CARTER’S POV
Getting to the club, I downed a shot of whiskey as I thought endlessly of my father’s word to me. Then all of a sudden, I noticed Alvira was no where to be found. For no reason, I became worried and began searching for her with a scattered gaze. "Where is the new stripper girl?” I asked one of the stripper lady in nude. "I don’t know who you speak of Mr. Carter,” she responded and with a disdain look, I permitted her to leave without a word to her. It’s rather stranger getting worried about a common stripper girl but something about her seem different. Was it her first time doing this job? Her lips tasted so innocent and without experience. All of these thoughts kept raging in my head. But then I remembered my father’s words to me. "Isn’t this a blessings in disguise?” I murmured silently, lost in my thoughts. I mean, my father had asked me to find an innocent, vulnerable girl, make her love me, and then break her heart brutally. Making little Alvira my lab rat in getting this done wouldn’t hurt at all. To think, I had been more than annoyed with him, I had even thought of striking out on my own, making my own millions. Silly me. Alvira is simply perfect for this. Not only was she beautiful, with the palest, milkiest skin I had ever seen, her large green eyes framed by dark lashes so long and black, I had thought they were false, but then as I looked closer, I saw they were not. And her lips – her lips tasted like the pure honey from a bee’s nectar. I could not wait to get to know her more, know her secrets, her weak points, and then use it against her. I was going to enjoy doing this. I remembered how she had instantly rejected one million dollars for a mere strip tease for Lucas. That was almost too good to be true. Her eyes had not even lit up in greed when he mentioned the amount, instead, she had turned down the offer on the spot. A part of me wanted to get to know her for myself. Where did this girl come from, and why was she working at a nightclub that had strippers if she was so innocent. Well. Only one way to find out. I brought out my phone, punched in my private investigators number. Within one hour, I had her full name, address, phone number, and even her former run-down home address – not that this her home was any better though. I also found out about her sick friend. Apparently, little Alvira thought she was going to make a few quick bucks working in my night club, dressed like that, and still manage to keep male hands off her tantalizing body. One thought nagged at my mind. If she needed money urgently for her friends treatment, why did she not quickly accept the money from Lucas? That would have been more than enough, I fact, it would have afforded her the luxury to quit at the spot. Was she really that damned innocent! Well, I was going to find out. How had Marvin Blane said these type of girls were chased again? With flowers and dates, and all such rubbish. I groaned. It was all so unnecessary to go through this much trouble to get a woman when I could have a hundred at my feet begging now if I wanted to. Little Alvira was going to pay for all the trouble it would take to get her. She had not known real tears yet. Soon, I’d make her wish she had never been born. The next day, I waited till around nine O clock, then I dialed her number. “Good morning sunshine. Did you sleep well?” She did a sharp intake of breath, then when she replied, her voice was tiny and uncertain. "How did you get my number?” "You gave it to me remember? I’m Carter. You were at my club last night.” She had not given me her number, I had gotten it from my PA, but I couldn’t pass up an opportunity to mess with her brain. I could already sense the increased uncertainty in her hesitation. "I just called to apologize for kissing you without asking for your permission first. I’m I forgiven?” I continued immediately, not allowing her to speak. Her voice was shy and hesitant when she replied. “Yes Carter.” Damn! I liked the sound of my name from her lips, maybe a little too much. I imagined how she would sound calling out my name in throes of passion. “So if I send you flowers, you promise you wouldn’t throw them in the thrash?” She giggled, and I felt my gut clench at the sound of her laughter. Damn I was going to enjoy pounding this one to oblivion. “Of course I wouldn’t throw your flowers away silly. That would be a waste of flowers –“ then her voice sounded even more vulnerable when she added, “no one has ever given me flowers before.” I frowned slightly, surprised. This lovely sweet thing was out here, and no man had ever thought to give her flowers. “No one?” She was silent a little, then she sounded a bit defensive. “It’s not that I don’t like flowers or anything – it’s just no one has offered.” I nodded smiling. Little miss innocent was going to have a lot of firsts with me – then a thought occurred to me. “Alvira, have you ever been in a relationship before?” Her voice was small. “No.” I smiled. “Can I pick you up for a date today Alvira, if you don’t have any plans.” I already knew she didn’t have any plans. An even tinier voice. “Okay.” She was wearing a red spaghetti strap dress that showed off all her curves and milky skin. I felt my gut tighten. I wanted to take her right there on the top of our dinner table. I could easily pay off the restaurant manager if he had any aversion to that, but – something told me if I did that with this one, she would run outta here faster than I could say ‘jack.’ My patience was running thin. I smiled as I walked up to her, and taking her hand, I turned it inwards, and pressed a kiss to the inside of her wrist, and felt her jerk from the shock of the impact. Then I couldn’t resist. I pulled her to myself and claimed those sherry lips I had already missed so much. There was something so sweet about the inexperienced way she kissed, as if – a new thought occurred to me, and I pulled her away from me so I could look into her eyes. “Alvira, have you been kissed before?” She shook her head, then dropped her lashes so I couldn’t stare into those green eyes. "Answer me!” I demanded a little forcefully, then I hooked a finger and forced her to look at me. “Are you a virgin.” "Yes” "Yes to which question,” I demanded harshly. “Yes you have been kissed before now, or yes you are a virgin.” She did not answer, instead her eyes got shiny with unshed years as she tried to free herself from my hold. “I want to go home.” "No sweets,” I whispered harshly into her ear. “You do not want to go home. You want to stay here and enjoy this date with me, just as I want to enjoy it with you too.” I dragged her to me tightly, making sure her soft feminine curves felt the impact of my hard muscles. Ignoring her whimper, I took that mouth of hers with mine again, and tasted her. I tasted the fear, the excitement, the bottled up passion, the uncertainty. Marvin Blane may not approve of my methods, but he was Marvin, I was Carter, and like it or not, the easiest way to get a girl to do anything you want was to treat her half way like a princess, then treat her like a whore. I had given this one a little too much princess treatment, it was time for her to get a tip of the whore treatment. I kissed a trail from her ear to the vulnerable pulse beating at her neck, and my hands went down to cup her butt, pulling her even closer to me. Then all of a sudden, I let go of her, stepping away so that the cool evenings Breeze would make her miss my warmth. I walked over to my sit and sat down. "Sit down Alvira.” I commanded, and watched with a smirk as she pulled out her own seat with shaky hands and sat down. “Good,” I said, noting her swollen lips. She was a fast learner. I liked that.ALVIRA'S POVI felt the slight shivers that racked my body begin to increase. I tried to stop my teeth from chattering together by biting down hard at my lower lip till I felt blood trickled down my lip.Tears filled my eyes. I was such a weirdo. Carter was all gentleness now, smiling at me, and asking polite little questions, but I could hardly answer him. No matter how much I tried to, my teeth could not just stop. He reached out a hand gently and took mine that was balled in a tight fist. "Alvira look at me,” he commanded, but there was a gentleness in his voice. Unwittingly, I found myself staring into his intimidating jet-black eyes."Do you want me to hold you?” He asked, and if the offer was unusual, the look in his eyes showed he knew what I needed, even before I needed it.Right now, I did need a hug badly, but I was afraid of how my body would react to his if I let him hold me again. I found myself nodding, against my better judgement.I expected Carter to get up, and w
CARTER’S POV I drew in a breath as I heard my phone ring, and my father’s name appear on the screen. I was surprised to notice I didn’t look forward to talking to him. As much as I hated my father, I had always enjoyed talking with him, his conversations proved challenging. I didn’t care to examine the reason why I did not want to speak with him today, but it probably had something to do with damaging the innocence that shone through a certain per of green eyes. It was easy, just too easy, and because of how easy it was, I felt something I had never felt before, guilt. "You’ve done some things I’m proud of Carter.” My father started as soon as I picked the call. In the past, I would have been thrilled to hear he was proud of me, but now, I was starting not to care. "You found just the right girl. What’s her name again – Alexa – Alina?” "Alvira.” I snapped, trying my best to figure out what my father was playing at before he struck his blow. I always failed at that. Somehow, M
ALVIRA's povI never comprehended how rapidly someone could infiltrate every aspect of your existence, weaving themselves into your every thought, emotion, and pulse. Carter did that to me, and to this day, I can not determine if it was magic or madness. Whether by his side or not, his influence dominated every moment, immersing me in a realm I had never envisioned. Despite the excitement, there was a subtle sense of unease present. It was an unspoken heaviness that felt like a looming storm.The initial indication of that stress appeared on a peaceful evening stroll. We had recently departed from a charming small eatery, the type that seemed secluded, secure. Carter and I strolled next to each other down a street bordered by trees, his hand occasionally brushing against mine. He appeared deeply engrossed in his thoughts, his typical calm attitude now replaced by a sense of restraint, as if he was concealing a feeling unique to him.Suddenly, he inquired, "Have you ever pondered on
CARTER's pov It was always there, her, Alvira, in my head, occupying my thoughts. She always slipped in without my knowledge, staying longer than I had expected. But I pushed the thoughts of that away, telling myself that it was because I was on a mission with her that was why I was always thinking of her. Her green eyes, innocent and expressive, bothered me. I remembered how I felt everything I looked into those eyes. They were always innocent, like a window into something pure, and something that would soon be broken. The uncertainty drew me in, there was the thrill of watching as she broke bit by bit in my hands, on her knees at my mercy, completely used. Somehow, that stirred something deep and unexpected within me. As our last meeting played in my mind, I reached for my coffee. I took a sip of the dark bitter liquid as my mind wandered to how she had quickly opened up to me, seeking comfort while contemplating whether to trust me or not. It was amusing that she thought that s
CARTER's PovSomeone clearing their throat caught my attention and my eyes darted over to see Collins, my personal assistant, standing rather awkwardly in front of the open door, looking at every single spot but at me. "Who granted you the permission to come into my office?" I asked him with a voice that was laced with irritation. "And what the fuck do you want Collins?" I emphasized with angry eyes.“Um, sir, your father, he might have placed a call to your private phone. He said he was not able to reach you and asked me to check up on you,” He started before I could cut him off. “Okay, and what else did he tell you to do?” I barked out harshly. The thought of my father always left a bitter taste in my mouth. It was always something sinister with him. “I think he may be on his way over because he said to let you know this so that you would ‘tidy up’”“Tidy up?” I questioned him with raised brows, “what the fuck does he mean by that?”“Um, I- I do not think that I know that sir. Bu
CARTER’S POV I watched her with hooded eyes, taking in the graceful way she sat on the chair. She had on a touch of makeup today and a glossy kind of lip color that made me think of wanting to kiss her pink soft lips. “I um… I just wanted to see you…… I kind of missed you that is all,” she said to me. I felt a jolt of excitement as well as something else that I could not place my fingers on. But I refused to dwell on it, settling for just a nonchalant smirk in return. It was rare for any woman to come over to see me just because they missed me. The rest of them only came if I had been the one to directly call them over for their services or whenever they actually felt bold enough to come over because they needed some money. All in all, coming to see me was a dare that most of them did not dare to take. Well, there was a first to everything and Alvira was definitely a first. And here she was, all because she wanted to see me. If it were any other girl, I would have ha
ALVIRA’S POVHe was too good to be true, I thought as I walked up to my shared apartment. He was the definition of everything I vowed to stay away from but then, there was this gentleness he possessed that made me want to both run as far away from him as possible but still want to run back to him and just be with him for the rest of my life. He provided me with so much safety and comfort that I could no longer see myself being that way with anyone else. It was like he was my knight in shining armor. No, he was more mysterious than a knight in shining armor. He was my dark knight. He was so dangerous and influential and dominant and he made me weak in the knees but then, he was so gentle with me, even when he used harsh words with me, it was like he was trying to toughen me up and a part of me liked it. It revealed in the feeling of being submissive to him. It was like I could just look at him and feel all my worries fade away. My mind went back to the day we first met at the stri
ALVIRA’S POVIt was well past midnight and Clarissa had fallen asleep halfway into the movie which was about two hours ago. I didn’t have the mind to wake her up when she looked so peaceful in her sleep. Her illness always left her weak and even the littlest activity left her breathless and so, she had to rest very often. I had no issue with this. If anything, I wouldn’t mind if she didn’t do anything and just rested. All I ever wanted was for her to get better.I had tried to sleep for hours and hours to no avail and I had ended up tossing and turning on my bed, my mind in a turmoil as it tried to win the fight it apparently had with my heart. I couldn’t help the fear in my heart of falling completely in love with Carter. Yes, I was already on the edge and I knew that he was going to be one of the main people in my life but for some reason, I still felt like I was still holding back from completely falling off the edge and completely letting myself go hoping he would catch me and n
ALVIRA’S POVUgh, my head hurt so bad. It felt like a thousand trains had run through my head at the same time. I felt so paralyzed and weak. I tried to move my body but realized that it hurt to even think. I took a deep breath, willing myself to finally open my eyes. Why did my eyelids feel like they were made of lead? I tried to open them, the pain in my body excruciating. What happened? Why did it feel like I was being confined to a bed?My throat was so dry. It felt like someone had run a million sandpapers on it. I definitely did not like this feeling. My toes also felt numb and cold. I tried to wiggle them but felt the same disappointment as it did not work. You can do this, Alvira. Come on. I took another deep breath and slowly willed my eyelids to open, cracking them open slightly only to shut them back, groaning. Why was it so bright? I tried to raise my hands to block the light but I could not. “Hey! Oh thank goodness you are finally awake.” A voice said, very faintly.
ALVIRA’S POV“Hey, sweets.”I turned. It was the man of my dreams, his smile was still enough to make me weak in the knees. “Carter! Oh! How I have missed you.” I said, running over to his arms. “Where have you been? I have missed you.” I said into his chest. “Please do not ever leave me alone again. I can not endure that.” I pleaded, holding him tight. “Just take a look at how pathetic you look, you disgust me with your weakness and timidity.” I raised my head, horror coating my face as I stared at the face of the one man I had ever loved. His smile was gone, now replaced by a look of utter disdain. “Carter…” “Do not ‘Carter’ me. I have always known you to be a weak little thing and never having the balls to stand up for yourself. Of course, you would run over to this place just to hide. You have always been so pathetic and it is so appalling to watch you. I mean, have you no shame?” He sneered. “Carter, please. Just tell me what you want me to do and I promise to be that for y
ALVIRA’S POVThis place was quiet and calm, just how I liked it. For the first time ever, I was finally at rest. I could finally rest. With no barriers, nothing stopping me, no one to worry about me. I could finally take a break. I look around me and realize that once again, I am left alone. However, this time feels different. It feels somewhat peaceful. Like I can finally breathe. I find myself back in the park, just by the lake. The cool evening breeze hits my brain, and I take a deep inhale. This feels so good. It is all I have ever needed and at this moment, my only wish was that I could remain in this place forever. I watch as the breeze sets a small wave over the lake, the soft sound from them clashing against the shore mixed with the whistle of the leaves on the trees overlooking the lake.I take a seat on the bench by the shore, taking in another deep breath. This felt better than great. I took in another deep breath, I could get used to this. The sun was setting and I sat
ALVIRA’S POVI walked out.I did not stop. I just kept walking. My mind was numb. My eyes were empty from having cried all through and right now, there were no more tears left to cry. I just kept walking. I walked out of the penthouse, hearing the sound of giggles from the ladies but not caring to turn back to see what was going on. I had seen and heard enough. I walked into the elevator and just stared ahead of me, seeing nothing in front of me as I waited to get out. Soon, the doors opened and I walked out of the elevator, my legs on autopilot as they carried me out of the building. I vaguely heard the doorman greeting me as I walked by but I was numb to even fake a smile and respond to him. I walked past the security and out of the gate, my legs turning left and moving back the same direction I had come in. It was a gated estate so unless you had a car, you had to walk all the way to the gate. So I walked. I walked all the way down to the gate which was about eight miles but t
ALVIRA’S POVMy world was spinning. Nothing made sense to me. How was I supposed to take in the fact that my boyfriend had not really been my boyfriend, but instead, it was I who was the pawn he had used in this twisted game between him and his father?“So, everything, every single day was a lie. Every conversation, every time we hung out, every word you said to me, every single time I opened up to you, you mean to tell me that none of that, not even one, meant anything to you?” I asked. It was a surprise to me how steady my voice was when on the inside, I could feel myself dying. Every fiber of my being, every nerve ending, every single part of me was crumbling right now. I could not believe that this was happening right now. This had to be some sick joke. I ran a hand through my hair frantically pacing around the living room. Carter cackled, his laugh so evil and twisted. I paused in my steps and turned to look at him. He looked so different. Like he was possessed. This was defini
ALVIRA’S POV“C- Carter?”“What the hell are you doing here? Williams, who the hell let her in?” I could barely move my eyes. I could not believe my eyes. What was going on? How? When? Why? No, this has got to be a dream. Yes, that was the only way to explain this situation. I was dreaming. This was nothing but a bad dream and I was going to wake up any moment from now. I pinched myself over and over to try to wake up from the dream, the pain shooting up my leg telling me that this was not a dream but reality. “I don’t know sir, I did not hear the bell ring or anything so she must have let herself in. I only met her on my way up and I tried to stop her. I am very sorry sir.” I heard Williams mutter from behind me but I could barely move my head. My eyes were stuck on the view in front of me. How could he do this to me? To us? After everything we have been through. What did I do to deserve this? Tears welled up in my eyes, blurring my vision as I remained rooted in my spot. “How?
ALVIRA’S POVMorning came by rather quickly. I had barely gotten back home last night before I crashed on the sofa and blacked out, the exhaustion and stress of everything finally getting to me. Today was the day I had silently been dreading.Thankfully, Clarissa had been cleared for natural bed rest and had been removed from induced sleep. Thankfully also, she was recovering very well. At the rate that they were going, she would be home in about two weeks if she could go on with no more complications and honestly, I was already tired of all these complications. I really hoped that this time, she could finally come home.Now that the day had come, I was freaking out. It was like the little bubble I was hiding in had finally popped and it was now time to face the reality of my life. I grudgingly stood up, shooting a quick text to Rissa to let her know I was finally awake and explaining that I blacked out as soon as my head hit the sheets. I thought about the last fight Carter and I ha
ALVIRA’S POVI must say, it was definitely a good idea for me to just leave the house and take a walk down to the park and I am entirely grateful for having Clarissa in my life. I could not even begin to imagine what I would have done or what could have happened if I did not have her around to talk to at my lowest. I probably would have been deep in gallons of milk as well as endless amounts of candies and chocolate bars, drowning in my misery and sadness. It was still looming in my mind, the feeling of being left alone and the uncertainty of what was going to happen to our relationship. How had we gone from being a happy couple who enjoyed each other’s company and loved each other to being distant from one another and going for days without talking to the other? I walked down to the ice cream truck, the familiar view helping to ease my worries. There was a line at the truck and I stood at the very end of the line, taking in the scenery and just enjoying the view of the garden. I r
ALVIRA’S POV“What do you mean he just up and left?” Rissa queried from the other end of the line. Her voice sounded weak but it was obvious that she was pissed. “I don’t even know what to do about it. I just stood there, most certainly looking like a moron as I remained glued to the ground, watching him walk out the door. It happened in what felt like seconds and for the life of me, my mind could not comprehend what and how it happened?” I explained. I was on the floor, stressed, eating like a hundred types of chocolate and candy and drowning in cups of milk. It had been over a day since the incident with Carter and I was still lost as to how to go about it. I had tried to call the hospital to speak to Rissa about it but they had explained that she was on mandatory rest. I had sucked it up that day and kind of just gone through my evening in a daze, everything happening in a blur as I moved around the house, my mind in a far off land as my body maneuvered its way around the hous