This has got to be the most nerve wrecking moment I've ever had in my entire 33 years life. The babies are due mid of October but when we came in today for our 34th week check-up, Dr Fisher decided to perform an emergency c-section due to the leaking of the amniotic fluid from our daughter's sac. Baby boy was doing fine and growing healthily but we're worried about our baby girl. That's how a few hours later we're in this operation theatre, ready to welcome our bundle of joy earlier than expected. Though Dr Fisher and the paediatrician assured that everything would be okay since they're big enough to be delivered. "Everything's gonna be fine," she tells me as I sit next to her, waiting for the doctors to arrive. She looked scared but she's the one who's trying to assure me so I take her hand and nod. An hour later we have our baby boy in our arms and a few minutes afterwards, we see our baby girl but she is brought straight away to NICU after delivery.I never knew my heart can e
He didn't argue or even say anything when I told him I'm leaving for school so I thought he was fine with it. Clearly he's not because all my messages were not read, all my calls were sent straight to the voicemail, leaving me hopeless as I wonder if he blocked my number? We agreed about my education. We agreed all I have to do is give birth to his children, then I can have my life however I wanted. Two are out, one more to go. Though I have secretly asked the doctor to put an implant so I can go to school in peace. I've learned my lessons carrying the extra weight while attending school. It was exhausting both mentally and physically so I don't care, I refuse to be pregnant throughout this four years bachelor degree. I haven't been in contact with Augustine for 10 months now. Thank God my sisters and parents did share pictures of the babies whenever Augustine brought them to meet my family. I miss my babies so much but I can't contact them; he is still blocking my number. Even my
It was Friday and I waited the whole damn day at the lobby, but he didn't appear at all until I had to leave around 5 when Dani called about Dad's accident at the daycare centre. Turns out he had another heart attack when he was in the bathroom, which made him fall on the floor and hurt his head. The moment I reached the hospital he was still in the operation theatre with Dani, Serena, and Emily already waiting. Only Zoe is missing but she's on her way here since she lives on the other side of the country. Two hours later I don't know if I'm crying because of dad or from the crisis I'm having with my husband who purposely hide my babies from me but I am clearly a mess, that my sisters suggest me to go home and rest. "Go home, hug your babies, and calm down. I promise I'll call you, Evie." Serena assures me but I only sob harder hearing that. I don't have my babies, Serena. It's even worse if I go home and see how empty the house is. So I shake my head, "No, I wanna wait for dad."
His first term was for me to go home, eat, and get some sleep. I was about to protest when he assured me I would not be able to see the babies until I've had at least three hours of sleep. So like an obedient puppy, I ate my sandwich quickly then headed to bed for a nap. Three hours on the dot, the alarm rang that I woke up and ran to every room searching for him but he was gone. There was no trace of him being anywhere, not even at the study. I knew my number was still blocked but I tried anyway and dialled for him. Yup, it was still blocked; it went straight to voicemail. There's no use to send him text messages then. So I called my sisters to know the status of our father's condition. He hadn't woken up but they insisted for me not to come, suggested perhaps I could come at night so they could go home as we take turns to be there. Regardless, I showered and planned to go there, since it hurts too bad to stay home alone. Until I heard the familiar footsteps when I was walking ou
I receive a call from Emily about Dad waking up the moment I get into Augustine's car. The babies are leaving with Emma, who is apparently one of the nannies of our babies, not someone whom Augustine sleeps with. But yeah, I had a great time with my babies, even if it's a short three hours brunch. "So what's up with the names?" I ask him casually even though I'm burning inside. Turns out my baby boy is named Mason, not Austin as we agreed before. And Mimi? Yeah it's not short for Isabelle. Mimi is from Amelia. Fucking Augustine, always has a way to irritate me. And doing things behind my back. "Why did you change their name?" I ask again when he doesn't say anything to my previous question. "Why, Augustine? I wanna know why. Why?" He has high tolerance to my voice, because he doesn't say anything at all throughout the entire ride. I can't believe he would do this kinda thing to me. Hating me, sure. But to hide the fact that he does this without telling me, the mother of those b
"Ma-ma." Have I told you how annoyed I am every time I hear Isabelle calls Emma 'Ma-ma'? She won't call me Mummy, but she calls her Mama all the time. All. The. Time. And when Emma is busy with Austin, she would call Augustine because I'm the last person she wants to be with. There, I'm officially on the lower rank than the nanny, or the daddy. "Mimi, can you give Daddy the crab?" Augustine asks her daughter who's playing sand in front of us as his hand is wrapped around my waist. "Yes, that red crab. Come, baby," he removes his hand off me and holds them out towards Mimi who is crawling with the toy crab. "Do you want to try walking instead? Hmmm? Walk to Daddy?" He's been baiting her with all sorts of techniques to get her to practice walking. Because Austin, I mean Mason, has successfully walked on his own yesterday when all of us were gathering at the living area after dinner. I feel so lucky to be able to see the first time my son walks. And I'm grateful they have a fathe
We were missing almost three hours, and by the time we go downstairs, everybody is already sitting in the dining area. "Finally, the honeymooners are gracing us with their presence." William teases as Maddy laughs out loud. The girls look at their mom, shaking their head then proceed with their meals. "Well, well." That's all he says with a huge grin on his face. He kisses Mason who is wrestling with his chicken and later moves to Mimi, currently playing with her corn and peas. "Have a seat, Sweetheart," the actor is back, when he slides the chair for me. I smile as to play my part, "Thank you Hubby." "You're most welcome." He kisses me briefly on the mouth, perhaps considering the kids are joining us at the table. If it's just us and Maddy or William, he sure does more than that.Because two hours later after bathtime, followed by bedtime story, we tuck the kids to bed and proceed with our romantic dinner-for-two. That is Maddy and William next to the beach while Augustine and I
I have a history of backing my words when it comes to her. Doesn't matter how hard I try, even after an achievement, I come tumbling down to her feet once she's in front of me. I'm weak when it comes to Yvette Tanner. I thought I was making progress, that I was finally being the strong man I thought I was, when I managed to eliminate her from my life for ten months. I won't lie, that ten months was another definition of hell to me, way worse than the break ups we've had. Or the lying. Because she left on her own choice, even after all the things we have between us, even after two babies. Succumbing to my desire at the beach house, that was an epic failure. The first time I kissed her when we were at the airport, I couldn't help but to feel so overwhelmed by how much I miss her. And after that, I couldn't take my hands off her, which I took advantage of the whole situation. We were making out all the time at the beach, I didn't even care if my sister and William were there. She's