ALVIRA’S POV“Hi sweets. Miss me?” Oh my goodness, how I have missed hearing his voice and looking at his face. He looked so ethereal. Like a heavenly being standing there and just leaning against my door frame and just looking down at me. It felt like all my worries had instantly vanished into thin air with a great deal of shock taking its place as I stood there, dumbfounded, staring up at him. He was here! In the flesh. He was finally here. I could not believe it. It had only been three days but I could swear it felt like eons had passed when I saw him, standing there in all his glory. He chuckled and I could swear I swooned. Sweet baby Jesus! I had missed him so dearly. I had missed staring at his face, his oh so beautiful face. His eyes which were the darkest shade of grey, his eyebrows that were curved to perfection and gave women a run for their money, his lips which had just the right amount of plump and his Cupid’s bow that shot at my heart every single time. “Carter? How
ALVIRA’S POVLife was definitely not beginning to look up. It has been a week since Carter finally returned and all I can say is that I have been walking on eggshells ever since around him. I really can not say how we got here but it has just been from one issue to the other. It was either I looked too shabby or I looked too slutty or I smiled at the random man who commented on my outfit in public or that I spoke to the cash register too long or my food was too bland or too spicy or just something in general to make it look like I was doing something wrong. It all started the morning after he had come to stay over at my house. He had been sleeping when I woke up and decided to call the hospital to check up on Clarissa. I had, of course, walked out of the room so he could sleep more while I made the call. I was out of the room and walked over to the small balcony at the back just where the kitchen was. I had been talking on the phone with ‘Rissa and things had been going fine. She
ALVIRA’S POV“What do you mean he just up and left?” Rissa queried from the other end of the line. Her voice sounded weak but it was obvious that she was pissed. “I don’t even know what to do about it. I just stood there, most certainly looking like a moron as I remained glued to the ground, watching him walk out the door. It happened in what felt like seconds and for the life of me, my mind could not comprehend what and how it happened?” I explained. I was on the floor, stressed, eating like a hundred types of chocolate and candy and drowning in cups of milk. It had been over a day since the incident with Carter and I was still lost as to how to go about it. I had tried to call the hospital to speak to Rissa about it but they had explained that she was on mandatory rest. I had sucked it up that day and kind of just gone through my evening in a daze, everything happening in a blur as I moved around the house, my mind in a far off land as my body maneuvered its way around the hous
ALVIRA’S POVI must say, it was definitely a good idea for me to just leave the house and take a walk down to the park and I am entirely grateful for having Clarissa in my life. I could not even begin to imagine what I would have done or what could have happened if I did not have her around to talk to at my lowest. I probably would have been deep in gallons of milk as well as endless amounts of candies and chocolate bars, drowning in my misery and sadness. It was still looming in my mind, the feeling of being left alone and the uncertainty of what was going to happen to our relationship. How had we gone from being a happy couple who enjoyed each other’s company and loved each other to being distant from one another and going for days without talking to the other? I walked down to the ice cream truck, the familiar view helping to ease my worries. There was a line at the truck and I stood at the very end of the line, taking in the scenery and just enjoying the view of the garden. I r
ALVIRA’S POVMorning came by rather quickly. I had barely gotten back home last night before I crashed on the sofa and blacked out, the exhaustion and stress of everything finally getting to me. Today was the day I had silently been dreading.Thankfully, Clarissa had been cleared for natural bed rest and had been removed from induced sleep. Thankfully also, she was recovering very well. At the rate that they were going, she would be home in about two weeks if she could go on with no more complications and honestly, I was already tired of all these complications. I really hoped that this time, she could finally come home.Now that the day had come, I was freaking out. It was like the little bubble I was hiding in had finally popped and it was now time to face the reality of my life. I grudgingly stood up, shooting a quick text to Rissa to let her know I was finally awake and explaining that I blacked out as soon as my head hit the sheets. I thought about the last fight Carter and I ha
ALVIRA’S POV“C- Carter?”“What the hell are you doing here? Williams, who the hell let her in?” I could barely move my eyes. I could not believe my eyes. What was going on? How? When? Why? No, this has got to be a dream. Yes, that was the only way to explain this situation. I was dreaming. This was nothing but a bad dream and I was going to wake up any moment from now. I pinched myself over and over to try to wake up from the dream, the pain shooting up my leg telling me that this was not a dream but reality. “I don’t know sir, I did not hear the bell ring or anything so she must have let herself in. I only met her on my way up and I tried to stop her. I am very sorry sir.” I heard Williams mutter from behind me but I could barely move my head. My eyes were stuck on the view in front of me. How could he do this to me? To us? After everything we have been through. What did I do to deserve this? Tears welled up in my eyes, blurring my vision as I remained rooted in my spot. “How?
ALVIRA’S POVMy world was spinning. Nothing made sense to me. How was I supposed to take in the fact that my boyfriend had not really been my boyfriend, but instead, it was I who was the pawn he had used in this twisted game between him and his father?“So, everything, every single day was a lie. Every conversation, every time we hung out, every word you said to me, every single time I opened up to you, you mean to tell me that none of that, not even one, meant anything to you?” I asked. It was a surprise to me how steady my voice was when on the inside, I could feel myself dying. Every fiber of my being, every nerve ending, every single part of me was crumbling right now. I could not believe that this was happening right now. This had to be some sick joke. I ran a hand through my hair frantically pacing around the living room. Carter cackled, his laugh so evil and twisted. I paused in my steps and turned to look at him. He looked so different. Like he was possessed. This was defini
ALVIRA’S POVI walked out.I did not stop. I just kept walking. My mind was numb. My eyes were empty from having cried all through and right now, there were no more tears left to cry. I just kept walking. I walked out of the penthouse, hearing the sound of giggles from the ladies but not caring to turn back to see what was going on. I had seen and heard enough. I walked into the elevator and just stared ahead of me, seeing nothing in front of me as I waited to get out. Soon, the doors opened and I walked out of the elevator, my legs on autopilot as they carried me out of the building. I vaguely heard the doorman greeting me as I walked by but I was numb to even fake a smile and respond to him. I walked past the security and out of the gate, my legs turning left and moving back the same direction I had come in. It was a gated estate so unless you had a car, you had to walk all the way to the gate. So I walked. I walked all the way down to the gate which was about eight miles but t
ALVIRA’S POVUgh, my head hurt so bad. It felt like a thousand trains had run through my head at the same time. I felt so paralyzed and weak. I tried to move my body but realized that it hurt to even think. I took a deep breath, willing myself to finally open my eyes. Why did my eyelids feel like they were made of lead? I tried to open them, the pain in my body excruciating. What happened? Why did it feel like I was being confined to a bed?My throat was so dry. It felt like someone had run a million sandpapers on it. I definitely did not like this feeling. My toes also felt numb and cold. I tried to wiggle them but felt the same disappointment as it did not work. You can do this, Alvira. Come on. I took another deep breath and slowly willed my eyelids to open, cracking them open slightly only to shut them back, groaning. Why was it so bright? I tried to raise my hands to block the light but I could not. “Hey! Oh thank goodness you are finally awake.” A voice said, very faintly.
ALVIRA’S POV“Hey, sweets.”I turned. It was the man of my dreams, his smile was still enough to make me weak in the knees. “Carter! Oh! How I have missed you.” I said, running over to his arms. “Where have you been? I have missed you.” I said into his chest. “Please do not ever leave me alone again. I can not endure that.” I pleaded, holding him tight. “Just take a look at how pathetic you look, you disgust me with your weakness and timidity.” I raised my head, horror coating my face as I stared at the face of the one man I had ever loved. His smile was gone, now replaced by a look of utter disdain. “Carter…” “Do not ‘Carter’ me. I have always known you to be a weak little thing and never having the balls to stand up for yourself. Of course, you would run over to this place just to hide. You have always been so pathetic and it is so appalling to watch you. I mean, have you no shame?” He sneered. “Carter, please. Just tell me what you want me to do and I promise to be that for y
ALVIRA’S POVThis place was quiet and calm, just how I liked it. For the first time ever, I was finally at rest. I could finally rest. With no barriers, nothing stopping me, no one to worry about me. I could finally take a break. I look around me and realize that once again, I am left alone. However, this time feels different. It feels somewhat peaceful. Like I can finally breathe. I find myself back in the park, just by the lake. The cool evening breeze hits my brain, and I take a deep inhale. This feels so good. It is all I have ever needed and at this moment, my only wish was that I could remain in this place forever. I watch as the breeze sets a small wave over the lake, the soft sound from them clashing against the shore mixed with the whistle of the leaves on the trees overlooking the lake.I take a seat on the bench by the shore, taking in another deep breath. This felt better than great. I took in another deep breath, I could get used to this. The sun was setting and I sat
ALVIRA’S POVI walked out.I did not stop. I just kept walking. My mind was numb. My eyes were empty from having cried all through and right now, there were no more tears left to cry. I just kept walking. I walked out of the penthouse, hearing the sound of giggles from the ladies but not caring to turn back to see what was going on. I had seen and heard enough. I walked into the elevator and just stared ahead of me, seeing nothing in front of me as I waited to get out. Soon, the doors opened and I walked out of the elevator, my legs on autopilot as they carried me out of the building. I vaguely heard the doorman greeting me as I walked by but I was numb to even fake a smile and respond to him. I walked past the security and out of the gate, my legs turning left and moving back the same direction I had come in. It was a gated estate so unless you had a car, you had to walk all the way to the gate. So I walked. I walked all the way down to the gate which was about eight miles but t
ALVIRA’S POVMy world was spinning. Nothing made sense to me. How was I supposed to take in the fact that my boyfriend had not really been my boyfriend, but instead, it was I who was the pawn he had used in this twisted game between him and his father?“So, everything, every single day was a lie. Every conversation, every time we hung out, every word you said to me, every single time I opened up to you, you mean to tell me that none of that, not even one, meant anything to you?” I asked. It was a surprise to me how steady my voice was when on the inside, I could feel myself dying. Every fiber of my being, every nerve ending, every single part of me was crumbling right now. I could not believe that this was happening right now. This had to be some sick joke. I ran a hand through my hair frantically pacing around the living room. Carter cackled, his laugh so evil and twisted. I paused in my steps and turned to look at him. He looked so different. Like he was possessed. This was defini
ALVIRA’S POV“C- Carter?”“What the hell are you doing here? Williams, who the hell let her in?” I could barely move my eyes. I could not believe my eyes. What was going on? How? When? Why? No, this has got to be a dream. Yes, that was the only way to explain this situation. I was dreaming. This was nothing but a bad dream and I was going to wake up any moment from now. I pinched myself over and over to try to wake up from the dream, the pain shooting up my leg telling me that this was not a dream but reality. “I don’t know sir, I did not hear the bell ring or anything so she must have let herself in. I only met her on my way up and I tried to stop her. I am very sorry sir.” I heard Williams mutter from behind me but I could barely move my head. My eyes were stuck on the view in front of me. How could he do this to me? To us? After everything we have been through. What did I do to deserve this? Tears welled up in my eyes, blurring my vision as I remained rooted in my spot. “How?
ALVIRA’S POVMorning came by rather quickly. I had barely gotten back home last night before I crashed on the sofa and blacked out, the exhaustion and stress of everything finally getting to me. Today was the day I had silently been dreading.Thankfully, Clarissa had been cleared for natural bed rest and had been removed from induced sleep. Thankfully also, she was recovering very well. At the rate that they were going, she would be home in about two weeks if she could go on with no more complications and honestly, I was already tired of all these complications. I really hoped that this time, she could finally come home.Now that the day had come, I was freaking out. It was like the little bubble I was hiding in had finally popped and it was now time to face the reality of my life. I grudgingly stood up, shooting a quick text to Rissa to let her know I was finally awake and explaining that I blacked out as soon as my head hit the sheets. I thought about the last fight Carter and I ha
ALVIRA’S POVI must say, it was definitely a good idea for me to just leave the house and take a walk down to the park and I am entirely grateful for having Clarissa in my life. I could not even begin to imagine what I would have done or what could have happened if I did not have her around to talk to at my lowest. I probably would have been deep in gallons of milk as well as endless amounts of candies and chocolate bars, drowning in my misery and sadness. It was still looming in my mind, the feeling of being left alone and the uncertainty of what was going to happen to our relationship. How had we gone from being a happy couple who enjoyed each other’s company and loved each other to being distant from one another and going for days without talking to the other? I walked down to the ice cream truck, the familiar view helping to ease my worries. There was a line at the truck and I stood at the very end of the line, taking in the scenery and just enjoying the view of the garden. I r
ALVIRA’S POV“What do you mean he just up and left?” Rissa queried from the other end of the line. Her voice sounded weak but it was obvious that she was pissed. “I don’t even know what to do about it. I just stood there, most certainly looking like a moron as I remained glued to the ground, watching him walk out the door. It happened in what felt like seconds and for the life of me, my mind could not comprehend what and how it happened?” I explained. I was on the floor, stressed, eating like a hundred types of chocolate and candy and drowning in cups of milk. It had been over a day since the incident with Carter and I was still lost as to how to go about it. I had tried to call the hospital to speak to Rissa about it but they had explained that she was on mandatory rest. I had sucked it up that day and kind of just gone through my evening in a daze, everything happening in a blur as I moved around the house, my mind in a far off land as my body maneuvered its way around the hous