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Adam's POV"I just gave my brother a panic attack," Alex says as she shakes in my arms. I look at the open office door and then back at her. "Cupcake, calm down. Let me go see." I say as I brush the hair off her face as she holds onto my arm. "Chloe is with him, I came out to grab him some water." I took a look around making sure there was no one coming. Perhaps it was a good idea Sasha made his office space so private, then again learning that he is seemingly having panic attacks could very well also be the reason for keeping people away from him. "Get him the water, and dont worry. Everything is going to be alright." She looked lost in space and time consumed by worry, that is why I had to go check up on him first and make him get a grip on reality. "Yeah, yes. I'll go do that." Alex lets go of my hand and hurries to get the water as I rush to the office.What I see when I come in is definitely not what I expected. Sasha and Chloe were kissing. Down on the floor, lips puckered, h
I wait for Alex to close the door before I sit down at the table with Sasha as he sips on his water. "Alright, Sasha. It's time for you to get some things off your chest. Where do you want to start?" I ask him. "What? Are you going to be my psychiatrist?" Sasha asks as he puts the tie around his neck again. "That's what best friends are for, so we can talk about things we can't share with anyone else. The chosen family." I chose Sasha to be my brother a long time ago, yet I have to admit that for some time now I wasn't exactly here for him. I can't blame him for not talking when I wasn't here to listen. "I wouldn't know where to start at this point." He admits as if he was hiding some shameful thing. "Why dont you tell me what triggered your panic attack just now, maybe then I would be able to understand better.""Alex... for some reason, out of nowhere... she told me she loves me." Sasha talks slowly as if he fears the panic attack will return. "She is your sister, why would you
"I wish I could take things so simple..." Sasha says fearfully. "But this thing with Chloe... I've made her life a living hell for so long that admitting my feelings for her now would feel like I am making a joke out of her." I can see what he means but I have a hunch that opening his heart would only bring him good things, she is one of those good things. "Then why would she kiss you... or let you kiss her, I didn't get the specifics." I say as I wave my hand in the air as I try to piece pieces together. "She only did it to help me calm down, I'm sure it didn't mean anything," Sasha says as he tries so hard to throw that idea into the garbage. "Sasha dont jump to conclusions. Talk to her for the love of God... Promise me you will try." I really hope he does."If you help me with Alex, then I promise..." He has a hard time trying to figure out what he is about to commit to. "I promise I will work on turning my life around. Just talk to Alex, and make her see there is no use in telli
As soon as I close the door to my office I take Alex into my arms and kiss her hard while pressing her body tightly against mine. Being away from her even for a few hours feels like torture, the thought of not being able to touch her when we are in the same room drives me crazy. "I won't be able to hide this for long," I say under my breath before kissing her again. "Adam, please... you heard what Sasha said about us, and with what just happened I dont think it's the right time..." I want to say that I understand, a part of me thought I did. "Cupcake, do you really think Sasha wouldn't be able to get over it or are you the one not sure about our relationship?" I ask Alex and she takes a few steps away from me. "So you dont have faith in us?" I add to the question."Adam, I more than anyone want this to work. It's been my absolute dream for a long time. And I am happy, more than ever before." I know she means it, I can see it on her face yet I sense a but coming. "But I dont think
"How many candles is too much?" I asked myself as I took a look around the living room all the way to the dining area that was now illuminated by the warm candlelight while holding another candle in my hand trying to decide whether one more would make a difference. "One more won't hurt." Not at this point. "Popcourn is done, pizza hot and ready in the oven, wine chilled," And my favorite part... "cupcakes set on the table for dessert." I take a glance at my watch to see how much time I have until Alex arrives. Fifteen mintues is enough to go over everything one more time to ensure everything is perfect.I moved her art materials down the hall and threw many pillows on the floor. And even tho she has a pretty big television I managed to hang a white sheet over the wall and set up a small projector with a romantic movie set up waiting for her. There was a small bouquet of sunflowers on the counter that I adjusted to face her as she walked in when the oven beat and I went to take the
"You think she might cause problems?" I ask Alex as she shakes her head. "I dont think so. Not if her goal is to stay in the house once she moves in." Let's hope Richard gets a good grip on the situation before it gets out of control- "Enough about that, how was your day? I see you were busy." Alex says as she gently smiles before taking another sip. "It was horrible, I was missing you terribly." It's funny how one person can consume you entirely, passing through each and every thought you have. What is even more incredible is how suddenly they are your motor for going, you get that rush that just simply wasn't there before. "I'm very glad to hear that, I hope you miss me horribly every time I'm not there with you. So now you will get to feel what I felt every time I wasn't able to see you." It is still unbelievable to me she was able to keep silent about her feelings for so long. "At least let me in on the secret, how did you do it? How did you manage to control your feelings?" A
"A part of me was looking for something I wasn't able to find in the woman I was dating so I stopped for a while." And then as time went by I stopped looking altogether. "But did you... Do you know? Still have s*x, one-night stands?" Alex asks as she lifts herself up a little, pushing on my chest while sitting on my lap straddling me. "I'm not gonna lie to you, Cupcake. I did." I say and Alex takes her eyes off of me but I cup her chin with my hand and make her look at me. "But as you said there were only one-night stands, they didn't mean anything to me." They were simply a night to have a release, careless fun with no commitment. No one's feelings were hurt. "I get it. A man has needs right." A sentence that makes me wonder if there were ever other men who took care of her needs."What about you? You also didn't have a boyfriend in several years, but I imagine there were moments when you needed your needs to be satisfied." I ask as I run my hand down her neck as my fingure drops w
"Adam, I can't have kids." Out of all the things I could imagine this wasn't one of them."Why... What makes you say that?" My mind makes a few spins as Alex grabs her shirt from the floor and puts it on over her head."I've known this for years. Basically, I have endometriosis. It is a form of tissue that grows on my uterus and last time I went to get a check-up they told me it damaged my fallopian tubes... long story short pregnancy is not on the table for me." She says it like it is nothing but I can see from the way she holds her breath that this is not a topic she plans on discussing now."I'm sorry. Cupcake, I'm really sorry." Why was I apologizing so much?"This is not on you Adam. Calm down." Alex scoots over to put her underwear on but when she wants to stand up I stop her and bring her into my arms."Hey, I didn't mean to upset you." I worked so hard on this night to be perfect only to ruin it in a minute."You didn't. I just... I never told this to anyone before." "What?" I