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33. Time to forget
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2021-09-16 18:45:15"Dhruv." She whispered. Dhruv was beside her and she clutched his hands tightly. Something happened in my heart sharp. I remembered how he used to have a crush on Alina and maybe he still do. Maybe he still liked Alina more as a friend and didn't tell anyone about this. "They all are staring. I can't do this." She muttered and came to halt.
"Alina." She shrugged off Misha's hands and breath hard.
Dhruv lean down and whispered, "Did you take your medicines?"
She nodded.
"You can do this. Let them stare. You're walking because we're going to Kabir, okay? What happened to the strong girl who faced her readers? Who went to the award function and gave a mind blowing speech."
"Kabir was there."
"He's here. Look at the stage. He's waiting for you. Trust me, if you didn't move he'll come here and pick you." He chuckled
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