ANNALISE.
There are choices we make, some we are proud of and some which develop into a scar we have to carry eternally.
These are my choices; wrong or not, I don’t know.
Choices are irredeemable mistakes after all, leave the past and move on.
Then why do I feel that my gone years are going to destroy my future?
Let’s see where Vincent’s hatred would lead me…
“I should have known. What was I thinking? He is still an insensitive asshole.” I growled under my breath, trying not to cry after being humiliated.
Why would he agree to aid me in the first place despite the fact I am a perfect candidate for this position?
I was naive to return to his doorstep for a hand, not for my sake but my Mother.
He was in my mother’s debt, wasn't he?
After coming out of his enormous arena of power and authority with unwanted tears. Wiping them quickly, I hoped to divert my mind from his hurtful statement.
I rushed towards the stop noticing when the bus began to leave and I was late.
"Hey! Hey!"
Yelling, I sprinted, waving my hands for the driver to notice and open the gate for me.
"Open the door, please!" I shouted, calling him but the driver glanced at me and continued to drive.
"What the- Asshole!"
Shouting, I couldn’t believe he deliberately left me behind.
With a gaped mouth and dejected heart, my steps stumbled and I sat on the footpath.
Lowering my head, pulling my hair in distress, "How much worse this day could get?" Whispering, I shut my eyes as my lips began to quiver.
An unbearable clench went through my heart to recall the so-not-sweet memories I had with Vincent.
It wasn't a memorable tale but definitely an unforgettable one either.
Only if he had-
Leave it. None of it matters anymore.
Shaking my head with an empty stomach, I stayed at the bus station, grabbing a sandwich from the nearby Subway while waiting for the next bus.
Leaning back, I admired the streets of New York.
Later, my bus arrived thankfully and I finally left for home. I had been staying with my parents because of Mom's condition.
Papa was old, he can't do all the work on his own and I didn’t have a sibling I could count on.
Inhaling deeply, I mentally prepared myself to confront my parents to give them empty hopes.
"I am home!"
With a forced grin, I entered, closing the door behind me and hanging my coat, not letting them know what was going through my mind.
"Elise, Elise!" Papa came rushing with cheeriness and felicity I hadn't seen in him for a long time.
Oh yeah. No one but Vincent says my full name.
"What is it, Papa?" I asked softly, maintaining my smile.
"Oh, come! Come!"
He grinned, grabbing my wrist, forcing me to go along and I was simply perplexed by the amount of electrification he showed.
"But, what happened-"
My sentence stopped in the middle when he dragged me to Mom’s room and to amplify the sting in my chest, I saw Vincent there.
"Look who's here? Can you recognize him? Vincent! Our Vincent." Papa cheered, explaining why he was delighted.
‘You were never this happy to see me. What’s so special in him?’ I thought painfully.
Unable to meet eyes at Vincent who was acting professionally before my parents.
"I always knew he would turn into a handsome man."
Mom added, patting his shoulder to shower her blessing for him.
"Aren't I?" He whispered, smirking victoriously.
Setting his collar not before glancing coldly at me which halted my senses for a second by the intensity of his aura.
"I can't believe Vincent is here. You were going to meet him and didn't tell us? Thankfully, he came and told us you came."
Mom continued while I stood still, not a single reaction escaped my features.
"Yeah, I need a substitute for my P.A for six months and I firmly believe Annalise is perfect for it."
Vincent hummed with a charming smile, rising from his seat, unbuttoning his coat.
"Ah my."
Mom giggled, her face lifting in glee only by his presence.
"And as per our company's terms, we will also cover up for your treatment. Rest assured, you will be fine soon, Mrs White."
Vincent smiled professionally, stealing my parent’s heart by his words. Getting on their good side like always.
"Of course I will be! My son is here!"
My heart clenched when she placed more faith in him than her actual daughter. I tried to control myself and smiling feebly, I looked away.
"I.. will cook dinner…"
Murmuring, I walked away, rushing to my room, quickly changing my clothes and freshening up.
I was in the kitchen, cooking dinner for us until I heard the sound of his expensive shoes clicking against the floor reaching me steadily.
Tightening my grip on the knife in my hand, I closed my eyes, breathing out sorrowfully.
"Do you want to degrade me, Vincent?"
"It's ‘Sir’ for you."
I gasped when his hot breath reached my neck.
Facing him to confront those eyes burning in the fire of hatred for five years locked with him, glistening with all the negative emotions I probably deserve.
"You just threw me out of your massive empire." I whispered, pressing myself against the counter, swallowing hard when his large form hovered, enhancing my heartbeats.
"So what? You would come back to me anyways, you know why?"
He smirked darkly, placing his hand across, intimidating me by his very dominance which led him to whisper temptingly in my ear.
"Because you need my mercy."
My heart skipped a beat in dread after realizing the wickedness in his tone, worried for my future now.
"Are you going to take advantage of my state?" I asked timidly, my throat dried.
"I will, I shall indulge in each second of it."
He nodded, eyes scanning my fear with amusement, loving it.
"As revenge?" I asked, forcing to collide with his keen eyes observing my powerless form, trembling at our proximity.
"No."
Shoving his supremacy down my throat, his breath burned my skin, mostly in fright when he completed the sentence.
"As an enjoyment."
"Is that my worth? A measly miserable enjoyment." I asked, narrowing my eyes, hoping to find a glimpse of pity but to no avail.
"I was one too, yours. Time you play your part and switch roles."
He shrugged and I could feel it under my fingernail that what happened, much worse of it was about to come now.
He had sheltered this hatred for too long and I invited him to my doom by entering again.
"Don't do this, please. I am sorry that I came in the first place, I won't do it again. But leave us be."
I request politely, moving my hand in the middle to refrain him from coming closer.
"And disappoint your parents like you always do? Break their hopes? Leave your Mother to suffer?" He snickered, hitting where it hurts the most.
"Stop."
Whispering with widened, dejected eyes, I shook my head.
"Honestly, what will happen to them without me? They are unable to hold faith in you. You are useless, Annalise."
He continued, faking compassion by this mocking ‘tch, tch, tch’ sound.
"Vincent, Please, I am not useless. Stop."
I almost cried, moving him back but he held my wrist roughly, glaring at me with nothing but pure malevolence.
"Sir." He growled, turning his grip iron on my wrist, hovering to block my view.
"Sir, Please." I pleaded, which caused him to yank my wrist back.
Resting his hand in his pocket authoritatively, he took a step back, staring with blood-cold eyes, uncaring about my condition.
"Please don't steal the only relation I had left."
I begged, unable to fathom what he was planning to do under the label of revenge.
"This is just the beginning. Just watch."
Vincent hissed, pointing his index finger with contempt at me before walking away and leaving me all alone with my misery.
"I will rip your life apart in these six months, Annalise White."
I didn’t know what he was planning to do but I can ensure it would be something I wouldn’t be able to forget for the rest of my life. Just like our last meeting from five years ago. “Vincent? Where is he?” Papa asked, coming to me. “He left.” I whispered, leaning against the counter. “So early? Oh, he is a busy man after all. But it was great seeing him, wasn't it?” Papa grinned while saying this and I couldn’t tell him what his beloved was planning to do with me. I wonder who would they support then? “Hmm.” Humming, I turned away, pressing my teeth hardly against each other to control myself from restricting the emotions. “You go to Mom, The dinner will be ready soon.” I whispered. Inhaling deeply, holding the knife, wanting to kill someone or myself with it. “Okay.” Beaming, Papa left me alone in my miserable thoughts. Later at dinner, I remained silent while they continued to talk about the almighty Vincent, stinging my chest but choosing silence, I continued to e
I wish I could close my eyes and call all of it a nightmare but it wasn’t.It was my horrendous reality, the life I accepted and going to bear until these six months are over but on the other hand, I do deserve it and then again, it wasn't as intense or was it?Did I break him to the extent he is nothing but a piece of flesh desiring vengeance? A cold-hearted man willing to break all boundaries in order to etch misery in my soul? Is he truly going to break all ethics just to capture me in his domain?Seems like he would.After running away from his cabin, I rushed to mine.Pressing my palm against my chest to regain my senses. My cabin was right in the corner from his on the executive floor.My heart thumping uncontrollably, trying to neglect what just happened but my mind was unable to and I know one thing for sure.He is not the man I used to know.“Dammit, what should I do?” I muttered, pacing around while making an almost crying face, holding my waist until a voice interrupted m
Why am I angry with my own self after all those years? Oh Lord, where will this late realization be leading me? Shaking my head, I woke up in the morning. I had to be present at work before him and Linda told me he comes around nine so I had plenty of time to prepare. Taking a deep breath, I grabbed a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for work, checked up on Mom and Papa and left for her work. I was on the bus, looking at the busy streets of New York holding a strange vibrance but I was lost in another vintage. With mixed emotions I couldn’t express. Life has an eerie way of explaining itself. Some destroy their future by their past but is it worth it? “It’s a matter of yesterday. Life doesn’t stop for anyone.” Muttering under my breath, I shook my head and entered my opulent workplace. I greeted our receptionist Kylie and left straight for my cabin. “Is it just me or the atmosphere isn’t like yesterday?” I mumbled, noticing everyone who was literally talking and chilling at
With a blurry mind, I tried to focus on my work, hoping to forget what happened because this past week had been terrible for me. The way Vincent looked at me, it was enough to steal my breath. That sinful smirk, warning me that he would prey upon me without a warning at any time. His eyes were enough to induce dread in me. He toyed with me in those seven days with those menacing eyes and smirk. He was scaring me, I didn’t know how long I could bear this but the method of his punishment was so wrong. This is all wrong. “What happened?” A voice called me, looking up I saw Edmond, arching a brow at me. I was in the canteen, indulging in my sandwich during lunch hour with troublesome thoughts. “Nothing… just… tired.” I replied vaguely, looking away, unsure whether I should share my condition with him or not. “That is exactly why you need to relax.” He smirked, coming closer, taking a seat next to me. “How?” I asked, tilting my head in confusion. “We are going to a club toni
“One must say, extent of a deep desire, hmm?” A deep husky voice reached my ears, etching a shiver down my spine, drying my throat when his voice tried to seduce me.“Sir?” Edmond asked in confusion while I didn't dare to speak a word against him nor resist the power of his words.“Ah, Edmond, Jacey is looking for you.” He said and I was vexed to no extent. He was lying, I could feel it behind the mask of his dark smirk.'No, Please don't leave me alone with him.'“She is? Okay, I will be back.” Edmond flashed his usual kind smile and walked away, leaving us alone, freezing my body to be in his vicinity. My heart skipped a beat, increasing my breaths, frightened by his very presence when I felt his malevolent gaze locked with my face.“Flirting too much, don’t you think so?” His displeased resonance came.Gulping hard, I tried to move away but he grabbed my waist firmly, refraining my movements.“Don’t you dare to move." He growled, restricting my movements.Pressing my teeth tog
“Vincent is my fiancé!”He proved it, those who didn’t have a prayer in their hearts. How will they raise their hands?He had become disloyal. Prayer had gone far from his reach. “Vincent is my ‘the one’.” She declared. Unwillingly, my heart clenched upon hearing they were engaged and he didn’t care about anything before advancing upon me.Falling lower in my eyes than he already has. ‘Is that low you have fallen that you were going to discard your sincere bond too?’Yet he remained stoic. How heartless could he be? Didn’t it mean anything?"Ah, Baby, you are the best. I can’t tell you how happy I am to see Elise!" She laughed, kissing Vincent’s cheeks before turning to me with a wide grin. She was exhilarated and I felt pity for her."Me too, it's been a while." I hummed, averting my gaze before returning an indirect glare in his direction but the atmosphere here concealed it."Just, he never mentioned he was engaged." I added, trying not to show my fury."Yeah, because we are
Coming back, I was staring out of the window of the bus. My mind was light-headed. Repeating unwanted memories on loop which only pricked my heart.‘Don’t you fucking dare to cross your path with mine again, Annalise.’Stop…‘I want you to love me the same way I love you, Annalise!’“Stop it, stop it, stop it.” Whispering under my breath, I shut my eyes, lowering my head, covering my face in my hand.Heavy breaths left my lips when memories I tend to leave behind long ago, memories I should have burned began to knock on my door to break me apart.“Get out of my mind. I am sorry, I am so sorry. Leave my mind, please.” A muffled voice escaped my lips, shutting my eyes, not wanting to open them and flush out sensations collecting in my chest.It has happened, it was all in the past.I keep telling myself this yet I couldn’t control it. I couldn’t control my thoughts, my emotions were slipping and I must stop it from creating another mess.I reached home and took a few deep breaths befo
I didn’t remember when I fell asleep last night. I was thinking until my thoughts exhausted me and abysmal darkness took over me. When I returned to work on Monday, I could feel a fire of rage brimming in my chest. Questions whose answers only he could provide.We were in his cabin, I delivered him a file but didn’t leave and continued to glare at him.Noticing my expression, he called coldly, "What?" "You are insensitive." I growled, which deepened his frown."Watch your tongue, Annalise." He warned, closing the file, giving me a chance to repent by apologizing."How could you do this? When you were engaged to Victoria then why did you target me for revenge?" I asked in a low growl. Arching one brow at my visage, he rose from his seat."So what if I am engaged?" Asserting his dominance, he walked towards me which purloined the strength in my legs."Not that I have an affair with you… unless ‘you’ want one." He began to say huskily, stopping right in front of me. Hand in his poc
5 YEARS LATER.I was setting the school bag of my four years old son, Jamie. He was messy just like his Father. Sighing, I was putting the lunch and placing the books properly.“Can I take Dahlia to school with me? Please, please, please?” Jamie called me excitedly, pointing at his Father and three months old sister who were sleeping on the couch in the hall.“No, you cannot.” I sighed, frowning at the pair and giving him his bag.“Look, Mama, Papa and Dahlia are sleeping on the couch.” He giggled, clinging onto my arm.Actually, Dahlia was not sleeping last night and Vincent said proudly that he could take better care and took her outside and look at them now.Half of his body was hanging from the couch, holding Dahlia.“Ah, him.” I giggled, shaking my hand after seeing how uncomfortable he must be.“What are they doing outside?” Jamie asked, tugging my sleeves.“Your Papa proudly accepted he could take better care of Dahlia and seems like he is stubborn in proving it.” I sighed, set
ANNALISE. I was carefully listening to his words, how his eyes were refusing to greet mine and it was aching me but he couldn’t see. He was not looking at me in the first place to notice the tears glistening in my eyes. “Come. Let’s end this pointless relationship.” And I lost my forbearance when he dared to speak what I cannot have imagined, releasing the tears I managed to suppress so far. And brimming with fury, I slapped him hard to knock some senses into his damn mind which astonished him to no extent. “How dare you call our marriage pointless?!” I whisper-yelled. Grabbing the collar of his shirt outrageously with tears scattered over my cheeks. “Annalise?” He called me hesitantly at my unforeseen action as I forced him to stare into my desperation, to witness my love and despair too. I wanted him to see my condition. “Do you have any idea how deeply I am in love with you? That I have given my all to our marriage?” I asked desperately, shaking him a little to hear m
After I mindlessly hit Edmond and lost myself, unable to control myself, the neighbors came and forced me to stop until the cops came and took me away.I was looking down the whole time, not moving an inch with an anguish stacking in my chest, I was heartbroken. I felt devastated for losing control and doing what I shouldn’t.Something is seriously wrong with me. Here, in the station, I was locked up and Annalise was talking to Edmond.“I am begging you, Edmond, please, don’t file a case against Vincent.” Their voices were faint but I could hear how my Annalise was begging Edmond to not send me to jail. Tears brimmed in my eyes as I kept staring at my hands out of woe. I didn’t want to hurt anyone. I didn’t want to make Annalise cry. This is not who I am, that is not who I should be.I am sorry, I am so sorry…“Edmond, please…” She continued to beg Edmond for her husband’s image. I had never been behind the bars in my entire life. I felt horrible, I was never like this and with
The next morning, I was in my bed, refusing to move an inch. My head was throbbing in pain. I couldn’t move my body, it was burning.It was because of the stress, whenever I worried too much, my body began to burn, my head began to hurt terribly and I didn’t know how to deal with this ordeal.For a while, I remained motionless, covering myself with the blanket until the tenderest hand of my angelic wife dragged the sheets down from me. “Vincent. Wake up.” She whispered softly.Removing the duvet and sitting next to me. “I don’t want to.” I groaned, turning to my side, hiding my face in the pillow, not in the mood to move. I had borne with this feverish feeling before when she was here, I wanted to display that I am in pain and stay with me.Before I was alone, I had no one to take care of him so no matter what state, I must go to work but I have a reason to stay.I won’t go today.“Why?” She called but I refused to listen to her. Glancing from my shoulder, I looked at her timidly,
VINCENT.The following week, limitless thoughts were roaming in my mind. I was tense, I was perturbed about what I should do that could save my marriage. I could feel it under my fingernails that things were on the verge of falling apart all because of my behavior and I was impotent to stop it.I failed to control, I failed to keep her happy. In fact, I made her cry after promising myself that I wouldn’t.I feel worthless. I feel terrible.It was Sunday, my soul was at solace to hold my love. We were spooning on the bed, I was holding her, her back pressed over my chest.“How are you feeling now?” I whispered, biting her earlobe when she woke up from her nap.Annalise was having a headache constantly so I massaged her head until she fell asleep and took a nap with her as well.“Better.” She hummed, relaxing in my arms, smiling tenderly.I hummed and shifted, sitting up slowly. Worried how to confront her about what I knew I must. I couldn’t lose my love with my own hand.I cannot mak
“YOU ARE A LIAR!” The sound of his thundering cries echoed in the room and they hurt me in a way I was unable to recover. The sound I unintentionally created. He covered his mouth, sobbing. And I couldn’t bear it, his sorrow was immeasurable and it made me guilty. Shutting my eyes, I screamed to release the shame gathered inside me.“I AM SORRY! I AM SORRY! I AM SORRY!” Crying my anguish out, I held the hem of my dress. My tears were flowing, he was not the only person whose heart was torn apart. The regret that was built inside me had already stolen my mental peace. I don’t want to hear from him that I am his culprit. I know I am.“I will apologize as many times as you want, Vincent but please don’t be away from me.” Crying, I came closer, tears rolled down my cheek. My body was deprived of strength, I accidentally stumbled on my steps but Vincent held my arms to refrain me from falling.“Be careful!” He gasped quickly to hold me. He couldn't watch me falling or getting hurt
“That I am going to steal you from this world and ensnare in a way, only ‘I’ would exist.” My breath hitched, my eyes widened in terror when I sensed Vincent’s dominant form before me, glaring down at my body which made my soul immobilized. “Vincent…?” Swallowing hard, I forced my weak orbs to look up at his assertive form. He rested his hand over the headrest and placed our heads adjacent.I shivered violently when the fumes emitting from him were felt by my skin. Unable to utter another sound, I knew he was furious. I gasped when his hand from the headrest moved across and rested over my shoulder, giving it a lethal grip which warned me not to do anything vacuous.“That you are going to become mine in an exquisite way that nobody would be able to stop me from possessing you.” “Vincent, please-”I was about to plead but he leaned down to my ears and growled seductively, burning my skin with his minty breath.“That you are going to become. All. Fucking. Mine.” I trembled, glanci
There were countless questions and thoughts roaming wildly in my mind, thoughts that I wanted to share with someone to find and know what was happening.He cannot keep an eye on my actions, that is not okay. I won’t let it.And I knew for it, I had to do what might outrage him but I must do it.Before Vincent could come looking for me, I wanted to seek answers so I called Edmond to meet me in a restaurant.I was anxiously waiting for him, my hands were freezing by the thought of Vincent’s fury. It was scaring me, It was stressing me out.“I didn’t expect you to call me here. What happened? Is your fairytale coming to an end?” Edmond came, smirking mockingly at me but I growled at him.“Shut up. I have called you here to know everything.” I hissed in a low tone. He chuckled and took a seat, arching one eyebrow.“Everything? I thought I was a liar and the bad guy here.” He taunted, leaning back on his seat.Inhaling deeply, I was not in the mood for argument so I came to the main conce
ANNALISE.After spending a memorable and unforgettable time alone, away from everything we returned back, back to our routine and I was feeling strange lately.I didn’t expect Vincent to get this furious because of my harmless prank. I was only kidding around but the way he got perturbed, that made me worried.I wanted him to improve but I agree it would take time. Vincent is attached to me, he couldn’t fathom losing me. I am all he has after all. He was like that all his life, of course that would take time for him to adjust, to settle. Marriage is a sacred and big responsibility, we need time.Vincent was humming to himself, his towel over his head as water dripped to his tempting exposed chest. He was about to leave to grab his white but I stopped him.“Love, I can get your white shirt.” I spoke sweetly, stopping him in his tracks, smiling sweetly.“No, no, it’s okay.” He chuckled nervously, stopping me.“Come on,” I whined, pushing him back playfully with a wink. I like doing sm