. It was one thing telling them all that thirteen years ago they had kicked me out with Ruins baby growing in my belly. Most of them had already guessed that anyway. It was totally another to walk in next to him. My hand in his. And I knew he would want to touch me because he hadn’t let go of my hand since our earlier conversation. His woman, though? He had some nerve after everything that had happened between us but I would have been lying if I said it didn’t send goosebumps down my body. And it had nothing to do with our past. My body reacted to Ruin like it craved him. There could be o denying we wanted each other.It was just when he opened his annoying mouth that I couldn’t stand him.But I would do whatever it took to get my child back. Because if my ex didn’t have him, it didn’t bear thinking about. I just wanted Parker back. And I would do whatever it took to mak
RuinMy bike pulled in behind the sleek silver sedan at almost the same time, you didn’t need to be a rocket scientist to know who the man driving it was.Avery’s husband.Ex-husband or soon to be, I reminded myself as I swung my leg over the bike. My eyes narrowing as I squinted into the car, all pretty futile with the darkly tinted windows. And somehow the fact I couldn't see him made me so angry it was a struggle not to drag him from the car just so I could see who had been sleeping next to Avery every night and bringing up my son for the last god knows how many years. Not that I could do any of that. But it was tempting. “Ruin.” Avery took a step out of the front door and froze as she caught sight of the car in front of me. The man who stepped out looked back over his shoulder and his clean-cut face broke into a wide grin. Like he was honest to god pleased to see me. “Hello, Ava.” His voice was deep, a rumbling of an accent making it thick although I couldn’t quite place it. I
Avery Sandra Briel…. the name echoed in my head. I knew that name. I knew it well. A scream ripped from my throat as I launched myself at my husband, my hands morphed into claws. I wanted to rip my nails down his face, gauge out his eyes with my fingers. Ruin was too slow to stop me, but only because no one expected me to go on the attack. They were all so used to timid Avery. But I wasn’t timid, I wasn’t beat and I most definitely wasn’t out. I would fight with everything I had for my son.I had barely touched him when strong arms caught me around the waist, lifting me bodily away and it was just as well. Deans closed fist missed my cheek by an inch as Wicked swung me away. It landed in Ruins hand with a sickening thump. And I knew that was all the excuse he needed. “Did you just try and hit her, you son of a bitch?” Spit flew from his mouth. “Did you try and punch my fucking old lady?”I struggled against Wickeds iron-like grip. Not because I wanted to save Dean from the beat d
Colton-ThenHow I kept from drooling I don’t know because she was damn drool-worthy. Every damn time she tried to take things further and I turned her down I doubted my own sanity.I had never been one to turn down good pussy before but there was just something about Ava that I just couldn’t get enough of. And I was afraid fucking her would put an end to our time together. I didn’t do relationships, I was a fuck them and leave them kind of guy. I just wasn’t sure I was quite ready to not see her every day.Although I knew that day was coming. And soon. I was being called back to the club. It wasn’t even like I could take her back with me. She wasn’t the kind of girl who had been brought up around the kind of men I classed as brothers. She was good and I was… well I was many things but good wasn’t one of them. As much as I wanted to keep her and have her ride at my back I couldn’t. Even if she was ok with my life I knew I couldn’t. I had responsibilities, ones I hated more than anyt
AveryI woke with the most glorious of aches between my legs. I felt like I had been thoroughly used. Thoroughly and obscenely used, I grinned. My hand reaching across the narrow mattress for him. After last night I was more than eager for round two.Or maybe it was round three. I had kind of lost track What with all the orgasms.My hand came up empty. The sheets that were tangled around me were empty. Empty and cold.Ruin wasn’t in bed with me. He hadn’t been in bed with me for a while.“Son of a bitch.” Humiliation heated my cheeks as I sat up, scrambling to find my discarded clothes where they had been strewn across the floor in our haste to get as naked as possible as quickly as possible.Had he left without a word because that’s what I had done all those years ago? Or was I just being paranoid? I knew it was more than likely the latter, I just couldn’t help it. My brain always went to the worst possible outcome. It was only then that I heard it. An incessant buzzing sound. My ph