I’ve always dreamed of furthering my education, because it would make me feel more complete and accomplished as a woman, and it would also make me feel more equal with the men here in the mafia, seeing as only men were allowed to further their education and be whatever they want to be… why the women were to stop at high school, and be married off to a man, and then to birth babies for the said man and that was that. It didn’t matter to people that we were growing and getting more advanced, it didn’t matter to them that everyone in other countries were leaving their old ways behind and making way for new things to come in, it didn’t matter that gender equality was now recognized in a lot of other countries, all they care about for here in Italy, was the fact that the man were on a higher level compared to the women. It was like a food chain, whereby the males were at a really higher part, and the female at a lower part, the females were expected to take the crumbs from the males witho
Sofia’s POV I hated the fact that each time I thought about that, all it did was make me feel even less powerful and more broken than ever, all it does is make me shed tears uncontrollably and make me question my existence, all it does is make me feel disgusted with myself even more.A small sob slipped out of my mouth in the next second, and I pulled away from Luca with all of my strength, pushing myself away from the chair we had both been sitting on, and I made my way towards the banister on the balcony, standing before it but not pressing my body against it, and I pressed my hands against my face, covering my face from the dark night in shame as I sobbed quietly.Tears streamed down my face and my body shook with the force of my tears, and I felt more embarrassed because Luca was right there, watching me break down without any sort of control.I sobbed quietly, trying to stifle the sounds and also trying to stop my tears from pouring down at such a fast pace, but the tear
Sofia’s POV He didn’t let me continue with what I was about to say, before he was interrupting me calmly, his hand still moving up and down on my arm, from my elbow to the upper side of my shoulder.“No, it isn’t. I’m sorry I brought it up.” He started to say once again, breathing out those words and saying it with such passion, and I started to shake my head in the next second, as I sniffed back tears once again. “It’s alright,” I breathed out, my voice fracking a little, but I ignored that and decided to continue to speak. “I can talk to you about it.” I breathed out in a voice that was quiet, breathless and trembling a little.“You don’t have to speak about it if you do not want to.” Luca started to speak instantly, his grip tightening on my arm for a few seconds before finally loosening and returning back to it’s previous hold. “I want–“ I paused and sniffed back tears, breathing out a deep breath and breathing in deep into the next moment, feeling my chest start to expand
Luca’s POV I shouldn’t have brought that up.That alone was a hundred percent sure and clear to me at this point. I should’ve just let it be, like they always say it was good to let sleeping dogs lie. I regretted mentioning that particular night the moment I had mentioned it, but there was no way I could have taken those words back, even if I wanted to, like I actually wanted to.And when she bursted out into tears, with sobs that sounded very familiar, because I’ve heard her sob that way, a couple of times, and it has always managed to leave a bitter feeling behind. The first time I heard her cry was on our wedding night, when I was still contemplating on if I was supposed to fully consummate the wedding or not, and the second time had been the night where I had gotten woken up from a light sleep, due to how loud her sobs were. Listening to her cry that night, right from the middle of her nightmare, had kept such a bad feeling behind, a feeling I didn’t want to ever experienc
Luca’s POV “I mean, I didn’t tell her about what actually happened,”She paused for a moment. “But, she shut me up before I could even complete what I was saying, and started accusing me of making things up and spending way too much time in my head to be able to think up something like that.” She continued to speak in a quiet voice, her voice breaking once again and it sounded so much like she was about to burst into tears at a certain point. I blinked once, trying to fully process what it was that I had just heard.“What the fuck?” I echoed out without even thinking and as expected, I didn’t get a reply. Not even a shrug of her shoulders, or a shake of her head, nothing. “But I didn’t make a thing up, I was telling the truth, and assuming she had listened to me or even tried to listen to me and understand where it was that I was coming from, then I’d have been able to tell her about what actually happened to me…” She trailed off and fell into silence, the small sound of a sob
Luca’s POV “He finally stopped coming, and I had never been more relieved in my entire life.” She whispered these parts in a low and thin voice and it felt like something cracked inside of me at that moment. I reached forward and placed my hands on her shoulders, maneuvering her around until she was facing me. Tears were running down her cheeks and her glassy eyes were staring up at me. There were a lot of emotions running over her face at the same time and I watched as her lower lip quivered a little before she breathed out a choked sob, bursting out into more streams of tears, just as I pulled her deep into my arms, holding her tight against me instantly. She buried her face in the middle of my chest, sobbing into my shirt and squeezing right around my waist with her small fingers, as sobs wracked her body, making her body shake against my wider build.“Shh,” I breathe out after some moments, my voice sounding scratchy to my own ears and I synced in a deep breath and started
Luca’s POV What is eight years in this issue with the assaulter? It was nothing to be honest, I was going to deal with him in a way he wouldn’t ever forget. I hated men who acted like animals with a really intense passion, it was those kinds of men that went to kidnap my cousin Aria in hopes of getting their sick ways with her, and that only made me despise those kinds of people more. I breathed out a small sigh, feeling my chest tighten up with the whole feeling that was currently coming forward to assault my brains at the same time, almost to the point of me feeling almost overwhelmed. I tugged Sofia against me even more, wrapping my arm more firmly around her waist and carding my fingers through her hair, moving my fingers to the front of her face to move some part of the hair on her face, to the side of her ear. I leaned down and tugged her face upwards a little, until I was pressing my lip against the top of her head, dragging my lips softly against her forehead and puffing ou
Luca’s POV I leaned down and loosened my hold on her hair to slide it down her back, until my hand was gripping her thigh. I did the same with my other hand and once both my hands were on the same spots around her bare thighs – because she was currently in a small skirt, and I lifted her up in a single move. She was startled at first, a small sound sliding out of her lips as her hands made to grasp at my shoulders, just as I tugged her thighs around my ribs and sides, so she’d be a head higher than I was in this position, and she stared down at me with wide eyes and parted lips, her hands holding tightly to my throat. It was the first time I was completely lifting her into my arms since we got married and the only question that crossed my mind in the next moment, was the fact that why hadn’t I tried this out since all these while.She felt really small and weightless in my arms and I held her tightly against me, staring up at her and just watching her. Her eyes fluttered a
Sofia’s pov The kids had been bursting with excitement, which only meant one thing. It meant more headaches for Luca and I.“Baby, we talked about this, didn’t we? You can’t check the presents until it’s Christmas.” I murmured to Aria while holding her against my chest. She was clearly unhappy about this tiny rule because her frown deepened at once.“But it’s so far awayyyyy! No one is gonna know if I take a peek.”I chuckled as I let her slid down. “Daddy is gonna know.” I reminded her and that seemed to make her have a change of heart.“Oh.” She hesitated a little. “I guess I can wait a bit more.”“More like one more day, honey cause it’s tomorrow!” I gushed out and a grin split out on her face.“Really?!” She demanded and after getting another confirmation, she went off to find her brother, leaving me to myself. I sighed as I watched her leave with a fond smile on my face while massaging my forehead. I called out to her to be careful before I got back to what I was doing before.
FOUR YEARS LATER Sofia’s pov “Be careful, honey!” I called out at once, but I doubt she heard me as she hurriedly raced forward till she was standing before James, a glass of milk carefully clutched in her hand.“Here it is, Uncle James!” She called out enthusiastically and a familiar feeling of fondness swelled in my heart as I watched as an exaggerated look of awe got plastered on James’ face as he accepted the glass of milk.“Thank you, Aria! You’re so hardworking.” He complimented as he took a few gulps of the milk because a tiny sip wasn’t gonna be accepted by Aria who’s clearly still waiting for more compliments.“It tastes so nice and fresh, wow.” James gushed and I listened as Aria’s pleased giggles filled up the room. She began to bounce on her toes when she began to speak. “If you noticed, uncle James, the glass wasn’t totally filled up this time because mommy said that’s how it’s supposed to be to avoid it spilling from the top, and I listened to mommy because she’s alwa
Luca’s POV The bouquet of flowers I had gotten on the way home was a mixture of lilies and tulips, and I paired it with a bunch of balloons and a wrapped gift on the side. It’s a little past six and I couldn’t wait to be home already. I couldn’t wait to get home to my wife and our babies.Work has been quite stressful for the past month, the mafia aspect, to be specific. After news of my wife giving birth circulated around, I already knew that the amount of enemies I have was automatically gonna triple, and in order to keep my family safe, I was gonna have to be more at alert. The mafia clan had thrown a party in celebration after the birth of our babies, and I had purposely attended it alone, keeping my wife and kids far away from a gathering like that because it was filled with dangerous people from top to bottom.“Your enemies are gonna start attacking you even more now that you have a successor. People who have hoped to replace you if you ended up dying without an h
Sofia’s pov TWO YEARS LATER “I look ugly and bloated.” I blurted out while eying my reflection in the floor length mirror in the walk-in closet. Luca, who had been running a comb through his hair, paused for a moment before throwing me a glance, and then a smile bloomed on his face.“Of course you don’t! How can you even think that when you look like a goddess right now.” He murmured, discarding his comb and heading in my direction. I pouted at my reflection, not at all impressed by what I was looking at.“Now you’re just lying cause I’m sure goddesses don’t look this bad. My face is swollen and I literally feel like I’m gonna die.” Luca who had now eased up behind me let out a chuckle into my hair as his hand slid around my waist to carefully cradle my large stomach from the sides.“You still look very gorgeous to me. I don’t think your face is ugly, neither do I think you’re no longer sexy, because you still are. Did last night not explain that enough?” He chuckled at the end of
Luca’s pov It was clear as day that this particular topic has been troubling Sofia for a while now. I could tell from how she was wringing her fingers. I lifted her fingers and brushed my lips across it, and then I let out a long sigh.“If I’m gonna be honest, I haven’t actually thought about it. I just assumed you don’t want them and I was cool with that.” Her eyes widened comically as she whispered. “But… I want children.”I hummed. “I see that now.” “You don’t want children?” Sofia asked after a few moments and I slowly shook my head.“I don’t think I do, cause I don’t actually like the thought of bringing a child into a lifestyle as dangerous as my current one, and leaving the mafia is completely out of the question cause the past would end up catching up with me no matter what.”“Oh.” She whispered while chewing at the inside of her mouth.“Yes, love. But, that aside, I love babies. They’re always so cute and clueless of all the evils in the world.” Sofia laughed at th
Sofia’s pov TWO YEARS LATER*** The sounds of soft laughter filtered through the screen of the television I was currently staring at and a small smile tugged at the side of my lips as I averted my gaze and took a glance at the wall clock situated at the top of the wall here in the room. It was past eight in the evening, which indicated that Luca was almost home, and an excited feeling coursed down my spine. It doesn’t matter that Luca has almost returned home to me every damn day, that giddy feeling still engulfs me every day.Which is the best thing ever, said my therapist when we stumbled on that topic. It’s been over two years and till date, I’m still yet to stop seeing my therapist. She, a Middle aged woman, has made me feel so much love and comfort than my mother has done for me throughout the past two decades that I’ve been alive. The sounds of cute giggles emitting from the television screen grabbed my attention and once again, I focused on it. This time, my bre
Sofia’s pov The weeks flew by faster than i could keep up with.Healing was slower than I anticipated, and I hated almost every second of it, if I was being honest, but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t willingly take another bullet for Luca if I could, because I will. Luca had gotten extremely displeased when I offhandedly said those same words to him, and he made me promise to never, ever do that again.I stayed in the hospital for months, because Luca wanted me to be completely healed before getting discharged. The flowers that got sent to me by every well wishers had gotten thrown out more than three times because at a point, they all began to rot.A little gathering was thrown in celebration of my release from the hospital. Everybody was there waiting in the house as entered the house, from Kayla and her husband, Travis, to Armani and his girlfriend, Nala, to James and his fiancée, Blair, to Angelo. It was relieving to finally be home and be surrounded by so much love right now ma
Sofia’s pov ‘Was this how it feels to float?’I asked myself over and over again, the more time I spent in that same unending loophole. It felt like I was stuck in a fluffy space, but instead of sinking, I remained afloat.Muffled voice could be heard coming from multiple sides at once but I couldn’t make any word out, neither could I tell each voice apart from the other.I limbs literally felt nonexistent because I couldn’t wait use of them no matter how much I tried. It’s almost weird how it’s pitch dark in this fluffy space, preventing me from making anything out.Or perhaps, I was the one who had my eyes closed throughout, I realized when I discovered that I could feel my eyelids twitch a little. I tried to get my eyes open after that, but ended up giving up after trying over and over again to no avail. I drifted straight into an unconscious state after that.When I came to once again, I felt warm fingers around mine. The fingers felt familiar in a way, and with everyth
Sofia’s pov The scream that left my mouth this time was completely silent as I watched as the kneeling man who was apparently working with Ryan, fell to the ground face first after being shot by Ryan. That sent a more terrified feeling down my spine, because not only was Ryan crazy, he was clearly also heartless as hell. Seeing how he could effortless kill off his own partner made it more obvious that it wouldn’t be hard for him to kill me if he wants to, and that he wasn’t just bluffing by threatening to shoot me.“Fuck, man, you really are a freak. Your own partner?” Angelo mused with an unimpressed look on his face. Luca snorted and leveled Ryan with a look. “That’s not something a Ricci would do, you know?”“Well it’s a good thing I’m not a fucking one, okay? And now that I’ve killed my partner myself, you clearly don’t have anything to threaten me with, I have nothing to lose in this situation unlike the rest of you.” Ryan responded haughtily, sneering as he tugged on my hair.