She was far from my gaze, talking to a few people and when I saw her, I forgot everything else. Myself too, nothing mattered when my eyes fell upon the one I yearned for.“I knew it.” Linda sighed but ignoring her a wide smile reached my lips.My heart raced against my chest as I rested my over it to indulge in the sensation to the core. I saw her and everything shattered the moment I did.“Snap out of it before you gain attention, Sir.” Linda called, snapping her fingers to drag me out from my perception but how can I allow it?When she was before me, then how could I stop what I was going through? I saw her, madness evoked. “Her eyes…” I breathed out, my smile vanishing when longer my eyes contemplated her features.“What about her eyes?” She asked, failing to grasp what I did.“They are empty. When she left they held a fire, a storm, they were desperate by emotions she cannot control and look at her now.” Returning a grimace, my heart clenched to find her yet far from her equanim
ANNALISE.He was the last person I wanted to see. That was why I didn’t want to come back here. Seeing him was no longer in my capabilities. I couldn’t bring myself to stare in those eyes that were waiting desperately for me to complete my promise. How can I do that to look in the eyes I agonized? “Why did you invite him?” I asked furiously in a whisper when me and Edmond were coming back.“Elise, we both know I admire Sir Vincent’s dedication towards his work and he has never mixed personal feelings with professional ones and I will do the same.” Edmond replied calmly, hoping to make me understand but for his ethics, I was going to lose my mind.“Look, I understand but it could be another party too. Why did you have to call him here?” I frowned, stopping in my tracks and turning to him with a glare.“Elise, I understand you are vexed but two years have passed. There is no way one would stand on a lost talk.” He held my shoulder but he had no idea.When he could stay on a five years
VINCENT.Why do you love running away from me, Annalise? Thinking sorrowfully, when she walked away from me, I knew having her next to me had become a long lost dream of mine. With a crushed heart, I went back to the party where I saw Edmond had begun to make a toast. Gaining everyone’s attention, he was grinning widely."Ladies and gentlemen. Thank you so much for coming. Your presence here in this auspicious moment means a lot."Sighing, I went to the bar, grabbing a drink for myself. Maintaining my posture, I tried to act calmly, taking a sip of my drink as I heard what he was saying."Now, I believe you all know the reason behind this party but the reason why I reached this point is unknown. There was someone for whom I took a leap of faith and I don’t regret it all. Look where I am, I am so grateful."My grip on the glass tightened with a clenched jaw. I poured all my efforts to make him stop but I failed. He refused to stay and went to her side.The side where I should have be
I was in my office. After their sweet announcement, they both left. And I lost control. After seeing her again, I couldn’t stop myself.“What are you going to do now?” Linda asked, noticing I was lost for the past few days. I couldn’t get her out of my mind. I was praying but what about my prayers? My desires? My anguish? I wanted to be bestowed with a moment of felicity too.Pondering what to do for a while and what I didn't want to do but having no option left, I was powerless before emotions.“Edmond sent us a business proposal right?” I began to ask slowly, curling my lips in a dark smirk.“Don’t tell me…” Her eyes widened, having a comprehensive idea of what I am planning to do.Chuckling huskily, I shook my head, “Let my old friend come back to the domain where it all started.” I knew for the sake of our partnership, Edmond had to come back here. He had to be here no matter what for our collective effort.I was not asking anything but to bring her back here. “Sir, please.” Li
ANNALISE.I have no idea what he was planning but I was praying he didn’t know his scant presence was doing to me. I thought I was ready to place everything behind and move forward in life.And now, I am not sure about anything anymore. Everything went into a blur the second my eyes fell upon his and all the cognitions I gathered began to scatter.I lost it all…We were in our apartment. We were on the couch, Edmond was using his phone, I was lost in my ponderings. The thoughts I was running away from began to chase me with rapid speed this time.“Baby, where do you want to hold the wedding?” Edmond asked, moving his hand and resting it on my shoulder. Increasing my perturbation by his question.My heart skipped a beat distressfully as I turned to him with a stressed look. “Edmond, I don’t want to pressure you. You complete this project here first, we can think about it back in Florida.” I rested my hand over his, speaking softly, praying he would understand. I knew I forced him to
VINCENT. Come to me. Even if it’s for breaking my heart. But, come. To earn a reprieve from my constant anguish, I was focused on my drink to run away from the thoughts hurting me constantly, sewing my breaths in an anguish I cannot recover from. And to augment my state, she also came to the same club and upon seeing her once, I lost my identity. “You know what they say?” My eyes widened when I looked over my shoulder and saw Edmond hovering over her, piercing my fragile soul. “Attaining after suffering provides you the sweetest taste.” He spoke seductively. And she fucking giggled and pinched his cheeks! When I saw them like this, I lost myself. I wanted to be where he was. I realized I cannot bear her with another man. “Whoever said it, was right.” “I made that up.” “Oh, you.” They laughed… ‘Why do you hurt me in a way I have never been hurt before?’ My grip tightened around my glass, eyes widened, gleaming with an ache that I was going through for a long time now
“Engaged another fucking man?!” Yelling in a whisper, I knew I scared her but I must share what she did to me openly.“Why did you do this to me? Why did you choose him over me? What does he have that I don't? Why can't you be mine?” Asking desperately, my hands had grabbed her completely to witness my despair.“Vincent, please try to understand that Edmond is a great guy, he loves me dearly... He-He is a dream guy.” What a pathetic stammer. It meant nothing. She gave the reason which was not nearly enough to convince me.“So what? I could do that too. I need you much more badly than he does. I love more deeply than he ever could. I could treat you a million times better. Why don’t you give me a chance too?” I insisted, clearing out the worthless excuse she gave and I had the answer to that sadly- She didn’t want to.If I was not there, it was because she didn't want me because my love hurts her.What a tragedy. “Vincent, please, understand.” She murmured.At a loss of words to co
ANNALISE. ‘Pray for me… please.’ How can I pray for you when I cannot pray for myself? Why do you nonetheless love me? Why do you die in my memories till today? Why yearn for a disloyal who cannot fulfill her swear? ‘How can you love someone like me?’ Please, don’t. I never deserved it, I am not worthy of something precious and delicate as this. My tainted presence doesn't deserve it. “Elise?” Closing my eyes, I was oblivious of everything around me as a tear rolled down my cheeks. You were afraid of me and I was afraid of them. I truly don’t deserve this privilege of being loved by you. ‘Don’t inebriate me so badly that I end up becoming a real heartbreaker…’ Hugging my knees closer to my chest, I remained motionless, lost in my thoughts until a voice called me loudly. “Elise!” “Huh?” Blinking, I flinched, looking up, only to find Edmond staring at me in bewilderment. “Yes? You were saying something?” I asked tentatively. Unintentionally, my voice came croaking due to t
5 YEARS LATER.I was setting the school bag of my four years old son, Jamie. He was messy just like his Father. Sighing, I was putting the lunch and placing the books properly.“Can I take Dahlia to school with me? Please, please, please?” Jamie called me excitedly, pointing at his Father and three months old sister who were sleeping on the couch in the hall.“No, you cannot.” I sighed, frowning at the pair and giving him his bag.“Look, Mama, Papa and Dahlia are sleeping on the couch.” He giggled, clinging onto my arm.Actually, Dahlia was not sleeping last night and Vincent said proudly that he could take better care and took her outside and look at them now.Half of his body was hanging from the couch, holding Dahlia.“Ah, him.” I giggled, shaking my hand after seeing how uncomfortable he must be.“What are they doing outside?” Jamie asked, tugging my sleeves.“Your Papa proudly accepted he could take better care of Dahlia and seems like he is stubborn in proving it.” I sighed, set
ANNALISE. I was carefully listening to his words, how his eyes were refusing to greet mine and it was aching me but he couldn’t see. He was not looking at me in the first place to notice the tears glistening in my eyes. “Come. Let’s end this pointless relationship.” And I lost my forbearance when he dared to speak what I cannot have imagined, releasing the tears I managed to suppress so far. And brimming with fury, I slapped him hard to knock some senses into his damn mind which astonished him to no extent. “How dare you call our marriage pointless?!” I whisper-yelled. Grabbing the collar of his shirt outrageously with tears scattered over my cheeks. “Annalise?” He called me hesitantly at my unforeseen action as I forced him to stare into my desperation, to witness my love and despair too. I wanted him to see my condition. “Do you have any idea how deeply I am in love with you? That I have given my all to our marriage?” I asked desperately, shaking him a little to hear m
After I mindlessly hit Edmond and lost myself, unable to control myself, the neighbors came and forced me to stop until the cops came and took me away.I was looking down the whole time, not moving an inch with an anguish stacking in my chest, I was heartbroken. I felt devastated for losing control and doing what I shouldn’t.Something is seriously wrong with me. Here, in the station, I was locked up and Annalise was talking to Edmond.“I am begging you, Edmond, please, don’t file a case against Vincent.” Their voices were faint but I could hear how my Annalise was begging Edmond to not send me to jail. Tears brimmed in my eyes as I kept staring at my hands out of woe. I didn’t want to hurt anyone. I didn’t want to make Annalise cry. This is not who I am, that is not who I should be.I am sorry, I am so sorry…“Edmond, please…” She continued to beg Edmond for her husband’s image. I had never been behind the bars in my entire life. I felt horrible, I was never like this and with
The next morning, I was in my bed, refusing to move an inch. My head was throbbing in pain. I couldn’t move my body, it was burning.It was because of the stress, whenever I worried too much, my body began to burn, my head began to hurt terribly and I didn’t know how to deal with this ordeal.For a while, I remained motionless, covering myself with the blanket until the tenderest hand of my angelic wife dragged the sheets down from me. “Vincent. Wake up.” She whispered softly.Removing the duvet and sitting next to me. “I don’t want to.” I groaned, turning to my side, hiding my face in the pillow, not in the mood to move. I had borne with this feverish feeling before when she was here, I wanted to display that I am in pain and stay with me.Before I was alone, I had no one to take care of him so no matter what state, I must go to work but I have a reason to stay.I won’t go today.“Why?” She called but I refused to listen to her. Glancing from my shoulder, I looked at her timidly,
VINCENT.The following week, limitless thoughts were roaming in my mind. I was tense, I was perturbed about what I should do that could save my marriage. I could feel it under my fingernails that things were on the verge of falling apart all because of my behavior and I was impotent to stop it.I failed to control, I failed to keep her happy. In fact, I made her cry after promising myself that I wouldn’t.I feel worthless. I feel terrible.It was Sunday, my soul was at solace to hold my love. We were spooning on the bed, I was holding her, her back pressed over my chest.“How are you feeling now?” I whispered, biting her earlobe when she woke up from her nap.Annalise was having a headache constantly so I massaged her head until she fell asleep and took a nap with her as well.“Better.” She hummed, relaxing in my arms, smiling tenderly.I hummed and shifted, sitting up slowly. Worried how to confront her about what I knew I must. I couldn’t lose my love with my own hand.I cannot mak
“YOU ARE A LIAR!” The sound of his thundering cries echoed in the room and they hurt me in a way I was unable to recover. The sound I unintentionally created. He covered his mouth, sobbing. And I couldn’t bear it, his sorrow was immeasurable and it made me guilty. Shutting my eyes, I screamed to release the shame gathered inside me.“I AM SORRY! I AM SORRY! I AM SORRY!” Crying my anguish out, I held the hem of my dress. My tears were flowing, he was not the only person whose heart was torn apart. The regret that was built inside me had already stolen my mental peace. I don’t want to hear from him that I am his culprit. I know I am.“I will apologize as many times as you want, Vincent but please don’t be away from me.” Crying, I came closer, tears rolled down my cheek. My body was deprived of strength, I accidentally stumbled on my steps but Vincent held my arms to refrain me from falling.“Be careful!” He gasped quickly to hold me. He couldn't watch me falling or getting hurt
“That I am going to steal you from this world and ensnare in a way, only ‘I’ would exist.” My breath hitched, my eyes widened in terror when I sensed Vincent’s dominant form before me, glaring down at my body which made my soul immobilized. “Vincent…?” Swallowing hard, I forced my weak orbs to look up at his assertive form. He rested his hand over the headrest and placed our heads adjacent.I shivered violently when the fumes emitting from him were felt by my skin. Unable to utter another sound, I knew he was furious. I gasped when his hand from the headrest moved across and rested over my shoulder, giving it a lethal grip which warned me not to do anything vacuous.“That you are going to become mine in an exquisite way that nobody would be able to stop me from possessing you.” “Vincent, please-”I was about to plead but he leaned down to my ears and growled seductively, burning my skin with his minty breath.“That you are going to become. All. Fucking. Mine.” I trembled, glanci
There were countless questions and thoughts roaming wildly in my mind, thoughts that I wanted to share with someone to find and know what was happening.He cannot keep an eye on my actions, that is not okay. I won’t let it.And I knew for it, I had to do what might outrage him but I must do it.Before Vincent could come looking for me, I wanted to seek answers so I called Edmond to meet me in a restaurant.I was anxiously waiting for him, my hands were freezing by the thought of Vincent’s fury. It was scaring me, It was stressing me out.“I didn’t expect you to call me here. What happened? Is your fairytale coming to an end?” Edmond came, smirking mockingly at me but I growled at him.“Shut up. I have called you here to know everything.” I hissed in a low tone. He chuckled and took a seat, arching one eyebrow.“Everything? I thought I was a liar and the bad guy here.” He taunted, leaning back on his seat.Inhaling deeply, I was not in the mood for argument so I came to the main conce
ANNALISE.After spending a memorable and unforgettable time alone, away from everything we returned back, back to our routine and I was feeling strange lately.I didn’t expect Vincent to get this furious because of my harmless prank. I was only kidding around but the way he got perturbed, that made me worried.I wanted him to improve but I agree it would take time. Vincent is attached to me, he couldn’t fathom losing me. I am all he has after all. He was like that all his life, of course that would take time for him to adjust, to settle. Marriage is a sacred and big responsibility, we need time.Vincent was humming to himself, his towel over his head as water dripped to his tempting exposed chest. He was about to leave to grab his white but I stopped him.“Love, I can get your white shirt.” I spoke sweetly, stopping him in his tracks, smiling sweetly.“No, no, it’s okay.” He chuckled nervously, stopping me.“Come on,” I whined, pushing him back playfully with a wink. I like doing sm