BenWednesday finally rolled around. I had made the most of the days in between while I counted down to see Mila again. I had gone to the station to see the guys. I had worked as a firefighter – my dream job – for only a few short weeks after Uncle Dean had bought the company from me to give me my freedom. But then he had passed away. I had built wonderful friendships, but I’d had to quit. They had all wished me well except Tyler. I had gone to school with him back in the day, and he’d been hostile.When I had gone to see them, Tyler had been distant and switched off, polite but nothing more. I had been upset until Sam, one of the other firefighters and the worst cook that ever walked the face of the earth, told me that Tyler became very attached to people and hadn’t taken my departure very well.I felt bad that I had done it to him, but he wasn’t the only person I had left behind.I had spent time with other friends and family members, too. But I was mainly back in Portland for Mila,
Ben“I’m glad you’re handling your uncle’s death so well,” Mila finally said after I told her about Penny, Uncle Dean’s widow, and how I was worried about her. She wasn’t dealing with his death nearly as well as I had hoped she would. I was worried that she would lose the will to carry on.“When someone dies, there are two ways to handle it,” I said. “Especially if they were close to you. You can lie down and die, too. Or you can pick yourself up and move forward. Give your life meaning, even.”“That’s a good way to look at it,” Mila said. “It’s so easy to give up, but we owe it to ourselves to keep fighting.”“Exactly,” I said. It made me feel amazing that Mila and I were on the same page about big things like this. We were very different in some ways, but in other ways, we were exactly the same.I thought about the investigation that was pending now that Uncle Dean’s death turned out to be exactly the same as that of my father. I wanted to share it with Mila. It was a big deal, some
MilaBen drove me home. We were quiet in the car, but it was an amicable silence. Everything that had gone wrong before seemed to be okay, now. Ben was back, and he had told me, almost in so many words, that he was in love with me. That he hadn’t said the exact words was okay.The atmosphere was thick in the car, and I was aware of him next to me. I wanted to be with him. It hadn’t changed since the last time we had been together when we had almost fucked. But this time, it was different. We weren’t trying to fight what was happening. In fact, we were both going with it.Even if we were keeping it a secret.When Ben parked in front of my apartment building, I looked at him.“Do you want to come inside?” I asked. It was forward, but I didn’t want him to leave. I didn’t want this amazing night to end, didn’t want him to turn around and leave when I had finally gotten him back.“Yeah,” he said. His voice was a little rough around the edges as if he had the same thing on his mind as I did
MilaBen dropped to his knees in front of me and unzipped my jeans, pulling them down along with my panties. I was riddled with lust as I lifted one leg after the other, letting him strip the jeans and underwear down and pull them off. I stood before him naked, trembling with anticipation. Ben ran his fingers over my pussy lips, and I widened my legs, giving him access.“You’re so wet,” he said.“I really want you.”Ben didn’t answer. Instead, he pushed his fingers into me, and I cried out. At the same time, he closed his mouth over my clit, making me shudder. He started sucking my clit, and it was better than anything I could ever have imagined.The first orgasm shattered me, and I cried out as my body tightened and pleasure washed over me in waves. I sagged against the wall when it was over, and Ben stood up, his mouth glistening with my sex, an arrogant grin on his face. He knew he was good.“Follow me,” I said, stepping around him and walking to my bedroom on jelly legs. Ben follo
BenOn Thursday morning, it took me a few seconds to figure out where I was. It wasn’t the ceiling of my penthouse in New York or the ceiling of my old room in my mom’s house. A hotel?Mila stirred next to me, and I remembered where I was. I had stayed over at Mila’s place after I had fucked her.Oh. My. God. I had been around, but I had never had sex that good. And she had been a fucking virgin. I still wasn’t sure how that had happened. Mila was everything a man could want. I had assumed she had been with at least a few of them. Even though she was single and committed to her job. Mila was beautiful and smart, and she could have any man she set her heart on.I was honored that I was the one she had chosen. I didn’t feel guilty at all. I felt satisfied. In every way.This had been a long time coming. I’d wanted Mila since I’d sold the company and come back home. And now, finally, I’d had her.A pang of guilt shot into my chest when I thought about the conversation we’d had at dinner.
Ben“I didn’t mean to get drunk at all. But you know how it goes.”“Yeah. Tequila hits you from left field, and before you know it, your balance is fucked, and you swipe your card again and again, thinking more alcohol will fix it.” Jerrod chuckled. “At least you’re back and having fun.”The same guilt I had felt earlier twisted my stomach in a knot. I couldn’t tell Jerrod I was leaving soon. Not with Mila here. I was lying to Jerrod about more than one thing. I was an awful friend.“I better get going before my mom calls the cops to look for me.”“Maybe she already did,” Jerrod said.I shook my head. “Where the hell is my shirt?” I asked, pretending I didn’t know.Jerrod pointed to it on the floor.“How did that happen?” I asked, trying to sound like it had been a blackout drunk night. I stood and walked to my shirt, picking it up and putting it on. I found my shoes, too. After I was dressed, I turned to Jerrod and Mila.“Thanks for forcing me to stay over. I think I would have pisse
MilaAfter Ben had left on Thursday, I’d showered and headed to work. My mind had been filled with Ben and everything we’d done. I was walking on air after we’d slept together.It had been so much better than anything I’d been able to do with my vibrator, and I felt like I was more of a woman now that I had lost my virginity. I reveled in the delicious feeling that washed over my body whenever I thought about Ben.I headed back to the hospital on Friday. My mind was on Ben again, but I thought about Jerrod and how he had nearly caught us. It had been a complete coincidence that Jerrod had decided to bring me donuts on the same morning Ben was naked in my bed, but shit happened sometimes.It hadn’t been the first time Jerrod had brought me donuts for breakfast to cheer me up after I’d had a rough time at the hospital. And he’d never had to worry about me having any company before.But it had been so close this time. I shuddered to think what would have happened if he’d figured out what
Mila“She looked like she was going to faint when I took her with me to clean Mr. Hendricks’s stitches.”They all laughed.“What do you think?” Claire asked me.“About what?” I sat down with them and opened my sandwich.“About Danielle, the new nurse. Have you met her?”I shook my head. I’d seen her around, but she had been shadowing the other nurses and seemed shy and unsure.“She’s so green. I’m sure she’ll cry if you look at her wrong,” someone said.“We’re placing bets on how long she’ll last.”My mouth dropped. “That’s a bit rude, isn’t it? We all started somewhere.”“It takes a lot to do this, you know that Mila,” Claire said. “Not everyone has what it takes.”I couldn’t disagree with that, but we had all learned how to cope with the horrors we saw here every day. If this new nurse had a passion for helping people, she would make it through.Suddenly, I wondered if nurses had bet on whether I would survive as well. I had started in the ICU ward in the same way. It was a hard pla