I was up at 4.30 this time and I decided to walk out again. I walked to the beach with my blue baggy shirt and a black short thats hidden in the shirt. I walked to the beach just enjoying the view.I looked around and if there is Ben here. Why am I wanting him here anyway? Let him be..I sit on the ground and waiting for the sunrise to come. Wanting to see it again and capture the moment."Waking up in the morning again?" Suddenly"Hey." I greeted Ben"And yeah." I answered his question, he just walked to me and sit beside me"Uhmm thankyou for yesterday." I said slowly and I looked at him"It still hurt?" He asked"Yeah." My mind was thinking about Nancy's and Tania's word. Is he jealous?"Good then." He stood up"Where are you going?" I asked"Go back""Can you stay here? I don't want to see the sunrise alone." I pouted and he chuckled"Wanting to be near your crush?" He teased and I smacked his arm playfully and I laughed"It's beautiful." I said not answering his question"It is."
"How can you keep something like that?" I asked him as we walked back"Buried myself with work, I work like a workaholic and my mom always worried about me because I never stop working even I'm not happy with it." He said and I looked at his hand and my hand interwhined together."Ben" I stopped him"What?""I still don't have the right feeling for you, I me-""I know, I'll give you time but I know you have a crush on me." He touched my nose but suddenly I sneezed."Bless you." He chuckled"No, I don't." I lied"Oh really? Should I kiss you again?""No!" I put my hand in front of him and he laughed"I swear you're so adorable." He told me and kissed my cheek"No kissing." I glared"Ohh feisty.""Ahhhh." Suddenly someone scream"Am I dreaming?" Nancy said dramatic"You're so not cool." Tania shook her headI blushed and let go his hand and they both walked to us"You." Nancy pointed to Ben"What did you do to her?" She asked him"I just kiss her.""Again?" Nancy blurted"What do you me
Today we're going home, the flight is in the morning since today is monday so everyone decided to get home early. We all going to the airport now.I'm wearing a white sweater with a dark blue short skirt. I let my hair down for today. Nancy is sleeping ang so is Tania. I'm bored, we're in a bus going to the airport now.I looked at my phone just to find an entertaiment.Bored?Suddenly my messenger appeared and I opened it.How do you know my kakao? -LI have my ways babe -BDon't babe me loser -LThat hurts -BI chuckled just reading a message from himYou look beautiful today -BThanks *smile emoji* -LWanna sit beside me on the plane? -BIt's already arrange Ben, you can't just switch -LI can -BThat's rude -LIt's fine as long as I'm near you -BAre you always this cheesy? -LWell.. -BSuch a jerk -LOuch -BOuww -LTurn around -BI turned and saw Ben giving me a smirk and heart gesture. I blushed and turned again to hide it.I saw a pink cheek there -BI turned to him and stick
"Ben's girlfriend?" I looked at him weirdly"Honey, you know Ben?" Nancy asked"I'm the one who take care of his grandma when she had her regular therapy, I always come to his house regularly to check up on his grandma. There's a photo of you inside his bedroom and I saw it when I excuse myself to change my shirt and he lend me his room." William explained"Why did he have your photo?" Tania looked at me"It's a long story." I sighed"You know?""Yeah." I nodded"Why do you assume that I'm his girlfriend?" I asked William"Well he has your photo when you're laughing at the gym." He raised his eyebrows"Me? Ho-""Oh gosh, he already like you since we're in highschool." Nancy squealed"Oh my." Tania followed"So are you his girlfriend?""Baby she's not, she just got here from Paris like 2 weeks ago." Nancy explained to William and he nodded"We both have to go first, bye." William said and they left"Hey." Paul said to Tania oh great I'm third wheeling"Hey." Tania said"So wanna ride w
"Lauren." Ben called but I tried to keep calm and just put a straight face"Lauren." He hold my wrist and I turned to him and manage my calm expression"Hmm?" I asked calmly and hoping he will just let it slide and leave me alone"Look, it's out of my control. Sudden-""Why do you explaining to me?" I asked and hide my heartache"So you wouldn't miss understanding?" He said in a weird tone"Hey it's your life, why are you explaining this to me?" I chuckled"I saw hurt in your eyes Lauren." He said seriously and I looked into his eyes and smiled. A fake smile"Who's hurt? I'm not hurt. Go back there, you don't want her to get misunderstanding right?" I smiled and he looked hurt? This time I saw him hurt"Aren't you going to tell me to stay away from her? Or ask me why I left you earlier? Or ask me why am I getting married in 2 months? Say something, Lauren! Get mad at me, punch me, slap me. You really don’t care, do you?" He asked and I know if I ask him that, he will come to me but I'
I walked out from my house and bid my goodbyes to my family. Now, I'm going to go to Wonder cafe to meet Jason for the last time.I get inside my car and sighed. I can't sleep yesterday, Ben was lingering in my mind. I swear I can't sleep and my eyes are so heavy. I want to go to club suddenly to relieve everything. I don't know why my heart hurts so much. I tried to ignore it and just go drive.I go to Wonder cafe and park my car. I went there and saw Jason sitting on the corner. He's looking at his phone as I walked in. He saw me and smile."Hey." He smiled"Hey.""So how are you doing?" He asked"I'm fine." I lied"You're lying.""Jason listen-""I know I'm not your boyfriend anymore but we dated almost 2 years, I know your thoughs and everything about you." He said and I just sighed"Do you regret 'us'?" I asked him"No, never. I never regret us happen, I regret that we broke up. That bastard is lucky to have you." He said and I just smile fakely to him.Ben was never mine and wil
"He what?" Nancy and Tania said at the same time"He ask me to be his girlfriend again and start over." I told them and they're currently at my house."Lauren, look.. Are you sure? Taking him back will make you happy? Why don't you hear Ben out first and then you can judge him." Nancy said and now she's being wise"Ben is getting married in 2 months and marriage is a big deal, you can't just cancel it.""He doesn't like her." Tania blurted"How did you know? He doesn't decline it or tying to make her go away." I sighed and they looked at me weirdly"He really like you Lauren." Nancy said"No, he doesn't." I shook my head"I'll just agree with Jason, I still have some bits of him anyway." I shrugged"Go, take him back. Don't come to me if he breaks your heart again Lauren and trust me once a guy hurt you. He will hurt you again in the future. He will leave you to UK again and he will do that again." Nancy said angrily"Ben will hurt me too and why are you preferring him than Jason?" I
Ben HarrisonRose is so annoying, I swear she never stop talking and blabbering things about her. Her, her and her. Geez what kind of girl is she? I can't stand this. I can't imagine if I have a marriage life with her. I'll be stress out.She talks about herself, her shoes, her prada bags and many more which is so annoying. I swear she's annoying. I hate her so much. I’m just ignoring her all the time and she always nags. She’s such an attention seeker and I don’t have time to handle her. I miss Lauren.I looked at my her picture when she's closing her eyes when she made a wish at the beach. I smiled. She looked so cute. I secretly took a pic of her just in case.I sighed.I miss her. Heck she has this effect on me that makes me just can't look at other girls. For 5 years, it doesn't change the way I'm feeling for her. Loving her is like breathing, looking at her rejecting me and even get back with her ex is killing me inside.I rather give up my dreams than losing her like this. Wha