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I want to talk!

Author: Fantasia Swan
last update Last Updated: 2024-01-30 14:53:09

Ethan's POV...

It was causing me immense pain to leave her like that. Seeing her crying and begging me to stay was very affecting. It pierced my heart seeing her like this. Her face, her voice and everything about her was impacting my departure. She was pleading me to stay, to cuddle her to sleep, but I knew if I stayed, I might fall harder for her and I won't be able to move out of our relationship.

If I stayed, it could be fatal. I didn’t want to get more deeper in her love, when I know, that the possibility of sinking is alot. It wasn't her fault that she don’t love me, love can't be forced. I didn't forced myself to love her. I just love her, there is not bindation, I love her freely and without fear.

But I also knew that there is no future of one-sided love, it is beautiful and doesn’t shared between two people. However, love is not valued unless it is accepted by your beloved. In my case, this is the cause of my downfall. I love her beyond my imagination and she hasn't even st
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