Chapter 197 - Part 9 Alex&Adam

I try to breathe, to pull myself together... I can't go downstairs looking like a mess with red eyes, but the cold water does nothing but wash my mascara off. If only it had the same effect on the void growing inside my heart if only cold water could wash my sorrows away. One might say, "Be happy for him." but I am not that selfless, I take on the right to even hate him a little... hoping it would help take my feelings away. If only he wasn't such a good person.

"Alex, you have been in here for ages, just pick one painting already," Mom says as she barges into my room and I quickly close the bathroom door.

"I'm in the bathroom. I'll be downstair in a second, I promise." I say as I press my body against the door frame.

"Dont make me look bad in front of our guests." Yeah, I couldn't possibly want that. "Please hurry." She says and I wait until I hear the door close to let out a loud, exhausted breath of air that seemed to suffocate me.

I look back at my reflection in the mirror and c