All Alone

Erica

I spent the next day immersed in projects just to keep myself from thinking too much about my family situation or about Matt. Neither were a healthy place for me to be, so I ignored everything but the pile of to-do's sitting on my desk. I had a standing dinner with my best friend Lanie every Thursday night, and though I really didn't feel like having anyone at the house, it wasn't fair to cancel. She needed to hang out with me as much as I needed to see her.

After driving through the empty streets near my high-rise condo, I parked the car and walked up to my apartment, wondering what other people who had a life, a family, a spouse were up to. They were most likely sitting down to dinner, or cooking with the ones they loved and laughing about the events of the day.

By the time I reached my condo, my heart hurt. How long was I going to hold myself out in hopes that the right guy would come along? It almost felt like any guy was better than the right guy, but it was my loneliness t