Katya
I pace back and forth in Andrei’s office, the one place I used to feel safe, where everything felt secure, and now it feels like a prison. My heart pounds in my chest, my breaths coming in uneven, angry bursts.
I’m furious. Not just at Ruslan, though he’s a big part of it, but at myself.
How could I let this happen? How could I let that Rogue get under my skin like that? The way he looked at me, the way he spoke to me like I was nothing. Like I didn’t matter at all. The nerve of him, sneering at me, laughing like the bond was some kind of joke.
I grip the edge of the desk, my knuckles white, trying to steady myself. But nothing helps.
I want to scream. I want to tear something apart. I can still see his face, the way his cold silver eyes locked onto mine, that damn smirk on his lips. He acted like he didn’t care about any of it—about me, about the bond. Like he’s above it all.
What’s worse is the way my body responded to him, like it was out of my control. The bond hit me like a freight train, and I hate that I felt anything for him. I shouldn’t. He’s the one who killed Andrei. The man I loved, the man whose child I’m carrying.
I stop pacing and press a hand to my stomach. There’s no way I’ll let Ruslan be a part of this. There’s no way I’ll let him ruin the last piece of Andrei that I have left. I don’t care what the bond says or what the consequences are. He means nothing to me. Nothing.
But even as I tell myself that, there’s this gnawing feeling in my chest, this stupid, primal pull that I can’t get rid of. It’s the bond, I know it, but it doesn’t make it any less maddening. How could the Goddess be so cruel? To bind me to the man who destroyed my life? It’s like some kind of sick punishment.
The door swings open, and Tomas storms in, his face twisted in anger. He doesn’t even bother to knock. Not that I care right now. I’m too worked up to care about formalities.
“Luna,” he says, his voice sharp, barely controlled. “What the hell was that out there? That Rogue talked to you like you were nothing. I should’ve killed him where he stood! Why would you invoke The Gallows Law when that fucker should be dead?”
I shake my head, trying to push down the wave of emotions surging through me. “We don’t know what killing him would do to me. I just reacted!””
He stands in front of me, his eyes blazing with the same fury I feel. “What the hell are we supposed to do now, Katya?”
Hearing him call me by my name instead of “Luna” feels wrong. But that’s not what I focus on. I focus on the anger burning through both of us, the helplessness that’s gripping every inch of me.
“You think I wanted that?” I snap. “You think I asked for this bond? It can’t be real, the Goddess wouldn’t curse us like this. But…” I trail off, not sure of what else to say. There was no mistaking the mate bond sighting, no mistaking what I felt
Tomas’s fists clench at his sides, his whole body radiating tension. “It looked real enough to me. The pack—what are we going to tell them? They won’t understand, Katya, especially not after The Gallows Law is announced. They’ll think you’re...”
He doesn’t finish, but I know what he’s implying. They’ll think I’m weak. That I’ve betrayed them by not executing the Rogue on the spot. And maybe they’re right. Maybe I should have let Tomas finish him off. Maybe that’s what Andrei would have wanted.
I turn away, staring out the window, trying to calm the pounding in my head. “I didn’t ask for this, Tomas,” I whisper, my voice breaking despite the anger trying to keep it together.
He steps closer, his voice low and harsh. “You don’t owe him anything. He killed Andrei. You have every right to reject him.”
I whirl around to face him, my chest heaving. “You don’t think I know that? I want to reject him. I don’t want him. But it’s not that simple. If the bond is as strong as it feels... if something happens...”
Tomas slams his hand down on the desk, causing the papers to scatter. “What are you saying? That we just... keep him alive? Let him live, after what he did?”
I close my eyes, trying to find some semblance of reason in the chaos swirling inside me. “I don’t know what I’m saying. I’m just—” My voice cracks, and I swallow hard, forcing myself to continue.
“I don’t know what to do. This bond is... it’s messing with my head. I hate him. I should hate him. But the bond—” I shake my head, disgusted with myself. “It’s strong. Stronger than I expected. And if we break it, if we reject it without knowing what it’ll do... it could destroy us both. The force of the rejection could kill my baby; the last bit of Andrei I have left!”
Tomas blanches. “You’re pregnant? Katya…” he trails off, and I realise then that I still haven’t told anyone about my pregnancy.
“Yes, I am. It’s the only reason that Rogue is still alive; we don’t know if… I can’t—”
I can’t bring myself to say it out loud, but the truth is, part of me is drawn to him, despite everything. And that only makes me angrier. He’s a murderer. He took Andrei from me. He shouldn’t have any power over me, but the bond doesn’t care about logic or reason. It’s primal, and it’s pulling me in directions I don’t want to go.
Tomas steps back, his eyes dark with frustration. “So what, Katya? We just keep him in the cells? Keep him alive because you’re scared of what’ll happen if you reject him? He’s a threat to the pack. He’s a threat to you.”
I bite down on my lip, torn between my duty as Luna and the twisted bond that’s forcing me to question everything.
“I don’t know,” I admit, the words falling from my mouth like lead. “But I can’t let him die. Not yet. Not until we figure out what we’re dealing with.”
He scoffs, shaking his head in disbelief. “So we’re supposed to sit here and wait? Wait for what? For him to try and take over the pack? For him to hurt you? This isn’t a game, Katya. You need to make a decision.”
His words cut deep, and I know he’s right. But it’s not that simple. Nothing about this is simple. I can’t just kill him and hope the bond goes away. There’s too much at stake—my life, the pack, and this child I’m carrying.
I press a hand to my stomach again, trying to hold on to the one thing that still feels real. The only thing that still connects me to Andrei. I won’t let Ruslan take that from me. I won’t let him win. But I also won’t let myself be consumed by the bond.
“I’ll make a decision,” I say, my voice quiet but firm. “But not yet. I need time.”
Tomas opens his mouth to argue, but I hold up a hand, cutting him off. “Just trust me. I know this is a mess, I know none of this makes sense. But if I kill him now, without understanding what the bond will do to me... I can’t risk it. Not yet.”
He’s silent for a long moment, his jaw tight, his fists still clenched. Finally, he nods, though I can see the frustration still simmering in his eyes.
“Fine. But we don’t wait forever, Katya. We need to protect the pack. We need to protect you.”
“I know,” I whisper, turning back toward the window, then I turn back to him, my eyes hard. “You may think this gives you a reason to disrespect me, but you will still address me as Luna, Tomas. I am not someone beneath you.”
Tomas blanches at my words, then he bows his head and leaves the office, the tension in the air thick enough to choke on. My heart still races, my thoughts still in chaos. Ruslan’s face haunts me, the bond’s pull digging its claws deeper into my soul.
But I won’t let it control me.
I can’t.
The chains bite into my wrists, burning like fire as the silver seeps into my skin. My arms feel like dead weight, hanging uselessly above me, held up only by the restraints that have become a part of me now. I don’t know how long I’ve been here. Days? Weeks? Time doesn’t exist in this cell. There’s only the darkness, the endless ache in my body, and the gnawing emptiness where food and water used to be.I try to remember when I last ate, but the memory slips away, lost in the fog of pain. My mouth is dry, my throat raw, but even the need for water has faded into something dull and distant. It doesn’t matter anymore. Nothing does. The only thing I can feel now is the burn of the silver and the weight of my past pressing down on me.I close my eyes, letting the darkness swallow me. Maybe if I concentrate hard enough, I can disappear. But even in the dark, the memories come.Mina. Mila.I see their faces so clearly, so full of life and laughter. The way Mina would chase Mila around th
I step into the dimly lit cell, the cold stone walls making it feel more like a tomb than a prison. The scent of damp air and blood hits me immediately, and I pause at the threshold, my stomach twisting. I shouldn’t be here. I know that. But I need to face him. I need to tell him the verdict and make this right.But as soon as I see him, hanging there by his wrists, half-dead, my breath catches in my throat. He’s broken. His silver hair, matted and tangled, clings to his sweat-slick skin, and his bare chest is covered in fresh and old scars. His wrists are raw, the silver chains biting deep into his flesh, burning him. There’s blood, so much blood, but that’s not what hits me hardest. It’s the look on his face, the way he’s staring at me with a distant, haunted expression, his eyes glassy, lost in some memory I can’t reach.For a moment, I hesitate. I was prepared for anger, for defiance, for that cold indifference he always wears like armour. But this… this is something else. He lo
When I wake up, everything hurts. My head’s pounding, my throat feels like it’s been scraped raw, and my wrists sting with a familiar burn from the silver chains. But the softness beneath me is all wrong. I’m not hanging from the cold, unforgiving ceiling of the cell anymore. No, this... this is a bed. A pristine, clean bed.I blink, my vision blurry, trying to get my bearings. No stone walls, no damp smell, no distant sounds of guards or prisoners. Just silence. My arms are still chained, but they’re lying at my sides now, the cuffs digging into my skin and attached to a long chain. My muscles ache, screaming from the strain of being bound for so long. I want to move, to shift, but I’m too weak. Too drained.Where the hell am I? How did I get here?I try to sit up, but my body protests, the pain shooting through me like fire. Before I can even try again, the door creaks open, and she walks in.Katya.The moment I see her, my blood starts to boil. Her sweet scent hits me first—peaches
I rush out of the room, the door slamming behind me and my breath coming in short, uneven bursts. My chest feels tight, and I can’t shake the feeling that I’m suffocating. The hallway seems too narrow, the air too thick, and I feel like I’m on the verge of falling apart. Every step away from Ruslan makes it harder to hold it together.His words, sharp and cutting, still echo in my mind. The way he looked at me, the way he hated me—it’s everything I expected, but somehow, it still hurts. More than I thought it would. I shouldn’t care. I should be stronger than this. But being close to him, being trapped in the same room as him, it’s getting harder. Harder to stay angry. Harder to push back the pull of the bond. Harder to pretend his words don’t hurt.I can still feel the bond thrumming inside me, alive and constant, tying me to him whether I like it or not. My body reacts to him even when my mind screams for distance. Every time I walk away, the bond tugs at me, like it doesn’t want
The clinic smells of antiseptic and clean linens, the air thick with the sterile atmosphere that’s meant to put people at ease. But I’m far from calm. I sit on the examination table, my fingers gripping the edge of the padded surface, trying to keep my thoughts in check. The healer, a middle-aged woman with kind eyes, finishes her check-up, her hands gentle as she measures and prods.“You’re healthy, Luna,” she says softly, smiling in an attempt to reassure me. “The baby’s fine.”Those words should be a relief, but they do little to ease the knot of tension that’s been coiled tight in my chest for weeks. I can barely focus on the good news. All I can think about is the weight of everything on my shoulders.“But,” she adds, her voice growing a little more serious, “you’re under a lot of stress. It’s not good for you, or the baby. You need to take it easy, Luna. Rest when you can.”I manage a nod, though inside, I’m screaming. Take it easy? Rest? How am I supposed to do that when the e
Ruslan glares at me, his face twisted with frustration and anger. “This bond is making me weak,” he spits, his voice dripping with disgust. “It’s your fault I’m like this. You’re making me weak.”I open my mouth to respond, but the words get caught in my throat. I’m shocked, horrified, and more than a little scared. If the bond is doing this to him, what else is it capable of? If I can feel his emotions, if he can feel mine—how are we supposed to fight that?“I hate this,” he snarls, pulling against the chains again, the sound of metal grinding against stone. “I hate how this bond is controlling me, how it’s forcing me to care about your pain, about your panic. I don’t want to care, but it’s there. Every time you feel something, I feel it too now. It’s maddening.”I can feel the truth of his words in my own chest. The bond is relentless, always pulling, always pushing, making it impossible to think, impossible to fight. The harder I try to resist, the more it pushes back.“What are we
Lying on this pristine bed, I can still feel the lingering sensation of her touch on my chest. It’s like a ghost, something I can’t shake, no matter how hard I try. My body is heavy with exhaustion, my muscles aching from the fight against the chains, but that’s not what’s bothering me. It’s her. It’s always her.Katya.I grit my teeth, staring up at the ceiling, trying to focus on anything else, but my mind keeps circling back to her. To the way her hand pressed against my skin, to the calm that followed. That damned bond. Every time I try to resist it, every time I try to fight it, it just tightens its grip, reminding me that I’m trapped. And worse than that, it’s making me weak.The moment I felt her panic earlier, something in me snapped. I didn’t care that I was chained up like an animal. I didn’t care that she’s the one who put me here, who’s keeping me alive just to figure out how to break this cursed bond. All I cared about was finding her, calming her, making sure she was ok
The bond has a strange way of keeping me up at night. It hums under my skin, a constant reminder that no matter how much distance I try to put between myself and Ruslan, it’ll never be enough. Even now, lying in my bed, I can feel it pulling at me, tugging me in his direction.I try to ignore it, forcing myself to close my eyes and shut out the world, but it’s no use. His presence is too strong, too consuming. And tonight, something’s different. The bond is louder, more insistent, and I can feel his emotions crashing over me in waves. The anger, the frustration—those are familiar, but there’s something else now. Something darker. Hotter.I feel it, deep in my chest, a tug that’s more insistent than the usual pull of the bond. It’s not panic or anger this time. It’s something more primal, more urgent. And it’s coming from him. I can feel his desire, hot and raw, pushing through the bond, wrapping around me like a heated coil. My breath catches, and I sit up in bed, my heart pounding.