ALVIRA's povI never comprehended how rapidly someone could infiltrate every aspect of your existence, weaving themselves into your every thought, emotion, and pulse. Carter did that to me, and to this day, I can not determine if it was magic or madness. Whether by his side or not, his influence dominated every moment, immersing me in a realm I had never envisioned. Despite the excitement, there was a subtle sense of unease present. It was an unspoken heaviness that felt like a looming storm.The initial indication of that stress appeared on a peaceful evening stroll. We had recently departed from a charming small eatery, the type that seemed secluded, secure. Carter and I strolled next to each other down a street bordered by trees, his hand occasionally brushing against mine. He appeared deeply engrossed in his thoughts, his typical calm attitude now replaced by a sense of restraint, as if he was concealing a feeling unique to him.Suddenly, he inquired, "Have you ever pondered on
CARTER's pov It was always there, her, Alvira, in my head, occupying my thoughts. She always slipped in without my knowledge, staying longer than I had expected. But I pushed the thoughts of that away, telling myself that it was because I was on a mission with her that was why I was always thinking of her. Her green eyes, innocent and expressive, bothered me. I remembered how I felt everything I looked into those eyes. They were always innocent, like a window into something pure, and something that would soon be broken. The uncertainty drew me in, there was the thrill of watching as she broke bit by bit in my hands, on her knees at my mercy, completely used. Somehow, that stirred something deep and unexpected within me. As our last meeting played in my mind, I reached for my coffee. I took a sip of the dark bitter liquid as my mind wandered to how she had quickly opened up to me, seeking comfort while contemplating whether to trust me or not. It was amusing that she thought that s
CARTER's PovSomeone clearing their throat caught my attention and my eyes darted over to see Collins, my personal assistant, standing rather awkwardly in front of the open door, looking at every single spot but at me. "Who granted you the permission to come into my office?" I asked him with a voice that was laced with irritation. "And what the fuck do you want Collins?" I emphasized with angry eyes.“Um, sir, your father, he might have placed a call to your private phone. He said he was not able to reach you and asked me to check up on you,” He started before I could cut him off. “Okay, and what else did he tell you to do?” I barked out harshly. The thought of my father always left a bitter taste in my mouth. It was always something sinister with him. “I think he may be on his way over because he said to let you know this so that you would ‘tidy up’”“Tidy up?” I questioned him with raised brows, “what the fuck does he mean by that?”“Um, I- I do not think that I know that sir. Bu
CARTER’S POV I watched her with hooded eyes, taking in the graceful way she sat on the chair. She had on a touch of makeup today and a glossy kind of lip color that made me think of wanting to kiss her pink soft lips. “I um… I just wanted to see you…… I kind of missed you that is all,” she said to me. I felt a jolt of excitement as well as something else that I could not place my fingers on. But I refused to dwell on it, settling for just a nonchalant smirk in return. It was rare for any woman to come over to see me just because they missed me. The rest of them only came if I had been the one to directly call them over for their services or whenever they actually felt bold enough to come over because they needed some money. All in all, coming to see me was a dare that most of them did not dare to take. Well, there was a first to everything and Alvira was definitely a first. And here she was, all because she wanted to see me. If it were any other girl, I would have ha
ALVIRA’S POVHe was too good to be true, I thought as I walked up to my shared apartment. He was the definition of everything I vowed to stay away from but then, there was this gentleness he possessed that made me want to both run as far away from him as possible but still want to run back to him and just be with him for the rest of my life. He provided me with so much safety and comfort that I could no longer see myself being that way with anyone else. It was like he was my knight in shining armor. No, he was more mysterious than a knight in shining armor. He was my dark knight. He was so dangerous and influential and dominant and he made me weak in the knees but then, he was so gentle with me, even when he used harsh words with me, it was like he was trying to toughen me up and a part of me liked it. It revealed in the feeling of being submissive to him. It was like I could just look at him and feel all my worries fade away. My mind went back to the day we first met at the stri
ALVIRA’S POVIt was well past midnight and Clarissa had fallen asleep halfway into the movie which was about two hours ago. I didn’t have the mind to wake her up when she looked so peaceful in her sleep. Her illness always left her weak and even the littlest activity left her breathless and so, she had to rest very often. I had no issue with this. If anything, I wouldn’t mind if she didn’t do anything and just rested. All I ever wanted was for her to get better.I had tried to sleep for hours and hours to no avail and I had ended up tossing and turning on my bed, my mind in a turmoil as it tried to win the fight it apparently had with my heart. I couldn’t help the fear in my heart of falling completely in love with Carter. Yes, I was already on the edge and I knew that he was going to be one of the main people in my life but for some reason, I still felt like I was still holding back from completely falling off the edge and completely letting myself go hoping he would catch me and n
ALVIRA’S POV“Yes, sweets?”“Um, I wanted to ask you something…..” I muttered, fiddling with the hem of my top as I looked down at the floor. He was not here but I could still feel the intensity of his stares and felt intimidated by it. It was like he could see right through me. Like he could see deep inside of me, into my heart and see my feelings and thoughts and secrets. “Sweets, you are going to have to be louder than that if you need me to actually hear what it is that you are saying. I can barely hear you. What did I say about speaking to myself?” He asked, his tone stern as though he was scolding a four year old child. “I- I -I’m sorry.” I murmured. I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I did not like being scolded. I know I should be stronger than this but sometimes, it’s just so hard to be strong. Besides, it’s Carter. I don’t know how to be strong around him. I always felt like a child around him. Safe. “What was that?” He asked, his tone still stern like a parent talking
ALVIRA’S povI stared blankly into space as I struggled to focus on the online class that I was currently participating in to no avail. My attempt was greatly futile. I sighed inaudibly as my mind kept drifting back to the last time that Carter and I hung out.I had been unable to sleep the entire night and he had come over to see me at my place. I had not even been expecting to see him.Apparently, he had had other plans other than just coming over for us to talk, plans that I knew but did not want to speak about.I remembered standing in front of my mirror, staring at myself while adjusting my hair for what felt like the hundredth time. I had spent the entire day thinking about my life and the one I was going to have with Carter, a man that I had met on my first night working as a waitress in a nightclub.He was no doubt charming and sweet. He always had a smile that made my stomach flutter with butterflies. But I knew that he was no ordinary man. He would also have a dark side to h
ALVIRA’S POVUgh, my head hurt so bad. It felt like a thousand trains had run through my head at the same time. I felt so paralyzed and weak. I tried to move my body but realized that it hurt to even think. I took a deep breath, willing myself to finally open my eyes. Why did my eyelids feel like they were made of lead? I tried to open them, the pain in my body excruciating. What happened? Why did it feel like I was being confined to a bed?My throat was so dry. It felt like someone had run a million sandpapers on it. I definitely did not like this feeling. My toes also felt numb and cold. I tried to wiggle them but felt the same disappointment as it did not work. You can do this, Alvira. Come on. I took another deep breath and slowly willed my eyelids to open, cracking them open slightly only to shut them back, groaning. Why was it so bright? I tried to raise my hands to block the light but I could not. “Hey! Oh thank goodness you are finally awake.” A voice said, very faintly.
ALVIRA’S POV“Hey, sweets.”I turned. It was the man of my dreams, his smile was still enough to make me weak in the knees. “Carter! Oh! How I have missed you.” I said, running over to his arms. “Where have you been? I have missed you.” I said into his chest. “Please do not ever leave me alone again. I can not endure that.” I pleaded, holding him tight. “Just take a look at how pathetic you look, you disgust me with your weakness and timidity.” I raised my head, horror coating my face as I stared at the face of the one man I had ever loved. His smile was gone, now replaced by a look of utter disdain. “Carter…” “Do not ‘Carter’ me. I have always known you to be a weak little thing and never having the balls to stand up for yourself. Of course, you would run over to this place just to hide. You have always been so pathetic and it is so appalling to watch you. I mean, have you no shame?” He sneered. “Carter, please. Just tell me what you want me to do and I promise to be that for y
ALVIRA’S POVThis place was quiet and calm, just how I liked it. For the first time ever, I was finally at rest. I could finally rest. With no barriers, nothing stopping me, no one to worry about me. I could finally take a break. I look around me and realize that once again, I am left alone. However, this time feels different. It feels somewhat peaceful. Like I can finally breathe. I find myself back in the park, just by the lake. The cool evening breeze hits my brain, and I take a deep inhale. This feels so good. It is all I have ever needed and at this moment, my only wish was that I could remain in this place forever. I watch as the breeze sets a small wave over the lake, the soft sound from them clashing against the shore mixed with the whistle of the leaves on the trees overlooking the lake.I take a seat on the bench by the shore, taking in another deep breath. This felt better than great. I took in another deep breath, I could get used to this. The sun was setting and I sat
ALVIRA’S POVI walked out.I did not stop. I just kept walking. My mind was numb. My eyes were empty from having cried all through and right now, there were no more tears left to cry. I just kept walking. I walked out of the penthouse, hearing the sound of giggles from the ladies but not caring to turn back to see what was going on. I had seen and heard enough. I walked into the elevator and just stared ahead of me, seeing nothing in front of me as I waited to get out. Soon, the doors opened and I walked out of the elevator, my legs on autopilot as they carried me out of the building. I vaguely heard the doorman greeting me as I walked by but I was numb to even fake a smile and respond to him. I walked past the security and out of the gate, my legs turning left and moving back the same direction I had come in. It was a gated estate so unless you had a car, you had to walk all the way to the gate. So I walked. I walked all the way down to the gate which was about eight miles but t
ALVIRA’S POVMy world was spinning. Nothing made sense to me. How was I supposed to take in the fact that my boyfriend had not really been my boyfriend, but instead, it was I who was the pawn he had used in this twisted game between him and his father?“So, everything, every single day was a lie. Every conversation, every time we hung out, every word you said to me, every single time I opened up to you, you mean to tell me that none of that, not even one, meant anything to you?” I asked. It was a surprise to me how steady my voice was when on the inside, I could feel myself dying. Every fiber of my being, every nerve ending, every single part of me was crumbling right now. I could not believe that this was happening right now. This had to be some sick joke. I ran a hand through my hair frantically pacing around the living room. Carter cackled, his laugh so evil and twisted. I paused in my steps and turned to look at him. He looked so different. Like he was possessed. This was defini
ALVIRA’S POV“C- Carter?”“What the hell are you doing here? Williams, who the hell let her in?” I could barely move my eyes. I could not believe my eyes. What was going on? How? When? Why? No, this has got to be a dream. Yes, that was the only way to explain this situation. I was dreaming. This was nothing but a bad dream and I was going to wake up any moment from now. I pinched myself over and over to try to wake up from the dream, the pain shooting up my leg telling me that this was not a dream but reality. “I don’t know sir, I did not hear the bell ring or anything so she must have let herself in. I only met her on my way up and I tried to stop her. I am very sorry sir.” I heard Williams mutter from behind me but I could barely move my head. My eyes were stuck on the view in front of me. How could he do this to me? To us? After everything we have been through. What did I do to deserve this? Tears welled up in my eyes, blurring my vision as I remained rooted in my spot. “How?
ALVIRA’S POVMorning came by rather quickly. I had barely gotten back home last night before I crashed on the sofa and blacked out, the exhaustion and stress of everything finally getting to me. Today was the day I had silently been dreading.Thankfully, Clarissa had been cleared for natural bed rest and had been removed from induced sleep. Thankfully also, she was recovering very well. At the rate that they were going, she would be home in about two weeks if she could go on with no more complications and honestly, I was already tired of all these complications. I really hoped that this time, she could finally come home.Now that the day had come, I was freaking out. It was like the little bubble I was hiding in had finally popped and it was now time to face the reality of my life. I grudgingly stood up, shooting a quick text to Rissa to let her know I was finally awake and explaining that I blacked out as soon as my head hit the sheets. I thought about the last fight Carter and I ha
ALVIRA’S POVI must say, it was definitely a good idea for me to just leave the house and take a walk down to the park and I am entirely grateful for having Clarissa in my life. I could not even begin to imagine what I would have done or what could have happened if I did not have her around to talk to at my lowest. I probably would have been deep in gallons of milk as well as endless amounts of candies and chocolate bars, drowning in my misery and sadness. It was still looming in my mind, the feeling of being left alone and the uncertainty of what was going to happen to our relationship. How had we gone from being a happy couple who enjoyed each other’s company and loved each other to being distant from one another and going for days without talking to the other? I walked down to the ice cream truck, the familiar view helping to ease my worries. There was a line at the truck and I stood at the very end of the line, taking in the scenery and just enjoying the view of the garden. I r
ALVIRA’S POV“What do you mean he just up and left?” Rissa queried from the other end of the line. Her voice sounded weak but it was obvious that she was pissed. “I don’t even know what to do about it. I just stood there, most certainly looking like a moron as I remained glued to the ground, watching him walk out the door. It happened in what felt like seconds and for the life of me, my mind could not comprehend what and how it happened?” I explained. I was on the floor, stressed, eating like a hundred types of chocolate and candy and drowning in cups of milk. It had been over a day since the incident with Carter and I was still lost as to how to go about it. I had tried to call the hospital to speak to Rissa about it but they had explained that she was on mandatory rest. I had sucked it up that day and kind of just gone through my evening in a daze, everything happening in a blur as I moved around the house, my mind in a far off land as my body maneuvered its way around the hous