Secret

Shasha looked at the pile of old paper on her lap. Paper that from its appearance can be guessed that this paper has been stored for a very long time. Right at the right corner of the paper, the letters S and W.

She never thought, now she will see this paper again. The paper that she collects every time she helps her neighbor who opened a recycled paper business in high school. Due to her family's poor economy, she decided to look for additional money.

She even once arranged these papers into a book. Although, she lost her book on her high school graduation day. And who would have thought, that paper and book landed in Alliando's hands.

"Ah, besides being a bully, he was also a thief."

She grimaced.

"A thief that I can't understand his way of thinking."

Her memory immediately drifted back to the conversation she had with Hans earlier.

"All of sir Alliando's inheritance is handed over to Miss Shasha, including this house. Sir Alliando let you to do anything with your inheritance. It's just that, he hopes, you will not sell this house."

Hans said calmly, showing a list of assets that Alliando left for Shasha.

Her eyes, which were originally staring at Hans with a curious gaze, now widened in surprise. Suddenly she doubted her ears ability to hear.

Ah, she must have heard wrong. Or, Hans might be pranking her. Quickly, she began to look left and right, trying to make sure that no hidden camera was filming her secretly.

"If you think I'm joking, then I will be happy to ask you to forget that thought."

Hans showed off a sweet smile, complete with two dimples on his face.

"But why? Shouldn't the inheritance be handed over to the family?"

Asked her, completely unaffected by Hans's smile.

Hans who heard her question still smiled sweetly,

"For sir Alliando, Miss is the only family he has."

He said.

"Are you being funny?"

Shasha's eyebrows shot up high. Somehow Hans's words just made her offended.

Alliando thinks of her as family? Seriously!

"Ah,"

Hans snapped his fingers, reached into a paper bag that was lying next to him,

"The reason why sir Alliando left all his possessions to Miss Hana is here. I was not given permission to open the box at all."

Said Hans, take out a key from the paper bag and hand it over to Shasha.

He then clapped his hands, followed by the appearance of a female servant carrying a wooden box with an ancient design.

"If you want to know the answer, you only need to open this box."

And Hans's words are what keep Shasha still up now. Even though the clock showed three o'clock in the morning.

"Open it, miss, then you will know what is going on."

The smile full of meaning that Hans gave before letting her go flashed in her mind again.

What Hans said was true, if she wanted to know the facts, then she had to open the box and read what was written on the papers and books left by Alliando.

Taking a deep breath, she gathered her resolve, grabbed the pile of paper that was neatly tied up. She pulled out the top sheet of paper and began to read its contents.

(To Shasha ...

Congratulations! You suddenly became a billionaire, hehe. Are you shocked ?, please calm down, I still have a thousand secrets that will make you even more shocked)

Shasha read the first part of the sentence with furrowed brows. Shocked? Is there anything more surprising than being an heir in one night? Getting lots of properties and money deposits that even the zero numbers make her heads dizzy?.

(Before knowing the other shocking thing, I hope you pray first, so that your heart is still healthy after you know everything. I don't want anything bad to happen to you and make

and make you leave the world like me. If you dare to leave, I will kick you and force you back into the world, hehe)

Shasha furrowed her brows, flipping through the paper with a look of disbelief. Since when has Alliando been this relaxed with her?. As far as she could remember, Alliando had always been harsh and cynical towards her.

And that night, she spend her time to read everything without being able to fall asleep for a second.

***

"Morning Sha ... Oh Gosh !!!!. What's happen to you, Sha?, are you Shasha or not?!"

Shasha rolled her eyes when she heard the hysterical screams of Nami, her housemate.

She ignored Nami's screams and walked straight towards the dispenser, pouring water to moisten her dry throat.

"Sha?"

Nami suddenly cupped her face,

"Could it be, you were being bullied at work?"

Nami's question made she choke on water that had not actually entered her throat.

"Uhh, drink slowly, Sha"

Nami scolded her, grabbed a tissue and started wiping her mouth. Again, she could only roll her eyes, letting Nami do whatever she pleases. She is too lazy to stop Nami and explain anything. Her energy was completely at zero after staying up all night and crying all night.

Yes, she is crying..

Maybe that's also the reason why Nami got hysterical when she saw her appearance. Who is not surprised when you see your housemate come down from the room with swollen and bright red eyes? In fact, Nami thought that what was in front of her was not Shasha, but a virgin ghost that resembled Shasha's face.

"Are you okay, Sha?"

Shasha looked at Nami's face who looked very worried. She then held Nami's hand and shook her head slowly,

"I'm going to tell you, Mi. But not now."

Said Shasha, smiling softly before dragging her steps back into the room.

Meanwhile, Nami, could only look at Shasha's back, which was walking unsteadily, as if all the energy from her body had been sucked away.

What's wrong with her?.

As Nami remembers, yesterday morning She still looked very ordinary. Even though after that Nami didn't see her until this morning, because she was working late at the office and just came home.

She furrowed her brows and rubbed her chin, trying to remember what Shasha did yesterday.

"Ah!"

She murmured snapping her fingers.

She remembered. Shasha said yesterday that she was going to the funeral of someone she met in high school. Could it be that she was sad because of that person?.

But it seems impossible, because when talking about that person funeral, Her expression is very flat. As if she was talking about something insignificant.

Sad...

Hahaha, Nami laughed inwardly, waving her hand quickly to brush off the idea that had suddenly appeared in her head. That Shasha actually felt sad because of that person totally a bulshit.

"Ayee, impossible, impossible."

She muttered, shrugging her shoulders and then begin preparing breakfast which she would take to Shasha's room.

Of course it's impossible. How could Shasha feel sad over the death of that person!. As someone who has lived with Hana for a long time, Nami knows very well who the person Shasha came to at his funeral yesterday.

That man was Alliando Evans, a popular student who was liked by almost everyone. Almost, because there is one person who doesn't like that guy. And that person is Shasha.

Not only did she dislike him, even Shasha really hated Alliando. Because he is someone who has contributed to making Shasha's high school life completely hell. As well as forming Shasha's cold and closed personality like now.

The first time she met Shasha when they both attended a campus gathering. The only person who was completely disinterested throughout the event, just sitting in her place without bothering to mingle with the others.

At first she was not at all interested in Shasha. She only glanced at a glance, before finally returned to busy with 'her association'. Because she is included in the popular student category.

Outgoing, smart and also beautiful. Not to mention that her family background cannot be underestimated, making Nami become the center of attention. And she doesn't mind all that.

As long as the love and attention of others is poured out on her, she doesn't mind going with their paths, smiling and being friendly as if she were a goddess.

Until, finally an incident that occurred after the gathering changed Nami's mindset. That night, she is framed by a group of people whom she initially considered to be friends.

They force-fed her an unknown drug, knocked her unconscious and almost became a victim of sexual harassment. Fortunately, at that time Shasha saw their actions.

Even though Nami was too weak to realize what was happening around her, she could vaguely see Shasha's calm attitude when beating those damned men before dragging Nami out.

Since then, Nami has been determined to make Shasha her friend. Ah, no, to be more precise, Nami is determined to be Shasha's friend. Friend who can bring back the bright light in Shasha's dim eyes.

And after living with Shasha, she finds out that Shasha is a very caring person, although hidden behind her indifference.

"Sha."

Nami knocked on Shasha's door. Sighed when her sobbing sound came from inside the room.

Ah, shit!

Nami really hates times like this. The times she couldn't help Shasha at all. In contrast to Shasha who can help her at any time.

Her hands that were ready to knock on the door again hung in the air. With a heavy sigh, she finally decided to put the food tray in front of the door.

She then put her face on the door as she said softly,

"Sha, you know, from the billions of people on this earth, I have promised to be the most loyal ally and will always be on your side,"

"So, when you're ready, I'll be happy to hear whatever you have to say."

No answer, only Shasha's sobs were getting louder and louder, making Nami sigh again. She was eventually forced to back off, choosing to wait for Shasha to come out and tell her.

"Don't forget to eat, Sha. I'll put it at the door, okay?"

She said again, before finally walking to the sofa and starting to sit with her legs crossed.

***

Shasha hugged her knees tightly. She knew Nami must be very worried about her. However, she wasn't ready to leave the room and tell Nami everything.

Her head is too full. In fact, she was worried that her head would soon burst. All the secret sequences that Alliando had revealed almost caused her to have a heart attack in shock.

Shock, anger, sadness, hurt, and at the same time ... disappointed. Yes, she felt disappointed, not at Alliando, but with herself.

She felt disappointed with herself, who could not clearly see what was in front of her. And sadly, she only found out about the fact that she had been ignoring all this time after that figure no longer breathed the same air as her.

"So ... Stupid,"

She sobbed softly, crumples up the last letter in her hands.

(I love you very much, Sha. Really, I am even willing to sacrifice everything I have just to spend time with you. I really love you, not sincere love that feels happy just by seeing you happy. But selfish love that wants to be together. I want to be with you, Sha. I want to be the man who delivers breakfast to your bed on holidays because you're too lazy to get up. I want to be the man who dries your hair when you rush to wash your hair in the sink. I want to be a man who can kiss your forehead and hold you tight when you're frustrated. I want to be that guy Han, I hate imagining someone else doing it!!)

Shasha hugged her knees again. Damn, if only she could enter the realm of the dead, she would definitely grab Alliando by the collar and force the man back into the world and explain what it all meant.

After years of deep hatred for Alliando, knowing this sad and painful fact was too cruel.

Ah, but isn't Alliando already cruel? Even when she can comfortably live in her hatred for him, he just reveals something that undermines her stance.

(I love you Sha, love you so much ...)

"Stupid."

Shasha sobbed again. Letting her tears continue to roll down her cheeks until finally, she fell asleep.

***

Alliando Evans, a man with a strange name who becomes the idol of all students at Santika High School. With a height of about 185 centimeters, athletic, handsome and smart, Alliando is the center of attention.

Everyone who runs into him will turn their heads twice to admire his handsome face. The teachers believed his words. Including his remark that no one really bullies Shasha.

Yes, Shasha is a student who has always been an easy target for bullies since she first moved to high school. Her life, which was sad at first, became increasingly sad. In fact, she also chose to change schools because she wanted to get rid of the bullies at her old school.

Shasha Walters, a plain girl and completely unattractive. Not to mention that she is often nervous, clumsy and has poor communication skills. And of course, there are many other points that make them bother Shasha a lot.

She thought that she could escape the bullying after changing schools. But, in fact, the bullying that she received was a million times worse. Luckily she still has a mother who really loves her. Makes she feel stronger against everything.

Although, a few months before she graduated from high school, her mother died in a mysterious accident, leaving her alone on this earth. And in the letter that Alliando gave, she just found out the facts behind her mother's death. Also the fact behind all of Alliando's attitude towards her.

The fact that her mother was not a gentle woman with an entirely angelic heart. The fact that her mother was the cause of the destruction of his parents household, and the reason behind his mother suicide...